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Well, I made a new icon because I was bored. It's kinda girly, yet kinda cool.

I'm awfully lonely. I wish you guys would call sometime. Although I guess I could call you sometime.

Please check out the music video link I posted. It's cool, I promise. Eisley's so... real. And the girls actually wear clothes.

I wonder why I don't have a drive to get a girl. It seems so important to some people.

Oh well. Time for cookies!

Eisley, Snow and Pity Parties
Wow, I haven't been on much lately. Sorry. This is kindof long, pointless and angsty, only the first paragraph is really important so you don't have to read the rest.

Guess what? My new favorite band, Eisley, put out a music video. You can check it out here and find out why I like them so much. It's very Edward Scissorhands-like. It might be a little hard to find, though; it's next to the words 'Featured Video' and it's called 'Eisley- Marvelous Things'. Of course, if your internet connection isn't too good, you can find songs for download at their site, www.eisley.com.

I'm done promoting. Sorry, us music nuts gotta do that sometimes.

In regards to the last friends-only post, yeah. I'm sorry for being so cryptic. There's been a lot of people in my family getting hurt lately, and a lot of jobs are being threatened. Your prayers would be welcome, but there's probably someone who needs them more :) .

Today was really laid back. I woke up at ten to find my parents and sister away at my sister's swim meet, so I had the whole house to myself. So I went downsatirs and found my list of chores, and unloaded the dishwasher. Then I had a bowl of Cheerios, and went out and shoveled the driveway for quite some time. I did the whole thing, sidwalk and curb and third stall driveway. Then I went inside and wandered around on th internet with no express purpose. Then I looked outside and the snowplow had dumped more snow at the end.

So I went outside and shoveled that, and went down to the river where I found deer prints frozen in the ice. Some ladies came by wearing snowshoes, and the neighborhood kids were out running around on ATVs and mini snowmobiles. Don't ask me where they all get the money for that. And then I went inside and my dad called and invited me to come down to the Corner Bar for lunch with some family friends, and I took the River Trail down there. All the trees and broken machinary and rocks and the river and the factory with its new fence and bridges looked so pretty in all the snow. I had my favorite, a quarter pound burger with ketchup and curly fries.

So I had a nice day. Sorry this is so long.

I need a new avotar thingy or whatever they're called.

The Black Angel of Fire

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One of the reason's that America's going downhill is because all of our leaders are appealing to every backwards idea about morality. They only care about what the current trends in the public's thinking are.

There is absolute right and wrong. God created it. The Bible says that we got a sense of it when Adam and Eve ate the forbidden fruit.

It doesn't matter what everyone thinks. All that matters is what God's true standards are. That's what our government's law systems should be based on... or if this truly a government by the people, of the people and for the people, it's what every one of our lives need to be based on. And, thanks to Jesus's sacrifice for us, that is now possible.

Sorry, I'm babbling. I'll stop now.

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*angst alarm* *beep* *beep* *beep*

Yeah, I'm sorry. I know you guys don't want to hear it, and I don't even need any imput on it, but I just feel like writting it down.

Last night, it was really late, around 12:00, and I was thinking. My mind got bored and started rumagging through all the dark corners, and it pulled this out.

I got to thinking, what if this life is all there is? What if I'm wrong about there being a God? What if there is no God? What if what I pray is just words being thrown out into the darkness, and they'll never return? And then the big one... What will happen when I die?

I realized I didn't know for sure. I got pretty scared. I started thinking about a lifeless eternity, and everyone will be gone, and I'll be alone in darkness forever on and no one would realize it or care. I got really scared, and my old pal fear showed up and ran through my vains and made my head feel like it was being squeezed in a vice.

So, like I do when I get into trouble, I started praying. God reminded me what I believe... that Jesus died and rose again, and He's my King... basically, God gave me a big faith boost. He reminded me about who He is and about how much he cares for me. I was so relieved that I started crying.

I guess that's what comes out of being so self-centered. Maybe I should stop thinking about myself all the time and that wouldn't happen.

Thought I'd update again because I have no life. Well, actually, there's a thousand other things I could be doing, but I'm too lazy. Like I should be starting on my research paper, but I don't want to. *complain, complain, complain.*

But there's nothing to do here, really. Only jerks hang out on the internet, it seems. No one's really that interesting, including myself. All people ever do here is annoy me. I don't mean you guys, you know everyone on my friends list. Maybe I have tight standards. Maybe others have no standards. Maybe I should practice my saxophone for once.

Nah.

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Well, not much is going on. My dad got me and my sister airsoft pistols, and he got one too. We had a few fights in the yard yesterday.

A few days ago I waxed my Camero and our 15 foot boat. It was fun at first, but then I had to wax the boat's underside, which was annoying because I had to lay on the concrete with a blazing bright lamp in my face. But I'm glad we've got those things anyway. It's kindof a nice feeling to know I'm taking good care of the things I got and appreciating them. Some people just let things rot and then buy new ones and then buy more stuff.

Am I rich? I guess so. Being rich means having more than you need. Sure, I can't afford some things, but I have enough. But maybe I should be spreading the wealth around? It's so hard to know what to do with the stuff you're given. It's a lot of responsibility.

I went over to Brett's a couple days ago and we watched Full Metal Panic all night, and I had sushi for the first time. It was okay. It's a little weird, but we all need weird things in our lives. Then the next day we watched the 3rd and 4th episodes of FLCL over and over, in English and in Japanise and once with commentary. Then I forced him to go outside, and I went home.

Not much else... I've been collecting mp3's and playing weird webgames. I like this one called 'Fishy' but I don't have the link to it, sorry. I'll get it later.

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I had another dream last night. I was walking through the woods- it looked like the woods up in Mears- and I came across a boat at a dock that was supposed to bring a class to a camp. My backpack was all packed up with extra clothes so I threw it in the pile of other people's backpacks and decided to join them, since I had nothing else to do.

Then I went looking at this marsh with a bridge on its south side when the boat took off with everyone. It made me anxious since I wanted to go, so I took a trail on the river's edge to the camp, following the boat. On the way there I came across a deer in the middle of the path.

The deer didn't run away, so I asked him why he didn't. He said, "I watch over you. Whenever you've seen a deer, that was me, looking after you."

I remembered the times I've seen deer in the backyard and in other woods, but shrugged it off and moved on. I wondered where the deer went, but actually he was right behind me, as I found out later.

As I was walking, I came across some pale, thick, gray vines hanging across the path. As I brushed past them they started tangling around me, and I got trapped. More vines came down and wrapped themselves around me, and I freaked. I kicked around, and I saw the deer behind me.

"Help me!" I cried at him, kicking and struggling.
"Just keep pushing ahead," he answered, and I started pushing myself off the ground and trying to move ahead, while he used his antlers to cut through some of the vines on my right. I finally got through the vines, and the deer ran ahead. Something weird happened where he didn't talk, but he looked back at me and I knew he was asking me, "Why would you want to get caught in the first place?"

Then I saw the camp ahead. It looked like the camp I stayed at in Nemegosenda. I saw the boat and all these kids my age getting off it, along with the luggage. I went up to one of the cabins and looked around. The cabin was one room, I think, with wood paneling and a dartboard and some other stuff, and there were some kids hanging around. I went down to the dock to get my luggage, but I couldn't find it. I asked one of the adult chaperons where it was, and he said sorry, he didn't know I was coming, so he left it at the dock along with some others.

I kicked a station wagon, fell on the ground and basically had a huge temper tantrum. Embarrassing. So then the adult offered to go back and get it for me, and I felt guilty because of how I acted and said he didn't have to, but he left anyway. Then all of the sudden I was at the first dock, searching through a pile of luggage for my backpack, and then I woke up.

Just thought I'd share that with y'all. Interpretations welcome.

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Interesting day; or not, depending on what kind of person you are.

First I had a dream that I had a late report in my English class (where we were actually learning Chinese) about ancient Aztec rituals. So I flew to Chitzen Itzu and caught one of those games where they have to bounce the ball through a hoop in the wall, and the loser gets sacrificed, and I did a documentary on it and some people dancing in a circle off the coast of the peninsula. Then I got chased by an orka whale that wanted to eat me, but a basking shark saved me and I climbed onto land and made an epic poem about it that I can't remember now. When I turned around the landscape became a warehouse with mountains of rubble. I climbed up one and talked to some guys that were hanging out up there. Then I woke up.

So then I went to church, which was okay, I'm feeling a little distant from God lately... anyway, when we got home my dad wanted to take me driving (I have four hours. Pathetic, no?). I couldn't find me license, though, so I looked all over, and Dad left without me. So I checked all over the house and tore my room apart looking for it. I cleaned it in the process (it looks like it's been bombed. I'm not even finished yet). Then I decided to check my coat pockets one more time and it was in my hunting vest. That was happy.

Then Dad and Mom got home, we ate dinner, and I cleaned some more, gave up for a bit and melted into the xbox. Then my sister came in and we had a laugh while I threw smoke grenades into the toilets (on the game).

And now I'm here, talking all about myself again. When will I learn.

Christmas and my favorite waitress...


Okay, here's the rundown of my Christmas gains. Or losses, however you want to look at it. ;)

-clothes
-many peppermint patties
-cool flashlight with cop-looking flashers
-five boxes of tic-taks
-xbox (there goes all my freetime...)
-CDs:
Ohio by Over The Rhine
Collide by Skillet
-optical illusions kit
-soap
-meat (jerky, sausage)
-box for my muzzleloading stuff
-compass watch
-Spongebob DVD (9 episodes! score!)
-blanket


Christmas was great. On the eve we had it at my dad's sister's house, and on the day we had it here in the morning and at my mom's parent's house. At my grandparent's, my cousin and I took out his go cart and plowed through the snow. It was great. Then we tried to start up the three wheeler so he could pull me in the sled. It took us over and hour to get it started because it was cold. We heated up the spark-plug area with a blowtorch, and that got it going.

Being pulled in the sled by that thing was fun, but you could feel every bump in the road as you went over it. And then the snow sprayed in my eyes and my cousin kept trying to swing me into sinister looking farming equipment.


I found out yesterday that someone I knew died in a car accident. She was really nice. I can't remember her name, but she was a waitress at that Italian resturaunt downtown. She's always know what I wanted. We'd coming in and sit down, and she'd say, "12 inch pepperoni pizza and a Sprite, right?" and she'd smile and write it down before I said yes because that's what I'd always get. She was really nice, only 39 years old...

Man, now I feel like crap. I'll go drown my sorrows in minty stuff and virtual counter-terrorist missions.

Cool Goth/Industrial Band!
It's these guys: Anticrisis

They're really cool and they've got free Mp3s on their site. I think only Tracey and KT would be very interested; but who knows, maybe one of you guys is hiding your secret love for goth/industrial in an attempt to remain slightly normal. Let it go, man.

The beavers are moving on to bigger and bigger trees. My dad and I went out in the canoe and found this system of trails on the island that they use. It's amazing... they've cut pathways through logs and padded down the trails with reeds. I wonder how they communicate.

I went down to Grand Rapid's Westside today. It was a wake up call, to say the least. Seeing all that poverty the day before Christmas... I saw one little old lady who I think actually lives in her car. It was full of bags and clothes and other stuff.

My dad and I were looking for butchers that sold german-style sausage. I'd never been in an actual butcher shop before. One we visited had a great scent. All the spices and fresh beef... I wish my room smelled like that. Seriously. It's like aroma theropy.

They didn't have it, and neither did another one, and one we couldn't even get into (a store without a door. Weird, huh?). We finally found a grocer that carried it, and there were more poor people. They seemed a lot nicer than our ritzy Rockford residents. Like they'd actually talk to you and not purposely avoid contact and stuff.

There were lot's of old people. I can't imagine being a poverty-striken eldery chap, living on his own in the middle of a big city the day before Christmas. I want to do something... but I don't have the means. Or maybe I can actually pray once and a while (punches self for his slackard ways).

By the way, my dad emailed the city manager and he said they're trying to get a DNR permit to trap the beavers and move them out of here. I'll miss my beavers...

Have a Merry Christmas! Don't let the ACLU rip the nativity scenes out of your yard! :D

Beavers
We have a beaver infestation at my house. They cut down a ton of trees in my neighbor's yard. From the size of the bites, I'd say we have at least two large adults and a few babies.

It's cool. I hope my neighbors won't get mad about them, or that the stupid dogs won't attack them.

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Anyway, I haven't seen the beavers, but my dad has. They keep leaving these piles of sticks around that they've chewed all the bark off.

They've cut down some good sized trees. My dad's getting wire things to put around some of our trees in our yard so they can't chew on em.

*feeding frenzy mode activated* Well, time for lunch.

Christmas and such


Another year and I get pelted with anti-commercialization of Christmas messages. We need a change of some sort. I'll do it.

We just got done watching home movies from 1997. I used to be very hyperactive. It's almost embarrasing.
"The old is gone, and the new has come."

I saw The Return Of The King yesterday. It's the best movie I've ever seen. It's even better than the Matrix. There's so many lessons in it, whether the producers meant for them or not. Certainly Tolkein did. Like the essence of a King. It's been lost to us. The goverments brainwashed us into thinking they're all tyrants, and that no one can perfectly rule a country without corruption. Maybe that's true in 99% of all cases. I know of a few good kings though.

Speaking of which, this is the time of year when we celibrate the birth of our King, isn't it? I don't think many have a sense of Jesus as our King. Or even what being a King is all about. Certainly I don't...

Merry Christmas Eve's eve's eve.

Finding Nemo

I just saw it today with my sister. It's one of the best movies I've seen in a long time. Still gotta see LOTR-ROTK.

I'm trying to be less self-centered lately. Let's see how it goes.

Brett's got some news for y'all. Ask him about it. :) It has nothing to do with it being his birthday today.

For the record, I turned copper into both gold and silver today- again.

Joking. Y'all know what I'm talking about.

Have a great Christmas break. Feel free to call me anytime.