:: 2003 1 July :: 12.02 pm
:: Mood: accomplished

Mission Impossible!
WOOHOO! LOL! I have done the impossible.........I saw a hot Russian! Can you believe it????? It is really impossible, it just doesn't happen! Not to mention I got a huge smile and I cute wink. He was in a store and I was in a bus and we only got to see each other for like 10 seconds and that sux! I wanted to pull the string and go flirt but the friggin Russians would want to know what I was doing so I didn't!OH well, he's so far away anyway.L8rz

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:: 2003 28 June :: 5.34 am
:: Mood: Blahhhhhhh!

Shoot!
Well Germany was exactly like Wisconsin so that was kind of a let down but........w/e! LOL! But that was kind of my heritage so it was good to see. I see why the Germans settled where they did, it is sooo like their home land w/ benifits. The food was really greasy, but I kind of asked for it, I got french fries! LOL! The best french fries I have ever had were in..........France! LOL They were awesome! Hehe, I know I'm a dork!(Not that kind)! I miss you all, I was looking over some of my pics of Michelles party, the dance, and just pics of you guys and the best memories came up. I really almost cryed and I just couldn't believe myself. Anyway, my dad's business isn't doing so well I am afraid to say. It really sux ass! He almost took a train to Berlin and almost got on a plane to return home but it was really only a difference of a few days so he didn't, but it was really close!It was really bad, we had to cut down one of our other trips this summer too and my grandma was really let down. I felt so bad because it was partly my fault, my allergies are really bad there and so I put my opinion in and that made a difference and my freakin allergies suk! LOL! I am listening to Michelle Branch(Shut up, she is good) and I am pretty happy other than the company which is really horrible because that really, really hurts my bank account. We won't be able to do the same trips and that kind of stuff! Freak! Anyway I really hope you are all good and I will be home in about a week so hopefully I will see you all very soon! I luv yaz! XOXOXOXO Muwwwaaaa(Ps the staff here is hot!!!!!I like get all shy when they walk into the room)LOL!!!!!Muwa luv from Poland!!!!!

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:: 2003 25 June :: 2.56 am
:: Mood: Gitty!

Hell yea!
Woohoo! LOL last night I thought of the cutest word and totally forgot it and now I am like racking my brain trying to remember it! ANYWAY! Ummmm yesterday we were in Norway which was absolutly fabulous! It was so goreous I had no idea it was like that! The ppls accents were a lil annoying but other than that is was just amazing! I was like expecting vikings to meet us as we walked into the city but it wasn't like that at all is was just sooooo incredable!I didn't know God made such a place(and yes I said God, I watched Joan of Arch last night and I don't know how you couldn't believe in God after hearing that incedable tale).Anyway I believe we are going to Denmark today which I have heard was just unexplainable beauty so I hope its nothing less. LOL the whole tour we were on yesterday I read Harry Potter and I just couldn't help my self. I have stayed w/ being a lacto ovo vegitarian which I am very proud of, I feel so much better this way. I used to get so many stomach aches(which I hardly ever mentioned) and now I have none, But I must say their veggie diet here can be aweful! Last night we dined at an enchanting restraunt where our waiter was so pretty! He was just Playgirl material! He was from the Netherlands! Hehe! My mom and I are looking at all the hot guys tags to see where they are from so we can plan our next trip there!LOL! Most of them have been from ...........OMG I forgot! It will come to me later! Oh yea and befor we went to Oslo Norway(yesterday) we had a day at sea which was very relaxing and the day before that was Le Havre France which was quite spectacular also! I was very suprised at how they treated us, they seemed to like us being there quite a bit and I was soooo happy to see that! But unfortuatly my allergies acted up and it sucked beans towards the end! Oh well, I'm happy now! It's so weird, normally I hate breakfast and love dinner and now it has completely changed! I hate dinner and like love breakfast. Probably because the butler brings it hot as to where at home it is cold by the time I get it lol! If I get it at all! LOL! Well I should go get ready for Russia seminar(lucky me right? My dad is insisting!). L8rz and ps I hope Jeremy feels better and I hope Amanda and Michelle and Jon and Ali and Anne are all doing well(and all the dudes that never read these lol)!

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:: 2003 21 June :: 4.23 pm
:: Mood: ecstatic

Cruisin'!!!!!!
OMG!!!! I am gunna try and sound as little snobbish as I can but it might come off wrong so I'm sorry in advance!I am having the best time of my life! London was sooo amazing we stayed in a 5 star hotel, we went to Mamma Mia, we had 1st class tickets (for the plane)which were absoluting amazing!!!!We got all these little gifts! We ate w/ ppl whose best friends where going to be the vice president of Costa Rica! We went to Oxford(my new college) and sooooo much more! This is the first day of a 14 day cruise and we have the top of the line suite!!! We has 2 jacuzzies, 2 dining rooms, and huge balcony, 2 butlers, 2 plasma tvs(huge) and wide variety of free dvds and cds plus the ones you pay for,asian art, huge bathroom! i mean the list just keeps going and going and going! I am soo sorry for those of you who are having a miserable time!!!! I really don't wanna sound snobbish or anything I am just soo happy I cried!I love you all and I hope(for those of you who are having a tuff time) that things get much better) and for those of you who are doing well I hope you stay happy and PARTY!!!!LOL! For Ali-I stood for 2 hrs outside in London to get one of the 1st copies of Harry Potter which was amazing because that is kinda were Harry potter is based and I saw were they filmer some scences! I am already to pg100 and something! LOL! I love you all!XOXOXO!

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:: 2003 14 June :: 1.31 pm
:: Mood: tired

My dog & trip
Hey, I'm kinda sad cuzz my dog got in a fight w/ my aunt and uncles dogs and he got hurt pretty bad. We took him to the vet and he had tons of creepy stuff done to him. Right now he has a stint throu his shoulder and you can see stiches! I get really grossed out by stuff like that on animals, on people it is a whole different story. Anyway other than that I have been doing good. I went driving last afternoon and it started pouring!!!Then I went to my friends house and we went to the movies and saw Cliffton(buy accident)and we saw the movie HOLLYWOOD HOMICIDE and that was ok.Well I need to go pack for the next trip( a 2 week cruise around northern Europe hitting dover, england - le havre (paris), france - oslo, norway - copenhagen, denmark - rostock(berlin), germany - gdynia (gdansk), poland - muuga (tallinn),estonia - st. petersburg, russia - helsinki, finland - stockholm, sweden) then of course we are staying a few extra days in London and lol yay we are flying first class which makes all the difference! (Believe me I know, I have already flown to Europe at least 3 times and it can suk but it can also be really fun cuzz of the movies and who u sit w/). Anyway I need to go! L8rz

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:: 2003 13 June :: 12.15 am
:: Mood: bouncy

Woo hoo!
Im back! LOL! I have been filled in pretty much all the way i think, but I want to talk to people befor i leave again. Michelle- im am sorry u are going throu whut u are going throu, amanda-i hope everything works out the way you want it, ali-yay!im so proud of u w/ kissing lol(hehe i can relate), and anne-i havent talked to u yet but i will. i am happy for jeremy and whuts her face? and everyone else who has hooked up, for the most part it is really sweet! i have lotz to say but im not gunna do it on here! lol! call me and email me i am back for 4 days so we need to talk quick!luv 2 everyone!mwa xoxoxoxoxo i missed u all sooo much(and im not joking) ps. canterbury now has dress code!!!

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:: 2003 1 June :: 1.07 pm
:: Mood: amused

Yay! Last Day and Wedding!
Hey ya'll! I was just in a wedding the day after I got out of 8th grade! I am gunna be in high school, thats freaky! Well the wedding was beautiful and I was amazing lol! Then we went back to my hinky dinky hometown Algoma Wi and got my best friend and somehow we ended back at my grandmas house, but we are going back to algoma soon. :( Anyway i will see you guys soon and i hope u guys have a tubular party!!!! Say hi to Germany and Amanda, Anne, Ali, Richie, Matt,Jon q, Jon k and everyone that im not thinking of!Luv sent from all the way across the country!MMMWWWAAAAA L8r

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:: 2003 28 May :: 7.56 pm
:: Mood: anxious

Freaking
OK, Im starting to get sad and happy and like freaked out. I mean....1 day left of middle school! Freakin a!Im packing, and freaking. I am thinking about summer, I wanna meet some guy. I dunno where thou, not wisconsin! Maybee on the cruise(but then they might live in a different country)and not at the reunion becuz that like insest!Ewww!Write back!

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:: 2003 25 May :: 12.06 pm
:: Mood: energetic

My dreams
Yay! 3 1/2 days left(of finals) and I can finally end this chapter of my life and start w/ the challenging ones! The ones I have wanted to get to since I was 5! Like high school, college, working! I want true independence! I want the pop quizes and SATs and the ACTs and the LSATs and all of the above!I want clubs and awards and then college and I get to move! The northeast! Intelligence all around me, the people who are motivatied to do something and begin something great! The people with passion to do what they love and care for! The people that spent years dreaming of just stepping on the moist soil of Ivy Leage Colleges!(But you cant step on the grass, its surrounded w/ wire, to keep it fresh). I want to further excel in what I enjoy 24/7! I want to be surrounded w/ people that can learn from me and I can also learn from them. I want to cram for quizes untill early morn and I want to rack my brain for original ideas for my college admission essay! I want to eventually move off campus and live w/ someone. I want to get my law degree after my MBA. I want to move from one large city to another. I want to live in New York, Boston, DC, Chicago ummmmm mabee Philly! I want my own appartment w/ the most contemperary funishings and art(yet tastefully done). I want to go to culinary arts school, when I feel like it. I want to learn from the best all around the world, I want to live in Italy and maybee Costa Rica(so far their economy is doing pretty well right now and I like their ethics). I want to zoom off to the most exclusive resorts I can buy. I was to create, something unique and inspiring to others, something that just boggles your mind.The only reason I know this is what I want, is every time I even to begin to think of it, I get so exited! I start just....exploding inside because I just know. I can just tell you, that is how I am going to live my life. I have the intelligence(I can thank my parents), I can the drive, I am one of the hardest working(Im not naturally smart, I started out in a retard class), I have the resourses($$$), and I have the love for what I want to do. I have gotten thousands upon thousands of advise from my fathers business partners, and probably the only one that has stuck w/ me is this" If you have passion for what you do, you will go far and you will be very happy" and I can't see how that could be wrong, the people that really love what they do are normally very happy going to work every day, it isn't a chore it is a pleasure. As you can see, I can go on for hours about this one subject that I love so much. I just wish other people where like me, other people just can't understand so I am forced to keep it inside because others don't other stand if they would understand then this would be a common topic because all teenagers what to do is "have fun" and "act their own age" so I am the different one. LOL! Well I'm not a loner or anything but I am a dork inside! LOL! Well I've spilled my heart! L8r!

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:: 2003 22 May :: 8.20 pm
:: Mood: cheerful

Go Gurl!
LOL! This is a shout out to Ali! Go out w/ him!!! He is totally closer to you and it is absolutly fine! I have NO problem with it, I thought you would know that! We are just friends! We just went to the dance together because we are friends, but I could tell you where more than that! Oh I just met this awesome dude! He lives in Las Vegas and years ago when Madhamid Ali was really popular, he was like best friends w/ him for a while! My dad used to be best friends w/ him 25 years ago while he was friends w/ Ali. And another person who works for my family is like really close friends w/ Hugh Hefner he had his b-day there!!) and Denis Rodman. Its pretty cool becuz they have hilarious stories! Anyway.......I g2go l8r

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:: 2003 20 May :: 4.43 pm
:: Mood: cheerful

Braces!!!
Hey ya'll! I got my braces off today! I have had them on for 2 1/2 years!!! I am going to a wedding in a week and a 1/2 so my teeth will be white by then (hopefully)! I am using white creststrips, I have heard they are pretty good. I can gotten alot of complements today, it was fun! LOL! We had yearbook signing today also, all these peeps that i hardly know signed my year book and I was like Woooow! What the heck? They took up soooo much room! I am pretty considerate but I say whut I have to say. My closest friends said some really sweet stuff so I'm happy! LOL It was soo funny this one guy was all like I need to find someone hot and I was gunna show him where my friend was but then he was all like"your hot, your hot, your hot" "will you marrry me?" and i was like"no, sorry not my thing" and he was like"oh ok". Well I g2g l8r!!!!

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:: 2003 18 May :: 2.00 am
:: Mood: happy

8th grade dance!
Hey ya'll! I just got back from the 8th grade dance and i had a peachy keen time! My date was named Brandon and we danced every slow song! LOL! The dance was pretty long, my feet were killing me!I danced w/ other peeps 2. We went to MUGS N' JUGS after but i dont really like bars sooooo yeah! I met his parents and he met my mom so that was sweet and we had Ali along w/ us so it was fun, im glad i went!! Everyone looked so pretty!Well im tired! L8r

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:: 2003 14 May :: 9.02 pm
:: Mood: amused

Friends
Hehe, this is sooo horrible but I find fights like hilarious! Espesially when I agree w/ both sides!

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:: 2003 14 May :: 8.55 pm
:: Mood: chipper

3 days!
OMG! My friend Brandon waited till 3 days before asking me to the dance! I was like, "What the hell"? At least he asked me like in person, I thought he was gunna do it over the internet which I think is kinda sad! I just decided to go so I have alot to do and figure out, like I dont know where to go after the dance. Some people are going to parties, but I'm not friends w/ anyone who is soooooo, I dont know!Any thoughts?

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:: 2003 2 May :: 11.14 pm
:: Mood: thoughtful

Daddy
Ok, so I come home from school today and my mom was like "your dad had a heart attact in new mexico" and i was "ok". And she like expected me to be all sad and mad and emotional but i was just like ok. And then she was like "we might have to go to colorado cuzz thats where they have choppered him in, if he has a bipass" and I was like "ok". And that was it. Should I have been mad or frustrated of something, I mean he has already had a quadruple bipass and this is a hreat attack , they arent that different but we just got back really good results, so no surgery and basicly no damage to his body but we'll see, you can never tell right away.

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:: 2003 25 April :: 7.22 pm
:: Mood: contemplative

Uhhhhhh
Ok, I cant say any names at all, this is kind of a private thought and I really can't beliveve I am going to write this but........I can kind of understand how Ron feels in Harry Potter! He is never the center of attention, he is never the first one to think of things, he is always a step behind! He is never THE PERSON people want to hang w/! And when you are kind of used to that for a pretty long time, its really hard to change. Now I know how certain people feel, one friend has been talking about it for a really long time and I never understood, well now I do. I am used to being well rounded and pretty much a leader all the time, and one person is kindda taking that away, in a small way. This person doesnt mean to do it im sure, but they do. I wanT to be THE PERSON that people admire, and im not. That bothers me alot. Maybe changing schools will be the best thing......I dont know. I know that eventually I will be but... I'm not right now. Maybe I just need time, I'm sure I'll figure it out, but...........manybe thats why I want to the CEO of my own company, that control thing. Then I would definatly be "THE PERSON". Oh well, just some thoughts.

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:: 2003 25 April :: 7.18 pm
:: Mood: amused

Dance!
The dance my friends and I just went to was actually really fun, I thought it was gunna suck balls but.... it didn't! I am still really suprised. I actuall want to go to the 8th grade dance now! Imagin that! Jeremy was like the center on attention, it was hilarious! He is like everyone's guy friend. Michelle you better watch you back! Some chicks are gunna snatch him! LOL! Not me but....chicks. I'm the one trying to hook ya'll up! Well L8r

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:: 2003 23 April :: 10.45 pm
:: Mood: bitchy

PMS!
God! I never truely believed in PMS. I thought some chicks made it up cuzz they wanted to have an explanation y they were being mean, well its real!!! It is the worst week of my life and everything anyone does is wrong, I try and be as nice as possible but........man people tick me off for no good reason, and I wanna explode!!!!SCREW EVERYONE!!!!!!

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:: 2003 22 April :: 7.26 pm
:: Mood: annoyed

Y???
I have to go to a piano compition called "Gild" and I REALLY dont wanna go! I have had to practice like 3 hours a night to get prepared and I'm sooo scared. I hate being judged like that! It is a nightmare!! Any good tips other than braking my finger, that the obvious one. Any thing? Think hard!!

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:: 2003 22 April :: 7.17 pm
:: Mood: Tired

(Deep Yawn)
Wow! I am exhausted and I don't know why! Oh I have a funny joke that my friend told me but i am not racist at all!! OK?!?!

What are white people running down a hill? An avalanch
What are hispanics running down a hill?
A mud slide
What are blacks running down a hill?
A jail brake out!!

I think that is pretty funny! But maybee thats just me. Ali and Jeremy weren't at school today. I missed them, I was gunna kill Jeremy but he is just postponing it. I am sorry Amanda isn't having her party any more, I would have liked to go but my mom said no due to my VERY low math grade!!! OOOOpppppssss!!! I don't wanna go to the dance this week, I prosimed my self I wouldn't, oh well! I'm gunna go sleep. L8r

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:: 2003 19 April :: 4.08 pm
:: Mood: contemplative

What do you think?
I'm trying to decide what colors i want and i cant think of it, will you please comment and tell me what colors whould go with what?

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:: 2003 19 April :: 10.30 am
:: Mood: bouncy

High School
Hey! Ok, im starting to think about going in to a brand new school all by my self knowing nobody, plus they seem to be very clicky! I wanted this so bad for so long, i worked really hard to get it, and we already gave them lotz of $ and i cant back out!I know this is what i want i guess im just.........scared. Before i didnt really even think about staying friends with my friends truthfully, but now it seems to be do able. I didnt realize i would miss all of their great traits. Like although one of my friends is really ditsy, she has a great personality and is fun to be around when you are one-on-one. My other friend cali, has some really great sides too, when guys arent around she can be a truely great person and i would miss that with all my heart. Ali, she and i have been friends forever, she is my hanging out buddy and if she going i dont know what ill do! And michelle, she is a new found friend and i dont know how i would live without her crazy dancing and quarky sayings!Plus they are all so supportive of what i want, its so sweet. Thats just my really close friends! I have about 100 aquantences, plus the kids i mentor! Now im started to get closer to other friends and they are going to completely different places! I'll hopefully get over it, but i feel terrified............i know its the right thing to do, canterbury will get me where i want to go but it going to be really challenging. Is that really what i want?

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:: 2003 18 April :: 11.58 pm
:: Mood: annoyed

Jeremy!!!!!
OMG! Jeremy is going to die!!!! Dude, we talked for like 2 hours about going to the movies and crap and then like 10 minutes before he is supposed to be there his mom gives him crap about family being in town when he already blew Andi and me off (cuzz of his mom )once this weekend! Then I almost had to go to Malibu's Most Wanted but instead we went to Anger Mangement(yay) but w/ a chick i dont really like and if jeremy would have been there i wouldnt have wanted to kill my self over and over and over and over!!!!!Anyway...........yeah!

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:: 2003 15 April :: 7.41 pm
:: Mood: Bewilderd

Dance!
Well, I have driven my self, my friends, my family to the point of maddness trying to figure out if I should go to the dance. Here is the thing my head says no, but my heart says yes! I pretty much always follow my head so........ yeah! It is the more reasonable one by far! Comment please! And if you dont mind, stay annonimous! L8r

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:: 2003 13 April :: 6.50 pm
:: Mood: chipper

Yay!
Hey ya'll I found someone that is exactly like me, just a few years older, she is snobbly rude and profound just like me! Yay! She hates fl, I hate fl. She hates the heat, I hate the heat. She hates rednecks, I hate rednecks. She like all music but hard core rap and rock, same with me!She switched from public to private, so am I!I forgot to ask if she is a Republican though, I think she is...... She is really funny any way l8r!

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:: 2003 13 April :: 6.46 pm
:: Mood: amused

Hu?
The people who figured it out, don't you dare say a word! Michelle, did you tell amanda??? Anne, dont be so proud of yourself that you DIDNT do something with a guy! That should be a regular thing, lets work on that! Michelle, sorry i didnt come, I got your messages really late! I am not going to tell him cuzz there is no point! I dont like him THAT much, just a small crush I guess ok?

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:: 2003 12 April :: 11.07 pm
:: Mood: shocked

?
Have you ever thought you wanted something and then completely changed your mind? Like you thought you wanted to be one person and realized thats not who you are or who you want to be? I need to stop watching movies! It is making me think way to much!L8r!!!

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:: 2003 12 April :: 6.41 pm
:: Mood: lazy

Bored
I don't know why I am so lazy on Saturdays! Everyone always wants to do SOMETHING and I just want to watch t.v. and lay back. I have watched "When Harry met Sally" 2 times in the past 48 hours, what is the chance? It made me start thinking, why don't I have a best friend like that? Same with Brown Sugar, I want that kind of relationship but I jsut havent found someone that can relate to me, I guess I haven't tryed very hard though. I kind of do, but they are alwasy gay or older! LOL! They like guys, I like guys, its a common intrest! Or they are older and have a larger mental capability and can talk business and world events so when I talk to them they can teach me something instead of me having to do all the explaining what simple things like ....... what the senate is!!!!! Can you blame me? Wouldn't you want a break from that every day? I just relate better to adults ! Oh well.L8r

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:: 2003 11 April :: 7.14 pm
:: Mood: frustrated

Why me?
Crap! I haven't liked someone my own age in 1 and 1/2 years and now that I finally do, I pick someone that I would be completely horrified to say his name to me friends about! How could this happen to me? I am a good citizen, I do my best! Now this has to happen!I even go to where he stands when he is being picked up at the end of the day just in case I get to talk to him! Isn't that sad? I hate having feelings, they ruin everything! Now that I'm going to high school I will never see him so I just can't tell him. Plus all this crap with my friends, one doesnt want the other to talk to her bf so much and the other one is like what ever and ahhh!Anyway.........ahh

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