Wicked Thoughts

:: 2004 17 June :: 6.03pm

fuck prohibition
my mom threw away all but 3 bottles of our boos.
damn you!

:: 2004 17 June :: 5.16pm

Your Erogenous Zone Is Your Neck

You're particularly sensitive to kisses on your neck

But you don't mind a hickie every now and then either

Ask your partner to kiss right behind your ear

Because chances are, that's the most sensitive spot on your body

What's Your Secret Erogenous Zone?

More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva

:: 2004 17 June :: 5.08pm

If you can't say anything good about someone, sit right here by me.
-- Alice Roosevelt Longworth

:: 2004 17 June :: 5.04pm
:: Mood: amused

Sometimes I get the feeling the whole world is against me, but deep
down I know that's not true. Some smaller countries are neutral.
-- Robert Orben

:: 2004 17 June :: 4.54pm

my arm hurts. waaaa. no, jk but i does hurt still.

i decided the best thing is take a break from justin so i probly won't talk to you for at least a few weeks, and it was strange yesterday b/c i saw your grand parents at the grocery.

i am really bored and i am the only one of my friends that has no love in their life (big surprise) Crystal is staying with john he told her that he loves her and never wants to loose her. and kayles is done with steven, and i think will be with sye soon. as for lizzie she has peter jizzle, and for me no one.

oh well, off to do something elsewhere. loves n such-- josie

:: 2004 16 June :: 3.40pm

so i got blood tkaen yesterday, and my vein moved so the guy was all poking around in my arm with a needle. it sent my nerves haywire and the bastards still hurt. dammit, you blood driver mr. armstrong look alikes

:: 2004 15 June :: 10.32am

i am going to give blood today!

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:: 2004 14 June :: 5.22pm
:: Mood: melancholy
:: Music: Freebird

I am going to become a GD Social Worker
i think that things will be okay now. i will leave some air- not that i have a choice- for awhile and hopefully things will sort out. i don't know what it is that makes me care about you guys, but even when i am mad at you i have to make sure you are doing great.

falala. the nice thing is that i don't have to think about me.

:: 2004 14 June :: 4.00pm

i am getting too old for all of this bullshit

:: 2004 14 June :: 3.54pm
:: Mood: irate

i quit with love, life, ect.

i am not meant to be loved, or to love, this is clear. i am not saying this due to recent events i am saying it because as i look back every time that i ever care for someone i get shit on.

gary died
john cheated on me
and i imagine that there are more but those are the two that i was most crazy about.

maybe i am just typing in circles because i am fuming but idk anymore

:: 2004 14 June :: 9.41am
:: Mood: Jaded
:: Music: Marilyn Manson-- Paranoir

Anorexia
*I fuck you to make the pain go away*

well after crying myself to sleep i awake at 9 to be asked if i would like to work today. as you can tell i am still here so, no.
Anyways the resolve is that i cried acid tears that burnished my memory of last night and although i faintly remember things i will still be your friend because i have few enough people who care as is. however don't try to be touchy because i don't want to feel your warmth or hang out for hours like i had been.

I am Jaded and that is why i can face this so quickly. Oh and the pain won't go away because i am going to turn into a waif.

:: 2004 14 June :: 12.56am
:: Mood: broken
:: Music: Mr. Mister--Broken WIngs

maybe you are right, but it was mostly my fault.

i can't tell you that a friendship will be definite or that i will ever come over again, i made sure i can't call you though. and hopefully i will have let this be my last mistake.

:: 2004 14 June :: 12.48am
:: Music: Dido--White flag

I am a moron
White Flag

I know you think that I shouldn't still love you or tell you that.
But if I didn't say it well I'd still have felt it,
where's the sense in that
I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were but

I will go down with this ship and I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door,
I'm in love and always will be

I know I left too much mess and destruction to come back again
And I caused but nothing but trouble,
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "it's over" then I'm sure that that makes sense but

I will go down with this ship and I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door,
I'm in love and always will be

And when we meet, which I'm sure we will
All that was there, will be there still
I'll let it pass, and hold my tongue
And you will think, that I've moved on....

I will go down with this ship and I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door,
I'm in love and always will be

I will go down with this ship and I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door,
I'm in love and always will be

I will go down with this ship and I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door,
I'm in love and always will be

:: 2004 14 June :: 12.37am
:: Mood: crushed

how can i be so stupid.
why do i keep doing this to myself. i might as well face the fact that i will never find anyone and that i can't just have a fling because it will never be enough.

all i ever wanted is to be cared for and i always get myself hurt. fuck me.