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2007 5 September :: 3.40pm
So it's been awhile since I have had something of some use or interest.
I still work the same shitty job.
Mike and I are doing great. Wonderful as a matter of fact.
I spent a lot of time with my dad, sister and brother (in law) this weekend.
I had a lot of fun.
Mike went to fireworks with my sister, dad and I.
We walked.. Pretty amazing.
Hopefully this time next year, Mike will be a probation officer or whatever he decides to be, and I will be able to not work haha..
I got my first speeding ticket..
I just called to see how much it is going to be..
$86 dollars isn't bad. :)
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2007 3 September :: 10.15am
i just woke up, this weekend turned from something crappy to something alright.
you know, i havn't been drunk since i turned 21, weird huh?
the car breaking got me thinking about death.
the night before the tie rod end broke i was doing 95 down a rough part of the highway, if the tie rod would have let loose there, i would have smashed into a concrete wall or a line of traffic. just thinking about it freaks me out a bit.
hopefully next week gets better.
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2007 2 September :: 9.52pm
today, miranda took jessi sly and myself here.
http://forums.ghosttowns.com/showthread.php?t=15355&highlight=marlborough
marlborough mi, michigan's largest ghost town..
its amazingly huge.
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2007 1 September :: 2.30pm
camping.
found some wi-fi in baldwin, like no place had it except for this restraunt on m73.
this has been the worst week ever.
first off monday, i hurt my back at work, there was no manager there to report the accident to, so i didn't.
i called work the next day to tell them i'm not coming in and why, the manager says "okay" so whatever i figured
i told someone about it.
wednesday:
i go into work, filled out the accident report, try to work and can't, my back is still extremely fucked up.
They (my work) refuse to send me to a doctor because i filled out the accident report to late. i go home pissed.
thursday:
i call in to work again, make a doctors appointment, show up at the doc's on time. I get there tell them
what happened they said its a workman's comp case and they can't take it without a formal denial of workman's comp.
i call my boss, he calls the human resource lady and they tell me to go to the doctor on alpine, i started on my way there from 28th street.
i took a shortcut through the ghetto where my car decided to break a tie rod. middle of the fucking ghetto...
I walked to danielle's about a mile and a half north. on that walk i get a call from my boss saying not to go to the
doctor the owner told him not to let me go. and he tells me that i need a doctors note to miss anymore work.
i ask him how i'm supposed to get one without a formal denial of workman's comp. and he said he'll print something up.
pretty much from what i understand from that is my back is fucked from work, they arn't covering me, and know i can't work
they pretty much fired me.
Friday: wake up on danielle's futon, i borrowed andy's car dolly. my brother brings it down, we get the tempo out of the ghetto
i then go camping with my parents. uggh.. i hate the great outdoors. To really fuck the week up, i get a call at about 11 last night
from jen and she told me she doesn't think our relationship is going anywhere. way to kick me in the balls when i'm already down
i wish i would have stayed home. i'm in a pretty big hole right now, bigger than i've ever been in before.
and i thought ohio was bad.
saturday:
wake up earlier than usual because people are making noise and shit, don't want to be in baldwin still. its white trash as shit up here.
trying to get my brother to go to sliverlake to fuck around on the sand dunes, doesn't look like thats happening though.
hopefully i can find a ride home today, or some internet.
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2007 26 August :: 12.26am
Thursday my friend Katelyn had her baby. I am way excited because I get to see her tomorrow!!
I also went to see Ally and her pregnant belly today.
I cannot wait until she has her baby..
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2007 17 August :: 7.51am
:: Music: BnL - Everything Had Changed
summer is over. vegas is over. williamsburg is over.
i have a bright future in a questionable vocation and another two wonderful years of college to look forward to.
right now, i'm sitting in an abandoned, foreclosed home - after working a 10 hour shift - getting ready to spend all day (and the rest of the weekend) moving shit, yet again.
life is a very, very odd thing. and this song is very fitting for this particular epoch in mine.
i made a vow to do a couple of things for myself within the next week. we'll see if that happens or not.
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2007 10 August :: 4.16pm
:: Mood: Enraged.
If you thought your day was bad..
What needs to change:
While you do work hard, it has been observed for some time that instead of being respectful and helpful to your co-workers, you have been a major contributor to a hostile, judgemental and difficult work environment. Belittling, jabbing comments as well as rough handling of equipment and passing of material are just few examples of behavior that must stop. While you may argue about others not going enough, it is not much different than what you were able to do when you first started. You have also exhibited these types of behaviors with people not even in your work cell.
It was hoped that discussing these issues, you would take an honest look at yourself and look for ways to improve the situation. Unfortunately, right after this conversation, the same negative behaviors were displayed.
Why this is a concern
These types of behaviors are contrary to the values of GRC and undermine the teamwork required to achieve the highest of overall results. Your condescending and hostile behavior towards others is consuming several people's times on these issues and making work difficult for others on a daily basis.
What results are expected
Everyone who comes to work should expect to be treated respectfully and professionally. When issues or problems arise, we should be honest and look for ways to solve the problem and find was to achieve the highest overall result. When new people come into GRC, rather than belittling them, you should be making them feel welcomed and help them perform their job better. This may mean doing more than your share initially until they learn how to do the job efficiently.
What happens next
You need to aware that creating a hostile work environment can begrounds for immediate termination. If we do not see a dramatic difference in your behavior, termination of employment will be the immediate consequence for you.
That is a letter I recieved from the HR Director. Shannon recieved the same letter. So after reading that you'll understand how my day went. As most of you may know I have had a problem with Christine for awhile now. Things have never escalated to the point where she felt the need to tell our supervisor every little detail of every conversation. Im not trying to make myself sound better than her, or be immature and childish about any of this. However, I do not appreciate her jumping down my throat for supposedly copping an attitude. I was simply stating a true fact, and she blew up at me. It is not my fault she misconstrued that situation as well as when Stacy and Shannon hashed it out, after Stacy tried hashing it out with me. I am in no place to point fingers, because I am guilty of being rude, and judgemental. I also do not appreciated Christine telling Shannon when she first started that she better not let me meet her boyfriend because I would try and steal him. Also that I was trying to come between a supposed love affair between Brandon and Angel. I do not know where she got any of that. (For the record, and Im pretty sure all of you realize that I am very at home with Mike. I do not need another man. And I wouldn't be a susie-homewrecker and try to break people up. If people at work are having a love affair, that is their business.) I am not guilty of talking behind their backs because whatever I have to say, I willingly say it to their faces. I have a spine, and Im not going to back down. I don't lay down helpless to be kicked. I may have done that once upon a time, however things have changed.
I do not know where they got that I belittle the new hires, when the only person on the line I have said was slow, was Christine. And thats because she's been there 3 years, and still cannot keep up. When I started working there, I was told the first day by the supervisor that gossip was not tolerated, and if I didn't make rate after a certain amount of time, I would be let go. What happened to those policies?
Also, I am not offended easily, nor disturbed. But when I hear things come from Christines mouth about how her 11 year old daughter wants to get her clit pierced. Or how she found a used condom in her 13 year old daughters backpack. Or how her 17 year old sons girlfriend has a smelly pussy. I am very offended and disturbed. It is uncalled for, true or not, to say those things in the workplace. Especially about your own kids.
And trust me, I have tried telling my supervisor all of this, and it obviously hasn't gotten me anywhere. I am all out of ideas.
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2007 8 August :: 10.56am
sooo,
update?
good things since last update:
Jen
21'st birthday
new job at goodyear on alpine
Bad things:
truck needs more parts/money
i havn't updated alot
i'm sorry.
have a nice day.
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2007 3 August :: 11.31pm
I haven't posted anything in here for a little while now. Partly because I am completely tapped on anything I want to say. I have done enough communicating lately that I have nothing left to vent. However, the tables have turned. I am frustrated and confused. I feel like I'm being selfish on all that is going on. But its the only thing that feels right. I just wish things were different. I don't even know where to begin.
I dont understand why I can't just forget the fact that she's my mother. I don't understand anything she does. I don't get why I try. I don't get why no matter how hard I try to avoid her, or how many times I say I hate over there, I end up there. I always leave pissed off, or this time, crying because Im so upset. Its because of things I witness, things that are said or things that are done. I don't get why I can't come to terms with the fact that my mother is an alcoholic that smokes pot and prefers men over her children no matter how hard she tries to say otherwise. I have a hard time trying not to care. I do so good for awhile, and then I break because i feel bad. I hate how I can be so cold and act like no one around me exsists, yet Im always worrying about everyone. I always have something big on my mind, and I get stressed out. I honestly, do not understand my mother. At all. I truly do not understand her. And she doesn't understand me. She doesn't realize that she has hurt me.
For instance, tonight I was over there washing my car, and spending time with her, like she has wanted to do for a couple of weeks now, and Joe shows up. Granted I new he was going to come over to get rid of the bat(s) she had. Anyway, she basically ignored the fact that I was there, and made plans for her, Joe and his friend to all go back to his place. After Joe's friend asked if I wanted to come out there, she spoke up and said "oh yeah, you can go if you want". And then rushed me out.
Not to mention the fact that earlier in the week, she invited my brother to go over to my grandma's to pick out what he wanted out of her stuff, but not I. Not the one who she had just spoke with on the phone. She is giving some of my grandmothers things to Joe. She knows that I'd like a few things that belonged to my grandmother and also they were things that she knows I have said I needed for my apartment.. Apparently, I do not rate, but here I go feeling sorry for myself.
I find it quite hard to believe that the only thing that keeps me sane, the one and only thing that I didn't ever think I'd have, is the only thing that makes sense in my life day after day. I have found happiness with him. I love him entirely and I honestly would go crazy without him.
In good news, my brother-in-law is going to be a Cop. (I believe that is what my mother said. It was hard to comprehend anything she was saying).
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2007 1 August :: 12.12pm
posting this for box since he's got no internet.
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2007 23 July :: 3.03pm
random stuff i've found in my room so far.
3x hungry howies hats
1x Beth's AC/DC shirt.... tried it on, tight in my arms loose the rest of places, doesn't fit right.
more to come
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2007 21 July :: 9.03pm
This morning about 4 AM, I broke down.
I lost all control. It was probably for the best.
I had been a wreck all week.
I was being an irritable bitch and was hard to be around.
Im glad that I got out what I had to say.
But more importantly, Im happy that I was able to finally talk to him.
He actually seemed to care.
And he held my hand.
That made me feel whole again.
God I love him.
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2007 20 July :: 7.23am
i hate this job, i wake up every morning and dread going to work. It really makes it hard to get up in the morning.
i'm going to quit...
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2007 19 July :: 7.27pm
anyone want to move out?
with 4 people and utilities and shit i think we could get this place for under $450 a month per person.
imagine the partys
http://grandrapids.craigslist.org/apa/375515659.html
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2007 15 July :: 5.10pm
because $500 into the motor and some stolen 33's never looked so good.
after a little bit of cleaning, wash, wax, some aromorall.
thanks phil justin and will.
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