<b>sir pyscho sexy</b>

:: 2004 7 December :: 4.28pm

there is no universe, we live lives of imagery and thought. its mind blowing.

:: 2004 5 December :: 2.24pm

the shit is about to hit the fan. and its not going to be pretty. i have a feeling i am about to go down hard, really fucking hard.

1 suck | blown

:: 2004 5 December :: 1.21pm
:: Music: pink floyd - animals

hiiii so a whole lot has been going on lately and i havent had time to write about any of it.

my friend kyle just got kicked out of his house and his mom is going over to his friends houses and talking to parents about how her son did drugs. I think shes trying to ruin lives or something. I really dont know.

i really like this girl right now, but there are a number of things in the way. Everyone knows how it is when you like someone and you cant stop thinking about them. I dont always have that feeling. I've become good friends with her now, and it was such a good thing that i did. i just need to get away, i want to get far far away. Another thing, my car broke down and i have no way to get anywhere. Its going to be so hard getting to work this next week. I can't drive and do what i want to do.

I really think shes trying to play games with my mind though. Last night she was to come over to my house, but i think she likes leading me on more then anything in the world. Its weird, i'll get these random phone calls from her where she will just be like listen to what song is on the radio right now i love this song. things like that. calling me just to tell me that. I dont know if she needs me but i really know that i want her so bad right now. With everything going on around me, most of the time i just want to see her name on the caller id.

i just got this phone call thats freakin the shit out of me. i dont know what to do. I really think that people dont have common sense anymore. what in the fuck.

:: 2004 2 December :: 6.54am
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: floyd-final cut

i want to grow up in every town
the world and its things arent enough and they never will be. so lets bind together and hold eachother tight as we grow and become the same person, just older. how long till the dreams stop coming, how long till my eyes quit seeing, my ears can hear the ringing. so hold me tight cause it aint long until youll see me on my way on the path beyond.

:: 2004 25 November :: 5.53pm
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: modest mouse

HAPPY THANKSGIVING NOW ALL CALL 748.1910. oooo i got that fire. skunky. no but seriously im full of love.

:: 2004 16 November :: 2.11pm

i didnt take things well today. not at all. i just want to beat the shit out of something. i have this image of me swinging away at a brick wall with blood flying off my hands not stopping until i pass out. i want to pass out and wake up somewhere else.

3 suck | blown

:: 2004 13 November :: 5.06pm
:: Mood: i cant tell
:: Music: ...

last night i hung out with someone whom was living her last couple of hours. what a nice girl. what a messed up world

:: 2004 8 November :: 6.55am
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: november rain

yeah
the world is tumbling down, and in all of its greed and sin, im coming with it. well one of my friends did something to me that none of my friends has ever done. I was kinda shitty. Other then that, im great. i wish i wasnt so tired and shitty, but i guess sunday is recovery day anyways. its about 7 and i got school today. im out

5 suck | blown

:: 2004 2 November :: 6.38am
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: gNr

yo
Wow. Its been a while. No worries now though, the computer is working again. so what has been going on for me hmm.....well to start i kinda got myself into trouble with a girl and her boyfriend. but! its alright. i got accepted to ball state, and probably will to IU as well. i dont like going to school. my grandpa died, but i really didnt know him.
So is it really the right way to go about doing things by telling a girl that you dont want to hang out with her anymore because when you are together all you can think about is holding her hand...and you know you can't...its alright though. well i have to get ready for school. you know where you are????? YOU IN THE JUNGLE BABY

:: 2004 24 October :: 3.51am
:: Music: dre

take the stage
here i sit drinking my pbr looking at the screen of glimmering light the sky turns blue and i loose all sight, of what is real and what is fake the reason is for whos own sake i kissed her hard and i kissed her good it made me feel like i was still in the hood, drinking my pbr like i know i should, it couldnt be more obvious to see that danille is the girl for me

end of story. i now know what i need to do. so get off my back you fucking sack fuck your balls ass balls.

5 suck | blown

:: 2004 23 October :: 11.07am

hi. its been a long weekend and i still have tonight, even though i work late. is okay though. this weekend has been okay, but just okay. nothing better. shout outs, happy b-day jessica! im so tired from all the late nights. maybe ill sleep some today. fuck me.

:: 2004 15 October :: 1.06pm

its been so long. and now that times only to grow. i head to purdue for the whole weekend hoping to come back alive. im going crazy. i need something, but have no idea what. call me this weekend at purdue. 748-1910 at night.

1 suck | blown

:: 2004 8 October :: 12.29am
:: Music: beatles.strawberryfieldsforever

what.
yeah so my parents are divorced now. i wonder which will marry first. fuck. great news! lets celebrate. what a downer.

:: 2004 6 October :: 8.49pm
:: Mood: sore
:: Music: Rolling Stones - Cant You Hear Me KNockin

up in the air
oh man love. zach use your head. what if dreams came true. I want something that i know in my mind i cant have and it sucks.

bittersweet moments everywhere.

im sore?

:: 2004 3 October :: 10.34pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: rolling stones cant you hear me kockin

yeah
holy shit this weekend was crazy. its been one hell of a trip.