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:: 2004 14 March :: 9.23 pm
:: Mood: stressed

BLAH!
So being sick sucks. I want it to stop. Blaaah. My mom might not let me go to school tomorrow. Which would be bad. Dudes, i don't wanna asm anymore. I don't think I can do it honestly. asms have to be organized and on task and always thinking ahead, I'm more of a tell me what to do and ill be creative and think of a way to do it type person. But I guess it's too late now. because..yeah, If I miss school tomorrow, then I'll miss one rehearsal. bad patrice. Then Wednesday, I have a job interview...which I don't want to go to, but I know I have to. and it's at 4:15, so I have to miss rehearsal then too. I'm such an idiot. Why'd I schedule it then? Cuz I'm an idiot. That's why.

Ok then. So here is my plan...go to school tomorrow..for atleast long enough that I can go to rehearsal...so maybe come in late. I'll talk to my mom about that. Then I'll tell Kristen at rehearsal that I have to miss Wednesday and that I'm terribly sorry, but there's no way around it. Then I'll go be interviewed...tell them I can only work Saturdays and Sundays during the school year. Then go home or back to rehearsal if there's time.

Gahhrrr, things should stop right now. Schools just grr...and I have this damn term paper and an hour to do it before my sister comes home and it needs to be practically complete...which makes no sense why I'm writing in here.

Cuz I'm about to go crazy that's why. I still have to do laundry tonight and my head hurts and my throat hurts and I'm sore all over from all this coughing and I'm tired and I have a test tomorrow to make up that I have to do good on and to do so, I'll have to miss orchestra. But I have to do it. And I lost my ID, cuz I'm an idiot.

I just wanna fall asleep and not wake up for 3 or 4 months. I don't wanna deal with any of this right now. Right now I just want to sleep in everyday and when I wake up, just veg out and watch tv and maybe at 4ish, call someone and go somewhere until curfewish...then go to bed...then repeat...so basically summer. But there's a whole semester. And I want it to be done with but at teh same time I don't I just want time to stop. Is that possible? it should be.

I have a bassoon lesson tomorrow too. I don't want to go to that either. Can I just not go to school, but go to rehearsal? I know..I know...4 periods. Blah blah blah. I'll just go to school all day. It'll be crappy, but I'll live. I always do.

Woo..that was more complaining then I've done in forever. Sorry, it felt good though.



Yeah....bye...

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:: 2004 11 March :: 8.45 pm
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: Iris

Families are grrrriing
So what I've discovered today. I spent all my day at home alone studying and watching movies. I know...not too exciting, but I was happier then I've been in a long time. Then at 2:30 my family gets home. From that point on...boooom...its all downhill. So my conclusion is that life would be ok...if people...especially family...would be nonexistant.

Ok...so today was cool other then family. I woke up at 8ish..cuz I was coughing too much.

I was having these crazy dreams, mostly about the cast list,which is weird, that I thought were real and a few times i got up to be a part of the dream, then i would wake up and realize it was 3am. Weird things happened in my dreams dudes...lol.

Anywho...then I watched The Waltons and Little House On The Prarie(sp) then I fille dout my ACT thing...woo...its done.

Then I watched Lion King and studied for algebra and history and then I watched Now and Then and studied for history and Moulin Rouge and studied for history...then the Pianist...while studying for history. If I do bad on that test...ill die. lol

I still have chem and crap to do. But I can do that in the morning.Time for cough medicane..wooo...Blah...grossness.

Anywho...it's weird. I find I have more to write about when I'm alla lone doing close to nothing. Lol. It's Cwazy.

My parents said they dont want me going to school tomorrow. But I want to. So fake not sick time...funness. I'm glad I took today off though...my biorythm's been telling me to go hide in a corner all week, so it worked. Hehe.

Did I mention that I HATE my brother?! ok...now that thats outta the way...

Okay... I'm gonna go shower I think. See you people tomorrow hopefully.

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:: 2004 10 March :: 11.15 pm
:: Mood: sick

No schoool for Trixie Poof
So, I'm not going to school tomorrow. It's a "mental health" day/I'm way behind and need a day to catch up on all this shit day. Too crappy to stay up and study, so I'm gonna study and register for ACTs all day tomorrow. It'll be fun. Two tests to make up...woooo! Well, I know if i go to school, there is no way in hell that I would pass those. So this is better. Is the cast list up yet?? I hope you people who are friends made it. If not, I'll...um...kill the person who got what part you wanted ::nods:: How does that sound? Ok..ok...not KILL maybe just kick severly. lol. Ok...off to bed. I might call some of you tomorrow who i have classes with...doom di doom. Ok night.

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:: 2004 9 March :: 9.01 pm
:: Mood: crappy
:: Music: Audioslave

Blaah
I think I'm getting sick. My head hurts, my throat hurts, and I just feel totally blah. I think I'm gonna finish reading the play, shower, then sleep. Because I don't want to do anything right now.

I need something right now. Like sleep. I don't know why. i felt fine all day.


Good luck at callbacks those of you who made it. You'll do good ::nods:: Cuz I said so. :-)

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:: 2004 7 March :: 9.52 pm

Dreams
So I had two dreams last night. I'll write them here. Cuz I don't want to do my term paper. lol.

First dream: i was in chem and the announcements said that TA pics were in and could be picked up that day. I was all Noooo...not pictures..then my cell phone rang and shenk glared at me, so I went ot the hall and answered it. And melanie was out there on the phone too, and it turned out she was the one calling me....so she started to talk all nice...but still over the phone even though we were right next to each other. Then I said something about Hul and turnabout and she was all like "I wanted to ask him ya know." I apoligized..thens he was all "Yeah, he's 18, has a car, he's prfect, and you asked him. you don't deserve to have your picture with him." and im like "well, i asked him before you. Yuo hate dances anyways...blah..blah.." then hul came up and handed me a packet of pictures and melanie tried to grab them but i took them first. And i was about to look at them, but she started to burn them with her eyes(???) then jackie walked up and i started trying to tell her what melanie was saying w/o melanie hearing it, so i covered the thing on the phone up, but she could still hear..considering she was right there. then jackie got mad at melanie and melanie stomped off and then jackie took melanie's phone and we talked...yep...thats all I remember.

The other dream...to understand it, I spent about 30 mins one night seperating all my pennies from the rest of my coins...ok..so jackie was in my room and her phone kept ringing and she kept talking to people while throwing stuff all over my room, so i was walking behind her picking stuff up...then i turned around to look at jackie and she was standing next to my coin bowl and the coins were all mixed up and i was freaking out..to myself..and i was gonna say something but then she said "oh god, he drank soda" then she fainted and i wanted to fix my coins, but i had to help her. and i was worried my dad would come down and find out i had a friend over and that my room wasnt clean...yeep....

Ok..back to the term paper.

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:: 2004 3 March :: 10.29 pm
:: Mood: morose
:: Music: breathe

:-( Shoes...
My mom made me buy new shoes. I hate it. I hate them. I'm not gonna stop wearing my other ones. I don't deal with change well. Actually, I can't deal with it at all. New shoes...nope. Not for Patrice. I'm not ready.

Then after she did that, she told me I looked like I was growing a beard.

Thanks mom.

Oh, but i got the golden compass....wooo! I'm happy.

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:: 2004 1 March :: 1.46 pm
:: Mood: okay

Good morning all! So you know what? I hate teen horoscopes. Lol. They suck. Because general horoscopes are good, you can interpret them in any way you want. But those teen ones are always about your "bf" or "that class you've been worried about" and today it was nice and totally contradicts my other horoscope. O.o....hmmm..damn horoscopes.

Ok...So I want to write about the weekend. I just was feeling sick last night...so I decided to sleep. But now I'm awake and feel a tad better so here goes...The shows were fun. Yep. Kinda crazy at times. Stupid actors telling me their "right" baskets weren't there when it doesn't even matter...actors taking empty baskets...trying to steal their props without telling me O.o;;...lol..the cup always breaking. That was kinda funny though at times.

Friday night was our hanson party. Which was awesome. I kinda fell asleep 2 songs into the second concert...but shhh....I was tired. And we made awesome shirts. Wearing them Tuesday. I know....You're excited. So am I. Hehe.

Then photo call....and the saturday show....then the cast party. Which is the main point of writing this here. I have never been to worse place ever. I mean, I've heard about teen parties with music and lotsa craziness and energy...but wow. I hated it. The speeches took forever....people were laying on top of each other everywhere. I mean, I don't know. I just couldn't stand it. So after speeches Jackie left and I couldn't find jill...so i talked for christine a little bit. Woo...that was interesting. yeah, then I went back in and wandred around by myself untili found Wender and Jorie and Blair and we went outside. Which was the best part. Then Hul came out then sandya nd O.o;;;Mike....grrrr....but yeah. That was teh ebst part of the cast party. Then I went to Jill's house and we were idiots and stayed up way too late...which brings me to Sunday....at 12:30..

Yeah, call was at 12ish..and we woke up at 12:30. I know...we're stupid. And we couldn't get a ride there....so we called Hul, who was awesome and drove us to school. Yeah...then I learned camera stuff and that was kinda weird. I think I messed up alot. But that's ok. We filmed the pit, which was cool. And then strike....Jill and I finished in the first hour. We should have just left...but we can be idiots at times, so we stayed. It was long and not terrible..but stupid people make me mad. because..yeah...i can't really explain it here. I don't know. Then i went home and slept for 11 hours. Which felt good. But now my head hurts and I haev alot to do today...and alot of time..just no motivation...I think I'll bassoon first. i think I have to go to the library...I should find someone to go with. Cuz I hate going alone. It's catch up time...bllaaaaahhh....okie..byebye...

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:: 2004 1 March :: 12.37 am
:: Mood: exanimate
:: Music: Michelle Branch

Bye Bye Joseph
the show is offically over now. I'm not really sad though. or happy. I've just kinda accepted it. This show has been so much fun though. Mainly just this week, with the shows and all. being backstage with Jackie and Jill and all the other running crew people. Lol. It's been awesome. Lotsa stuff happened this week and I'm kinda glad that everything's winding down, atleast one thing will be gone for a little bit. But no matter how happy I am whenever the shows end, I get sad in a day cuz I realize how much of a life I don't have when I have no crew. It's depressing. It's like...I have so much fun talking and being with certain people but as soon as the show's over I NEVER see them and don't really get a chance to talk to them. Plus crew has become the one thing I half think I can do well, and yeah....If i don't have that, I'll die. lol.

Solo and emsemble is this weekend. Bllaaaaaaaahhh. I hate my bassoon teacher for making me do it. I can mostly do my solo though. And the duet....eeehhhh, it's bad. We can work on it though. Yep. ::nods:: :-\ ahhh...Ok..not freaking out yet. Nope.

I don't know. I don't feel good. I'm sorry. No mas entrying for me today. Goodnight all...and good job with the play! :-)

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:: 2004 26 February :: 11.21 pm
:: Mood: exhausted
:: Music: Joseph

Today's Horoscope
Taurus April 20 - May 20
You're feeling both practical and creative. Why not invite friends over for a craft night or offer to mastermind a musical or theatrical event? Your blend of talents is just right for the job.

Coincidence? I think not....

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:: 2004 21 February :: 9.28 pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: A little help from my friends

my dream

My dream was weird last night. I'll write about it here. Okie? (Even though it's killing my hands to type.) Ok...here goes. before my hand dies. Ok..so I got mad at my parents so I tookmy mom's van (the old purple one) and drove downt his road with it. It was midday but no one was on the road but I kept thinking I hit things when I really didn't. Then I saw Jen and Hope(?) hitchhiking so I picked them up and they asked me to take them to crew. I was afraid I was gonna get arrested..cuz I didn't ahev a lisence or a permit or someone over 21...but I risked it anyways. So the 3 of us went into crew, and we ahd to go down this crazy ladder thing and it was all dark and such and when someone had a bigger part int he dream, the light would shine on them, but then it would be dark again. and then my keys and hope's keys and jens keys got thrown ina pile of foam and i tried to find mine but I kept pulling out everyone else's. So yeah, i finally found them and jen promised to come back home with me to drop off my car. But I turn around and shes talking to Jorie and Neil, and I'm all..jen come on! And she's like "no, i have to work, I can't" then she went dark. Then I asked hope and she said no..and she went dark. and then i asked jackie and she said she promised that she'd talk to someone and couldn't go btu i was flipping out cuz i was gonna get arrested. So yeah. Then finally jackie agreed to go and we had to climb up the ladder, but I didn't feel good and it was dark at the top and i couldn't see where it went. jackie started to climb and I went to follow, btu then I got scared and went down. So she came down a little and started yelling at me to go on, that it wasn't that bad. but I was scared, so I climbed the other side of the ladder and jackie kept going "ok, only two more steps, im almost there" but I was really far from the top, even though it was a short ladder. And she kept yelling at me to climb up but I wouldn't move because I didn't want to fall and die because I was ont eh wrong side of the ladder and jackie was on the other. So yeah. that was my dream. it means death. Or other things. It was weird, ok...movie time...night..

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:: 2004 17 February :: 11.45 pm
:: Mood: frustrated
:: Music: Iris

Chemistry Sucks
So I'm not really insanely stressed about the play. I actually think we're good on time. :-) Yay! Thanks to people who are awesome and yell at me if I freak out. Well yeah, so chemistry. I had a webquest due today. Didn't do it. And so i go home to do it today and I lost ALL the sheets with EVERY SINGLE flippin website. Which isn't good so this is where my flipping out comes into play. I'm screwed. I've never not done a project before. And now it's gonna be two days late because I lost the damn sheet, I mean, yeah it's a C, but I just totally failed my hmwrk grade this midterm and tomorrow is midterm and let's just say I'm screwed....royally. What am I gonna do? I have no way of finding that webquest. Wait...it's at a website. Maybe I'll look for it? It'll take forever...but it's worth a shot. Okie...to that...i want to write about something...but maybe later...Many happy foam huggings,
Patrice

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:: 2004 13 February :: 12.53 am
:: Mood: rushed
:: Music: Iris

Ok..I give up on homework. It's crap. I did two of the three and a half sections. So it's good. Ionyl got...13 questions left. And Kenny doesn't really look anyways. I'm just gonna read these articles and write a response. Doesn't seem too hard. Plus it's extra credit. Then it's to sleep..yay...then to school where I will proceed to study for my three tests of 2morrow...study for algebra and chem in the morning...chem and history after algebra....same in lit....then after chem more history. Then freedom. Wooo!!! My heads gonna kill tomorrow. Both a math and a chem test...that means inevitable headacheing. so I'll bring some drugs to take. it helps. ok..forget that. no extra credit right now. Gaaaahhhrr.. everything schoolwise is fallign apart. no fun at all. Today was fun though. Jammed my finger at street scenes...hhehe...yeah but my mom pulled it and it popped and it was all better. i hope. Then yeah, to crew..which i got yelled at alot...but I paid for that ticket long before I knew i was a crew head, so you can't blame me. ::nods:: well...yes...hmm..what else to say? ta is in two days. nuts, eh? ok..well i'm gonna sleep. i need it.

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:: 2004 9 February :: 12.35 pm

So I’m at school now. We have five minutes of history left. Blllaaaahhh…. I feel blah right now. But I’m not in a blah mood, which is a good thing. Yeah, So I didn’t do my chem. Or algebra homework. Or my lit. And I feel stupid cuz I thought I had done it all. I gots ice-skating with the Bauer next. Woo…more pinwheels?? He he. Yeah. My mom should buy pink thread for my dress today. If she doesn’t. Then grrr…I’ll eat her liver. Yeah, cuz TA is this week. Can you believe that? I don’t know. I’m nervous. That it won’t be fun or that I’ll have a crappy time or cause others to have a crappy time or blah blah…and that Hul doesn’t really want to go and I feel bad asking him and making him do something he doesn’t want to do. I don’t want him to have a crappy time either. And by going with me. That’s kind of inevitable. I feel bad for him. Having to go with me to a dance. I’d cry if I were he…Okie…time for gym…byebye!

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:: 2004 8 February :: 12.30 am
:: Mood: disappointed
:: Music: Disney

Boney Face!!
I just typed a bunch of stuff about today and my computer froze on me and I don't really feel like retyping it all, so I won't. lol. Well, it basically said I went to church today for my sister's confirmation. Which was a party. Saint Boniface...hahahaha. And and vegetables...hehehe cucumbers are vegetables...Lol! Ok then...anyways...after that my sisters and mom left for madison, so I'm all alone with Joey. Which sucks my big fat toe. But I escaped and went to Jackies house. Where I did the most funnest thing I had done in forever. I learned to drive. But shhh...u don't know that. it's highly confidential...but I'll tell you anyways. So yeah....Benton went to this parkign lot and I drove his truck around there at a whole 15 miles per hour...I know...I'm a rebel. And i didn't hit anything!!! Wooooooo! I can't believe him and jackie actually drove with me. They're nuts.

Anyways, So then to Jackies wehre we ate food. and then frolicked in the snow. Which was fun, but cold. Stupid benton. Probably pushed me inthe snow a billion times. But jackie and I eventually got him down. Ohh yeah...8-) <~ Means we're cool....anyways, then we went and drove around for a long time and went to random houses and did things. It was fun. Then we went to benton's and ate chocolate chips and then I got yelled at by my dad who told me to come home. Which sucked. Curfews suck. I can't wait until college. No curfew for me...wooo. I wanna listen to a song. Which one should I listen to??? Hmm..okie...we will go with my disney playlist. because I don't feel like switching songs. it's all there. In the play list. Crazy, eh? My hands are really dry. I need lotion. And nail polish remover. Hul hasn't made up his mind about TA yet. That stupid head. lol. I'm really tired. I should do some homework. I mean, I'm up anyways. Why not be productive? Ok...to Huck Finn. I shall converse later with you peoples. School monday...wooooo...::rolls eyes:: Why?!?!?!?!?!?! AHHH! Ok...night...lol..i know I told you, jackie, that this would be a long entry. But my computer restarted itself. meaning I wasn't meant to post it. So this is short. Many apoligizies. :-)

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:: 2004 5 February :: 1.54 am
:: Mood: frustrated

Stupid computer ::kicks computer:: ::again::: I HATE IT! So...ok..listen to my story. So, I did most of my huck finn prject. I was in the middle of it when the computer freezes..woo thank god i saved it i thought...so it comes back on..but My Documents won't open..shit...and microsoft word won't even open...double shit. That means not only can I not get to my half done project, but i can't even start a new one and it's due tomorrow and I'm screwed. So now my options are to A) Sleep B) Write out an essay right now on notebook paper or C) convince my paretns to let me miss 2nd period tomorrow. I like C...I'll see what I can do. I think I'm gonna start a new paper on notebook paper, so incase option C doesn't work so I can finish it and be like "Ms Mertz...:'(... I'm sorry". I'll have to cry. ::nods:: I just CAN'T turn it in late. I've never turned in anything late for lit. And I don't want a lower grade. I fucking did the project my computer just is being stupid. I hate this, This is crap....

So...umm..as long as I'm here I'll tell you about my day. I woke up at 7:30 and my pants were in the wash, so I put them in the dryer and Hul came at 7:57 and my pants were still wet. I wore them anyways. Then to breakfast then school....which wasn't bad. Failed a chem test for sure. Gym was awesome today!! Sarah chucked a ball at Jason and I hit Ms Bauer on the head with the ball..tehehehee...that's my excitment for the day. Then after school I went dress shopping and I found a dress. it's a secret though, cuz I don't want you all being like...ewwwwww...it looks good though. I like it. So does jorie and her mommy, so that counts for something, no? maybe? I dunno, I'm getting it tomorrow, you should come see it. After that I went to crew and sheeped with Jorie. Then after crew I found out that I'm in charge of props, which is purdy cool. I'm happyish. We also got shirt orders today. I don't knwo that to put on the back of mine though. Idears anyone? well....after that i got home and took a shower and ate and then my paper incident happened. So if you want to know about that go back to the top and read my rants....heeh it's like one continous cycle. Tehehe...Ok....I should be low tech papering. ::rolls eyes:; this sucks. Good night my friends.

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