Now, I'm done.
I spent $112.79 at Walmart tonight. I only have like.. 20 bucks left in my account. Bad. Now, I'm done spending money. January 6th I get paid again, and I swear that money is going straight to the bank. I'm gonna pay my mom her 120, then my grandpa his 150, the rest is in the bank. I'll open a savings account probably next Thursday. I'll just close my Credit Union account, and go soley through Independent. I might even check out the other bank in town. Bank One and Fifth Third. Just to check out their savings account and insterest rates. I'll probably just stay with Independent though. That way I can do all my banking in one area. Makes life easier.

Tomorrow I work 10-7:30, then Saturday I work 10-5. After this weekened, things will go back to normal. So dumb lol. But, me and Tanya will each get a day off during the week, so that's good. I'm trying to ask for Thursday's off, but if I can't have those, then I'll just deal with Wednesday or Tuesday. Not big thing, but Thursday nights are GVSU nights, and since school starts soon.. I'm gonna go. Maybe, I'll see if Lisa and Allison want to hang out on Wednesdays instead. Even though, Thursday is OC night. Eh. I dunno, I'll figure something out.

Right now, it's 1am, and I have to get up in 7-8 hours. Preferably 7, but if I can't then I'll just rush in the morning and look like ass. Gotta make chicken dip. So gay! Too much mixing. Tanya did it last time. Well, she did the fiesta dip. But chicken dip is worse.

Anyway, bed time. Goodnight.

I hate this.
I'm so incredibly tired, I just can't sleep. Why not?

I've realized that I might be a little insane. Not like crazy, but retarded. The thoughts going through my head are ones that I haven't had so long, and it felt good to not think about it for a while. Now, I can't stop. What's with that?

I've been tired for a few hours, I layed in my bed for a few hours. I played solitare on my iPod for a little, then I just layed there some more. I can't stop thinking about him. It's not right, and I don't.. want to anymore. Do I?

I told him some things, kinda mean things, but true. Something I never really thought I'd say, but after I said it, I wish I didn't. I'm afraid to lose him, even though he was lost before and I didn't care. Well, not lost, just.. busy.

I've been crying a lot, and it's scaring me. I feel like crying right now actually. I just hope this comes and goes before March.

I had a day off. That was probably the best feeling thing in the world. I actually did things too. Granted, I didn't do anything I really should have, but I got some things done, sort of. I like having a day off. Maybe I will take Lee up on that twice a week offer.

I believe these earphones are making my ears bigger. The things are huge, and my ears kind of hurt.

Starting right now, I'm done splurging. Time to start saving. 500 dollars for spending money (since I payed all my debts off with my grandpa's money), and the rest is going to be saved for a laptop. I don't think I can get enough, but it never hurt to try. Even if I don't have the money by March, I'll have that much more money to put towards one after I get back.

I always tend to update this thing and make the entries longer than what anybody wants to read, but oh well right? I guess if you care, then you'll read. Otherwise, you'll bypass it and just wait for shorter entries.

I should try to sleep now. Howie Day is kinda putting me to sleep. Goodnight.. or morning. However you plan on reading it.

Even the best fall down sometimes..

iPod +
I got my iPod. That's pretty sweet. I'm excited to play with it. I'm not supposed to, but my mom gave in and let me have it early.

So, I'm poor once again. I did good this time though.. I had a hundred dollars for a long time, but I had to spend it on a few things, and last thing I know.. I'm broke again. That's cool. At least I had some fun. Back to work.

I'm gonna quit Story's. I hate that job so much. A while back Ross told me that I just need to get out of food, otherwise any job I get that deals with food I'll hate. So, I'm gonna try and get a new job. Zach told me to apply at that clothing store in Rockford. I might do that, whenever I can get a fucking day off work. Maybe in January.

Balinda is amazing. I love that woman, and my mom hates her. It's so bad, but I don't even care. She said that she's gonna get me a job over at Mobil. Um.. right. I'll take it, if I get it, but I really don't want to work at a gas station. I was visiting with her last night there, and I met Stephanie. Stephanie said she wants me to work there cause I make her laugh, so alright. Like I said, I'll take it if I get it. Balinda almost made me cry last night. She was telling me how beautiful I am, and how she loves me for being myself, and not taking shit from Lee or my mom. And she said she feels bad for me cause of the situations I'm being put in. She told me to take Tanya up on her Airline offer so I can get out of here faster.

Tanya said she's gonna help me out with my Airline books. I have 4 left, then I can go to Florida and Georgia. She said the books mean jack shit, so she'll give me all the answers lol. That'd help a lot. I don't have time to sit here and work on those books. Plus, I'm stuck on book 9, but I can't call the airline this late.. nobody's there.

I went bowling with Tori and Tara today. They're good.. I wanted to cry lol. I had a lot more fun with Anne, Liz, Allison, Jeremiah, and Ashlee.

I have to burn like.. a million CD's. I'm gonna go do that now. Those are going to be the Christmas presents from me to whoever said they wanted one. Everyone else that means more to me than just a cd will get their presents after the 30th, cause that's when I get my giant paycheck.

Jeremiah, Leah, Wendy, Carrie, Tori, Alyssa, Conda, and.. someone else gets one.. Well, Jeremiah get's 3, he just doesn't know it yet. Dane Cook cd's lol. Shh, don't tell him.

Alright, I'm gonna get to burnin. Goodnight.

i'm tired.. but not
i didn't sleep at all last night. fuck sleeping. i wasn't tired, but i'm gettin there. i went into bk today at 8ish to see dennis charles and todd. i just got home from there, and my hair smells like bk. i can fix that quick, but anyway. i'm gonna go look for a new job once it stops raining. which probably won't happen, but i don't feel like getting my hair wet.

i'm gonna maybe go see carrie today. i still have to give her the present i got her for her baby shower i was unable to attend. gay. but i gotta see her little baby boy. aww. i'm excited. i'm so tired too. i should sleep a little bit, then when i wake up it'll be done raining and i'll be.. awake. sounds good.

get paid tomorrow. 1 more payment to the damn airline academy then i'm fucking done. i'm excited for that too. i'll actually have a little more money now. my grandpa said he's not sure how much money he's gonna charge me, but he said it's not gonna be a whole lot cause he knows i work hard, and get paid jack shit, and am very very frustrated with that. that's why i love my grandpa. he's such a sweet heart.

alright, thats all. good day.

i'll be right next to jeremiah in 4 days, bitches!
detriot, here we come.

new layout
my oc obsession has come onto my woohu.
a-freaking-mazing.

i saw rent. pretty good.
angel was by far my favorite.