[ prom tonight ]
so my prom date stood me up, i knew it was gonna happen.. but i didn't want to believe it. his loss tho cause ima have fun without him. for a long time. i'm not talkin bout just.. prom. i'm talkin bout the next.. 80 years of my life. i doubt i'll be alive that long, but if i am..

anyway, i'm leavin to get my hair done and.. shop a lil bit :) shopping is fun when you find stuff lol. okay, so yeah. i'm gon.. do a lot tonight. a lot of bad. ima be real bad.. lol.

anyway, i'm out. see ya.

[ i'm excited/anxious ]
well, i don't have to work at all for the rest of this week or next week. i'm so happy about that, but i have other stuff i have to do. tomorrow are senior interviews, and i'm so excited. i'm gonna enjoy skipping my first 5 hours of school lol. if i didn't have to teach the preschoolers tomorrow, i would've just skipped the wole day, but oh well. kids are fun. :) then.. i won't get into the rest of the day because.. i don't feel like it.

thursday i'm going to get my nails done. i doubt i'll get my toes redone, but we'll see. it depends on how much money i decide to spend.

friday is prom. i'm going with jill. we'll have fun maybe. jill, jacki, tj, dana, and.. maybe a couple other people are alll gon be in our limo. we gotta full limo now instead of just the.. three people there were gon be in there. which is.. okay. i cant have sex on the floor as easy now, but damnit.. i'm gonna do it by the end of the night. maybe. probably not. we'll see about that too.

then saturday.. know what, i did all this before. i don't care though, i'm doing it again because i want to. anyway, saturday i'm leaving for florida. so that'll be fun. my mom dont wanna do what she planned on doing anymore. i dunno if i do either, but we'll see. it.. really depends on how we feel.

then.. yup. i'll be in florida all week and come home onnnn.. saturday. or sunday. whatever, i don't care. i'm tired. i'm gon go to bed now. goodnight :)

[ tuesday ]
my day.. is alright. i was doin real good till about 5 minutes ago. i know why, but i'm not gonna go into it until.. tomorrow. or.. yea. whenever.

i have to work today, and i really don't want to. but since lisa needed somebody to work for her, i volunteered. i'm such a nice kid. and yeah. so i'll be there from 6-10. somebody should come visit me :) lol.

me and keegan are twins. best believe. keegan are me and like tight that totally. ;) lol

alright, i'm done.

this week is gon be busy.
oh man, i have so much stuff to do this week, it's amazing. BUT i'm not complaining. i can't wait for wednesday or.. friday. two of the most important days, damnit. and.. thursday. okay. so really.. monday and tuesday are gonna be long. but the rest of the week is gonna fly by so fast, i'll be ready for that plane by saturday.

[monday] go to school, clean my room, work from 6-close. not too shabby.

[tuesday] go to school, clean my room, go to work from 6-close. once again.. not too shabby lol.

[wednesday] oh man. the week has begun on wednesday. j's gonna be here. well.. in rockford on wednesday. excited? yes very much. anyway. i have senior interviews until.. whenever. depending on the time, i'll be going home or.. to rockford with jill. depending on the interviews though. then.. 6th hour i'll be going back to school to teach the little preschoolers with brandy. then.. after that. me and jill are going to rockford to meet up with j. and.. then god knows what. but still. somethin. probably jill getting her nails done. we'll see. then.. yeah. probably be there all night or somethin, i dunno yet.

[thursday] school, after that i'll be.. getting into my lovely geo, gettin j, and we're gon go get my nails did. :) and.. then we're going into baskin's to.. show him off. damn straight. boy don't even know how much he's gon be dragged around. then.. after all that.. i duno. we'll see. thennn.. yes. jill will be busy all day, so then i dunno what ima do with j all by myself... :) be good, i bet. not. he's bad. anyway, yes. so then.. once that day is done.. i still won't sleep.

[friday] go to school till 12. then.. leave, get my mama and j maybe.. and go get my hairs done. then.. after that. i'll.. take j back to his lil area and he can do.. whatever. then i'll be back here to get ready for 'a night on the town.' ;) lol. then.. yes. me, jill, j, maybe jacki and tj will be alll here. for massive pictures.. and stuff. then.. we'll jump into our $100 some odd dollar limo and drive to either.. olive garden, or applebee's, or.. someplace else lol. then.. we'll do our thing there, then leave. hit prom like there's no tomorrow.. there has to be tho. friday is not the end of my exciting week. then.. after prom we'll be leaving go either hit ryan's party, or just go home and find somethin else to do. probably ryan's because.. shit.. why not. then.. i dunno. i just know i have to be home at like 3am. so that's fine. that's gonna be such a great day, i'm excited. then.. i'll say goodbye to j for.. a day or somethin. lol. then.. i'll go home and sleep.

[saturday] wake up, get on a plane to philly. then hit a plane to orlando. then.. hit the hotel room and check out the area, the beach, the.. whatever else. then chill and sleep.

[sunday] maybe.. not sure.. depends.. going to see j's place if he's home by then since.. he's drivin up here. then.. yes. i dunno what else. maybe see a college or somethin. then yup.. bed.

[monday] busch gardens! :) then see j again probably. then.. yeah. bed.

[tuesday-friday] who knows. lol. but i'll be seein j again sometime in there. :) i'm gonna get way used to seein his face. i'm gonna cry when i have to say bye to him tho. and.. come back here until.. august. :( oh well. i don't care. i won't think about that right now.


so yes, that's my 2 week snippet. lol :D i am soooo excited. you have no idea. i should go to bed right now, but i can't sleep for shit. i'll be up all night long, then work, then come home and do this all over again lol. just watch.

[ worst day ever ]
my day is shit. i hate today so much. it got a little better between goin to school and comin home. you know that whole.. 20 minutes i was out. but it's back to being ridiculous. i hate my life.

my mom fuckin yelled at me for so long last night. i was on the phone for a lil of it too. and riley heard my mom yell at me, but whatever. i don't care. then.. yeah. i started to cry really hard cause i had a lot of other things on my mind also.

okay, so first i get this letter sayin i tested positive on the hepatitis c screening test. but negative on the hcv test. so.. i dunno. i gotta go back in 6 months or something to get retested. then i have that on my shoulders, then my mom comes all up in my room screamin at me. tellin me i never do anything right, i'm always mean to her, and i don't appreciate anything or anybody. so i lost it there. and i was on the phone. so i started cryin and riley was like "i'll let you go.. and talk to you later.." poor girl. i hate havin people watch/hear me cry.

whatever, so my mom was all yellin at me like.. all day today. and leavin messages sayin "i'm sorry i raised my voice, but it's your fault. call me later." oh. and last night, she like.. threw all my shit on the floor, and i couldnt find my glasses, and since i'm blind.. i couldn't find them myself. so i asked her to help and she fuckin yelled at me the whole time. it was horrible.

i hate my mom so much.

but i got the guest pass for j so.. yea. he can.. go to prom with me and actually be let in.

i gotta work from 6 to whenever i come home tonight. lee's stayin the night again so i don't wanna come home at all. but.. whatever. maybe my mom will get trashed again and forget about me again. please, god, have her do that..

[ fuck.. ]
i just deleted like.. two effin entries on accident lol. eh.. whatever.

so i talked to jill today. a lot. like.. god damn. lol. i found out her deepest darkest secrets. and she found out mines :p lol. that was.. interesting.

um.. gotta work tomorrow. then i get my schedule for next week. if i gotta do 6 days again ima be pissed.

well.. not pissed. just.. tired by like wednesday.

20 days till prom, 21 days till i'm in florida. what now, bitches? :)

keegan - i hope you got my camera to work the way you wanted it to. :) i didnt delete the pictures yet so.. if you couldnt get it to do what you wanted.. i can send you the pictures. alright cool.

i'm out homies,
- jejuan