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spud

:: 2007 30 October :: 5.41am
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Cake

Paper

Wood pulp; sometimes I despise you.

Now how the hell do I finish it? Dammit. Maybe after a couple hours of sleep this will fix itself.

Step on my dreams


skife

:: 2007 29 October :: 11.30pm

*turns the page*

1 Bastard | Step on my dreams


skife

:: 2007 27 October :: 2.15pm

i'm convinced i've got the most redneck family ever.

my stepgrandma died, funeral was today.

the lunch-in after the funeral was held at the harvard tavern.
first time ever i've drank at a funeral lunchin

2 Bastards stepped on my dreams | Step on my dreams


Atman

:: 2007 27 October :: 12.51am
:: Mood: quixotic
:: Music: Foo Fighters

Rekindled
So, it has been awhile, again. But, after seeing Jessi(e?) in Chicago, I'm totally gonna do this again. Totally. First, I'll do some generic shit for myself.

1) I'm no longer dating Heather. That ended a few months ago. Painful, and I'm forever scarred. /tear and all that.
2) I'm not at Central anymore. After doing jack shit for 2 years, I decided to get out of there, and I'm at Ferris now, majoring in plastics.
3) The plastics program at ferris is for the design, manufacture, and all that shit of plastics.
4) I'm SLIGHTLY drunk right now.

So, on thursday afternoon, Amanda and I took off for the HIM concert in Chicago, and I must admit I didn't have high expectations. I don't hate HIM, but I don't adore them the way some people do. I just dig a few of their songs and figured they might be checking out. Here is the problem with heading there though, I never asked myself an important question.

Who is the opening act?

We walked in and Congress Theator is just amazing. It has a huge HUGE roof that once they fix up will look great and could be incorporated into some shows and whatnot. There were screens set up that read, "Bleed Through". I figured out that they were the opening act, and I thought, "Oh, maybe they have a my chemical romance sound, or some generic angsty sound like the plain white T's.

Oh, if only.

Out they came, and I realized right away that my ears were in for a world of hurt. It definately didn't help that I was standing right next to the speakers, and they let loose with their first song, "The guitarist and I are in a loud contest. I'm totally going to beat him". After that earsplitter was over, he let fly with, "My voice is a giant penis and I'm going to fuck you in the ears". I didn't care for that one either.

Afterwards he made an announcement that was basically, "It is an honor for us to tour with fucking HIM. It takes some big fucking balls to put a fucking band like us being the opener for them, so it just goes to show you what kind of fucking band they are."

He continued to blab, and finally said, "Now, I want to fucking make some fucking noise in this fucking bitch and fucking have all of you fuckers moshing in the first fucking rows! I WANT TO SEE THE FUCKING HORNS!!!" and began playing. He then repeated this process for every song. The highlight of them playing was when we both looked each other in the eye, and I shot daggers right at his face.

After they assaulted my ears with another 3 songs, some questions occured to me. Why did they have a keyboard player? It was a chick, so I'm assuming for the boobs. I mean, all I heard was the singer and the guitar player, and I was next to the damn speakers. Was she just their to voice the words and really bang on those keys?
Before playing a song, the singer spoke about his grandfather passing away a week earlier, and said he was going to sing for him or something. I expected a slow song, but it was really fast, and I SWEAR he was repeating, "Big whore, big whore, big whore!" over and over.

After they walked off, I realized that HIM would have to rock my socks double time to make up for this atrocity they put me through. After 30 minutes, they finally came on stage, and, wow, they did.

For those of you that turned down going to see them the past few years, I laugh in your face. It was very worth it. The best part for me was the lead guitarist who is Lindee...I think. He is pretty much Phil, with dredlocks. It was pretty badass. Though, Ville, the lead singer, was up there chain smoking after every song, which I'll admit was impressive. I mean, he smoked in some of videos and behind the scenes stuff I saw, but I didn't know he was kick ass enough to just smoke through a show.

They sounded pretty good too. I have trouble hearing Ville's voice, but everything was just done really well. Sound, lights, hell, I actually laughed at one of his jokes. I was blown away, I really didn't expect it to be that good. There is something that bothers me though.

The horns. They are sacred. You never throw them up for any ol' shmuck who can play a chord or two. Yet, that is exactly what was happening. HIM has a pretty decent collection of songs in terms of tempo and sound, but when they are singing Joy and Sorrow, which you must admit doesn't sound very metal or heavy, and there are 100 idiots around me throwing the horns, it definately hurts its value. There was one instance I actually threw them up, and it was during one of Lindee's solos. Other than that, no way. Nothing else was deserving. They are sacred, and they are being tainted and abused, and it made me sad.

After that, we went to Jess's house like thing and stayed there for the night. I did some catching up, and decided that I should totally start using woohu again.

So, I'm back!
Again.
If my comebacks to woohu were sequels, I think we would be at...lets see
Atman's Woohu: The reckoning

Anyway, I'm going to check my friends list and hopefully do something more worthy of mentioning. Oh, and drink. I still have some of that to do.

7 Bastards stepped on my dreams | Step on my dreams


skife

:: 2007 26 October :: 12.05pm

rant

scooby doo, i love the hell out of this show.
i just heard scooby and shaggy laugh and was like "oh my god, thats exactly how i sound when i'm high"
its such a good show, its a classic you know?

but my rant here isn't about how good the old scooby doos are, its about how bad the new ones are :(

in the new ones fred is an idiot, its like holy shit fred what the fuck was that? he's not even trying to score with daphne anymore. just kinda fucked up to me.

/rant.

1 Bastard | Step on my dreams


spud

:: 2007 26 October :: 2.17am
:: Mood: winding down
:: Music: billy hirt - a time for reflection

we could make sweet music together...

i had fun at lindsay's tonight. i feel like there was some good conversation. although, i'm not sure how much of it she'll recall. but that's okay. fun times were had by all.

i want to play again. lately i've had the itch so badly it hurts.

interestingly enough, tonight i didn't have the ache. i had honestly not thought about the ache until katie brought it up as i was walking her home. i didn't know how to respond at first when she said it. i take it as a sign that things are beginning to be right again. at least for us, if nothing else, which is good.

but i still feel like, in spite of that, there's still so much that isn't right for me. but i can't tell what it is or how to fix it.

'til some producer with computers fixes all my shitty tracks.

5 Bastards stepped on my dreams | Step on my dreams


skife

:: 2007 26 October :: 2.09am

i'm in bed.

i don't know what to write about, my mind is kinda blank.

i don't really care about much anymore, to me life is boring and i need something to keep me going, i don't know what that something is yet, but i think i'll find it soon.

4 Bastards stepped on my dreams | Step on my dreams


spud

:: 2007 25 October :: 2.25am

it's cold outside. and now my nipples are tender. i guess that's what i get.

maybe tomorrow i'll just go topless.

this deodorant smells awful.

5 Bastards stepped on my dreams | Step on my dreams


spud

:: 2007 25 October :: 1.03am

retrospective

"maybe i just don't want a relationship at all. i like being single and flirting with everyone. i don't know... when ever i start to get close to some one it is ok at first and i am all for it and then they start doing things that just freak me out. and then i run away. hmmm.... i need to find someone perfect for me, my personality needs to match their's, i can't be in a relationship where i feel like there is so much that i just can't live up to. why is it so hard for me to meet people i am actually attracted to. this sucks. i feel like i need to have someone, but i just don't want anyone i know. i need to meet someone new. which is hard. i'll try."

at least she's always known what she needs.

i have no idea what i need. or what i want. or what i have.

i'm a menace to society and myself.

1 Bastard | Step on my dreams


rayray

:: 2007 24 October :: 3.50pm

Things have been looking up lately.
Not that they had far to go, seens how things had already been going good.

But I was told today that I was recommended for a job. (in the same shop).
Hopefully I get it.

Step on my dreams


skife

:: 2007 23 October :: 2.09am

is it bad that i want to move to europe just so i can own one of these?

9 Bastards stepped on my dreams | Step on my dreams


skife

:: 2007 23 October :: 2.09am

is it bad that i want to move to europe just so i can own one of these?

Step on my dreams


skife

:: 2007 23 October :: 1.33am

time for some things to change.
i'm tired of drinking and partying all the time.
i'm tired of going nowhere in life.
i'm tired of the same shit every day.

it just gets old.
time for something new.

1 Bastard | Step on my dreams


skife

:: 2007 22 October :: 11.36pm

so my step grandmother just died, my great grandmother is in the hospital with fluid around her heart.

its supposed to rain all week.

great week huh?


was at the hospital to see my great grandmother today, she wasn't very coherant, i couldn't stand to look at her, it made me sad.
on the way home, we got a call from my dad saying that my grandpa's wife just passed away.
we just built a ramp for her wheelchair yesterday... irony huh?

so i sit here now, drinking the rest of my vodka, alone.

i think my step grandma died from the rain.... its depressing.

"its the rain, its gatta be"

1 Bastard | Step on my dreams


skife

:: 2007 22 October :: 1.56pm

signing up for classes tomorrow
definatally going to take a welding class.
a german class and maybe bowling.

5 Bastards stepped on my dreams | Step on my dreams

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