i must say..
I've been thinking a lot today. I'm such a loser, I think while I'm watching TV. Since I only really watch.. movies. Only TV time I usually have are Thursday nights. Anyway.. back to my thinking..

I love my friends. I really really do. Even though, every so often, we all are at eachothers neck. If it's not one person, it's another one getting on everyone else's nerves. But I do love all my friends. I don't have many, but the ones I have are more amazing than the ones I've ever had.

Matt, Liz, Anne, Ross, Allison K, Drew, Dennis, Joe, Cherie, Matt, Lisa, Allison O, Wendy, Alyssa, Tori, Carrie, Kendal. Ahh.. those are by far the coolest people ever. Without em, I'd be living one boring life.

I just wanna thank all of them for being so cool a good majority of the time. Wether we've gotten into a fight about being 2-faced (Matt lol), or not going to see Dane, or whatever kind of little thing. I love all of you guys. Even though about 4 people from that list will actually read this lol. Not the point. I'll let everyone know to their face starting tomorrow.

Another thing starting tomorrow, I'm going to try to wake up thinking every day was on purpose. I've seen too much Hitch, sorry.

Anyway, that's all. Oh, and if anybody feels like spending way too much money on me, go ahead and buy one or all of the following: The OC Seaons 1&2, iPod Mini, a new car. Take your pick lol.

See ya on Christmas! lol.

I'm dumb.. sorry. :(

PS- I got my last 4 books for the Airline Academy. Uhh lol yeah, those bitches are THICK! I know Tanya is done with them, so I should just be like "uhh haha hey! tell me what was said cause i don't wanna read it" won't happen.. but still.

what's up
1) I'm not going to that party tonight. I don't want to really, I can't, I'm.. not into that. 21 years older and up, and I'm not going. That's a lot of teenagers dream, right? Well, not mine. Sure, it'd be super fun with Anne, Ross, Dennis, Jana, Liz.. but I don't like drunk people. They piss me off to no end, and it makes me think of my mom. I don't.. like thinking about things like that.. so I'm not going.

2) I saw Jill and Jacki at Best Buy the other day. It took that 10 seconds of silence from 4 people to realize that I hate them. Well, not Jacki. I don't have a problem with her, but I hate Jill. I've accepted that a few times now, and I'm just making sure the world knows that I do not like that girl. She fucked me over one too many times, and I'm done. I know she's a smart girl, so she knows we're never going to be friends anymore. Even if she does think that, she can stop. Kevin's too important to her, and I obviously am not.

I re-told Matt about the situation with me and her, and I almost started to cry. Not because I'm sad, but because I'm so pissed at her. I still am. There is no getting over an eleven year old friendship that ends because of a guy. That's just stupid, and it pisses me off, and it makes me want to go punch her in the face. I won't.. but still. Urges sometimes. Like at Best Buy.

3) I have mixed feelings about Shannon. I like him, but then again I don't. I realize that it looks like I was making up excuses, but who's gonna say "Hey, I have to take my mom to the hospital" as a fucking excuse? If I didn't want to go in, I'd make up some other excuse. But I can't afford to miss work in any sense. I was telling Dennis last night about my mom's uncle who is in the hospital, and about how I don't think Shannon believes me when I call in, and it makes me so fucking angry, I almost started crying. Dennis is a good guy. I love you Dennis :)

4) I changed my woohu again. That's all lol.

me & dennis are awesome
WHAT IF:
1. I died from natural causes?:
2. I kissed you?:
3. I lived next door to you?:
4. I started smoking?:
5. I stole something?:
6. I was hospitalized?:
7. I ran away from home?:
8. I got into a fight and you weren't there?:

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:
9. Personality?:
10. Eyes?:
11. Hair?:
12. Family?:

WOULD YOU:
13. Be my friend?:
14. Keep a secret if I told you one?:
15. Hold my hand?:
16. Take a bullet for me?:
17. Keep in touch?:
18. Try and solve my problems?:
19. Love me?:
20. Date me?:

HAVE YOU EVER:
21. Lied to make me feel better?:
22. Wanted to kiss me?:
23. Wanted to kill me?:
24. Broke my heart?:
25. Kept something important from me?:
26. Thought I was unbearably annoying?:

AND MORE:
27. Who are you?:
28. Are we friends?:
29. When and how did we meet?:
30. Describe me in one word:
31. What was your first impression?:
32. Do you still think that way about me now?:
33. What reminds you of me?:
34. If you could give me anything what would it be?:
35. How well do you know me?:
36. When's the last time you saw me?:
37. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?:
38. Are you gonna put this on yours to see what I say about you?:

do it, and enjoy it, and i'll do it for you if you.. want me to =)

well that's nice..
it's always great to know that after we stop talking, you completely let yourself go. that's.. disappointing. by a lot. i bet your mom is very proud.

that was fun
alright, so i had such a good day yesterday, it was amazing. i woke up, on time, and got to bk, on time. that rarely ever happens, but it did.. so that was fun. i was on counter, and shannon barely talked to me. which is even better. after that, i went to br, had fun there, left, went back to bk to talk to miss anne. that was fun.

after the bk anne visit, me and her went to grand rapids for the hell of it. okay, we almost died.. twice. seriously. we were scared. =) it was awesome. we were driving.. around, and this white truck fuckin got on my ass like crazy. and we were at a red light, and this truck was squealing his tires like crazy, and people were yelling at us. it was not fun =( scared me. then we turned and lost em, but because i'm a thrill seeker, i drove back there.. and the bmw car that was there yellin also was still there. sitting in his car. and i stopped next to him, then he.. followed us for a little while. i was scared =( then we came back cause that was more than enough excitement for the night lol.

i've been talking to anne a lot. she's nice. well.. lol. she's a bitch, but i think that's why i like talkin with her so much. ima bitch too, and we can be bitches together.

anyway, i fixed my journal, so go ahead and enjoy it now. woohu doesn't support .png files, and i don't know why. that's stupid, so i had to make the images .jpg. ugh, so annoying. it's uglier to me. anyway, i'm gonna go get some food cause i'm hungry.

brand new look
i just took like.. 4 hours of my life doing this damn layout. look at it, please, and tell me what you think. or if something looks.. wrong. i'll fix it because i am a perfectionist at heart. =)

i know when you look at the friends page, things aren't right. that's mostly my friends' fault lol, but oh well. if you want to read what they have to say, go to their journal. it's not that hard. that's what i do.

oh, and i stole the picture.. from a different diary, because i'm a theif. don't touch me grandpa, nana is a cheating WHORE. ha ha ha, that dane cook is a silly bitch.

anyway, i have to work innn.. 7 hours, and i'm not tired at all. i suck.

look at my journal, right now.

i hope you're doing fine out there without me..
i like this song, a lot.

the 3 doors down concert was spectacular. staind blew it up. and breaking benjamin's lead singer looks like andy bekins, only taller. he was hot. i guess.. that means.. andy's kinda hot too then? not the point. point is, he was hot and he was funny. i want their cd, so i think i'm gonna get it from zach when he comes home for the weekend. oh, and no address. i do know a song by them. it's.. that one song, lol.

let's see.. burger king. i just got home a little while ago, and i had a lotta fun. that's.. a first, in a long time lol. but i had a lot of fun. mike came in, and we talked.. about gas prices lol. fuckin $3.19.. what is that? anyway, i didn't do back cash at all, ah, so exciting. shannon wasn't working, but he came in to get a good $50-$100 dollars worth of free food for his home boys lol. the one in red was hot. anyway, yeah. he didn't look all ghetto tho.. shannon that is. the other ones did, but he didn't. i was disappointed. but.. yeah. i got ta do counter. =) hurrah.

i'm gonna go to the new middle school with liz today, but i have to clean my room right now because i feel like doing that. if i don't, then it'll take another 2 months for me to actually feel like it lol. anyway, i'll go do that and then take a shower for this burger king smell to go away.

oh, and be happy for anne. i am.

ps:
jason said in 2009 (or 2011) there's gonna be a hurricane named after me. =) lol

hes wrong. it's gonna be juan, not jejuan. im not a spanish boy.