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2004 20 July :: 3.52am
:: Mood: confused
:: Music: U2~where the streets have no name
all your life, you're told
"dont live to make other people happy"
unless of course, your family is like that...
thats all you know and so therefore expect others to do so too
and those who did not grow up in that atmosphere learn that if they do not make people happy, those people who grew up that way, than they go away
no one likes to piss people off.
but who actually wants to live to make everyone else happy
and so thats why im telling you
im sick of it
if i piss you off
you're going to have to deal with it; chances are you've pissed me off too..
if you arent going to tell me about it...then dont...
deal with it...and i trust you wouldnt care enough about me then...because your anger would lead to your avoidence.....and im sick of trying and i
i hate those times where you want nothing more than to just lay down and be there...
let everything go
because you know that someone doesnt want you there.
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mudpiegrl
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2004 20 July :: 2.37am
LIVE
Lightning Crashes
Lightning crashes, a new mother cries
Her placenta falls to the floor
The angel opens her eyes
The confusion sets in
Before the doctor can even close the door
Lightning crashes, an old mother dies
Her intentions fall to the floor
The angel closes her eyes
The confusion that was hers
Belongs now
To the baby down the hall
Oh now feel it, coming back again
Like a rollin' thunder chasing the wind
Forces pulling from the centre of the earth again
I can feel it
Lightning crashes, a new mother cries
This moment she's been waiting for
The angel opens her eyes
Pale blue coloured iris presents the circle
And puts the glory out to hide, hide
Oh now feel it, coming back again
Like a rollin' thunder chasing the wind
Forces pulling from the centre of the earth again
I can feel it
Barbara Lewis (1973-1993)
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mudpiegrl
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2004 20 July :: 2.04am
:: Mood: so many feelings
:: Music: "chill out and take a load off" mix
oh the words i wish i could tell you...
there are so many things im feeling...
but i couldnt type them in here
i couldnt tell them to someone
nor could i write them down
i'd want to tell you how sorry i am.....if only i knew what for...
its one of those times where i need to vent
but i couldnt possibly
im trapped in a world where i've allowed everyone else to talk so much
that they've gotten used to it
and my feelings seem to be unimportant.
and if they are important
i couldnt say them
because i only hurt people by saying them
i try so hard to make them feel okie
but then i mention things
and feel horrible
i know no one will read this
but for whatever i did...
although i didnt try to hurt you
im sorry.
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mudpiegrl
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2004 19 July :: 2.31pm
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: 106.7 ::drip, drip:: the fish
so senior picutres today...i think i spend less time getting ready for dances...lol
so ill finish about the concert later...but check it out tnt...
went to the Renaissance Faire yesterday with Q, Stunkel and Q's family.
twas a party...better had i had money but still good
oh look...now am listneing to chevelle
:)
adios
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sandatthebeach
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2004 19 July :: 3.37am
::sigh:: i feel like a dumbass. so what else is new right?
i'm sorry everyone.
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2004 19 July :: 1.25am
coke a midnight is not good when you have school tomorrow
Last night was so fun! Aol radio, Vernon Hills Rave, and crazy chatrooms at 5 am...oh boy i had fun. and i need to sleep because i have school tomorrow which is very poopy.
Spencer came over today, and then he fell asleep so i scrapbooked, he slept for 2 hours and i woke him at dinner time and he said he felt better so thats good. Then o man all i have to say is Disney Wedding Cakes are Amazing! oh wow! yeah ok im tired now i think
goodnight
<3
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2004 18 July :: 10.14pm
:: Music: I Hate Everything About You... not sure of the group..oh well
That had to be the best time ive had in a while. Last night was fun, stalking people with Meghan...until creepy guys hit on us... also making cookies for Hul...until he ditched us but it wasnt his fault and he kept apologizing. The Cookie time was awesome, i havent had that good of a conversation with someone in months...but it ended when we smelled burning cookies...
Today...was really great... hanging out with Hul a whole bunch walked to stone fence farm park?? Why the hell is it called farm park? We couldnt figure that out. Then i went to Melanie's party which was really fun. I'm so glad i went..i wish i was still there. We watched I love the 90's for a long time... I miss the 90s...esspecially 97. ::Sigh:: Can I go back?
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sandatthebeach
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2004 18 July :: 4.11pm
:: Mood: discontent
compact mirror
Our talent show's next week. Shit.
I wish I had some money....and no lecturing me...I plan on applying somewhere BEFORE school ends next year so that I'll have a job as soon as summer begins.
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2004 17 July :: 1.52am
How can i stand here with you
and not be moved by you?
would you tell me
it could be any better than this?
your all i want
your all i need
your everything
I miss you like the air i breathe
Words dont mean a thing
ive given you all my time
all you do is leave
theres nothing so precious
as something thats gone away
i need to know
why you feel the need to love me so?
i will remember you
will you remember me?
Breather again
you have a way
that makes it hard to sleep alone
here i am
alone again
when the world spins around
its out of my hands
your staning outside my window
rain pouring down
all i see is sunshine
on a rainy day
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2004 15 July :: 7.01pm
Wenderlish
today was nice. Went to school made food...gave wender sleeping pills, beat him up for hating being small...psh. then went to VH days with jorie, hul, kyle, q and stunkel. well really we went to dominkcks then q's house. didnt spend too much time with carnies. o well. so yeah
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mudpiegrl
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2004 15 July :: 12.28pm
:: Mood: exhausted
:: Music: 106.7 ::drip, drip:: The Fish
holy awesome concert
so last night was the concert and it was awesome...
incubus always is!!!!!!!!
there was a like ten minute drum solo featureing brandon on bongos and i think his name is ben (new bassist) and of course jose. and after they came back out i agree with the kids we met at denny's (that'll be later) but it was kinda disappointing.
of course the lights were awesome, and they played a different version of drive which was awesome...and they played "pistola" and then a whole mess of morning view and then some science!!! woo science...not enough make yourself tho...it was sad!!!
i wish a few more from
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sandatthebeach
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2004 14 July :: 3.36am
:: Mood: moody
Texas
I apologize for my previous entry. I've been thinking again...something I often do when I can't fall asleep. I'll stop whining now....since there really isn't anything to whine about.
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2004 14 July :: 3.32am
:: Mood: discontent
plastic clip
I wish emotions were easier to control.
I wish that I could choose my emotions.
I even wish I stopped loving sometimes.
I wish to be loved sometimes.
Wow...I sound like such a needy person. Disregard anything I said above.
He chose to ignore me again tonight...now I'm just annoyed. He needs to make up his mind. Are you going to talk to me or are you just going to continue ignoring until your next girlfriend dumps you? I hate you. But not really. You don't even have to love me back...just acknowledge the fact that I am still here....
Screw it.
Always, Sandy
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2004 13 July :: 6.55pm
:: Mood: content
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Watching major flirts flirt insanely is really obnoxious. Thought I'd say that. Thank you for your time.
Always, Sandy
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