:: 2003 16 March :: 2.47 pm
:: Mood: blah

this weekend was fun.

i absolutely despise fighting with friends...especially best friends.

i need to bring in one of my "successes" for retreat. what should i bring in???

for my research paper, my topic deals w/ adolescent pregnancy...what aspect should i do?

im tired and gotta headache so im out. latas.

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:: 2003 12 March :: 11.59 pm
:: Mood: ok i guess

christian is coming tomorrow nite!!! i still have yet to rearrange my schedule:S

i think i did slightly good on my trig quiz today...the last 2 i got back sucked: 12/26 and 14/27. yea im dumb

i havent talked to mel since monday. im still confused as to what to do.

rez life was fun tonite as usual. i think angie was mad at me but thats ok - she has a tendency of being to clingy which is extremely obnoxious.

i feel like DANCING!

im out - cya

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:: 2003 11 March :: 11.38 pm
:: Mood: tired/thoughtful

i was thinking today about college. i know that im going to major in social work but what should my minor be? i could minor in education or maybe criminal justice - i still think itd be fun to be a parol officer despite the negative reactions everyone has towards that idea. but i dunno.

i hate having guy problems...
a guy i know likes me yet one of my best friends really likes him. and she was the one who told me that he likes me cuz he asked her for my # during school. now shes like heart-broken. i havent done anything at all yet i still feel guilty. its a mess.

but its late start, and im still exhausted so im out. cya

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:: 2003 9 March :: 9.26 pm
:: Mood: exhausted

i dont know what it is but lately ive been so drained. im constantly tired and i dont seem to have the energy to do anyhting anymore. mom woke me up at 10am this morning - i had gotten 9 consecutive hours of sleep yet i was still tired. after church i laid down and took a 3 hour nap on the couch yet im still tired. i watched "minority report", which is a strange movie, and i just felt so exhausted throughout it even tho i wasnt really doing anything. its odd and bugging me. its taking forever for me to type this because it just seems like i dont have the energy to move much less type. its really bugging me.

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:: 2003 9 March :: 12.04 am
:: Mood: cheerful

tonite was a lot of fun. me, maria and melissa went to see the play "game show" that hesperia hs put on. it was one of those plays where u are like laughing hysterically one second, and thinking "this is getting kinda slow" the next. overall, it was a pretty good play. then, afterwards, we went to the bowling alley. it was like really packed cuz they were doing cosmic bowling, so we put our names on a waiting list and went to the restaurant ajoining to the bowling alley, where we proceeded to eat mozzarella stix and goof off. after tim, tom and doug got off their shift, the 6 of us went bowling. the guys are awesome at bowling and we suck at it but still we had a ton of fun.

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:: 2003 7 March :: 11.30 pm
:: Mood: chilly

god its like seriously cold out. it was so hot here this morning, i was actually comfy in school, yet now im freezing.

i have found another potential stalker: Angie. she is the type of person who is really clingy and annoying. i know she doesnt mean to be but it gets sooo obnoxious. and i cant bring myself to blow her off cuz im too nice a person. she does the same thing to manda. maybe i can use the excuse that she has a shitty family life, but still thats pushin it. *sigh* her dad will probly move them soon so i'll try to be patient.

my ceramic head is drying right now. and my next project is to make a teapot of some kind - i think i'll do a clown...even tho thy kinda scary me.

me and mel were gonna go see a movie tonite but we're both too lazy. so instead i talked to manda and terry (and sometimes weezer - multiple extentions can be so much fun)for about 2 1/2 hours. haha fun stuff :D

im so tired of all this talk of war. i mean seriously ppl what good will this do? absolutley nuthin. i have a question - why are we focusing most of our attention on saddam hussain/iraq instead of north korea, who hates us w/ a passion as well. i just dont get it - we wont accomplish anything by this.

shit! i totally forgot about my service hours!!!! i did a couple. me and brandi are gonna do them at every womens place but we dont know when. i better quit slackin tho, cuz dovick wants them before spring break and keller wants them by april30.

but anywaz my fingers are cold so im out - latas.

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:: 2003 5 March :: 9.53 pm

we got our report cards today. i did pretty well: 3.62
Growth/Faith A
Conditioning A
Govt/Econ H B-
Spanish 3 A-
Fun/Sta/Trig B
Ceramics A
H Brit Lit A
pretty good - im not complaining.

amanda's sick:( shes goin to the doctor's tomorrow to find out whats wrong.

i really like cupcakes.

rez life was fun tonite, as usual.

besides me, both amanda and tony put applications in to work at BK. thatd be awesome if all three of us are hired.

we didnt get a snow day today :(

i havent decided on what i should give up for lent yet.

keith gave me a bunch of those shocktart thingys. ever have those theyre like realllllly sour yet good too.

yea well im out. cya

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:: 2003 1 March :: 2.00 pm
:: Mood: icky

blah - the joys of being female :/

report cards come out tuesday. im thinking i got a 3.5ish.

aut got her call back so thats cool.

brandy comes home today - maybe she'll be nice enough to help me w/ some of the subjects im sucking at. (hint hint:D)

yea well i got nuthin more to say so im out - cya

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:: 2003 26 February :: 10.17 pm
:: Mood: content

woohoo! late start!

i got my hair cut this morning. 3 inches off w/ a chunky layer...i like it. (andre does too - he's just in denial).

manda's 17th birthday is this saturday.

haha our govt quiz today - i thought id do ok...the first page was easy. the second page was 13 true/false questions. i didnt know a lot of them and guessed 'true' on the ones i didnt know (like i ususally do)...which made most of my answers true. yea well - there were only about 3-4 true ?s and the rest were false. am i screwed or what??? i needed that grade too.

mrs bertoia's spanglish has gotta stop. me and brandi are seriously gonna die of laughter in that class. its almost as if she does it on purpose. and right when our giggles begin to subside, she starts dancing to her mexican music, which just makes us laugh even harder.

both yesterday and today were dad's days off and yet they still called him in (both nites) to do overniters - some day off.

just for the record - my hair is clearly BROWN.

does mint chocolate chip ice cream sound good? i think i'll go get some.

ive been really tired lately. mom thinks its mono - but then again, she alwas does. mono has been goin around tho. i hate bein tired. but i am so im out.

(o yea - i remembered the other class that im takin next year: Spanish 4)

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:: 2003 23 February :: 7.54 pm
:: Mood: pissed/frustrated

religion
i'm so tired of this.

it all started when mom said, "your little brother expressed interest in coming to adoration with me. would u care to join us?" i politely declined her offer. She persists on, "why not?" I calmly replyed "because i have no interest in doing so. please drop it." yet she goes on, "u know, praying before the blessed sacrament can really do miracles." At this time im getting annoyed, and while trying to maintain a level voice, i reply "mom, just stop talking. i already said i dont wanna go." she then makes some comment like "i hope this unbelief is just a phase." at this, i sarcastically snicker. she goes on to ask if i'd pray about it. i scoff "i cant remember the last time i prayed" - (i "pray" at dinner but thats just reciting). She says something about how my "unbelief" better change. at this point im getting pissed but trying to control my anger. i say, "drop it". Yet she continues "why should i?" Now im thoroughly pissed.
me: "im tired of you trying to force me into believing the crap u do"
her: "what did u say?" (i was pissing her off)
me: "i said, quit trying to force me to believe in your religious crap"
her: dont u ever say that again" (shes mad)
me: "say what?"
her(ignoring my question): "u really need to talk ot god...when was the last time u went to confession?"
i just started laughing, which pissed her off een more.
her: "stop laughing! this is serious."
me: "no its not - its all a bunch of crap."
her:"dont u dare say that!"
me:"What? that its a bunch of crap?"
her: "stop it! ur blaspheming and i dont wanna hear any more of it!"
me: "you started it - why cant u just let me believe what i believe and leave me alone?"
her:"because what u 'believe' is wrong."
me: "so ur saying that all ur non-catholic friends are wrong? connie? jayne?tom+vera?"
her: "Get out of here."
me:"im right arent i?"
her:"GET OUT!"
i leave.

im so tired of her trying to force her religion on me. shes made so many negative comments towards me about it and im sick of it. i cant just stop believing what i do. and dad agrees w/ me. but he just lets mom rant and rave and doesnt stick up for himself. i mean, we all believe in the same god so why doesnt she just leave me alone. im just so sick of it. shes made comments before like, "oh, is ur church better than ours now?" i know that she wouldnt let me go to rez life if weezer or tony didnt give me rides. i really like rez life because they dont judge u - its nondenominational. they treat everyone as equals and never pull the "if u dont believe this, ur going to hell card". i like rez life and hope to continue going there. at first, mom seemed almost glad that i found a church that i like going to. now she seems mad that i like this one 100 times better than i do her church. i just wish she would lay off...

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:: 2003 22 February :: 11.08 pm

ladeda...im kinda bored but o well.

i had mac n cheese and veggie pizza for dinner - yum!

manda's b-day is in a week.

next week is end of the marking period - and im seriously sucking at trig.

i think i have most of my schedule for next year put together:
world studies
psych
personal finance
adv. writing/speech
PDM?
some kind of religion class
chemistry
ummm i think there was another class, but i dont remember.

thats all for now - latas

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:: 2003 20 February :: 10.55 pm
:: Mood: complacent

i was watching that show "are u hot?" and it made me realize what a shitty society we live in. i mean c'mon - how shallow is that? its really quite sad.

NHS thing was really boring.

i worked the middle school wrestling match today...i think i'll do as many hours as i can doing that and maybe get 1 for my nonprofit organization or whatever...im sure dovick wont mind.

i think im getting slightly better at badmitton...even tho it is a game from hell.

i hollowed out my clay sculpture today - it still doesnt look like me but o well...thats like impossible. (haha even mrs fauri's doesnt look like her, and she expects us to make them look like ourselves - ha my ass)

well i think im gonna try ot get some sleep tonite so im out - cya

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:: 2003 19 February :: 10.36 pm
:: Mood: cheerful

ahhhh!!!! trista chose ryan!!!! im totally thrilled!!! (yea im a sucker for the reality tv shows) thats awesome - i didnt like charlie - he wasnt fun...(what was up w/ his slicked back hair?!?!) anywaz, i think she made the right decision.

o guess what? as manda drove me home from church, her lil bro found the big and lil dipper and showed them to me. believe it or not, ive never seen them...and usually i could care less about astronomy and shit like that but it was kinda cool.

yea im supposed to "read" the rest of Frankenstein but i dont know what chapter we're on...o well. can u believe that my lit teacher has taought this book for the past several years, but has never seen the movie "Young Frankenstein"??? i mean, c'mon its a classic!

weezer had some awesome mocks on me today...she's gettin better.

ahhh!!! i got my hair permed like beginning of july (its still in too)and afterwards my hair started to like fall out a lil...well now my hair is growin back in...bright blonde! sick.

i got this NHS thingy tomorrow nite...ooo fun (heavy sarcasm).

o yea...i got 30 service hours due by april 30. guess how many i got done? none nada zip zero...i procrastinate too much.

well im out - cya

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:: 2003 18 February :: 9.23 pm
:: Mood: blah

i feel like shit.

deficiencys come out soon:(

somehow i managed to survive through the day w/ only 2 hours of sleep

yea i dont feel good tho - so im out, cya

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:: 2003 16 February :: 10.36 pm
:: Mood: mellow

jami was here friday - she witnessed me kill my knee on a huge ice block thingy...the swelling is going down.

\"Frankenstein\" is like the most boring book ive ever read (or, well, am supposed to read) - i mean, who assigns hw over break and expects it to be done?

badmitton is the sport from hell - why is it even considered a sport?!?!

its a good thing that we had a snow day last week - it bumped out project\'s due date to this tues instead of thurs...good thing cuz we had it only half done...we\'ll probly due that tomorrow.

its cold outside

me and mandi watched some of the wrestling districts saturday (i think it was division 2)...then we got bored and left...no offense to wrestlers...there\'s only so much spandex we can take lol.

i got somemore of those \"jijjian\" college shit...this time from university of chicago and usc...one of my few blonde moments that will come back to haunt me haha.

in art they\'re making us do sculptures of our heads/faces...its gonna take forever...

im goin shopping tomorrow - yet am broke - explain that one to me.

well im out - cya

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