LOVE. . . I'm crazy in it.

LOVE. . . I'm crazy in it.

:: 2005 8 July :: 3.37am
:: Mood: pissed
:: Music: Oasis - wonderwall

all these bitches talk shit<3
I LOVE IT WHEN my friends talk shit.. and say they feel bad for me.. *ahem* yeah i no who u r... and ur such a bitch!!!! i did everything for you. But no fuck that! ugh. im so disgusted with you. but thats ok, i wont let it bother me. i have other friends who don't use me.

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TheEdgeofYourAtmosphere

:: 2005 7 July :: 11.04pm
:: Mood: numb
:: Music: Scarling - beautiful

today is my first entry in awhile; i used to have woohu back in the day before you had to pay for it. but now i'm back. heh. i was drawingxblackxlines so yeah. nothing has been to good around here, its always shitty for me. my friend<3 bruce left for Iraq :sigh: i miss him more than ever. and i'm having boy troubles? blah its normal but what can i say.. my mom is coming around she isnt so bitchy anymore and my real dad is a cum guzzler whom i hate more than anything..ive been cheated so many times; im fed up!!!, but my last few days have been alright i was at my friend kellys and my other friend jena came over sometimes i feel like they dont really like me; like i get on there nerves.. ever felt like that? well i do all the time i can't help it. i saw the fireworks the other day it was okay. also i came into occurence with my ex dan i got so sick to my stomach it was unbareable he's trying to by me back but i'm sorry it isnt going to happen you cant BUY me back.. and i don't want a guy who says he loves me but cheated on me 5 times; i was with him for a year in a 1/2. ugh. enough said i had a rough few months.

much love,
Rochelle

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ashlieandtinasbytch

:: 2005 2 July :: 3.51am

locked.
comment to be added.

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ashlieandtinasbytch

:: 2005 1 July :: 3.48am

so i'm gonna start somewhat using this again.

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love4skate

:: 2005 25 May :: 7.10am

well, exams will start in a matter of minutes. and i have a great deal of doubtfulness that i will fail this. :\ alright bye.

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love4skate

:: 2005 24 May :: 9.27am
:: Mood: okay
:: Music: from first to last--emily.

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FROM FIRST TO LAST.

"Emily"

smiles and her laughter
its the only thing that ive been waiting for a time
regardless of our distance and our hope...grows greater
trapped by pretty eyes and letters for all time
...the only thing that ive been waiting for

i hope its something worth the waiting
cause its the only time that I ever feel real
thunder storms could never stop me
cause there's no one in the world like Emily

shes simple yet confusing
her sparkling eyes make me weak and my words they tremble
days seem like years in this month of December
the winter coldens me for i have yet to sleep
and never will i give up trying because you're everything to me

i hope its something worth the waiting
its the only time that i ever feel real
thunder storms could never stop me
cause theres no one in the world like Emily
there's no one in the world like Emily

p.s. wouldnt that be cool if someone wrote that for me...or even felt such ways about me..? hmm... that would be the most greatest feeling a girl could ever get.

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love4skate

:: 2005 23 May :: 8.22am
:: Mood: okay
:: Music: country shit in saads.

poop.
well..i have a new love interest. his name is jeremy azinger ! i love that kid so much. hes awesome. :) my friend sir patrick ryan swazy george likes me..but i dont like him like that. he said he was kinda sad when i told him how i felt. but hes still really awesome. :) ill post pictures when i actually get on my computer. lol. ive been on it like once all week. brittanys keeping me busy :) we have to study for exams tonight and tomorrow and wednesday night. this is crazy. why do we have exams the last 4 days of school? 1. you cant concentrate. 2. we shouldve had exams last week so we could have fun this week. 3. we need to get together with friends..and have yearbook signing. i know a few people that are moving. which totally sucks. amanda, : \ im gunna miss her verrry much. but me and her will hang out over summer :)) well im gunna go do something..no idea what..but something lol. catch you later.

♥

cant make this right
you see on my face
that im not gonna be alright
not tonight
you can read all my letters
but that wont mean things are fine
not this time
cause you gave away
all the secrets of you and i

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love4skate

:: 2005 20 May :: 8.20am
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: nothing..at all.

poop.
bloodhound gang--three point one four
♥

my last girlfriend didnt like me thought she might be
most likely a dyke she just didnt excite me
lefty? yeah but that was alright
she was hotter than the sun but she just wasnt that bright
my mistake she was more flaky than a leper colony
i think a wooden clothespin would have been much better company
ass like a donkey acting funky gave her i now shes a flunky
so my love for her died quicker than a batch of sea monkeys
early bird gets the worm spread your legs or spread the word
so what if im not the smartest peanut in the turd
im white which goes with everything but i can come in any color
&im looking for the kind of girl that reminds me of my mother
but its hard to find a girl with a viper tattooed on her tushy
&how many girls do you know that can play the harmonica with their pussies
like em� easy&hot&sweet like a rice krispie treat
gee you know what i really want in a girl? me

i need to find a new vagina
any kind of new vagina
its hard to rhyme a word like vagina
calvin klein? kind of north carolina

women are like dog doo hear me through dont interrupt
its just the older that they are the easier they get to pickup
id fill the generation gap clean the cobwebs from her rafters
old hens would rather put out than be put out to the pasture
no age just aint a gauge i like my girls like my cheese
preferably for me fat free american singles only
i want my next chick anorexic the winner is the thinner
wont have to take her skinny ass out to a fancy dinner
like sizzler she got a beef well chew the fat
if i forget to put the seat up i can put up with her crap
let her lash out&crack the whip but not in bed i dont play rough
no i cant be tied down with a girl that wants me tied up
just independent like nofx smart like janeane garafolo
shed use big words to make fun of me so that i would never know
bestow upon me all her wisdom of the dewey decimal system gee
you know what i really want in a girl? me

i need to find a new vagina
any kind of new vagina
its hard to rhyme a word like vagina
kevin klein? kind of south carolina

vagina vagina vagina vagina
vagina vagina vagina vagina

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love4skate

:: 2005 19 May :: 8.41am
:: Mood: chipper
:: Music: country shit.

i♥brittany marie.
well.. brittany slept over last night :) again. we had a grand ol time. we watched "White Noise" it kinda sucked. but oh well. my moma dukes is picking us up from school;taking us to britts;taking care of her mom;shade is getting us food;and then shades gunna take us to my house;brittany shall sleep over again. ive been having an awesome time while brittany has been over :) well.. i cant wait till after school. :) its gunna be effing awesome. :) anyway, jon texted me from his moms cell this morning in class. and we talked for a few. then he said he couldnt talk,and to write him a note and that he loves me. and i wrote him a note. saw him after 1st;gave it to him;i started walking away.. and i guess he wanted a hug and i didnt even notice. so when i went back to give him a hug hes like "whatver" and gave my 2 friends a hug. i was like fuck you then ya poop. i didnt say that but i wanted to. wow, i like him alot. i dont want to put hes like permenantly attached to my heart. its crazy. he could take my heart out of my chest throw it on the ground..watch it break;and i'd still love him. but when he takes my heart he gives it back in one piece. most of the time.he has no idea how much i like him. well..i dont know if he knows. but then again i like robin. : \ me&him are buds :) hes like "emily will you be my bud?" and im like "heck yess" this was yesterday on the phone :) it was cool.he makes me happy. :) golly. i hate this.poop. ok well, im gunna go now.
later.

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love4skate

:: 2005 18 May :: 8.21am
:: Music: brittany.

poop.
hey guys. well.. ive been slammed with work in my computer class. Grah. they "hose" you as Hill would say.. at the end of the year. its sucks rank ass. well this weekend i hung out with brittany. we went to alicias party. Then brittany slept over on sunday. we went to school. nothing interesting happened monday..that i can think of right now. yesterday went to work. called robin. talked to him for a bit. then went to the doctors. for my 3--month check--up. i need my glasses i dontk now when my moms gunna get off her lazy ass and take me. anyway, after that i went to work. me&ben had to stay till freaking 9. then we had to go to walmart where i was gunna meet jon. but i didnt look for him. lol. me and ben got gas. then headed home. we blarred some sweet music. everyones tellign me and him to go out. and shit. and we're like "we're like family" what the crap. its none of anyones business about me &him. his ex--gf's like.. thats how we started as she laughed. hahahahaha. thats like so totally funny. hahahahaha. fucking blonde headed noisy ass noog. she needs to seriously shut it. anyway, so far today is going alright. me and alison almost got into a huge fight. thank god alicia started talking. i got new medicine yesterday. i took it this morning. i feel the same..
Side Effects: May Grow Penis.
hahahahaha. funny stuff. i really like *him* what a poop. jeez. grah. i dont know what else to say. im out.
later.

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love4skate

:: 2005 13 May :: 8.47am
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: country poop.

that little ratty ass bitch.
yesterday was a crazy day.. i havent smoked in a long ass time. and yesterday ashleys like come on lets go, so im like sure why not. so we did and she showed me how to do this thing.. idk. it was weird. all i know is i kept doing it over and over and over again. and i couldnt walk. it was like i was drunk and high at the same time. i was laughing..and i was dizzy. and then all of a sudden i sat down on the ground in the middle of the hallway. just sat there for like 20 min. feeling like i was gunna throw up and heavy breathing. i was sweating so bad and it felt like there was 3497457 knives stabbing me. i was supposed to be in class. so finally i got up..still feeling like shit. taking deep breaths and ashley was holding hands with me.. i was too out of it to care. Shes like a sis so it dosent matter. but i had her spray me. and i went into class. i felt really weird. like i was gunna throw up. had the smell lingering on my clothes. my teacher kept glaring at me.. i fell asleep in class..in which i barely ever do. anyway, after 4th per. i saw ashley and we have 5th per. together so we went to smoke again.. but i didnt cuhz i still wasnt feeling good. this girl stopped and stared at us. and then ashley was done so we went back to class. as we were walking back, we hear "ladies" and we're turn around and this ladys like "i was just informed that you 2 were smoking" and we just stared at her and listened to what she was saying. shes like "why even bother at the end of the year? since it is the end i'll let you off, but dont do it again" and we're like "ok, thank you" and ashleys like.. if she wouldve done something i wouldve told her that you didnt do anything. we got back into class like 15 min. late. and ashley did all the talking. im horrible at talking to teachers cuhz i get an attitude. so she talked to her. and then i went on the rest of the day feeling like shit. guys, dont smoke. thats my story. the end.

i swear
if i could take your pain and frame it and hang it on my wall
maybe you would never have to hurt at all
im painting pictures in red and blue
a portrait bruised just like you
and now youre walking away

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love4skate

:: 2005 12 May :: 8.51am
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: something corporate.

wow.. ive been really happy lately. i love it. im falling for jon all over again... i dont know if its right.. but its how i feel. i cant help it.

tonight we fly away so high
tonight we fly away
you know the moon is full and
i cant live without you

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love4skate

:: 2005 11 May :: 8.22am
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: hawthorne heights.

poop.
robin called me yesterday for the first time. i didnt tell him to or anything. :) i talked to him for like an hour. then i had to go to work. i was at work for like and hour then i called him and he wasnt home. :\ me and ben had a heart to heart. it was nice. he was gunna let me drive his car a ways home.. but i didnt feel like it. so poop. got home last night ... ate . my mom told me she saw billy,bryan, and alicia when she went to get the food. billys the one that has to talk to my mom about us hanging out this summer. cuhz hes in college. hes a sophomore now :) ive been having weird dreams about him and other people lately. its weird. and i had a dream about a bunch of weird stuff last night.. and its all been happening so far today.. im like whoaaa. thats freaky as a bit. i let jon use my phone yesterday starting in 4th per. and he would give it back after 6th per. i gave it to him so we could text. :) well after 6th per. hes like ill give it back to you at the end of 7th. so im like ok. so i used brittanys phone to talk to him. then after 7th i couldnt find him. so i used alisons phone to call him and hes like im in overflow. im like WTF?! im on the bus. and hes like ill give it back tomorrow. im like w/e. so he better have it.. or i swear to god. its dead i bet. cant wait to see the lovely pictures he took with it. lol. oh well.. i love that kid.. so it dosent matter. well... i have nothing else to say at the moment. catch you guys later.

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love4skate

:: 2005 10 May :: 8.41am
:: Mood: angry
:: Music: got a single silver bullet shot right through my heart... to prove i cant survive without you.

poop.
i was in a great mood this morning.. cuhz me and alison listened to this mix CD on the bus.. :) and we were happy and jumping around and yeah. but then i got into computer and britt said something and i didnt get mad at her... it made me think. i dont know. maybe i shouldnt take it seriously.. but if thats what she thinks then maybe shes right. now im in a poopy mood. :\ britt i know your going to read this. dont be mad and dont feel bad about what you said.. cuhz hey you're probably right.. and i hate for you to be right on something such as this.. but hey truth hurts. and i'll get over it. thanks for the honesty though. :) i love you very much. well anyways, this bitch decides to take me and alisons seat this morning on the bus.. im like WTF ?! little bitch. i mean if she didnt talk shit to robin.. then i wouldnt really care.. but shes deffinetly not on my list of cool kids. i dont even know why she sits where we do. we all talk shit about her and her friend.. so whats the point ? if your bus talks shit about you... LEAVE GODDAMNIT ! she gets put to shame.. i tell you what . :) but its really funny. anyway, im having an alright day.. im not wearing a shirt under my jacket.. and alicia and alex said that they're going to pull the zipper down before the end of the day.. so im trying to get a shirt lol . oh well. oh and dont ask why i didnt wear a shirt lol. i felt like being free....? lol. well im gunna go. gotta read britts journal :)
catch you guys later.

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ill breathe you in
i won't let you down
i won't hold your back
i won't make a sound
i know what scared you the most
being alone
just like them
being alive
feeling so... dead
at least you'll have my... heart
you know you shine so bright

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love4skate

:: 2005 9 May :: 8.11am
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: the fan. its this awesome band... it goes wooooosh.

im the happiest ive ever been. :)
well guys... my weekend was pretty cool. got off of work at 5. called anysia... went to her house. then went to some play ; her sister was in. it was horrible. but me,anysias mom, and anysia made it so fucking funny. it was awesome. people thought we were literally crazy. it was funny. :) then her mom dropped us off at my house. we got dressed up... dresses panty hose,make up, hair, and everything.. wanna know why? we dont know. just some random thing. thats my middle name.. :) anyways, saturday didnt get my hair done cuhz my mom is gay. hung out with anysia. went to target got my mom some pretty random/awesome mothers day presents . :) dropped anysia off. went home. i dont remember what i did. sunday.. went out for brunch at some super fancy place. had to wear a dress. grrrr. with makeup,high heels,hair,blah blah. My feet hurt so bad. After that. went to my grandparents house. tanned for a bit, then went on the computer.. met this really awesome kid matt. hes really hott.. and hes awesome ! i love that kid. :) we talked about alot . we have ALOT in common. we're saving up money to see eachother... but he lives in the same town that i have family in so i can just visit them. :) that'd be cool. he likes me alot. and i like him. we're cool. and we're both going to the vans warped tour ! :))) soo... im in computer now.. and its really gay. he thinks he's teaching us stuff... we're not even paying attention and we'll forget by tomorrow . lol . oh well. well im gunna go. catch you guys later.

shake down you make me break for goodness sake
i think im on the edge of something new with you
shout out dont drown the sound ill drown you out
youll never scream so loud as i want to scream with you
*matt*

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