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2008 12 February :: 1.48pm
:: Mood: lonely
I've been house sitting this past weekend, and will continue to do so until Friday night. I'm enjoying the time away from the house. The downfall is that they only have one phone line, so I can't really get online because I don't want to miss a call from the home owners in case something happened, as it did last time I sat for them, so I rarely ever talk to Kelly. I think I've talked to him once in the last four days, and then I got disconnected and I couldn't get back online.
On top of that we have gotten another ice storm. It isn't as astronomical as the previous ones, but it seems worse since I'm all alone. Plus I have to go outside in the freezing rain or snow and feed and water cattle, dogs, and cats. As enthralling as that sounds... not so much.
I was hoping that school would consider it bad enough to cancel class, and because of this I didn't really study for my test tonight.... Ha. I got screwed over, because it is in fact NOT canceled. gg me. My English class was canceled, however, but surely not because of the weather.
Anyway, here I am not studying mere hours before my test. I've gotten so bad about this stuff. In high school I always had my work done beforehand, knew all the material for my tests... Now I hate my teachers, I hate (most of) my classmates, and I hate school so I simply don't do things because it makes me mad. This doesn't affect anyone but me, so I don't know why I do this. It's not as though I can fail to do my things and then be like, "Ha, that'll show you," because no, it doesn't "show" them, I simply will fail. End of story.
I miss Kelly. I love talking to him, even when we don't talk. If we're both busy doing our own thing and only say a few things ever so often, I'm fine with it. I just like knowing that he's there for me to ramble on about anything and everything as it happens. God I love him.
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2008 10 February :: 10.02pm
sweet deal
apparently im an 8
wheres my damned cookie?
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2008 10 February :: 9.07am
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: Tattoo - Jordan Sparks
Insomnia seems to have quite the grip on me lately and I am thoroughly exhasted.
I have a huge Biology test Tuesday that I need to study for, and finish some assignments.
Homework can wait though, because I have shopping to do after church.
sweetness.
-I think "Tattoo" is a retarded song... but I can't help but love it. Don't worry, I'm very confused by this as well.
+Edit+ I found the most fucking amazing purse thing at PacSun, seriously. It's not a purse though, really, it's more like a carry-on... but I enjoy it so it shall be my very large, super sized purse. It's got gray straps and detailing, and then little white and baby pink Roxy signs all over it. <3x20
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2008 6 February :: 9.45am
:: Mood: drained
I've bought the tickets, now I just need the 7th to get here.
I had a horrible dream last night though, I was on my way to the airport, and for some reason my entire family accompanied me, and then I had to take a trolly to get to the check in desk and get all my tickets and whatever, and then I realized that I didn't have my phone charger, and I panicked a little bit, but then Mom said she would just send it to Kelly's, and so I was alright. Then everyone but Dad was gone and we were walking around (I haven't decided what happened to the trolly) and the airport turned into this carnival like place, but it was Missouri State University, but it was also still the airport because we were looking for the check in desk, and then I was like "omg I forgot to get my luggage" so I didn't have any clothes or my charger and then I forgot my license, but I still had my school ID, and I finally got to the check in desk, but only after we had to run through this wooded area... it was retarded, but it was like scary and I woke up with my heart like pounding and in the dream I was crying non stop.
All my previous trips up there have killed me on the way up or back, the bus... fuck, between the man in scrubs with a bandaged head and an erection, and the biker/cowboy with a pint and ashtray breath, and the man with the stained, cat urine pillow... well yeah, I'm done with that, and the other one like all of my flights were delayed, and the flight from Kansas City back to Joplin on the way home was delayed for 6 hours. It is damn near time I have a nice trip I would think. I will so slay someone if this one makes me die too.
*acts intimidating*
School/homework is taking over my life.
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2008 4 February :: 5.28am
I have A-ha's "Take on Me" and Taco's "Puttin' on the Ritz" stuck in my head.
Thank you Family Guy.
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2008 4 February :: 3.42am
So wear me like a locket around your throat,
I'll wear you down, I'll watch you choke.
You look so good in blue, you look so good in blue.
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2008 29 January :: 10.23pm
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: Sorry - Buckcherry
Random shit
I took my watch off and put it down, and it's in a position that makes me think of a frog and it amused me.
Anyway, yesterday was my dad's 45th birthday, and today was Brooklyn's 4th birthday, so I've had more than my share of cake. I don't really like icecream, so I opted not to have it. I like Ben and Jerry's New York Super Fudge Chunk, and things with almonds.
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So, I lost my planner and I'm kind of freaking out. I have my life written in that thing and it's very vital to my existance.
I decided tonight in Biology that it's going to be the death of me. It's not really that hard, but I'm just bored with it and there's so much shit going on at all points in time that I just space out and stop caring. We have notes and worksheets and labs and discussions like all at once and it just like consumes you and you start freaking out trying to get everything done and there's no possible way for you to get it all done in one night. Then if you have a question, there's honestly no hope in getting attention because there's too many people in the class and too many things going on so ... fuck. It's just crazy and so I just don't care. I wanted to keep my 4.0 but it's just looking impossible and it's only the third week.
Also, my bottom right wisdom tooth is coming in and holy fuck. Ouch.
On the bright side of my hectic life, just a little over a month before I get to see Kell again. I'm excited. I'm going up there again, so ... yeah. I can't wait.
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2008 25 January :: 10.28pm
The Raven: Remodified
"once upon a midnight dreary, while i pron surfed, weak and weary, over many a strange and spurious site of ' hot xxx galore'. While i clicked my fav'rite bookmark, suddenly there came a warning, and my heart was filled with mourning, mourning for my dear amour, " 'Tis not possible!", i muttered, " give me back my free hardcore!"..... quoth the server, 404."
HILARIOUS.
/giggles
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2008 25 January :: 3.17pm
:: Mood: blah
I'm going to go buy something small and furry. Maybe a hampster or a gerbil. I thought about getting another rat, I know it's completely weird, but I like them because they're just completely awesome. idk though, I'll have to see how cute everything is and go on that.
I'm excited though, for a change. I've been kind of depressed lately.
Kelly was talking about going out with pJ and whomever else tonight I think, but I never got the end result on that thought, so I don't know what he's doing.
Anyway, yeah, cute and furry things here I come.
+Edit+
Furry things postponed until tomorrow :(
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2008 24 January :: 6.41pm
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: I don't need anymore friends
Love these genes
Gotta love these genes. My mom's over-analyzing powers, and my dad's anger and limited patience. I'm so glad I got these traits, because it makes doing anything thats new next to impossible. I've already tried to play the guitar some more, but I can't because it feels like its out of tune and my fingers won't work right, so I can't do a damn thing about it. I'll have to go spend an awkward day with my uncle to even get chords, which makes me feel pretty damn stupid.
I went to Physics for the first time today, setting a new record for missing the first day up to a certain point. The first two times weren't my fault, but the others have been, so its just a meh situation for me. Professor Bacon was cool about it, showed me what I needed to do, and set me on the right path, which is more than I can say for the guys back at central. Though walking in today not touching physics since high school where I got one of my lowest grades ever was a bad idea. I don't think "88 mph" was how fast that ball was falling in the problem, but I saw it in back to the future, so who knows.
Another fun thing I did while cleaning up my room was I found an old John Meyer disc and got really pissed, and destroyed it. Bonus points if you know why! Also, I'm beginning to think that I am really messed up in the head, and could use some therapy or something.
I'm off to go make or buy dinner, I haven't decided, so later kids.
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2008 21 January :: 1.34am
This song makes me happy in an extremely sad way.
Lullaby - The Spill Canvas
It's the way that you blush when you're nervous.
It's your ability to make me earn this.
I know that you're tired, just let me sing you to sleep.
It's about how you laugh out of pity,
'Cause lets be honest I'm not really that funny.
I know that you're shy, just let me sing you to sleep.
If you need anything, just the say the word.
I mean anything.
Rest assured, if you start to doze, then I'll tuck you in,
Plant my lips where your necklace is close.
It's those pills that you don't need to take,
medicating perfection, now that's a mistake.
I know that you're spent, just let me sing you to sleep.
It's your finger and how I'm wrapped around it.
It's your grace and how it keeps me grounded.
I know that you're weak, just let me sing you to sleep.
If you need anything, just the say the word.
I mean anything.
Rest assured, if you start to doze, then I'll tuck you in,
Plant my lips where your necklace is close.
While you were sleeping I figured out everything,
I was constructed for you, and you were molded for me.
Now I feel your name, coursing through my veins.
You shine so bright it's insane, you put the sun to shame.
(Oh)
If you need anything, just the say the word.
I mean anything. (I really do)
Rest assured, if you start to doze, then I'll tuck you in,
Plant my lips where your necklace is close.
If you need anything, just the say the word.
I mean anything.
Rest assured, if you start to doze, then I'll tuck you in,
Plant my lips where your necklace is close.
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2008 20 January :: 7.38pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: Over My Head (Cable Car) - The Fray
I wish Kelly was on, I miss him.
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2008 16 January :: 3.31pm
:: Mood: cranky
:: Music: Terrible Lie - Nine Inch Nails
Jacob is officially gone. He left for Mizzu at like 8:00 this morning, which makes me a little sad, but it's okay. My first classes were like... ugh. That's the only way to describe them. I don't think I like my English teacher, she was gross and stupid and all the assignments are retarded.
Biology is fine, but we took eight pages of notes in the first hour, did three worksheets, and a discussion. It was crazy, but I like it anyway.... except for the stupid vagina juices that are in there. Seriously, the class consists of almost nothing but old people, and they're all psychotic and stupid and the younger people are quiet. They also kept making fun of the professor, but he's totally cool so they're just retarded yet again. I want them to all fall and break their hips and gtfo of my class.
So... yeah. I miss Kelly. Honestly we like never get to talk because I'm a stupid whore and go places. Now that Jacob's gone my life should go back to normal, though I'll have homework.
Ha, I'll have him help me though. He's smart.
Oh, fuck okay I got a 2gig flash drive and Jacob has a shit load of music so I went and stole it. Well it got to like 1.13gig's and then said it was full, and we tried to do whatever but nothing worked. So, I get home and attempt to stick the shit on my wmp and it recognizes the files, but says ... something something. idk. I'm too annoyed to mess with it any further, but Thursday night this shit is going to work for me or I will kill it dead.
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I might have possibly removed the songs from the flash drive and into a folder and I might have forgotten that I had done such things. It might work now that I'm not a dumbass anymore.
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