Crimson Melodies

:: 2005 5 February :: 11.37pm
:: Mood: *sigh*
:: Music: Lifehouse- Breathing

I want nothing more than to sit outside your door and listen to you breathing- It's where I want to be
Keely and Aisha came over today. We played DDR and stuff. Aisha has an electronic baby. I am NOT getting one. Ha ha. I like my sleep too much.

Uh... Not much else.

I really miss John. =/

"My other penis is a vagina." --Family Guy.

:: 2005 5 February :: 1.01am
:: Mood: ...Tired.
:: Music: Hawthorne Heights- The Transition

I hope you never fade, as you drip through my veins...
I just had one of the worst baby sitting experiences ever... o.o;;

There were two ten-year-olds, an 8-year-old, and a six-year old.
They kept complaining about how bored they were... So I told them to put pillows in their shirts and run into eachother at full speed... and they did. Which was really amusing until the six-year-old got hurt. He started crying. But, apparently, if you say "humpdoodle", he stops crying, and starts laughing.

So then, they went downstairs. So I figured I'd just stay upstairs a little while longer, then go check on them.

I was sitting here, talking to Keely on the phone, when I heard him crying again. He was yelling, "But, I don't want to pull my pants down!!"

o_o;; I ran downstairs to see what was going on, and he was huddled up in a little corner. I asked them what was going on, and the three 'older' ones looked at me innocently, and Cassidy said, "Don't you think he'd be way cooler if he was running around in his tighty whiteys?"

Wow. So he cried again, and said I was laughing at him...

We got him calmed down... Then, they started calling him "Bob", so he was crying. Again.

Eli spilled grapefruit juice all over my: [ Sevendust CD, DVD, Lyric book, and CD case]. [Post card from Aisha]. [Hairclips]. [Necklace]. [Blank CDs]. [Some other things]. Plus, it stained the wood. -_-;

I think I'm going to bed now...

Love.

:: 2005 4 February :: 2.55pm
:: Mood: It's Friday. (:
:: Music: Carlos talking.

...Get virtual, negro.
We're in the computer lab. We're doing some dumb extra credit stuff.

Screw it. :D

Carlos is messing with Skittles.com. Haha. AKAKAKAKAKA! SKEET ON YO HEAD, NIGGA!

Yep. I'm so glad it's Friday. It's been a good day. It was funneh.

I'm nervous about High School. They keep telling us stuff about it.

I'll update later.

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:: 2005 3 February :: 12.52pm
:: Mood: Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
:: Music: People yelling.

Woohoo.
I'm at school. We have a really mean substitute, but I'm having fun. Haha.

I'm kinda bored/tired, but it's been a good day. Yesterday was good, too.

Got interim reports, I have two B's and a C. Haven't gotten one from Johnson yet... o.o Uh oh...

...Everyone is so loud. Dylan is frickin' hilarious, though.

Everyone's yelling. ^_^ Yay.

I'm done for now.
Peace up, A town down.

I'M GET MY BLACK ON! Haha.

I love teh wiggah.
;D

Update- 4:20 pm. (Haha. 420. Ha. Haaaa.) Bitch substitute sent JT and I to ISS. (Dumb people- In School Suspension) ...What a dumb bitch. Mrs. Boiyce (the ISS lady) called us bean heads. Haha. She's pretty cool.

We performed for the Best Foot Forward judges. They said we did good. This thing is going to be HUGE. Mr. Riel is going to tear us apart. Ugh. -_-;; I have a feeling he's going to be like he was during Rehersals/Performances for the musical last year... Blah. Oh well.

Done.

:: 2005 1 February :: 5.21pm
:: Mood: Eh...
:: Music: Sevendust- Skeleton Song

And I miss your laugh, your smile...
I bit the dentist. Heh.

Today was... all right. I listened to the Sevendust CD basically all day. I noticed that if I put my hair over my headphones, the teachers can't see them.

...I never thought I'd say this, but I kind of want to get cut from Best Foot Forward. (Chorus thing...)

I don't know, it was a rather blah day. I've been alone a lot lately.

But... it'll all be okay.
I'm trying optimism again.
It's hard, but I'm trying. *shrugs*

I'm going to go now.
I love John more than he loves me.
(=

:: 2005 31 January :: 4.08pm

So here's my plan:

Steph, Keely and I will go look around NCSA... Then, after that, we will go to Virginia and kidnap John...

But, keep it on the down low. ;D

*Loves on t3h Johness* HEHE.

<33333333333333333333333

Randy is my hero.

The end.

:: 2005 30 January :: 10.45am
:: Mood: ...
:: Music: Sevendust- Broken Down

Well it's love, make it hurt.
I had some trouble getting to sleep last night. Like, worse than usual...

I was just up, thinking... I hate when that happens.

I really don't know when I'm going to get to see him, and I hate that. I miss him so much... I'm really glad that he's happy there, though.

I'm starting to think I shouldn't do the things that make me happy. I've noticed, whenever I finally get something I want, it gets taken away... It really hurts....

Anyone who sees me wouldn't know that I'm unhappy... It's really hard to hide it, but I think I've mastered it pretty well.

...And this song is going to make me cry. I hate it. It's not even a good song. Rainy Days. Ugh.

I hate being so fragile... Whenever I feel really down, I'm liable to break at any second... And I hate it.

I was having a really good dream, but Carly came and woke me up.
It's the worst feeling in the world... Waking up from a good dream..
I hate it. =/

...But, I love John.

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:: 2005 28 January :: 10.46pm
:: Mood: Meh.
:: Music: Atreyu- This Flesh a Tomb.

*sigh*
Tonight was pretty good. There was only one thing missing.

It's really starting to set in... I am not going to be able to see him for a really long time. =/

I went to the mall tonight with Carly and Anna. Turns out Randy and Bryan were there, too. So, I hung out with them. Small comments such as, "Man, if John were here..." and what not really started to hit me. Blah. I love him.

I got a belt with the spinner belt buckle... And a beanie that says, "I smoke rocks." Haha.

I don't know what's wrong. It was a really good day, and now I'm just feeling so... Blah. I realized that I most likely would have seen him tonight if things were still like they used to be...

*sigh* To think I complained about not seeing him much then
=/ BLAH!

:: 2005 27 January :: 7.17am

Happy Birthday, John!

I love you!

Even though it's in 11 days.
"You're right! It sure is."

;D

:: 2005 26 January :: 1.36pm
:: Mood: Woo.
:: Music: People yelling. YAY BLACK PEOPLE!!

I are at school.
I'm so rebelious. Updating my journal at school. Ph33r me. Haha. Me and Dylan are sitting here messing around on the computers, and the substitute doesn't even notice. It's funny. (:

I am kind of bored. Today has gone pretty good. Three substitutes so far. But next, I have Mrs. Connors. UGH! I hate her. ;_;

I'm done for now. I'll update later!

~Zennousha

PS: I loff my wegro. (:

:: 2005 25 January :: 6.57pm
:: Mood: <3
:: Music: Letter Kills- Hold My Heart

Think of me when you're dreaming, and know that I'm wide awake, thinking of you...
Wow. Today went surprisingly well.

Mr. Riel was in a really bad mood, but we sang a lot, so I was happy... But when it came to the Small Ensamble thing, I was the only Soprano 1. So... I was by myself singing that part. It wasn't too bad. But I kept getting off pitch. Oh well.

I sat by myself during gym. We were outside. Just Wadsworth's class. I have no friends except for Marcus in that class, and he always plays basketball. I'm scared of basketballs. (I'm being serious.) So I sat on a bench and read my book, and wrote a paper for Riel. I felt like a NERD. I like the word nerd a lot now. Ha.

Mrs. Johnson is gone! YAYY!

Mr. Moore's class was cool, as always...

Didn't read for AR time! Woo.

;_; Mean people pushed me down at break. ):

Mrs. Glasgow wasn't here today. (: I didn't read at all. I messed around online for the whole class period. Haha.

Mrs. Connors isn't taking our notebooks up, the one time I have it all together. Just my fucking luck. -_- Oh well.

I love John more than he loves me.
He is my bit... I mean, love. (:

~Zennousha

:: 2005 24 January :: 7.55pm
:: Mood: *sigh*
:: Music: Crossfade- So Far Away

Note to self: I miss you terribly.
Today was alright. I hate Mondays, though. I was so exhausted... In Chorus, we worked on Lullabye. I like it a lot. And I have the Soprano 1 part. ^_^ I'm excited, but nervous. I'm in a small ensamble, and Rhianna and I have a duet. We have to perform them at some PTA meeting. o_o;; TEH NERVOUSNESS.

Started Health class today... We went to the weight room that I didn't even know we had... Then, Mrs. Johnson wasn't there. Substitute teacher for 2 weeks. w00t w00t.

We had a really deep conversation with Mr. Moore about drugs and stuff... About how life was going to be different in High School, and those were the years that determined your future. He also told us that lots of guys use girls in relationships, haha. But, yeah... It was neat.

Mrs. Glasgow wants to talk to me about a paper I wrote... She didn't seem mad... And she gave me an A+, but I'm still nervous.

I think I did good on the test in Mrs. Connors class. I totally cheated, though. Haha. I wrote all the formulas on a peice of paper. Oh well. ^^;;

Apparently, my new name is Delicious Dana. Along with Super Staci, Joey the jew, and Jolly Jesse. "DAGGON, DELICIOUS DANA!" "That man is DEEEADDDD! Lemme, tell yuh!"

...Completely different note: I'm somewhat nervous about John starting public school. Haha, I feel like a mother sending my kid off to their first day of Kindergarten. :P But yeah... o.o Paranoia. Gah.

Speaking of which, he called today. We didn't get to talk much, but it was good to hear his voice. (Yeah, I'm lame... Shut up.) I think I have free long distance. I'll check with my dad. I really miss talking to him...

I have Phantom of the Opera songs stuck in my head... and it's kind of depressing me. Oh well. =/

We never said our love was ever-green, or as unchanging as the sea, but if you ever find a moment, stop and think of me.

:: 2005 23 January :: 10.32pm
:: Mood: I love John?
:: Music: Eminem- Ass Like That

There will never be a day when I won't think of you...
Saw Phantom of the Opera today. It was so good. I saw it on Broadway over the summer, and I'm reading the book. None of them are the same. Ha. It was really good, nontheless.

I'm talking to John. Yay. I can't wait til I talk to him on the phone again, though...

I'ma talk to John then go to bed. Monday tomorrow. Ugh.

Note to self: I miss you terribly. This is what we call a tragedy. Come back to me, come back to me, to me...

:: 2005 22 January :: 8.22pm
:: Music: Screeching Weasel- You Are My Sunshine

Please don't take my sunshine away...
I just reread that last entry, and accidentally bolded "I still love my ex", which is completely not true. Ha.

Aisha came over, and straightened my hair... And I looked for things I could get John for his Birthday. Aisha and Rhianna both have their dresses for formal, and it's not until April. Ha. Losers. (I'll probably get mine last minute. Oh well.)

I miss being able to talk to John often. It sucks. I miss him a lot. I'm really sleepy. Carly woke me up at like, 7. Ugh. I probably won't go to bed anytime soon, though.

I've felt pretty much emotionless for the past couple of days. I mean, for the most part. I got to talk to John a few times, and then I was happy. Otherwise, I felt... blah. I donno.

I don't have much to update about.

I love you, John.

:: 2005 21 January :: 5.16pm
:: Mood: Moderate.
:: Music: The Exies- Ugly

Melted bread.
Put everything that's true about you in bold type.

01. I miss somebody right now
02. I don't watch much TV these days
03. I love olives
04. I love sleeping
05. I own lots of books
06. I wear glasses or contact lenses
07. I love to play video games
08. I've tried marijuana.
09. I've watched porn movies (...Only 'cause they're funny.)
10. I have been in a threesome
11. Ive had psycho-ex in a past relationship
12. I believe honesty is usually the best policy
13. I have acne free skin.
14. I like and respect Al Sharpton
15. I curse frequently
16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year
17. I have a hobby
18. I've been told I can suck the chromes off a trailer hitch.
19. I carry my lighter everywhere with me at times
20. I'm really, really smart at times.
21. I've broken someone's bone/bones
22. I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal
23. I love the rain
24. I'm paranoid at times
25. I own a 90's pop CD
26. I need money right now
27. I love Sushi
28. I talk really, really fast sometimes
29. I have fresh breath in the morning
30. I have long hair
31. I have lost money in Las Vegas
32. I have at least one brother and/or one sister
33. I was born in a big city
34. I shave my legs (females) or face (males) on a regular basis
35. I have a twin
36. I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past
37. I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
38. I like the way that I look sometimes
39. I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months (No big lies)
40. I have brown eyes
41. I am usually pessimistic
42. I have a lot of mood swings
43. I think prostitution should be legalized
44. I think Britney Spears is hot
45. I have cheated on a test
46. I have a hidden talent
47. I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
48. I think that I'm funny
49. I am currently single
50. I have kissed someone of the same sex (Not like made out or anything...)
51. I enjoy talking on the phone (With people I'm comfortable with)
52. I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants (Most of the time... Or whenever no one's around.)
53. I love to shop.
54. I would rather shop than eat
55. I would classify myself as ghetto. (Hell yes, my brothers.)
56. I'm bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders
57. I'm obsessed with my online journal
58. I don't hate anyone.
59. I'm a pretty good dancer
60. I don't think Mike Tyson raped Desiree Washington
61. I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother
62. I have a cell phone
63. I believe in God
64. I watch MTV/Vh1 on a daily basis.
65. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
66. I love drama
67. I have never been in a real romantic relationship before (Hopefully this one will change that...)
68. I've rejected someone before
69. I currently have a crush on or in love with someone
70. I don't know what I want to do for the rest of my life
71. I want to have children in the future
72. I have changed a diaper before
73. I've called the cops on a friend before
75. I am a member of the Tom Green fan club
76. I'm not allergic to anything
77. I have a lot to learn
78. I have dated someone at least 10 years older or younger
79. I plan on seeing Ice Cube's newest "Friday" movie
80. I am very shy around the opposite sex sometimes
81. I am online a lot
82. I have at least 5 away messages saved
83. I have tried alcohol before
84. I have made a move on a friend's significant other in the past
85. I own the South Park movie.
86. I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal
87. When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor or chum
88. I enjoy some country music
89. I want to beat britney spears with a rock for over an hour
90. I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
91. I watch soap operas whenever I can
92. I'm obsessive, anal retentive, and often a perfectionist
93. I have used my sexuality to advance my career
94. I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
95. I know all the words to Slick Rick's "Children's Story" close 96.
97. I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it
98. I have dated a close friend's ex
99. I'm happy as of this moment
100. I was born in the 90s but I am truly a child of the 80s
101. I haven't showered in two days. . . and I like it.
102. I'd rather be in Germany than anywhere else.
103. I�m obsessed with getting manicures/pedicures
104. I want to visit Italy either for the first time or again
105. I'm one of those types who is easily amused; the stupidest of things can make me laugh.
106. I have cried in the last week
107. I have flirted with someone I didn't like just to get something out of it.
108. I like at least three British Comedy TV Shows
109. I've lived in one place for more than 10 years
110. I have overslept and missed my classes
111. I've been on TV
112. I listen to music no matter what I am doing
113. I yell at the tv when I watch sports
114. I miss being homeless
115. I am obsessed with WB dramas
116. I was in a situation where I almost died.
117. I think that Burger King has the best burgers
118. I still love my ex
119. I voted. (HELL YEAH! I RAN FOR PRESIDENT, BITCHES!)
120. I'm really shy around the same sex sometimes.
121. I am partially gay and very much proud of who I am
122. I�ll sing no matter where I am or who I�m with
123. People generally confuse me.
124. I'm a stoner and proud
125. I'm in love.
126. I am really mad at someone right now but will probably get over it...maybe
127. I love someone that will never appreciate how much i care for them
128. I want to be somewhere else right now
129. I love Al Green and George Clinton & Parliament Funkadelic
130. I love downloading illegal music
131. I have the best friends in the entire world
132. I love my car more than life itself
133. I'm part of American University Class of 2009.
134. I like the way black nailpolish looks.
135. I love using the word "ya'll".
136. I play a musical instrument and enjoy it
137. I'm dead sexy, and conceited.
138. I would like a new life at some points.
139. Anything would be better than this right now.
140. Some one has chosen Halo over me
141. I enjoy classical music.
142. I have been to at least five other states (and driving through them doesn't count).
143. I would rather read than watch TV or play video games.
144. I'm addicting to Live Action Role Playing
145: I've payed monthly to play atleast 3 online video games (not all at once though, mind you)
146: I think penguins would make one of the best pets

Today was alright. Sulva made me feel really smart. There was dough, and he said, "What is that, melted bread or something?" Ha. He was being serious, too.

I love John. (: