Crimson Melodies

:: 2005 15 April :: 10.40pm

I just wish I could help everyone.
I want to be like a super hero.
I'd be able to fix it all;
Heal all the wounds.

--I just don't understand why there's so much suffering in the world.

:: 2005 14 April :: 5.36pm

I am a proud mother.

Yes, I got my egg baby today, and I have to admit, he's very cute. He has the little "^.^" face, overalls, and a mullet. I expected it to turn out very ugly. He's adorable, though.

I can't think of a name for him, though. He was "Elroy", then "Wong Chong", but I can't decide what exactly to name him. Oh well. He's only mine until tomorrow.

Today was actually okay. I'm not feeling too good, and I'm extremely tired. I hadn't been to classes in 5 days, so today was quite a rude awakening.

-The REAL Slim Shady.

:: 2005 13 April :: 3.47pm

I'm assuming I missed a good day- That always happens when I miss school.

:: 2005 11 April :: 5.54pm
:: Music: Taking Back Sunday- Cute Without the E.

Went to Myrtle Beach today. It was pretty fun. On the bus ride there, I was pretty sad and tired. Carlos was supposed to sit with me, but lo and behold, he sat with Chere instead. -.- So, yeah, I got stuck at the front of the bus with Edna. She's pretty nice. I slept. I sometimes wonder about the people I call my friends, though. They tend to be able to ditch me at any point for some hot girl. But oh well. Once again, I'll probably have to start new next year. I always lose touch with people over the summer.

I took the new kid, Nick in. I think he's one of "us" now. I got to talk to him while we were there. We like pretty much all the same music and whatnot. He's quite cool... And he's gonna burn CDs for me! Nick, Little Nicky, Michael, Carlos, Livingstone, and three other kids were in my group. Mr. Moore was the chaperone. It was pretty cool. We went to this dumb Imax movie.. Then to the aquarium... Theennn we went shopping and chilled in this joke store for quite a while. Nick got a camera, that when you push the button, it squirts water at you...

We ate at Margaritaville. XD It was nice. I got chicken fingers. They were good. We did the salt-on-ice thing. There's a big swollen mark on my arm. It still hasn't gone away. One of them actually bruised.

So yeah. I successfully didn't buy anything but lunch... And a Sobe, but we refilled it at the soda machine. =P

So yeah.

I've heard Mr. Brightside like 3 or 4 times today.
I wonder if John is thinking about me... Hmmm.
Haha. I'm lame. So what? Learn to live with it.

<3

:: 2005 9 April :: 6.16pm

Woo! I love John! I just talked to him on the phone for like an hour. I'm turning him into a DDR whore and he's gonna like Atreyu. =D (More than he likes ICP!) Yeah, I finally got his birthday presents to him. Woo hoo. I own. XP

I just played DDR on Heavy... Dear Jesus, may you bring me DDR skills. They are very much needed. :P

<3 Dana

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:: 2005 8 April :: 8.50pm
:: Music: Brand New- Jude Law And A Semester Abroad

Here's a present to let you know I still exsist.
Just thought I'd update, so I could look back on this thing and laugh some day. I like going through my past journal entries. It's really depressing, but then there are things that I wouldn't have remembered if I hadn't read over all this...

Today was funny. I was pretty sad, yet amused.

We had a substitute in Mrs. Johnson's class... And Carlos wasn't in his assigned seat.

Mrs. Gates: Carlos, get in your assigned seat!
Carlos: Mrs. Gates, what is you talkin' about? I am in my assigned se-- *looks around at the people sitting by him, and the tables around him*. Alright, alright... Which one of you niggers moved me?! I know I sat in my assigned seat! My stuff is over there! Who put me here?!?! Answer me!! WHICH ONE OF YOU GUYS MOVED ME HERE?!

As much as I hate to admit it, I'm dreading summer... The group of people in all my core classes has grown so close... But we never see eachother outside of school. I'm so afraid of all of us falling apart.

How many times will I be given friendships, only to have them fall apart? I must be doing something wrong. *sigh*

Mein kampf.

~~I'm a sucker for anything acoustic.~~

:: 2005 7 April :: 9.02pm

Today was a scary-ass day... o_o;

To start it off, Riel has NOT gone over sight reading at all! Festival is TUESDAY! Ugh. Tomorrow we get quizzed on the words for "Think On Me". We don't know them, because he never gives us the music! I've only seen it... 4 times, I think. Ugh. -.-

We watched the STD video in sex ed... *shivers* Syphilis is REALLY scary looking. You get these sores called chancres, and they look like gashes. They showed us a nasty black penis with a chancre on it. I almost barfed. Black penises are nasty enough on their own. Ick.

We met Mrs. Johnson's daughter. XD But yeah, Carlos scared the shit out of me, man! He was talking about how he needed my help with a big drug deal, and I needed to go to the KFC downtown... He thought up this big, long story, about how he had his dad's nine and some weed in his backpack, and he'd give it to me to carry it in... (You see, Carlos always ends up cracking up when he's joking, but this time he was being as serious as Hell.) So, I told him I wouldn't do it, and he acted all pissed and went to his locker, and came back in withs something under his jacket. He held it up to my side (making it seem like a gun), and he was like... "This is not optional Dana. Now tell me, are you going to do it?" I told him to quit fucking around, and he told me he was being dead serious. So I told him I still wouldn't do it, and he was like... "AHAHAH! YOU'SA NIGGA! You thought I was a drug dealer! What the Hell, man!?" Scary stuff. I swear to God, I thought he was being serious.

Mr. Moore's... I yelled at Aisha through the wall. XD And I got to take a referral to Mrs. Boiyce. (Mr. Moore NEVER writes people referrals, so it was exciting.)

Mrs. Glasgow was nice today. Nobody was there to laugh with during reading time, so I slept.

Killian spilled milk on me at lunch. :(

SUBSTITUTE IN MRS. CONNORS'S CLASS STILL!! w00t w00t. We're gonna be in some DEEEEP shit whenever she comes back, though. Carlos, JT, Codey, Spencer and I sat together... Twas fun. But we got in trouble and had to separate.

Oh, and did I mention, John is apparently goth now? No more teh wigga. *sniffle* Rest in peace, J-Unit... Live on, John of darkness.

*simmers* I despise ICP. I could learn to like ICP.

Dana out.

:: 2005 5 April :: 5.00pm
:: Music: Chevelle- The Clencher

"BOY, I THOUGHT YO MEAT WAS STICKIN' OUT!!"
Today went surprisingly well.

To start it off, Mr. Riel left for the day. ^.^

Then, in sex ed, I was the only one with answers, as always. ;P

Thhennnn I did my paper during Mrs. Johnson's class. We got her off subject, so she just talks about something completely different for the whole period. We got her talking about the bible vs. evolution. So yeah.

Then, I got a 70 on a test in Mr. Moore's class. XD

During reading time, Charlie and I kept drawing chodes on the desk.

^.^ Then, lunch was pretty funny, but I got lunch detention for flicking sorbet at the preps... And throwing Carlos' fish nuggets in their hair. =D So yeah,

Mrs. Glasgow's class went pretty good. People did their presentations. Charlie and I drew more chodes on the desk. XD!! Wow, that kid is really funny. He farted a few times, though. =O I have to dress up like Hitler tomorrow, so yeah... I drew me a swastika flag today. ;D Alex was gonna kill me.

Mrs. Connors wasn't here, but Mrs. Gates was in a pissy mood. Charlie took his little ostrich stuffed animal, and put it in his pants, so the neck and head were sticking out of his zipper... So we were singing happy birthday to Christa (it wasn't her birthday) and Charlie stood up. Carlos fell over, because "he thought Charlie's meat was really stickin' out." XD!! Wow. But yeah. I threatened to pee on the floor, so Mrs. Gates let me leave. Woowww. Funny day.

I just got back from Good Will, where I got muhself some boots and a trench coat... AND A HITLER HAT!! =P

I love John. He's the coolest jelly roll ever.

:: 2005 4 April :: 5.55am

Mein kampf
Sweet dreams soon turn into nightmares, as I wake up to find him not there. I just can't quite grasp it. I miss him so much. Why does there always have to be some sort of downfall to the happiness I find? The miles can't destroy us. I won't let them. I just want to hold him. If I would have known, I would have done things so much more differently. I would've acted on my feelings so much sooner. I would have shown my emotions better. I stayed up last night... For hours. I hate not being able to sleep. It leaves me with way too much time to think.

We could live through these letters, ~~or forget it all together~~. See, the months, they don't matter. It's the days that I can't take.

Ashiteru.

:: 2005 2 April :: 9.13pm
:: Music: Thrice- The Artist in the Ambulance

"I love Dick's... Oh God, I mean the resturaunt!"
I went to Myrtle Beach with the asianses today. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be, but I am really tired. We went to the David and Goliath store, and I got a shirt with a dog on it that says, "Some days, I just wanna pee on everything." And some chapstick. =) Oh yeah, we got these shirts that turn colors when you put them in the sun from Del Sol. I got to see my uncle, who is really cool and funny. Yep.

I don't think I'm going to go to formal. I just don't feel like putting the effort into it... And there's no one to go with. Aisha will most likely be with all of her popular friends, and... Blah. I don't know. I don't have too many real friends at 'ol Roland Grise. Yeah, I think I'm done for now.

We have to set our clocks forward an hour. -.-;; I'm going to kill someone.

:: 2005 2 April :: 1.09am
:: Mood: Tired.
:: Music: Can you hear?

Best Foot Forward.
This was a great experience. However, I am very glad that it's finally over. Mr. Riel has been in his pissy mood for way too long. Maybe since this is over with, he'll be better. Probably not, though.

This is probably the biggest thing I've ever done. I got up, and performed in front of 6,000 people. (Might I mention, I have awful stage fright.)

So yeah, I feel accomplished. And tired as Hell.

Happy (late) April Fool's Day. ;P

:: 2005 30 March :: 10.56pm

I love you.

Little dedication-type thingys... I only put ones for people who I think might still read this.

John- You mean the world to me, sweetheart. Never forget that. Even if we haven't got to talk much lately, we can make it. I love you so much... And I hope we can get through this. I miss you lots, and I really, really hope I can get you down here sometime soon? =/
---Vaginal cavity.---Are you on the phone?---Where'd you get yo white tee?---Necrophelia does NOT make sense!!---Shoplifter!!---What is a zip tie?---Let's go light toilet seats on fire!!---
Plus some other ones... o.o

Randy- Don't give up. I need you here. I really do. You're like my older brother that I always wanted, but never had. You're just always there for me to spill my emotions to, and somehow, you still put up with me, and always look out for me.
---How do you get upstairs?---WOO DOO DOO DOO DOO!---Shoplifter!!---The DDR fro guy is my hero.---
And others. o.o

Aisha- We always seem to end up cracking up at something stupid, and completely not funny. But I always have a good time with you. Even when I'm sitting there crying, you're always able to make me laugh. I loff you, and I hope we stay close even through High School, although we'll probably have COMPLETELY different friends.
---Oh no... *burp/sneeze*---Sitting there with ice cream---Carly's chorus concerts---Didja see it, didja see it?!---Carrot, Wheat Thins, and GUSHERS!!---Lady---Your nose is running---MOOOO!!!---
And tons of others. XD!!

Keely- We've grown apart somewhat, since you went off to High School. I still love you, though. We've been through a lot of shit, good and bad. Lots of bad. But regardless, I still love you. ;P Maybe next year we'll be closer again. Who knows?
---I love you this much *flush*---Your testicals are mine.---Your nose is running!---Orginasm---*wide-eyed stare*---

I'll finish some other time, I'm tired. COMMENT, NIGGAS!

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:: 2005 25 March :: 4.52pm

Happy Birthday to me!!
Today ish muh burfday, nikkas. (Don't forget to fill out that last thing, in the entry before this. ^.^)

:: 2005 17 March :: 6.36pm
:: Music: Jimmy Eat World- Work

I doubt anyone will even comment...
01. Who are you, what's our relationship?:
02. How and where did we meet?:
03. What's my middle name?:
04. How long have you known me?:
05. Tell me one good thing about myself:
06. When you first saw me what was your impression?:
07. My age:
08. Birthday:
09. My favorite band at the moment:
10. Colour eyes:
11. Do I have any siblings?:
12. Have you ever had a crush on me?:
13. What's one of my favorite things to do?:
14. Do you remember one of the 1st things I said to you?:
15. Describe me in 3 words:
16. Name 5 things I love:
17. Do you think I'm good looking?:
18. How would you describe me to someone?:
19. Would you ever date me?:
20. Tell me one thing you've always wanted to say but never did:
21: What do you like most about me?:
22: If we could spend a day together, what would we do?:
23: Have we ever gotten in a fight?:
24: Do you think we will be friends for at least 3 or 4 more years?:
25. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.:
26. What do you think my weakness is?:
27. Do you think I'll get married? (To who, possibly?):
28. What makes me happy?:
29. What makes me sad?:
30. What reminds you of me?:
31. If you could give me anything what would it be?:
32. When's the last time you saw me?:
33. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?:
34. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?:
35. Are you going to put this on your livejournal and see what I say about you?:
36. If I was an ice cream flavor, which would I be and why?:
37. What song (if any) reminds you of me?:
38. If you could change one thing about me, what would it be?:
39. Would you make a move on me?:
40. Do I cross your mind at least 1 time a day?:
41. How often do you read my journal?:
42. How often do you talk to me in person?:
43. What am I afraid of the most?:
44. What is one of my passions?:
45. Do you think I have morals?:
46. What annoys you the most about me? Why?:
47. Do I get on your nerves? Why or why not?:
48. Am I talented? At what?:
49. What do you find most interesting about me? Why?:
50. Name 5 things I feel strongly about.:

Please comment?

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:: 2005 16 March :: 4.03pm
:: Mood: Awful.

It just keeps getting worse.
*sigh* I don't know how I'm going to do this. All this stress just keeps building up... And all at the same time that I'm not going to get to talk to John for a while. I think I might explode.

I've been so... moody lately. I just... I don't know. I hate this. I hate it. Life's just going to get harder from here, too... High School is going to be sooo much more stressful. I can't do it. I don't think I can.

*sigh* I can feel a break down coming on soon enough.

It tears me apart that I don't ever get to see him... And just knowing that there are lots of people there who get to be there for him daily and in person... It hurts a lot. I miss him so incredibly much... *sigh*