Crimson Melodies

:: 2004 14 November :: 10.26pm

*EDIT* November 15, 2004. 4:10pm.

-Added a picture of me to my profile.

*/EDIT*

If I don't start getting a decent night's rest, this will happen to someone.

That'll be me on the right...

I'm just kind of bored right now. And not able to sleep.

Anyways, I think I'm done for now.

Your Lord and Master,

The Almighty Penii

:: 2004 14 November :: 11.49am
:: Mood: Sleepy.
:: Music: Vanilla Ice CD ^.^

THESE KIDS WANT SOME VANILLA ICE!!!!
So yesterday.

Keely called me... Asking for Kimberly. -_-;
I ended up going to her house, although she probably would have preferred Kimberly being there. BUT IF SHE WOULD'VE I DON'T CARE. BECAUSE I AM SUPER OPTIMIST WOMAN. >:D

We hung out for a little bit, then Rhianna came over and we went on a walk... Went to Rhianna's house for a while, and then to the golf course. Then when we were going back to the Lane household, we tackled Aisha and made her lip bleed. XD Brennen was over at Nick's, and he saw us and ran and did a little James Bond rolly thing, ran across the street, hugged me, then ran back. Keely and Rhianna put Aisha's little Hello Kitty pillow thing in a tree. ^.^ We were going to call the Fire Dept. saying "MY KITTY IS STUCK IN A TREE!" but decided not to.

Aisha ate a Chimmy Chonga. (I think that's what it's called.) Tito the burrito.

Then we went to an Avalon player's meeting. We watched them do an epic battle scene. It was great. XD Jimmeh was yelling at everyone. He was getting into it the most. I saw Lucas, Ragazzo, Matt, Jesus, Beef, and some other people I have seen around. Funny thing is, only 3 of those people actually know me. Nick looked like a hooker in his little feathery jacket thing ^.^ Aisha and I played with some random kitties that were running around... And we kept singing the Ninja Rap. [Everytime I see Jimmy Johnson, the song 'Pretty Woman' plays in my head XD]

Then I came home, and Katy came! ^.^ We ate pizza, and then Calvin came and we went over to Tommy's to hear him play. Unfortunately, we were like 2 and a half hours late, and no one else showed up, so no show for us.... Soooooo- we went and got money and went to the mall where I got THE BEST OF VANILLA ICE, HALO 2 and POCKYY!!!! Oh joy ^____^. <3 When we were in Sam Goody's getting the CD, the people made a big scene about it. It was so funny. They were like "HEY, WHERE'S THE VANILLA ICE CDS?!" "What?" "THESE KIDS WANT SOME VANILLA ICE! WHERE IS IT?!" =] I walked around the mall yelling about how I couldn't wait to pop in my Vanilla Ice CD!

...Then we came home. Katy and Calvin stayed the night, and Carly fell off the massage table. XD "DID YOU GET THAT MASSAGE TABLE OUT!?!?" "No... but I thought about it." XD!!

Then Katy left this morning. And Calvin's still here. And I was bored, so here I am. Updating.

Sayonoura!

The Almighty Dana

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:: 2004 13 November :: 12.06am
:: Mood: Sleepy.
:: Music: Vanilla Ice- Ninja Rap.

It's not who you've known the longest- It's who never left your side.
I am sitting here. I am as bored as I could possibly be...

I just played some Fable. It's not all that great, but it's just at the beginning, so it might get better. I'm gonna get Halo 2, hopefully. ^.^ Yay.

Today was just one of those days. But I don't know, hopefully things will get better.

I might try to get some sleep in a bit.. I just had nothing to do, so I figured I'd update again.

:: 2004 12 November :: 5.23pm

Today was not a good day.

But what else is new?

Mrs. Johnson gave me a fucking 54 on my project. I did better than that, fucking bitch. I hate her so much. So, so much...

I've been so tired. I hate this shit. I hate it all so much.

I might fail this year, it's really looking like it.

I hate being stupid.

I hate how people take my forgiveness for granted. I hate how I can let big problems just slide. I hate being ditched.

I feel as if everyone has forgotten about me. I got all these promises about how High School wouldn't tear us apart... But it's happening as I predicted. It's all falling to peices right before my eyes.

I'm tired of the lies. I no longer want to be forgotten; just a shadow in the past.

Please don't forget me. I'm scared of being alone.

I'm scared...

:: 2004 11 November :: 7.55pm

I'm not okay.
I hate this year so much. My grades have once again fallen, and the family issues are rising again. I don't have much to lose. I feel my sanity slowly slipping away from me.

I'm sick of school.
I'm sick of being dumb.
I'm sick of being ignored.
I'm sick of being lied to.

I'm sick of being alone...

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:: 2004 29 October :: 6.37pm

I'm at Rhianna's house... About to hit up the SUPER COOL school dance... Wow, Middle Schoolers are so cool...

My internet is still down, sadly. If you're reading this- Call me sometime biznatches.

Anyways.... I go now. ^_^

Bye bye!!

Love always,

The Almighty Dana

:: 2004 20 October :: 1.30pm

My internet is down.

I'm at school.

Charlie loves weiners :D

:: 2004 8 October :: 2.39pm
:: Mood: It's FRIDAY.

Computer Test...
I'm at schoolr ight now... :D

JT is sitting next to me singing something about penises... and Hakki's trying to do his computer test, but failing miserably...XD

I tried to help him... But there is no hope. Woe is he.

"I added 4 extra paragraphs by accident with copy paste somehow.." HA.

So Michael's coming today.. Gotta bad feeling about this...

Weiner Schnitzel gave me his old watch... :D

All in all, today has been good. Brennen's still not here...

JT's on Skittles.com and this guy is talking on it... and someone's playing Hot Dog Stand... the music is funny... JT's designing a black person... O_o

Charlie just came over here... his voice is cracking... jhe just started singing "Loving you is easy 'cause you're beautiful... dootin doot doot de dooo AHHHHHHH' =D

This is fun. . . I'm gone for now, I'll update later...

Much love.

-Zennousha (The Almighty Dana)-

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:: 2004 7 October :: 4.25pm
:: Mood: Lonesome.
:: Music: CKY- 96 Quite Bitter Beings

Gloria in excelsis deyo.
Today was alright...

Brennen wasn't at school today... =/ I wanted to talk to him..

Chorus- Mr. Riel wasn't in too good of a mood.. "Rise up in Festive Song" sounds so weird... it makes me think of death.. O_o
Home Ec- There was a dead rat that stunk up the room... -.-;
Science- Well I had to sit in Mrs. Johnson's room for like an hour. Never fun.
Social Studies- Mr. Flemming (sub) wasn't too happy with us... We kept asking to go to the bathroom, but we'd go to get apples from the fruit basket in the office... Haha, it was soooo funny.
Math- Mr. Laning (sub) wasn't too cool, but we got away with alot. It was great, Dylan kept making sex noises and stuff.. Hakki went and got apples again, haha... Charlie and I kept singing that "loving you" song... :D
Break- I love Weiner Schnitzel... we were sitting on the benches.. and he kept making fun of the Herbal Essences comercials.
Language Arts- Mrs. Glasgow hates us.

Meh.

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:: 2004 6 October :: 4.12pm
:: Music: Sepultura- Cut throat

Am I too lost to be saved?
You guys, please keep Brennen and his family in your prayers... his brother died yesterday...I'm so sorry Brennen... I hope things get better. I love you...

RIP.

Anyways... Today was just kind of a daze... I didn't make Honor's Chorus. Knew I wouldn't. Oh well...

But singing is one of the only things that makes me really happy lately... I really wish I made it... but I guess it's just one less thing I have to deal with?

I wonder... if I should do it...

:: 2004 5 October :: 7.29pm
:: Music: Slipknot- The Virus of Life

..And all has fallen down, but it's okay right now.
All my friends from Roland Grise are suddenly becoming popular...

I was popular last year, kind of... But not anymore. All my other friends went on to High School.

So I was left with Hakki, Brennen, Aisha, Rhianna, Marcus, Spencer, Zach, and well that's pretty much it...

Hakki, Brennen, Aisha, Marcus and Spencer all now all hanging out with the popular people... (And of course there's Freddie, who's always been popular)

That leaves Zach, Rhianna, Weiner Schnitzel and I at the bottom of the food chain... And I only get to see Zach once during the day.

I bet Zach will be next... Considering he's still pretty good friends with Spencer and Marcus...

Oh well. I'll get over it....

FOR I AM SUPER OPTIMIST WOMAN! ...Let my optimism shine down upon you and brighten your day... Either that, or blind you, leaving you forever sightless.:D

I think I can maybe still save Brennen. He's not too far in.

But maybe I shouldn't want to save him if he's going to act that way.

I'm just sick of people ditching me...

:: 2004 4 October :: 7.51pm
:: Mood: Confused.

There's poo on the desk!
Worried about my grades... o.o

Today was rather confusing... Nick and Michael came up to me and said Brennen wanted to go out with me... But I just walked away, because I thought they were kidding...

I mean, if Brennen did want to go out with me... He'd ask me... right?

Meh.

By the way, I don't know if I put this before... But the other day, someone crapped on the frickin' desk... In Mrs. Johnson's room. It's fucking hilarious... Everyone thought Wade did it, and they almost suspended him.

That's all for now.

-Zennousha

:: 2004 3 October :: 2.54pm
:: Music: Evanescence- Tourniquet

Everything I touch is breaking...
All these wonderful frienships I built up are sadly falling apart...

Keely, my best friend, who now goes to a different school... She and I haven't kept in touch as well as we used to...

Aisha, who's in a different class than me... She's hanging out with lots of popular people now, and she and I don't spend much time together anymore...

Michael, who I think just doesn't want me around anymore...

Other people, who I haven't spoken with at all this year...

It's disheartening. I feel like I'm meant to face this world alone...

Aisha and Keely, if I did something wrong, then I'm sorry. Please forgive me...

Michael, I miss you terribly. I only wish you would make an effort to see me at least once while you're still here. But seeing how meaningless my friendship is to you, I doubt you'll even read this, let alone speak with me at all...

Naze watashi nano?

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:: 2004 2 October :: 10.36pm
:: Mood: Alone.
:: Music: Hatebreed- A call for blood

Just great.
Wow...

Just got back from Andrew's party. I met Blake and Neil, they're pretty cool. We just hung around... Played Soul Calibur II and Gundam... Then we watched Resident Evil...

This is where the fun begins.

So it started off great... We were all making fun of the movie and stuff- like we always do... I got to sit with Andrew for a while, but then people slowly started going upstairs... It got to the point where it was only Rhianna, Aisha, Doug and I... So Rhianna Aisha and me went upstairs to see what they were doing...

Keely told me to go away. I know I'm probably overreacting, but Hell... I hadn't seen her in a long time... Fuck, I haven't had an actual conversation with her in God only knows how long...

I don't know what it was, be it my unstable emotions, or just something that had built up, but it hurt.... Badly.

I've always had this feeling of unwantedness... I've always separated myself from people for as long as I can remember. People have never accepted me. Not even in my elementary school days. Last year was the first time I had an actual friend, and now most of the friendships I've built up are falling apart...

Maybe I'm meant to be alone.
Maybe I'm not meant to be here at all...

I miss you all... so much.

I haven't really been myself lately... and I'm so sorry...

I'll change, I swear. All I want is acceptance.. All I want is to be loved.

Gomen nasai.

:: 2004 1 October :: 5.32pm
:: Mood: Enlightened.
:: Music: System of a Down- Toxicity

Quit yelling in my ear!
Wow, I don't know what it was about today, but I could not stop laughing...

John, you ate your fucking bread, man. No one took it from you.

Alright, at lunch today, John forgot he ate his bread, and so he thought JT took it. JT had his hands over his tray, and John tried to move them, but it tipped JT's tray onto him. JT was pissed, so he threw his milk all over John. It was so fucking hilarious. Carlos goes "GOT MILK BIOTCH!?"

JT, do you have naked back problems, too?

I seriously love my class this year. As much as I hate school, people in my class make it alot easier. We're so fucking stupid, but I love it. Everyone's so hilarious... JT, John, Hakki, Dylan, Rhianna, Carlos, Rashon, Spencer... The greatest. Then of course there's Alex (aka Allison Morgan the cheerleader) Who is fucking scarey and insane.

Some funnnnny things this year. I lovvvee it.

"You gonna eat that biscuit?"

"There's a peanut... some corn... cashews... a peice'a beef jerky... some chickon... Yep, I'ma need me some Pinesol."

"Mrs. Glasgow, do you think I'm sexy?"

"Them hurriken's a-comin' right this-away, blowin' up all the soal and all that jazz."

"QUIT YELLING IN MY EAR!!"

"..Who has crabs?!"

"Hey man, if there was a snake crawlin' towards my nuts..."

I think everything's getting somewhat better... I'm trying to teach myself not to be pessimistic...

Failing, but I'll keep it up.

And that's how the cookie crumbles,

The Almighty Dana