Best years of your life???

:: 2004 15 June :: 1.25am
:: Mood: fuck
:: Music: Mogwai - 'Cody'

The moon is closer to the sun than I am to anyone.
I am so alone right now.
I can't stand the way I've felt all day.
Fuck.
Fresh air and music.
They'll always be there for me.
They held hands while I stared at a screen.
With no hand to hold.
My hand was left free.
Cold.
My eyes are screaming free a million things that my mind can't keep locked up and hidden.
But you don't see them. You don't hear what I have to say. You're not listening.
I don't know what direction I'm going in anymore.
I think I've run out of things to get excited about.
Things I can get insanely madly passionate about.
I have nothing to look forward to.
Nothing.

5 hallas | halla back

:: 2004 25 May :: 7.59pm

Umm, I dont update this one as much, just sometimes...so yeah.

www.livejournal.com/users/fandapop

BUt I still love my woohu <3

:: 2004 24 May :: 1.04am
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: Cat Power - Wild Is The Wind

.Let me fly away with you.
With all of this
With every single drop of this..
I become a blur.
Meshing with the sky and the grass and the pavement and the ocean's bitter end.
And when it's all over, you'll look down at your burgandy soaked hands and wonder how you got here.
Every small step made in these dark halls with blind sight.. Is it worth it?
Nothing will ever change if your clouded eyes never clear.

1 halla | halla back

:: 2004 20 May :: 4.12pm

I guess that I can do a "real" update on woohu, for once. Exams are starting on Monday, and I'm getting nervous. This weekend, is going to be insane, but I think that it's just bad timing. Friday night I'm working til 9, than I'm going to Lauren's, cause we made plans a week ago, and I love her. Saturday I was planning on going to the Fishing Rodeo, to help my step-mom, but maybe I'm just going to study, all day. And then Saturday night is a night with Paige, so she thinks. Ya'll know what I'm really talking about though. And then Sunday is the Bahamas, I can't fucking wait. Paige + Mandy + Samahab = daaang, watch out. hahah. But now I'm thinking with exams starting on Tuesday at 1, that I shouldn't do all this, and just go out on Sat night/Sunday day, cause I really need to get atleast c's, on EVERY exam. God, too much to figure out. I'm off to Wal*Mart with Maria, I miss her a lot.

xo

<3mandyy

:: 2004 17 May :: 10.39pm

I'm paid for!!!!

<3333

4 hallas | halla back

:: 2004 1 May :: 3.17am
:: Mood: meh
:: Music: Pilate

In the shadow of your eyes, love and fear collide.
I'm in Port Charlotte.
I don't feel empty tonight.
+ for that.
This weekend I just want to spend time with my family.
The neverending work cycle I've managed to lose myself in really wares on me and sometimes I just think.. what if today I just say fuck it and don't go to either jobs, don't even call.. just stop going. Like Office Space. I'm just.. not gonna go. Yeah i wish.
Well we all know that won't happen but I do have this whole weekend to not care about either places.
+ for that too.
Night.

6 hallas | halla back

:: 2004 23 April :: 4.40pm

I hate everything! I hate everything! I hate everything! I hate everything! I hate everything! I hate everything! I hate everything! I hate everything! I hate everything! I hate everything! I hate everything! I hate everything! I hate everything! I hate everything! I hate everything! I hate everything! I hate everything! I hate everything! I hate everything! I hate everything! I hate everything! I hate everything! I hate everything! I hate everything! I hate everything! I hate everything! I hate everything! I hate everything! I hate everything! I hate everything! I hate everything! I hate everything! I hate everything! I hate everything! I hate everything! I hate everything! I hate everything! I hate everything!

4 hallas | halla back

:: 2004 22 April :: 1.14am
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: Funeral for a Friend - Escape Artists Never Die

Stealing Greg's good/bad things list idea : )
Sweetness ~
Blue jean skirts, bright colors and the 80's style im sliding into..

Hanging out with Lindsay for a week straight and were still not sick of eachother! Metallica forever ;) Aw i love her.

The OC, aww poor Seth Cohennn, Summer is such a bitch.

Lindsay's sister, so nice.

Peanut Butter and banana sandwiches for breakfast.

PacSun, i'm starting to get the hang of things, and i like it, Radiohead played twice today and the whole flip flop thing still rocks.

Cute boys that i'll never, ever talk to. Man there was one in Hollister today who was totally hitting on this.. but ughhh. Maybe i should just wear a shirt that says, hi take me.

Free stuff.

Seeing my dad and family back in PC in about a week

My long time lasting record for not eating fast food, i can't even remember the last time i did, it's sick, everyone should quit it, just think, when you're biting down into that disgurting meat patty, there's like a million dirty people's hairs in it. ew, ugh, sick.

New bands, constantly. The past two weeks it's been.. The Rocket Summer (mmm, has anyone seen him, he's gorgeous) i've been listening to my Rocket Summer cd every single day for the past 5 days, it's so cheery.. annnd Park and there's two pure volume bands i can't stop listening to.. Wings of Azrael, and this chick Chelsea Logue, you gotta hear her voice, i love it.

Emery playing next Tuesday.

And now for the bad ~
I need to eat healthier and start excersizing. I think i'm just gonna start swimming lots at the pool, cuz working out is like going to the f'ing dentist to me. I hate it.

Fridays. Fuck it.

I wanna cuddle!

Working twice a day.

Chocolate cravings.

Guys that laugh at their own cheesy jokes.

Haters.

Awkward telephone conversations.

Ya know what.. it was actually really hard to make the bad list.. that's awesome. I think it's cuz me and linds have been hangin out non stop, a lot of the negativity is blown away when were together cuz we have so much fun and laugh so much. <3
So i have work from 11-5 at Friday's tomorrow. Bah. That place screams negativity. Hope all is well with everyone that reads this.
.Peace&Love.

:: 2004 20 April :: 1.34am
:: Mood: empowered
:: Music: Dashboard Confessional - The Places You Have Come to Fear The Most

.walking away, it's not the same as running.
so much to say but no words to say it
i'd bury these wrongs forever if you could promise me i'd never worry again
but i know
that i will
and i know
that you won't
so for now
i'll replace you with things that don't matter

i'll forget..
to keep sanity
to keep some love in this heart
forgotten for now, just pretend.

1 halla | halla back

:: 2004 17 April :: 10.17pm
:: Mood: Drained
:: Music: The Rocket Summer - 'Cross My Heart'

Another day gone and i'm still here waiting.
Worked A LOT today. I'm beginning to wonder if having two jobs is worth it. I mean, it's a lot of work and takes so much out of me. Meh.. i wish money fell from the sky. Why can't it?! Bah. Driving home, i still felt lonely. I know, yeah, whatever, sometimes I have that whole I don't need anyone else frame of mind.. but meh things change, moods change, and now i just feel really alone. I want to be in love again. This kid i used to want sooo bad came into PacSun tonight. He looked so hot and smelled so good. Kind of like a cupcake, but in a cologne good smelling form. Well anyway, he's so hot.. he gave me his number like a month ago, and do you think i called?! Hell no. Way too scared to do that shit. I really like what im listening to. Lindsay and I are gonna go get some dinner, prob at the Alehouse, and tomorrow have the entire day off, that.. is a beautiful, BEAUTIFUL thing.. im goin to the beach ALL day. Heaven, that's what it'll be.

3 hallas | halla back

:: 2004 16 April :: 11.42pm
:: Mood: shitty
:: Music: Copeland - 'When Paula Sparks'

. it's a glorious day and my lonely heart is tired again .
I'm sick of being the only one without a hand to hold on to..

4 hallas | halla back

:: 2004 13 April :: 5.15pm
:: Mood: Meh
:: Music: Mars Volta - Take the Veil Cerpin Taxt

Ughhh F fridays.. serrriously.
Wudduuup. Ya know, last night i only got like 3 and a half hours of sleep and then i had to go into PacSun at 10 am and im wide awake now which is weird. Working there kinda gives me that icky being at the dentist's office too long sorta feeling. But meh i'll get used to it. And we get to wear flip flops.. woo.. i seriously can't think of anything more amazing than wearing flip flops to work. So i got off around 2 and went to quizno's with Lindsay Pecaroo and Ryan and hung out at Ryan's house for a little while afterwards. Good times, lotsa laughs, and in about 40 minutes i gotta be to work agaiiin. Man, i hate that place. K just kidding.. im kinda tired. Fuuuck. Shows coming up.. Mae/Sugarcult/Maxeen.. annnd.. Emery/The Beautiful Mistake. I dunno.. i just saw Mae and im not too into the other bands but we'll see. K i need to get ready for work.. this entry was a pure time killer, not in any way interesting, but alas.. i do not care.
PEACE MOTHER F'ERS
<3

halla back

:: 2004 13 April :: 4.46pm

I was just curious, is anyone going to keep their woohu? Because I kinda wanna keep mine, but I'm not going to if no one on my friend slist will, ya know? I dunno. Just reply to this, i suppose...

<3

3 hallas | halla back

:: 2004 11 April :: 5.44pm
:: Mood: meh
:: Music: Silverstein - 'Giving Up'

Man.. f easter candy, i feel sick.
Well.. they played it. Something Corporate did Konstantine and it was amazing. I've never been more in love with a song than i was last night. Good show, a lotta rowdy kids but still good. Sleeping At Last, they played first and they're pretty good, bought the cd. Happy Easter kids, get drunk on pastel colors and chocolate bunnies!