:: 2004 9 June :: 10.49 pm

i was thinking....

do you enjoy playing with me...

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:: 2004 3 June :: 7.47 pm

capture the flag game>> i was a sniper with mad ammo sitting in my perfect spot that no one can ever find in sidewinder>> we won without them scoreing once, there highest kill number was 36>> i had 92 kills, most headshots, if not quick 2's

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:: 2004 29 May :: 10.38 pm

quick update

went to grandpas, got pictures of a huge fire and the galaxy

planning on getting them on the computer tomorow so be patient

planning on cosplaying either ein from doa3 or alex rowe from last exile...

thats about it, gotta run

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:: 2004 28 May :: 12.10 pm

i got grounded so all my plans for this weekend are hearby shot. im not even suposed to be online so i better go.

sorry everyone

(ps. got grouned cuz i came home to late, even though i said i was ganna be home late, they said it was too late, so oh well... summers coming i should be ungrounded by then, ill raincheck eveyone i said id hang out with, i promise.

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:: 2004 26 May :: 9.27 pm

me and jon had a nice convo today ( jons my bro for all those who dont know) we seem to agree on engines... tis cool

so how was everyones day... mine was dull... tomorow will be 2, but the weekend seems hecktic...

well se ya

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:: 2004 22 May :: 9.56 pm

my grandfather is in the hostpital again, last time he went he had a toe amputated... this time he has had his leg up to his knee amputated... he apears to be ok, so i hope that news sticks

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:: 2004 16 May :: 4.52 pm

These mist covered mountains
Are a home now for me
But my home is the lowlands
And always will be
Some day you'll return to
Your valleys and your farms
And you'll no longer burn
To be brothers in arms

Through these fields of destruction
Baptisms of fire
I've witnessed your suffering
As the battles raged higher
And though they did hurt me so bad
In the fear and alarm
You did not desert me
My brothers in arms

There's so many different worlds
So many differents suns
And we have just one world
But we live in different ones

Now the sun's gone to hell
And the moon's riding high
Let me bid you farewell
Every man has to die
But it's written in the starlight
And every line on your palm
We're fools to make war
On our brothers in arms

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:: 2004 15 May :: 11.25 pm

(( this post has been sensored because of alot of swears and such)) gosh **** it! its getting so sickening to me! its been 7 ******* months!!! what the ****! what is wrong with me?!?! i mean what the **** is with this!?!?

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:: 2004 13 May :: 8.09 pm
:: Music: bon jovi- wanted dead or alive

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:: 2004 13 May :: 4.24 pm

sorry people who were expecting me at the japanese presentation, but more important things came up. again im sorry.

my grandpa goes into surgery today.. i duno if he already did or if hes ganna... but its today. im nervious, ive meen mutilating my fingernails all day

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:: 2004 9 May :: 10.21 pm

im only telling you guys this because i trust you ok. but none of you please tell anyone about this... my father has never really been a father twards me, and honestly in my heart, i hate him. He's sent me to the med center because of an injury he was responsible for. he has never treated me like a real son... hes been abusive and ive grown angry from it... im starting to realise just how horrible of a person i really am... how much of a horrible person im turning into... but i cant live without my dad because we would never be able to make it, im stuck here... i cant escape... i hate it!

im being serious with you, you cant tell a soul about this... no one can... please...

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:: 2004 8 May :: 10.11 pm

It’s all the same, only the names will change
Everyday it seems we’re wasting away
Another place where the faces are so cold
I’d drive all night just to get back home

Chorus:
I’m a cowboy, on a steel horse I ride
I’m wanted dead or alive
Wanted dead or alive

Sometimes I sleep, sometimes it’s not for days
And the people I meet always go their separate ways
Sometimes you tell the day
By the bottle that you drink
And times when you’re all alone all you do is think

Chorus
I’m a cowboy, on a steel horse I ride
I’m wanted dead or alive
Wanted dead or alive

oh, I ride

I’m a cowboy, on a steel horse I ride
I’m wanted dead or alive

I walk these streets, a loaded six string on my back
I play for keeps, ’cause I might not make it back
I been everywhere, still I’m standing tall
I’ve seen a million faces an I’ve rocked them all

I’m a cowboy, on a steel horse I ride
I’m wanted dead or alive
I’m a cowboy, I got the night on my side
I’m wanted dead or alive
dead or alive

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:: 2004 7 May :: 10.42 pm

My dearest son it’s almost June
I hope this letter catches up with you, and finds you well
it’s been dry but they’re calling for rain
and everything’s the same old same, in Johnsonville
your stubborn old daddy ain’t said too much
but I’m sure you know he sends his love
and she goes on, in a letter from home
I hold it up and show my buddies
like we ain’t scared and are boots ain’t muddy
and they all laugh like there’s something funny bout the way I talk
when I say momma sends her best y'all
I fold it up and put it in my shirt
pick up my gun and get back to work
and it keeps me drivin’ on
waitin’ on, letters from home

My dearest love it’s almost dawn
I been lying here all night long
wonderin’ where you might be
I saw your momma and I showed her the ring
man on the television said some things, so I couldn’t sleep
but I’ll be all right I'm just missin' you
and this is me kissing you
X's and O's, in a letter from home
I hold it up and show my buddies
like we ain’t scared and are boots ain’t muddy
and they all laugh cause she calls me honey
but they take it hard, cause I don’t read the good parts
I fold it up and put it in my shirt
pick up my gun and get back to work
and it keeps me drivin’ on
waitin on, letters from home

Dear son I know I ain’t written
and sitting here tonight alone in the kitchen it occurs to me
I might not have said it so I’ll say it now
son you make me proud
I hold it up and show my buddies
like we ain’t scared and are boots ain’t muddy
but no one laughs, cause there ain’t nothing funny when a soldier cries
and I just wipe my eyes
I fold it up and put it in my shirt
pick up my gun and get back to work
and it keeps me drivin’ on
waitin on, letters from home

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:: 2004 5 May :: 10.58 pm

I heard there was a secret chord
That david played and it pleased the lord
But you don't really care for music, do you
Well it goes like this the fourth, the fifth
The minor fall and the major lift
The baffled king composing hallelujah

Hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah ....

Well your faith was strong but you needed proof
You saw her bathing on the roof
Her beauty and the moonlight overthrew you
She tied you to her kitchen chair
She broke your throne and she cut your hair
And from your lips she drew the hallelujah

Hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah .... .

Baby i've been here before
I've know this room and i've walked this floor
I used to live alone before i knew you
I've seen your flag on the marble arch
But love is not a victory march
It's a cold and it's a broken hallelujah

Hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah ....

Well there was a time when you let me know
What's really going on below
But now you never show that to me do you
But remember when i moved in you
And the holy dark was moving too
And every breath we drew was hallelujah

Hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah ....

Well, maybe there's a god above
But all i've ever learned from love
Was how to shoot at somebody who outdrew you
It's not a cry that you hear at night
It's not somebody who's seen the light
It's a cold and it's a broken hallelujah

Hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah ....

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:: 2004 3 May :: 3.40 pm

whatever, so i got yelled at, god i understand that ill never be able to comprehend the feeling, but dont talk to me about pain, if u want ask me sometime, ill tell you what real pain is, i dont feel like posting the story on here though, and rachel dont blame you slapping me on pms, you have control over your limbs, ive told you i hate it, ive told you why, i thought u understood that it doesnt hurt me physicaly it hurts me mentaly.

dont bother yelling at me about this, i understand i already pissed u off with this post, but i dont care, you didnt need to resort to violence or yelling any of you. what happend to a civilised debate.

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