We Were Meant To Live for So Much More

:: 2009 1 February :: 6.40pm

How I Met Your Mother
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5 Meanings | What is your life meant to be?

:: 2009 13 January :: 8.20pm

new music recommendations please?

:: 2009 6 January :: 9.59pm

Update
Start: April 4, 2008
End: January 1, 2011

The Mission: Complete 101 preset tasks in a period of 1001 days.

The Criteria: Tasks must be specific (ie. no ambiguity in the wording) with a result that is either measurable or clearly defined. Tasks must also be realistic and stretching (ie. represent some amount of work on my part).

Why 1001 Days? Many people have created lists in the past - frequently simple goals such as New Year's resolutions. The key to beating procrastination is to set a deadline that is realistic. 1001 Days (about 2.75 years) is a better period of time than a year, because it allows you several seasons to complete the tasks, which is better for organizing and timing some tasks such as overseas trips or outdoor activities.

My 101:
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5 Meanings | What is your life meant to be?

:: 2009 4 January :: 9.32pm

Randomness
It's really fun to take someone's journal and enter in the following:
www.woohu.com/~username/back/600/
total weirdness and nostalgia time.

If they made a movie of your life, would I be a character in it? Who would play me?

I'd like to think that if I made a movie of my life, I would be played by Alyson Hannigan (a la How I Met Your Mother). And Paul could be Jason Segal.

Upon reflection, I'm starting to think that I must have sucked as a girlfriend. I'm sorry (to all of you).

:: 2008 24 December :: 4.26pm
:: Mood: content

I'm home with the parents right now. I've been home for a few days since my seniority at work actually got me valuable time off for once. I've leaving tomorrow afternoon, though, because I have to work at five thirty on the day after Christmas, although Meijer doesn't actually open until six.

I'm going to be alone for a few weeks since Rueben is staying down here to work and I have to go back to Mt. Pleasant to work. I've already planned on going on a baking frenzy to take up my time. I think I'm also going to start working out at the student activity center now that I'm feeling better.

And I am feeling better. I've been able to actually eat for about three weeks now. I've gained about ten pounds back, so I don't look so scary any more.

Grades are in, I got all B's and a B+ in my English class, and I'm okay with that. If I can pull all B's while almost dying, I think I did well.

I'm not looking forward to driving home tomorrow, but I think I'll be alright.

It was nice having a few days off, and I'll be ready when next semester starts in a few weeks.

kandy

:: 2008 16 December :: 4.07am
:: Mood: thoughtful

So heres my update. Its been forever and a day. I miss high school. Shit was so much different then. Things were so much easier and less complicated. I sit here now a married woman, going through high school journal entries tearing up at how much drama there was. I still miss having some of those people in my life, and for treating them the way i did. and it just doesn't matter anymore. i realize it over and over no matter how much i wish it did matter. I wish i still had some of the friends i had in high school. i just wish i had more friends that were closer to me. Sorry to anyone that reads this ... it isn't intended on being depressing... just at getting emotions out.

:: 2008 15 December :: 9.05pm

and im never sure what i'm living for but it's always on my mind
someone comes along always proves me wrong think im gonna be fine

we get lost in the back of our minds
got nothing to burn but time time time
everybody's got the love but they keep it inside

met an acquaintance we were reintroduced
with more in common than we had in our youth
she told me "you look the same" i said "i'm now a new man"
she asked me "how does that work" "i started giving a damn"

5 Meanings | What is your life meant to be?

:: 2008 6 December :: 2.30pm

I turn 21 tomorrow.

:: 2008 17 November :: 12.01pm

I have a french exam in one hour that I am not prepared for.

I'm fairly sure I just failed a math exam two hours ago.

But I think I'm going to be okay, and that's all that really matters right now.

[edit] I think the French exam went all right and I've almost eaten an entire tray of sushi. Yippee.

:: 2008 10 November :: 2.58pm

I haven't updated in a while. I haven't had time. No. That's incorrect. I haven't had the motivation.

Something is wrong. I'm sleeping all of the time and always tired. It's not depression. I went to the doctor's and they told me I had a viral infection and anemia. A week later, it should be better, but I slept for over twelve hours last night and I've been laying down every chance I get.

I went home on Sunday for a family reunion and the only things people said to me is that I look like a poster child for anorexia and I look tired. I've lost almost eighty pounds. I'm trying to stay stable at 130.

Although my test came back negative for mono, I still think I probably have it. Why else would I be so tired all of the time? Everything is suffering because of it: my grades, my attitude, my dealings with my friends and brothers.

I just want to wake up and be okay.

2 Meanings | What is your life meant to be?

:: 2008 20 October :: 7.43pm

I want to ask you
Do you ever sit and wonder
It's so strange
That we could be together for so long
And never know, never care
What goes on in the other one's head
Things I've felt but I never said
You said things that I never said
So I'll say something that I should have said long ago

You don't know me
You don't know me at all
You don't know me
You don't know me at all
(At all...)

You could have just propped me up on the table like a mannequin
Or a cardboard stand up and paint me (paint me anything)
Any face that you wanted me to be
See, we're damned by the existential moment
Where we saw the couple in the coma
And it was we who were the cliche
But we carried on anyway
So sure I can just close my eyes
Yeah, sure, trace and memorize
But can you go back once you know?

You don't know me
You don't know me at all
You don't know me
You don't know me at all
(At all...)

You don't know me
You don't know me at all
You don't know me
You don't know me

If I'm the person that you think I am (Ahh....)
Clueless chump you seem to think I am (Ahh...)
So easily led astray, an errant dog who occasionally escapes and needs a shorter leash then
Why the fuck would you want me back?
Maybe it's because...

You don't know me at all
(Ahhhh, ahh...)
You don't know me, you don't know me
(Ahhhh, ahh...)

So what I'm trying to say is
What I'm trying to tell you is not going to come out like I want to say it
Cause I know you'll only change it
Say it

You don't know me
You don't know me at all
You don't know me
You don't know me at all
(At all...)

You don't know me
You don't know me at all
You don't know me
You don't know me at all
(At all!)

What?

:: 2008 21 October :: 10.50pm

Sometimes I feel like I'm the only one laughing, the only one aware. I just can't shake the feeling that sometimes I see things in a way that no one else can even comprehend.

Central won against Western. For those of you who don't know, it's a big deal. There are five state troopers parked about two hundred yards away from my apartment to keep things "under control." This is probably the quietest Saturday night of the year as of yet.

:: 2008 15 October :: 4.25pm

I am withdrawing from chemistry. It is going to make me a happier person.

I'm taking French and three literary theory classes next semester. Probably.

:: 2008 16 October :: 7.58am

Monday.

Math at nine. Chemistry exam at ten that I feel like I'm going to fail, but I can't afford to.

French at one.

Follow up appointment with the doctor at three. Maybe I'll know what's going on then.

SGA at seven, meeting with Brothers at eight, eboard at nine, membership education meeting.

Oh, and I have to buy toilet paper sometime.

AHHHHHGGG!

:: 2008 7 October :: 12.27pm

I got a straight A on my contemporary theory paper about Existentialism.

Yay.