sometimes truth is stranger than fiction

:: 2004 18 August :: 12.08am

fuckin summers bout to end fuckity fuck feck. asfugbkhj

2 going | downtown.

:: 2004 26 July :: 10.26am

well after the best trip of my life, it was amazingly hard to leave that place for this one. did lots of reflecting up in the mountains. godbless the land of weiners and schnitzels'. hope i can make it here until my return trip next summer.

ashley suprised me at the airport. crazy girl taha. twas a beautiful sight to see her. she was the only thing i looked foward to in coming home. so then i got home and was here for only 6 hours until the guy across the street backed into my car. damn things.

and now i have my dorm assignment. i got the one i wanted. and i guess i move in there august 18th. not too much time left. especially with all this school bullshit to get taken care of.

1 going | downtown.

:: 2004 23 July :: 1.32pm

When heaven looks my way.
Im back.
Aruba was something else.
Something other than amazing.
Here the word amazing cease to exist.
Its more like phenomenal.
It was in the water and in the sky.
It was is the land and in the animals.
It WAS phenomenal.

We went in this cave. Deep into the ground. Called the "tunnel of love", because the opening from above is shaped like a heart. There were mucha cucarachas. And it was dark and sweaty. I got such a rush.

We also went horseback riding for over two hours. My horses name was Churro. We rode across the desert then along the east coast. It was like I was in a cowboys and indians movie. As if we were chasing something. We flew and I loved it.

My favorite place there was the southern point. We walked out as far as we could. And there we were standing on a cliff looking down and the most beautiful ocean breaking on the rocks. Ive never seen anything like it. I wanted to dive off and be one with such an incredible site.

And in everything that took my breath away. There you were. <3

Just you wait ;-)

:: 2004 23 July :: 12.56pm

she blinds me with her smile, everythings allright.

:: 2004 22 July :: 9.30am

missssssssssin you. deitz tags to go.

:: 2004 19 July :: 5.12am

13 german porns + lots of alcohol + lots of good scenery= a good but empty time.

last friday, me and this guy ran off the side of a mountain with just a big parachute on our backs. i had scraped the seams of heaven, and let my body float down on the prayers of man.

:: 2004 15 July :: 3.32pm

its so good to hear your voice.
i wait for that time.
when you make my day.
to remind me.
you arn't that far away.

id love for you to show me. sounds like a nice place to be. i have to get up around six to make the flight to aruba tomorrow morning. im excited about it, but im actually looking forward to seeing you more. i hope you are. although i wouldnt expect you to look forward to coming home. im not getting as much done as i thought i would but i dont care. ohh, did you hear about bobo? 8( he was a tiger that got loose and well, he was shot. well i gotta pack. check your email. Ich liebe Sie! <3 Behalten Sie in Ber�hrung.
i see you when i look at the sun.

:: 2004 15 July :: 11.55am

Vie geitz auf germany! taha. I'm starting to get the hang of this language. Anyways hi ashley francis. I came to the internet cafe just for you. Yesterday and today we did some good hiking up in the alps in Austria, especially today. When i first came here I thought we were going to be drunk all the time and party and travel around, but the sediments have changed. We are probably just going to stay around this area and explore the nature; no venice, no berlin, no amsterdam. I dont even give a damn that i can drink; i've got mad blisters on my feet from hiking and still crave more. I want to take you here someday, hopefully sooner than later. Last night after hiking mike and I went to a bar and had some drinks; i had one called a v�lkano and they lit it on fire. after that we went and bought some german porn mags and beers and walked backed to the apartment. we drank the beers on the way just cause we could; there's no dumb ass laws like the ones in america. The beer here owns american beer, as does most other things. well im about to be kicked off; i love you ashley and hope you have a good time in aruba. peace

1 going | downtown.

:: 2004 13 July :: 7.56pm

seperation anxiety
im living six hours into the future to be where you are, since im stuck in your past. im glad youre having a good time. i think about you like crazzzy. and im jealous of mike. 8p Well I have that scholar award ceremony tomorrow from 6 to 8. I was thinking about going to the gym today, but I decided Id rather wait for you. i miss you flanky. <3IWishYouWereHere.

:: 2004 13 July :: 11.57am

damn im in germany finally. this place is pretty pimp theres lots of umm german stuff. the mountains around here are damned cool and everything so far seems pretty lax over here. we already stocked up on alcohol for the night.. no I.D. or nothing you could be a baby and buy alcohol. im at this internet cafe in town the damned keyboards all backwards but thats fine. i guess thats about it ashley ill call you when i get a calling card i have no money right now cause my mom fucked me over with these dumb travelers checks that arent accepted in stores. �� see thats some crazy german letters. and this � is the dollar sign ok peace

:: 2004 12 July :: 1.07am

Tomorrow sucks.
I was just messin with pictures and made a hilarious one of me and sean. And now its my journal icon.

Sean is leaving. Im really attached and Im going to miss him so. I know time will be my enemy for a while. At least until I leave for Aruba.

Sean; I miss you already!
No worries. Have lots of fun. <3iloveyou. 8 )

:: 2004 8 July :: 12.21am

well. this life is fun. feeling the delray fireworks exploding was tight. almost had a stroke running to make them. the mortars we bought were good too. im goin to europe in 5 days. have fenny.

:: 2004 7 July :: 1.37pm

happy
Fourth of July was totally awesome. Not to mention the night before. ;-) Fireworks, in that split second, are everything I want my life to be. Though Im a slacker, it was a fun time. and bottle rockets scare the dickins outta me.
Well things are starting to fall into place. Ive slighty added a few gizmos to my journal. and I dont start work until after I come back from vacation. 8 D yessss! My entire house will also soon be under construction. whata mess. well im off to my paint. <3

:: 2004 2 July :: 12.05am

when all we reap is sorrow, so shall our earth lie fallow

the dark of night is a comfort like none other. i know alot of shit. stupid shit. i could tell you why arcs of plasma shoot out of the fabricated sun in spider man 2, or for that matter why they shoot out of our own sun. I could probably tell you a ton of little shits like that; maybe to make you think im smart, maybe to make you think im crazy, but probably just to kill time. all things said, telling or not telling, knowing or not knowing, doesnt change the fact that our heads are still shoved up our asses. see, in my quest for knowledge, the only thing i've learned is that without the love in my life, nothing would fucking matter. details make an interesting story, not a lasting establishment. so what is it that you are waiting for? go on and feel the warmth already.