you know you've got everybody fooled

4 not real | & you can't save me

:: 2004 6 June :: 8.52pm

omg i havent updated in forever... anyway... i had the time of my life that nightt omg soooo much freakinn fun!!!!! oyy i didnt want that night to end... ok what else happened, i made emily hate me, peter asked me out nd i turned him down for 3 reasons:
1. i dont like him
2. em would hate me oh well she does anyway
3. im crazy bout someone else
so now peter hates me too and caroline said the following about me:
shes a fukin looser that has NO chancce with some 9th grade kid nd she shood be happy that some1 as nice as u takes even a little interest in her...she dont have the personality or looks to get picky with her "feelings nd rules" im gunna make sure she realizes that.
kinda pissed me off... we lost our game nd james party was fun nd his uncle won 1600 bucks on the belmont that smarty jones lost in the last 5 seconds and the breakfast this morning was fun too and i got GREAT picturess nd today i went to see harry potter w/my girlss ((molly nd coco<3)) and omg i get in there nd i turn on my phone for the first time since friday night nd i have a voice mail nd i dunno when its from nd its shawn nd he tells me to call him back so i call his house cuz i didnt have his cell and his mom said oh yeah everyone went to the movies last night he wanted you to come and i said awwww ((to myself lol)) nd then later he called me from his cell so i have that number now lol nd right after i told mj i'd go to the movies with them, he says 'what you doin tonight' nd i tell him im leavin in 5 to go see harry potter w/my girls nd he says oh i was just about to ask u if u wanted to go see that nd i was like omggggggg dammit! 5 minutes early and i could have! oyyyy i was soo mad... but anyway i told him to call me this week nd if he doesnt ima call him one night lol but i was soo happy he wanted to go with me!!! anyway thats the summary of my past couple of days lol mwa

6 not real | & you can't save me

:: 2004 5 June :: 10.19am

last night was SO MUCH FUN! omg<3 almost everything was perfect! omg everyone looked SO nice aah it was sad thoughh... at the end me and tim had to give each other our 11 year speech and a huge hug lol... it was soo stupid how everyone was hugging everyone when we're gunna see them tomorrow lmao but omg it was great<3 i was like gunna cry when they played the cha-cha slide cuz its like a tradition with us! we play it at EVERY dance nd we even did it in the middle of our class room lol... its been sooo much fun... teresa blew out my hair woot woot its all straight and everything lol oyy more later... breakfast time...

3 not real | & you can't save me

:: 2004 4 June :: 6.38pm
:: Mood: excited
:: Music: "Julia" - The Horrorpops

Nar Nar
It is about mall time. Oh yes. I am really bored right now so I thought I would update yet again. I think we are going to Tri-County too. Torrid <333. =O They have a Cold Stone there too! *gets fat thinking about it*
Ooo it's time to go! I'll talk to you later. *takes you all shopping with me*
You know you want to go shopping with THE Sarah. ^_^

6 not real | & you can't save me

:: 2004 4 June :: 10.36am
:: Music: Avenged Sevenfold

Braid Pic
Well here's the picture of my hair in a zillion little braids for Marissa:

It's a tad blurry, but you can see the front little ones kind've okay. That was the best one I could take considering the lighting in my house at the moment. And yes, I doubt I'll get dreads because I really don't want to cut off all my hair after I had waited so long to grow it out. But I do want them. Maybe I'll get some fake ones. Mhm. I took the braids out yesterday, I was afraid they were going to start knotting if I didn't. Well I'm off school today, for the rest of the summer. I might go shopping. MALL RAT.

:: 2004 3 June :: 7.58pm

youre everything ive ever wanted!

i gotta tell him how i feel... its ridiculous when he doesnt know... but i dont want things to be awkward... ya know? i wanted to talk to him when i got home from practice today but he was with like 10 people lol... nd i didnt wanna do it with all of them around..

:: 2004 3 June :: 3.41pm

omgg yesterday was courtney's birthdayy and when we went over for birthday cake the phone rang so i picked it up ((cuz i live there and im allowed to answer the phone lol)) and its desiree so mj's talkin to her WHILE THE CANDLES ARE LIT and im like mj we gotta start singing nd shes like hold on a minute im on the phone and finally when the wax that completely melted onto the cake starts burning courtney yells "MY CAKES GUNNA CATCH FIRE!" and so goes omg desiree lemme call you back! and as we're singing happy bday at like 100 miles a minute courtney blows out the flames before we're done so the whole thing does explode lmaooo it was SOOO funnyy nd mj's like why didnt you tell me! and im like omg... I TRIED! lmaooo it was sooo hysterical

1 not real | & you can't save me

:: 2004 3 June :: 3.40pm

Today was our last day of school. I got loads of pictures but I doubt that I'm going to transfer them to a CD. Haha my friend Mandy braided my WHOLE head today in tiny braids. It looks awesome, I wish it would stay that way. I might get dreads this summer. But I wouldn't want to cut off all my hair when I was tired of them. Ah well. Well I'm going over to Christina's for a bit today to get one roll of film developed. I'm getting the other one developed later because this roll is going to cost more considering I'm getting it done in the One-Hour-Photo deal.

3 not real | & you can't save me

:: 2004 2 June :: 3.53pm

WHOOOOOA
I won the writing contest I was entered in at my school. ^_^ I was so surprised when they called my name. I was definetly not expecting it. Well my prize was $25 so I smell some shopping my near future. Mooha. We had a dance today too. And we got free pizza and drinks, y0. Mhm.

3 not real | & you can't save me

:: 2004 1 June :: 9.10pm

my sunburn hurts!!!

:: 2004 1 June :: 8.52pm
:: Music: somewhere i belong - linkin park

I will never know
Myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel
Anything else until my wounds are healed
I will never be
Anything 'til I break away from me
And I will break away
I'll find myself today

I want to let go of the pain I've held so long
Erase all the pain till it's gone
I want to heal, I want to feel
Like I'm close to something real
I want to find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I remember what they taught to me
Remember condescending talk of who I ought to be
Remember listening to all of that and this again
So I pretended up a person who was fitting in
And now you think this person really is me and im
Trying to bend the truth
The more I push the more I'm pulling away
'Cause I'm Lying my way from you

This isn't what I want it to be
I never thought that what I said
Would have you running from me
Like this

you know...sometimes i remember the darkness of my past, bringing back these memories i wish i didnt have...sometimes i think of letting go and never looking back and never moving forward, so there would never be a past...

1 not real | & you can't save me

:: 2004 1 June :: 8.48pm

ali called and asked me to do her a favor nd then shes like i'll call u when my night minutes start i need to talk to you im like ok i say i need to yell at you she says ok and we're both like bye! =]~

:: 2004 1 June :: 8.27pm

oyy he makes my heart fall to my feet...<3

& you can't save me

:: 2004 1 June :: 6.39pm

omg i've never felt so happy to be around someone in my entire life... how i feel is so indescribably great and bad at the same time... it kills me inside to know that i dont have him... me and meghan went to his grandpa's wake today... and i got two kisses on the cheek =] =] =] both times i had to turn around nd put a big smile on my face nd go woot! lolol... but seriously he makes me soo happy... its unbelievable how crazy he makes me... even when im not around him, hes with me every second -- cuz thats how often i think about him... ive never EVER felt this strongly about ANYONE.. and i kinda like it and i kinda dont... im soooo happy to be with him but the fact that he aint mine and i hate missing him every waking moment... i need him in every sense... physically and emotionally... physically cuz i think my heart will collapse on me and emotionally is kinda obvious cuz hes every thing i've ever wanted and more... and i mean that... he is EVERYTHING you could wish for in a guy... and i dont know how to control my feelings for him because everything i do is about him... all i see is him all i feel is him all i think is him... I CANT GET MY HEAD AROUND HIM!!! its not the falling temperature that makes my bones run cold... its the breeze he makes... the presence felt when he's around me.. i dont know whyy i feel this way i just cant help it... hes the sweetest guy i've ever known nd i feel like the luckiest person alive to know him... sometimes people say they fell head over heels... well i kinda did.. but i didnt fall nd just hit... i SLAMMED!