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2004 10 May :: 11.09 am
"Julia"- O.L.P.
Can you see her standing there,
Well shes trying to find just anywhere.
Flowers in her hand, yes
She doesn't know why.
Offered is advice to you,
And all you do was fake it.
[Chorus]
And she's only yours tonight,
Oh she never cries.
But I know there's pain inside,
There's Julia.
Drowning in her own visions,
When she's begging the past to stay behind.
Black cat in the night,
Black cat in the sky.
Offered is advice to you,
You left, but I don't blame you.
[Chorus]
And she's only yours tonight,
Oh she never cries.
But I know there's pain inside,
There's Julia.
Digging up the past,
To cross that line,
To bury it, one last time.
Offered is advice to you,
and all you do was fake it.
I know there's pain inside this truth,
But you just have to face it.
And she's only yours tonight,
Oh she never cries.
Mother, I know there's pain inside
There's Julia (yeah) x4
(No, yeah, no, yeah)
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2004 10 May :: 1.09 am
once again... i find myself tearing after talking to him
fuck it, i'm hardcore and don't give a fuck. the door to my heart is no longer open for the crushing.....
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2004 10 May :: 12.12 am
more rockers:
glasses
buddy
getting messages
seeing old friends
precilla- shes my main gal
meeting cute boys at shows
how i only have 4 days left in high school
the movies cry baby and hairspray
glasses
chucks
screaming song lyrics at the top of my lungs
myspace
my new side job- concerts first
this entry is being cut short due to the fact that i dont want to listen to my parents having sex in the other room any longer.. lol gross
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2004 9 May :: 11.56 pm
:: Mood: exhausted
:: Music: sleeping at last- emo, but not new trendy emo, more like classic emo
i hate trendy blinksters
i went to the blink show tonight... good times, good times. it wasn't as packed as i thought it was going to be, but it was still a good time. i got like 96 band names for that stupid concerts first thing, so that meas i got 182 dollars. SWEETTTTT. prom is next week, so i can use all the extra goodies that come my way.
i came up with an AMAZING idea for my first tatoo, way original, can't wait- in a few weeks i want to get it, then i can be all hardcore and cool liek the rest of you. just kidding.
this whole weekend has been a blast. friday night i went up to st. pete with the boys for a show. it was fun, road trippin it with panjo again (my girl buddy)... i love our emo talks and he's one of the only guys that will jam out to old skool matchbox 20 with me. as usual, i was the only chick with like seven guys... GANG BANG! (j/k) (or was i?) ( haha), its funny sitting back and watching them try to get with the groupies, and the groupies try to get with them.. i'm glad i've never been like that.
i slept at jons last night... ahh his twin bed is impossible. matt and i went and got flowers for our mommies this morning, which mine loved...along with me paying off her million dollar blockbuster late fees, why is it so hard to return movies on time??
SHOWS:
july 8- reel big fish, catch 22, rx bandits (FUCK YEAH)
May 26- midtown (same night as my graduation rehearsal :( )
june 10-underoath
June11- suicide girls- cant wait to see chloe in her undies, whooop whooppp
june 27- piebald.
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2004 6 May :: 10.56 pm
the new journal trendddd
1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
12. Physically, what stands out?
13. Emotionally, what stands out?
14. Do you wish I was cooler?
15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
17. Am I loveable?
18. How long have you known me?
19. Describe me in one word.
20. What was your first impression?
21. Do you still think that way about me now?
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. Do you think I'll get married?
24. What makes me happy?
25. What makes me sad?
26. What reminds you of me?
27. If you could give me anything what would it be?
28. How well do you know me?
29. When's the last time you saw me?
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
31. Do you think I could kill someone?
32. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
33. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
34. Are you going to put this on your livejournal and see what I say about you?
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2004 6 May :: 5.33 pm
i am so tired, and my radiator has a crack in it. i just filled the bitch up yesturday, and it's empty already... SUCKSSSS.
so, stephanie needs a new car soon.. any one want to make a donation?
all i want to do is sleep, but there is so much crap to do.
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2004 6 May :: 12.55 am
:: Music: Motion City Soundtrack -F'in amazing
Veggie Tales saved my night
So, i was on my way to pick up Nathan today to head on out to the Story of the Year and motion city soundtrack show, when i heard the Buzz radio station saying that story of the year is in the studio giving away their guest passes and to call in and answer some questions to see if you could get in. well, i called...and it wasnt busy... and i talked them. the first question was to name two members of hoobastank (however you spell it), and i said that i don't listen to them.. then one of the guys screamed out..do you like veggie tales. what a rando friggin question. it's a christian cartoon and it's AMAZING, but no one has ever really heard of it, so i thought it was cool that of all questions, that was mine. Phil, was the only guy in the band who knew the show, i could hear the rest in the backround saying, "what's veggie tales?". haha, i bet nobody else would have known what he was talking about. So Phil, thanks for asking such a dumb ass question that i bet you didn't think i would know the answer to.
so i sold my ticket, then when i got there, they told me that each quest could bring one person, so i grabbed someone and told them i'd get them in for 10 bones, and it worked. SWEET.
i have enver won anything, so it was cool. and i heard myself on the radio liek an hour later...and my phone rang right after from ashley saying she just heard me..it was awesome. lol.....
nathan might be getting a condo in Dray in august, i mgiht move in. he's a cool kid, known him for like four years... should be sweet.
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2004 4 May :: 3.13 pm
maybe he's not the person i thought he was... i hate that. in life, no one is EVER who you think they are. you get someone all figured out and then WHAM, the total opposite.
i need a new distraction.....
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2004 3 May :: 7.58 pm
:: Music: if you don't like being hurt, then please don't stay- matchbox 20
i guess i like being hurt....
today has just been one of those days. and i'm not even pmsing! i am stressing out over everything, school, work, money, online classes, everything.... lets see WHY i am stressing.
SCHOOL: i need to raise my GPA in 7 days, impossible
WORK: i can only work 2 days this week so my boss hates me
MONEY: ohh man, i need 120 in addition to the 60 i already paid for the prom limo, money for my hiar and nails, for partying afterwards, my car insurance was due last week, i'm out of gas money, i need 30 for senior week tickets, 40 for a text book i lost, EVERYTHING...fucking A.
i have to finsih my online class by tomarrow night, argggg
andi keep doing little things to hurt myself and dropping and breaking things, anything else bad want to happen today...bring it on!
my dad is on a trip. huge trip, biggest one in a while. mexico sound good to anyone?
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2004 2 May :: 5.16 pm
my rents were out of town this weekend. good times! it was nice sleeping with him in a comfy bed, not a couch or a twin sized. i don't know how things are with him, i am clueless. we like each other, but i am still trying to hold my ground and be "anti-emo". i just know not to get my hopes up. i
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2004 2 May :: 2.00 am
fuck it all...
i'm done
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2004 28 April :: 10.39 pm
i wonder where HE is right now. I wonder if HE looks back at HIS life and even remember me, or if HE is too fucked up.
i know i shouldn't care. HE shouldn't be creeping into my head, HE doesn't matter. But, HE does. it sucks.
Every once in a while, one of those songs come on, and HE pops into my head. In 17 years, i have had one two minute phone conversation with HIM. and HE was drunk.
sometimes i think about looking HIM up, but i am so afraid that HE won't know who the fuck i am, or i will be disappointed by the person HE has become, even though HE was never that great.
it's just that... for a few years, things were so bad at home, that i would be afraid to even walk through those doors, i was always bummed and emo and gay. And for two years, the only thing that made it all bearable, was the thought of moving out as soon as high school is over, and going and meeting the FATHER who was meant to be mine.
things have cooled down at home now, i like it here, don't want to move out right away. but i would still like to find him. but i'm scared. anyone want to coem with me?? lol
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2004 28 April :: 1.41 pm
it takes all the strength i have to look at you and lie to myself by telling myself that i don't want to be with you.
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2004 27 April :: 9.43 pm
what is the world coming too??
I am in line at the bank, and these two kids that i guess havn't seen each other for a while were in line behind me. I'd say about 19-20. boy number one asks number 2 "so how are you man?" and number two says "i'm great, just bought a new thunderbird and a great apartment on the beach"....boy number two was acting all cocky and high class.
this got me thinking. why is it that we live in a world today that how are you isn't a question about your family or yourself per say, but about your bank account? who gives a fuck about your new car, are you happy or healthy, that's what i mean when i ask how someone is. fuck america
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2004 26 April :: 1.24 pm
have you ever had one of those days where you just NEEDED attention. i am in one of those moods. in the last 30 minutes, my mood went from great to the floor. fuck everything, in this little game of life, you never win, yo unever pass go, and always get sent to jail.
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