you know you've got everybody fooled

:: 2004 17 May :: 8.52pm

nfg said it best

"i cant help how i feel"

:: 2004 17 May :: 8.43pm

i cant be in more worse of a mood... we won our game by alot... but i did soo bad tonight... didnt get a single hit and made an error... which i havent done at all this season... i feel so shitty right now

i know its nothing to some people but to me its alot...

im going crazy... i feel like a complete failure... i should be happy that we won... but im not... cuz i did nothing to help us win... ok yea i did i had 2 rbis but i didnt get on base once and that takes alot outta me... cuz being on base just gives me a feeling of relief... and i needed relief today.. cuz im really stressed... and im a mess now cuz i got absolutely no relief whatsoever... it aint even like i hit a hard ball that got caught... i hit two suckyy grounders and one fly that got caught at third... argh!!! i need to cry... not cuz of the game... im not that much of a wuss that i cry over a game... i need to cry cuz i let off so much steam when i cry... im trying to make myself cry now... crap i cant do it... now im mad...

i hate when im mad at myself and when im in such a sucky mood... but i cant help it... i really did feel like i failed myself tonight...

:: 2004 17 May :: 3.51pm
:: Music: understatement... nfg

i just wrote a long entry and i lost it!!! stupid website!!! ok it started with being about billy
guess what? i saw billy's face on the front page of the spectator... some baby fell out of a window onto a fire escape and billy climbed up and rescued it and brought it down and he got like all these awards and everything it was cool... ummm what else was there?? ohh yea adrianna met this guy vinny shes soo into him! aww<3!!! hes really tall n hes cutee lol sorryy... NFG COMES OUT TOMORROWW!!!! me and roro are gunna go after school tomorrow to get it!!! yay! im playing sticks and stones right noww

cuz you're getting worse, i swear it, its hard to prove you're an understatement!! you're getting worse, yes i know you'll be calling, calling, calling me again!

freaking good song!!! catalyst... such a cool word! right? omg! im in love with that word! lol just say it... catalyst. AAH! that word ROCKS MY SOCKS! we play the lightning tonight... jamie shoner's on the team! lmaooo roro!!! omg why do i like calling her RoRo so muchh lol... kelly's finger might be sprained... oy..i cant remember what else was in the entry before i lost it so im gunna update now... ohh i remember!!!

how could i forget???

i sit in front of andrew in LA so i asked him how george was cuz he told me he wanted it to be over but i didnt know if he was really ok or not and andrew told me that he did want it to be over so i said ok and the next thing that came out of andrew's mouth were 'he wants to go out with you" and i looked up from what i was doing cuz i was talkin to him while i was doing something and i said "really?" and hes like im just kidding and laughed so i laughed with him but i thought... andrews not the type to make up something like that? could he have really wanted to say it to me but then just realized he shouldnt have betrayed georgie's trust? cuz when andrew said jk he kinda looked like he was lying so you never know!

kelly's finger aint sprained lol ok now im gunna update... mwaa

3 not real | & you can't save me

:: 2004 16 May :: 3.50pm

Well Emily just left. She came over to my dad's last night, and then came over here to my house when my mom came to pick me up. I'm bored as hell.

:: 2004 16 May :: 10.47am
:: Music: back home - yellowcard

sometimes, i need someone to say you'll be alright, what's on your mind?

yo yo yo whats up dogg?

whoa i have no idea where that came from... now im scared of myself... seriously wtf was that? lmao

ok! anywayyy

my sugarcult cd is too far away for me to get it and i want it! its all the way downstairs! lol its early what do you expect... i had to take a shower already... on a weekend! i dont take early showers on weekends! oy...

I WANT SUGARCULT!

roar lol

i found the CUTEST pic of matt n brian yesterday omggg!!! i went crazy they look soo much like twinss<3 it was sooo cute omgg it was from breezy ((omg soo many memss w/themm<3)) and they have lil towels tied around them like capes and they're standing facing each other in like a superhero pose i almost died its sooo cute

i found a picture of a baby monkey too!!! roarr

found pics from the rangers game when we were in the 4th row babyy!!! woot woot! got pics of poti, lindros, richter before he retired! ::tear:: , and umm... a few other people i cant remember now i gotta go checkk...

malakov, nedved, and more people that i cant see the names of on the jerseys lol i cant remember the line up from two seasons ago...

found soo many other pics too!

one of me, lauren, chrissy n kashh... we dont have any of those!!! too bad its not the best picture lol but oh well... really adorable one of matt n chriss... one of my lil siss<3 courtneyy u know im talkinn bout u luv youu babyy... and one of baby sammy!! omg i forgot how cute he was when mj brought him home!!! i keep getting distracted by the thing that wakes me up every morning! grr... cute pic of me, chrissy, matt n tj..

i had no clue my dad's friend jay's boys were soo hot!!! omg! not the oldest one, hes ok... but the two younger ones! aah! too bad the youngest one's a junior lol but hes pretty hott...

i just sent george an email just askinn him if he was alrightt... i didnt get alot outta jenn but i wanted to make sure he was ok

i just transferred the pic of brian n matt to the computer so if ya wanna see leave me a comment

im basically directing this to ali and ashley...

you guys need to get something like this! cuz you can tell whatever you cant tell other people to something that definitely wont tell anyone cuz it obviously cant talk lol

ok well i need to go eat the breakfast that im smelling... smells like bacon, eggs, sausage, and bagels... and yes i can smell it from the computer room i have a good nose lolol im out...

ohh and before i go, kelli, you arent the center of the world so get over it

4 not real | & you can't save me

:: 2004 15 May :: 8.34pm
:: Music: me singing champagne by sugarcult

we have bricks down in our backyard now... its kinda cool.. cuz now we can play basketball...

kelly's attitude is wayyyy off shes driving me up the wall..

i hit a triple today which should have been a homerun but veronica tripped over second base so i had to stop and wait for her to get up loserrrrrr lolol i love u ronny<3

it was funny lmao

meghan's sick... poor thing

kait's at dan's graduation this weekendd.. cool for them!

SOMEBODY HELP ME! IM LOSING EVERYTHING WHEN IM WITHOUT YOU!

i really need to talk to georgie...

grrrrrr

im annoyed i cant write anymore... bye

:: 2004 15 May :: 7.09am
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: uptown girls, billy joel lol... ali!!!

our last dance together was last night!!! ::cries::

i went to lucy's house so we could get ready together... lorraine straightened my hair SOO well but we were sweatinn soo much down there that it got wavy again... bitch lol i straightened brittany's hair too! it looked sooo nice cuz she has really curly hair... well like in between curly and wavy.. but she looked soo nice... and so did celly cuz her hair was straight too but her hair is ALWAYS straight damn her lol jk shes soo cool but me and lorraine bought BLUE mascara and it looks soo hott especially when lorraine put in the blue hair dye!!! her eyes matched her hair! lmaooo... correction, her eyelashes lol. i hope i didnt leave anything at lucys since i ran out of there lol.. i wore my cargo capris nd my tank top that says "boys are stupid, throw rocks at them" hee hee

now for the good stuff

im not totally interested in that person i was interested in... those of u close to me know who im talking about...

cuz theres another guy who's too sweet! im not gunna mention any names, sorry!!! you lose! =]~*

last night was crazy thoughh... lorraine came up to jenn and said georgie really wants to dance w/u go over to him, and she said no i smell like alcohol lol and she kept making excuses all nightt ((i know cuz i told andrew whose georgies best friend who ive known in the first place, and georgie that i'd get her and i hated having to go over to him and tell him that she didnt want to cuz of this and that but i was kinda on georgies side cuz i felt really bad so i was like tryinn to cheer him up n i was like dont be sad! nd hes like im not! and im like shut up yes u are! and hes like alright im not happy but im not upset n i just said aww to myself lol but i was like alright i'll go talk to her again so i do n she made another excuse so i came back over and sat next to andrew n georgie came up behind me n i told him to sit so i could tell him what she said but there werent any chairs so he sat on mine lol n i told him n hes like u know what, i dont care anymore n i said yea u do n he was pretty convincing when he said if she doesnt wanna dance forget it she could just tell me that she shouldnt make excuses so i was like awww so he had had his arm on the back of the chair n he put it around me so i was kinda like... ok whats he doin, does he like me or is he tryin to get wit someone cuz he couldnt get with jenn? so i didnt say anything i let us sit there until i had to get up cuz the glowstick broke in my mouth!!!! eww omg!!! those things taste disgusting!!! it was only like a tiny leak but omg!!! i drank a whole 1-liter water bottle and it still hadnt gone away!!! ((the taste i mean))

yuck!!!!

so eventually jenn said i wanna dance with him now so i rolled my eyes i was like geez jenn make up ur mind lol so he put on a slow song i dont remember who sang it i just know me and caroline were dancin together to it lmaoo while i brought georgie to jenn and they danced n apparently he said i dont wanna let go to her n then peter came over and the trouble started and he whispered to jenn why r u trying to make joe jealous why are you trying to get back at him? ((she just broke up with joe)) and she wasnt, she broke up with him cuz she likes joe alot more as a close friend which is what they were before but jen got really upset about that n georgie heard peter and backed away from her and said i dont wanna start shit so she ran away hysterical crying and i couldnt make her stop i didnt know what else to do to make her feel better she just wouldnt stop so i went n told peter to fuck himself lol and lorraine mouthed off at joe but she wouldnt feel better about it so i left lorraine with her and told georgie what was going on and hes like omg i just didnt wanna fuckinn get jumped i only know andrew, jenn and you here joe has like six football players behind him i dont wanna fuckin get jumped tonight and i said i know i understand they'd kick the shit outta u, like, im not sayin ur weak im saying ur wayy outnumbered lol and lorraine kept trying to pull georgie to jenn but he didnt wanna go cuz he said u know what, if we didnt get together tonight, at the last dance, im never gunna see her again so screw it, she hates me now... he likes her, he wants to be with her but he kinda doesnt cuz of joe and the whole way she was acting like she didnt wanna talk to him... i dunno its sooo complicated... so i wrote my sn on his hand n he wrote his on mine n i told him we'd talk tomorrow which is today lol but its too early its only 8:3o hes probably still asleep lol alright i've typed enough for now... i need to wake ali up cuz she owes me for the bootleg glowstick!!!!!!!

1 not real | & you can't save me

:: 2004 14 May :: 3.13pm
:: Music: she's the blade, sugarcult

lmaoo matt was outside homeroom today nd kept climbing up the wall to the window thats like really really highh above the ground so we could see his head... it was funny...

we beat sacred heart last night!!! we're in second place!!! woot woot!!! we won 23-11 lmaoooooooo i thought that was really funny... anywayy... they're a good team, too. but we still beat them by... 12 runs! woohoo!.. oyy im tired, long day today... more like long day yesterday, actually... i had dance and every time she told us to do something, she yelled at us for doing that and changed the thing we're supposed to do... i told her i had to leave @ 5:o5 she finally let me go at 5:3o! i was really late for the game and i had such a splitting headache and my mom only had childrens advil for my brother so i had to take like 10 of those

kaitlyn's new name is phillip

im elliot

lmaoo kait ::ahem:: i mean phillip that was madd funny lol lylass

we play MPB on saturday... thats tomorrow actually.. they're 4-1-2 so we should beat them cuz they seem to be an OK team according to their record...

no one's everr seen them before! its like whoAa man lmaoo sryy im kindaa high.. i keep gettin invites to graduation parties i cant schedule this many!!! soo far i've got June 11th, tim, joe, conor, steve, and mike and june 5th, james, and june 12th which i cant go to since thats mine, jonathan, tyler and kelsey... so yeah..

haha we got our math state test results! woot woot i got 40 out of 42 points! that means i got a.... um... 96!!! yayyyy soo happy cuz for those of u who dont know, if u fail two of the four state tests we take, you cant graduate ::gasp!:: soo yea...

i have nothing else to talk about...

ohhh yea! i sent anthony the lyrics to inside out by yellowcard cuz they described us so well but i didnt tell him its a yellowcard song i just sent the lyrics and he IMed me but i had to go so i didnt answer lolol

dance tonight... dunno what to wear...

ok now im gunna go lol later

4 not real | & you can't save me

:: 2004 12 May :: 3.05pm

Arg. One of my friends like the guy I like. I've liked him basically all year, and he's flirted with me and all, but I don't know if he was just flirting to be flirting or if he really liked me. I've been waiting all year for him to make the first move or whatever, but now since it's nearing the end of the year, I'm afraid that won't happen. I'm too shy. Anyways, today my friend Lisa wrote me a note saying that she liked him, and that she would like me to bring it up in a conversation to see if he liked her too. But he's really starting to warm up to me, I mean, really.. but I don't want to lose Lisa as a friend. Ah she has a boyfriend and everything, but she said that she'll dump him if he says he likes her too. I don't know what to do. This is all so confusing.

6 not real | & you can't save me

:: 2004 11 May :: 10.41pm

The LOVE entry
Here is to all the people on my Woohu...past and present that I LOVE.

Marissa (loserxdork): My loverly friend! She is hot and great 2 Da maX y0 Love ya! <333
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Megan (vampuricgothkitten666): I love my Megan too! Gorgeous and has some kickass hair! <333
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Rachel (Angel_Bob): You are great! We may not talk much, but I consider you one of my best friends on here. Love you. <333
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Dustin (Darthavok): We don't talk that much anymore because my MSN kinda fucked up, but I miss you! I don't even think you use Woohu anymore. :( Still wub ya. <333
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Daniel (thewizard): I KNOW you don't use Woohu anymore, but I had to have a little section dedicated to you. *mwah* We don't talk that much anymore either. You need to get on AIM more! Love ya. <333
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Sean: You've been one of the best friends on here since the forums. I miss those days. =( I hope to talk to you soon, I never see you on AIM either. <333
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Kerri (punkedoutspork): Kerri my love! I haven't talked to you in so long. I hope you're doing okay. I miss you too. I miss all my forum buddies. Love you. <333
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metalhead: I see you on my LJ now. <333
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xdreamingxrealityx: Haven't seen you update your journal in a bit. =( I miss you as well. <333
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More Shoutouts to People Who Don't Use Woohu Anymore:

Hallucinogene (Kate)
InStaticPallor (Lindsey)
Kaori (Alexa)
Irbaboon813 (Stefy)

I love you all too and miss you.
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Betcha all think my hands would get tired after all those <333's, didn't ya? ^_^

1 not real | & you can't save me

:: 2004 11 May :: 7.12pm
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: TV

Wowzers
Ooo I'm ordering another shirt.^_^

I luff it. My My Ruin shirt hasn't come yet. Ah well.
I went to get two teeth filled today. Bleh. The one on the right side of my mouth didn't hurt, but the one on my left really hurt. They dug WAY down in my tooth with that Satanic drill. *shudders*
See you all later.

6 not real | & you can't save me

:: 2004 10 May :: 7.28pm

mike n liz r still goinn out and aah!!!

molly n danielle had to make a movie today for a book report thingyy but they read a gymnastics book so i had to tape them doing gymnastics n stuff n we watched it in the long's housee and mike was watchinn it with us and it was funny cuz he kept goinn "oww" and "ooh" and it was funny lol... but matt and brian were in the entire thing doing the stupidest stuff in the world we were crackinn up when we watched it play backk... kelli doesnt believe that she got me into shit... so now im wondering if she ever even considered me a friend... or if she just needed someone to dump her neverending problems on... and i was the first available who would actually listen...grr... maryjo was in the hospital for two dayss!!! :tear: they thought she had divoticulitis but she has an ovarian cyst... soo it might have to be removed, we dunno... but she should be ok soonn... i hope shes ok soon! i went over there today to do the video thing and walk the dog and i went shopping for her and returned stuff for her to polizzi... justin wasnt there damnnn it lol hes sooo hotttt!!! wheeee! ahem... sorrry i kinda lost control theree. roar. ok i feel better after saying roar. haha there i go again. mike kept bugginn me to tell him where our game is tomorrow so he could come and see lizzyy but i wouldnt tell him and we fought over it for like an hourr and i finally told him... i hope he doesnt mess her up!!! lol hahaha my dad cant come tomorrow. yes!! he cant kill me for tellinn mike! rofl. ok sorry lol. aaaaah i finally got the sugarcult cd!!! palm trees and power lines!!!! woot woot! cuz shes the blade and your just paper!!!! great line. ROAR! muahahahaahahah omgg im soo high emily got me all woooooooooooo lol. peter thinks its funny how we talk on the phonee. i guess it kinda is... cuz half the time im not listening and the other half of the time shes not listening lmao. that girl is such a retard she goes "how do you play a joke on helen keller? move the furniture!" so i laughed n shes like it must be hard to be blind... imagine if she was blind AND deaf..." i cracked up laughing and said you idiot she WAS blind AND deaf!" and i laughed for like 6 hourss and then when we called peter she asked him and he said "she was blind and deaf" and she goes omg how did you KNOW!? and it was sooo funny cuz shes sooo stupiddddd lmao... that made me sooooo highh its not even funny.. im soo hyper now... peter yelled at me for saying im hungry so many times. hes like "go get food!!!" and im like "i dont want to!!!!" and he said "then shut up!!!" and i said no!!! and it ended there... roar...

science class sucks... its the only class we have homework in EVERY SINGLE NIGHT... anyway. people kept bugging me today asking me what was wrong... it SUCKS cuz i dont wanna talk about it!!! dont people understand thatttt???? oh yea, they dont lol... OMG!!! emily told me her and stephanie beat up a little chinese kid when they were like in 5th grade in st.es ROFL i said omg ur soooooo mean and shes like who cares? and im like omg u have no heart! and i have to stop sayin and i was like and she was like lol its getting annoying aint it? you know who else is annoying? mike martin... AAAH!!! i wanna kill that kid sooo much!!! and hes really stupid too... i dont mean that as in thats how i see him... he really is stupid... we get dictation in ss once and he thinks the word 'appeasement' is 'amusement'...loser... everything to him is fun... hahah mike mach ((that aint his real name i just call him that)) said that lil brian from st.es is a short person who thinks hes a pimp... so noww i have to call him brian the midget pimp... and emily got mad and told mike that brian is a pimp and they were fighting about it and it was funny... aww im still talkin to mike and i found out he really DOES have a sensitive side lol...we made peace between ourselves and we're not gunna be like "ew its mike/ew its kristen" anymore lol ok well i gotta go cuz i wanna eat something cuz as i told peter a hundred times before IM HUNGRYY!!! ROAR!!!

:: 2004 9 May :: 10.56pm
:: Music: "In the Shadows" - The Rasmus

UHOO UHO
I just got back from King's Island (an amusement park in case you don't know.) It was pretty fun, I rode Son of Beast, Vortex and Tomb Raider. We went there a bit late, so we only got to ride three rides. I got a Ramones shirt there, oddly, hehe. I'm as hungry as a pregnant woman so I'm about to go eat the fuck out of some popcorn chicken. Bye.

2 not real | & you can't save me

:: 2004 9 May :: 1.18am

Back from the mall
Purchases:
I think this is so cute.
This is adorable as well, but the picture makes it look bad.
Wanted: Gorgeous, but it didn't look good on me.
I'm a mall rat. <_<