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2004 22 January :: 9.55pm
Okay the second one will be about Chelsie!! =)
Chelsie..whew wat to say bout chelsie, well shes always there fo me and always sticks by my side no matter wat i do to hurt her, and i couldnt appreciate her more!!
Shes my lil blondenutcase!! Whew forgot bout dat now didnt ya blondie =p hehe jk i luv yous!!
But really shes soo sweet and soo much fun to be around and im soo glad dat we met dat one time and now have gotten to still see eachother tho not very much..wat happened to that once a month thingy =p we need to get together gains its been way to long!! Jilly misses you!! =)
Swiss Cheese:jill i wrote a lil song 4 u and it goes sumtin like this ::::: dont wry b happy dont wry be happy:::then it goes:: I feeelll good i knew tht i wuld i feeeeelll good i knew tht i wuld so good so good i got ya i feeel nice like sugr n spice so nice so nice i feeeel good
J d shortier 623: hahahah ur sucha cutie pie!! i LUV you!!:-X
J d shortier 623: :-D**
SwissCheese: hehe i luv u 2!!!!!!!
SwissCheese: o i kno im jus so dang cute
J d shortier 623: yesh u r;-)
Hehe..wat a cutie pie..i luv dat gurl soo much =) I luv you chelsie!!
Dont forget bout our booty tickler n our strawberry milkshake trail back to davids..lol luv yous!
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2004 22 January :: 9.24pm
First ill write about my ali jean!! =)
Ali jean is the sweetest, most caring, sensitive person that i know, shes always there for me no matter wat!! I appreciate my baby more than anything!! I dont know wat i would do without her, shes da best person ever!
And were going on a roadtrip sometime..cant member when like july something or another, cuz yeah iknow its after her b day heh =)
And also when im 18 my baby is kidnappin me!!! WOo HOo!! =)
jdshortier623: There are many things that I would like to say to you..
But I don't know how.
aWhOleLoTaSeXiX: oh jill i didnt no u felt that way ;-)
aWhOleLoTaSeXiX: jk jk
aWhOleLoTaSeXiX: :-P
jdshortier623: oh yesh ali..ur jus soo damn sexxi i cant resist myself..im very attrached to yew!! :-*;-)
jdshortier623: haha u goofball:-P
aWhOleLoTaSeXiX: hehe
aWhOleLoTaSeXiX: we have an interesting relationship lol
Hehe i luv my baby gurl =)
We'll be together forever ali jean!! No matter wat..i luv you soo much..ur da best thing dats ever happened to me, thanks fo everything, i luv you!!
Okay dats enough for ali jean fo rite now =)
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2004 22 January :: 9.22pm
:: Mood: lonely
:: Music: The movie swat playin..
A lil something fo kicks..
Okay im going to stop here..and restart i think..im not sure if i sould jus restart journal or not cuz there is alot of stuf fin here dat i mite wanna keep for future reference lol ya know? oh wells i guess i wont..
But okay rite now im gonna write bout my friends..but im gonna write it in a new entry cuz ive gotta write a whole bunch of entries right quick..=)
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2004 20 January :: 5.44am
:: Mood: _LoVeD_
:: Music: voilence blink 182
i wAkE UP ANd tEarDrOPs thEy FaLl doWn LIkE raIN...
rascal flats GOOD SONG!
today was ok... bailey got lunch detention, lol, notes! lmao! bad girl.
apparentley ppl think that bailey talks about kristi behind her back because she hugged calli... shes never sed ne thing while i'm around= she didnt say nething lol!!
i had a fun time at lunch except for when i was being called a LIAR!!! which im not b/c actually kayla, that happens in scary movie when they make fun of 8 mile so in ur face... and u told me that it doesn't so YOUR the liar... lol j/p
right now mia is watchin ghost ship on my i-control thingy. i've seen it to much. "im not like the others!!!" "AHHHHHHH" its actually not that scary but me n kristi prefer watching jackass, lol kris.
i burned clay aikens cd, THANKS BAY! muahz. i think later tonight my dad is takin me and mia to the library so we can get an EDUKASHUN. lmao
okey dokey!! ima go!!
hollA
LaLa
p.s. kayla tell me who s is and who c is!!! ur KILLING ME!!! lol
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2004 19 January :: 11.06pm
:: Mood: fuckin pissed..
And noneoftheless, its gets worse..
Wow, its fun ruining jillys life, anyone else wanna try? Geesh it really is fun, you all sould try..
Well jus wanted to say srry britt, you mean everythin to me, and i cant live my life without you, your the best thing dats ever happened to me..and i miss youmore than anything in da whole world, plz dont leave me..im srry, i knw i was relaly really stupid, and i know i souldnt have said dat, and im srry its jus i miss you, and i luv you..plz..i luv you..
neways have ntohing else to say, had a good day till t nite, when i ruined my day/my life..
Oh yeah i got my hair done today..platuim blonde babey..yeah my mom didnt know bout it tho ive had da appointment fo like 2 weeks now..but yeah she freaked..im grounded..cept she said she luvs it..next im gettin my red strikes..cant wait to see her reaction to dat..oh well i dont care..i hope she dies..
I hope i die..
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2004 19 January :: 11.24am
:: Mood: _tIrEd_
:: Music: miss you blink182
hey hey
i went to the s.a. fair last night... boring = we left early.
me and bay couldnt find a ride to take us home so we walked. we thought about hitchhiking= grounded so we didnt! lol we got home and watched a horror movie= swimfan SCARY!!! STALKER!!!
so the plan was that we were gonna go over to chris's house later= his dad was at his uncles= not tonight. so he told me we could probably hang out tomorrow= today!! lol so i gotta call em. YAY
ne wayz bailey is STILL in bed= we're not gonna be eatin breakfast... lmao
okey dokey well ima hollA
lots of love,
i LOvE you
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2004 18 January :: 7.43pm
:: Mood: irritated
As time goes on..
Today was interestin, no brittany of korse..but im thinkin its cuz mis n amber r down in florida rite now..i dunno. But i got to talk to chels t day!
I have no idea why..but i had this like *itch* to talk wif swiss t day, it was really weird, i jus really needed to talk to her t day..so now i feel better since i talked to her =)
Havent called my baby yet t day, i kinda dont want to, cuz as soon as i do, im gonna get bitched cuz i had to work yesterday and couldnt see him, and den cuz at riot *i was ignorin him and wouldnt talk to him* cept he was playin b ball, but watch im sure ill get bitched at fo dat, who wants to bet 10$?? Anyone? Didnt think so..
I did absolutly nothing t day, actually im still in my pjs. Whew im being soo lazy t day, but its okay cuz i dont have skool 2marro =) yippie!!
Neways i dont have anything to say, so yeah im done, latah everyone!!
I luv you too brittany gamester!! hehe hope ur havin fun wateva ur doing!! *mwuh*
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2004 18 January :: 2.55am
:: Mood: _uNd3cIdEd_
:: Music: invisible clay aiken
if i was invisibe
then i could just watch u in ur room
if i was invincable
i'd make u mine tonight
if hearts were unbreakable
then i could just tell u where i stand
i would be the smartest man
if i was invisible,
wait i already am...
i just got back from shoppin with brooke and bailey, brooke got a bunch of clothes and i put stuff on hold! fun fun fun
well bailey wants to talk now!! so i g2g!!!
hollA
LaLa
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2004 18 January :: 12.26am
:: Mood: numb
What else could go wrong?
Okay this is to britts comment thingy in the entry below this one::
Brittany, you are the reason dat i aint c*ut* myself in however da hell long its been, not steve, i dont give a fuck about steve, i mean yeah i care bout him, but he dont *care* bout me like you do, and i dont care wat he thinks, he barely even knws that i cut myself, so how could he make me stop..?
Britt ur da one dats always been there fo me through all of this shit, your da one dats tryin to help me stop though its been a long tough road, your the one dat has never given up on me, no matter how many times you know u sould have..
And bout the whole depressed thing, you wouldnt know how im really doing anyway, i mean you ask bout you dont care anymore, to tell you the truth i have no had a all good day in fuckin forever, i cry myself sleep every single nite, i beg and pray for the all mighty god to take me away and fuckin kill me rite then and there, i scream and yell at him for not killin me the day before, i feel like fuckin shit every day that im alive, and if it werent fo you i would kill myself..I wish dat i had the strength to kill myself every day, you have no idea, its like i dont know how to xplain it, i dont feel anything anymore, like idont care bout my grades, i dont care bout my friends, my family, my life, i dont give a fuck anymore, i feel like numb from the inside out, i feel that nobody cares, and nobody sould, and i wish that nobody would, so den it wouldnt be so fuckin hard to kill myself!! Sooner or latah ill be strong enough, and *hopefully* ill still be going out wif steve, and dat will prove to you that tho i mite be happy cuz of him sometimes he still dont make me all happy and not depressed and shit, so dont fuckin say dat, u have no fuckin idea..
I dont know wat to say to you, to any of you, xcept one thing::If i were to die 2marro, jus know dat i luv you more than anything, and nothing could ever have changed dat ever, and dat you were a huge part of my life and who i was, even if it didnt seem like it, every word you said, every thing you taught me, ill remember forever, i luv you all..dont ever forget it..
If only i could die 2marro..=(
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2004 17 January :: 4.35am
:: Mood: ______
:: Music: everything Fefe dobson
hey hey
the carnival was a blast! we had so much fun... k bought me a shirt and she got a cd [which she left at my house!] they r called maelstrom.... local... but good!
ne wayz we went on sum rides, ate, talked to ppl, ate, and hung out. lol
then when we got home we played charades at mias house [b, kayla, mia, mom, christina, maria] and then they all spent the night at my house. bay n me pooped out at like 1 but the rest of em' stayed up til 4 playin dark tag. [??!]
we got up the next day, i took a shower while the other onez were zzzzz'in and mia wouldnt get up so we tryed screaming, playin LOUD music, ticklin her, and etc. when finally she got poed and went to her house where she slept till about 1 :oo [pm] lol... so we go back over to miaz at like 12 and maria [mia's mom] tells us that mia isnt going to go to the carnival until later and that matt's g/f is takin her to the mall. so we were stuck with no ride. but of course maria, with her kind heart [wink wink] lol j/p decided she could take us... so we ended up gettin there just me bay and kayla all by ourselves [sniffle] and we went on a few rides. then we got dehydrated and HAD to get a drink from circle k so we walked there [8minutes tops] i got pringles and a sprite, bay got 2 hotdogs and a slurpee, and kayla got 1 hotdog, reese's , and a coke. yummy!!!
ne wayz im goin back to the fair AGAIN! lmao
tonite laceys gonna be there and bay and mia!! and i know we're gonna meet sum ppl [BOYZ!!] lmao!! ight i gotta go!!
hollA
LaLa
p.s. k is still obsessed with c but she doesnt think that ne thing will ever happen!! talk to c for her???
mauhz!!!!
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2004 17 January :: 11.46am
Today missy n amber are coming for a week =].
Yesterday sucked. my mom wuldnt let me do anything so i was stuck cleanin all day. I couldnt go to tha fair with jay ='[ but then he called me when he got home n we both fell asleep on the fone <3. =] !
i wuv jay !!
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2004 16 January :: 11.32pm
:: Mood: giggly
I luv my babey!! =)
Awwe omg i had da best time at riot t nite!! I luv my baby steve!! Hes soo sweet to me, *cept this hickie, which he will get his ass beat fo lol* but newho, i had da bestest time omg i luv this kid, i wanna be wif him forever, until the day i die!! Hes so great to me, i couldnt ask fo anything more!! 11*21*03 *Best day of mah life* =)
Whew i finally got to see my whore kristie lol, shes still as boy crazy as she always was lol oh wells i still luv her, and i got to see danielle's and yeah dat was great lol were gonna start hangin out more heh =) and i saw lisa *korse* and brittney bunker and stewart, and cassie and gosh everyone else was there, haha nobody went ot da dance t nite, go figure!!
Britt says dat im becoming one of the ppl dat we used to make fun of, well britt its okay, im happy..and dats a friggin first!! So yeah im fine wif being a lil boy crazy lil loserish prepish fag..lol but im srry, if you would like me to stop n break up wif him i will =) but only fo you!! hehe..i luv you lots babe!!
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2004 16 January :: 6.26pm
:: Mood: busy
:: Music: What dat hook gon be? Murphy lee
nothing really
Haha well i really dont have much time but i jsu wanted to come on here and tell wat happened wif me and steve, yeah were back together and things r soo great, whew im soo soo happy, i think dat i luv this guy..and yesh britt ir eally do mean luv, i think dat i am in luv and you all know dat i woudlnt say dat if id idnt totally mean it =) Its weird..but yeah i luv being in *luv* hehe if dats even wat this is!!
Yeah rite now im going to riot wif steve and cassie and josh and all of them..alotta ppl will be there cuz its friday but yeah i realy wanna see me baby and cassie, oh gosh me and cassie r friends again..its great!! =) im luvin dat too!! hehe and dats all thanks to steve, cuz like josh n cassie r giong out and yeah steve and iw ere talkin bout cassie and den now steve started hangin out wif josh and cassie is alwyas wif josh and im usually wif steve so yeah now were hangin out more..so yeah dats great!!!!!!
And me and britt are talkin again, good thing too cuz i thought dat i was going crazy, im not sure wat happened, but ya know i luv dat gurl moer than anything in the whole world and nobody will ever come close tomeain how much she means to me!! NOBODY!! i luv you brittany marie gamester!!
Oh yeah and brittney stewart is going to riot t nite too..which will be kool cuz were gettin along now dat she moved..ick i dont wanna get caught up in her shit tho..shes gettin into alotta hard drugs n stuff..and jilly doesnt want to do dat shit..whew
I talk alot when im happy, anyone else notice!? hehe well luv you all gotat go tho..BYES
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2004 16 January :: 6.02am
:: Mood: _____
:: Music: miss you~blink 182
hey hey lala herrr...
today was ok... morning badd... afternoon good... last nite i went to the carni with b and mia [ b left at 8 tho] mia and i were all alone so we decided to chill on the bumper boats {the onez for the lil kidz] we could barley fit into them and they had itty bitty motors on them. lol ne wayz i told the carni workers "carni" that i wanted to get off he sayz "u wanna get off???!" and then dunks me in the water. i told him that my mom wuold sue him and he let me off. lmao. law suits alwayz work! lol
ne wayz now itz friday nite and me bailey mia kayla g. kristi, lauren, adam, frankie, christina, mark, josh, and nick r commin. chris was supposed to come but he couldnt. allthough he does owe me for the golf ball [inside the circle O <- you'll never understand!! lol
kk so kayla's gonna be over ne minute so g2g!!! muahz!!!!
hollA
LaLa
aLl ThE Ppl wHO HaTe mE 1 wORd...
(((((( jEaloUSy ))))))
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2004 15 January :: 12.20pm
:: Mood: ditzy
:: Music: dillon singing lol =)
bored in uprights again
lol yeah im in uprights class again even tho i really dont have his class..me n becky dawn went down to mrs arkisons during our science exam thingy and yeah den we came here during our lunch..i get to go home in like 20 minutes..whoo hoo!! lol
Yeah but neways im really glad cuz like yeah megs and chels r friends again..i knew dat would happen cuz jilly is soo smart lol
Neways yah i aint really talked to britt yet..i dont know maybe ill talk to her like next week..maybe shes busy is all..
Yeah and me and steve r back together..ill write in here bout wat happened wif dat latah t nite when i get home cuz i prolly wont be home till latah if my mommy is okay wif our lil plan haah..well gotta go now..lunch is almost over.
Luv you all lots latah!!
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