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2003 5 June :: 3.02 pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: Bowling for Soup
I don't know
Hello! I am so happy tomorrow is the last day of school! I think tomorrow will go by real slow. Then the summer! I love the summer! I just found out that me, ryan, my sister, and her friend sarah, we are all going to Texas to visit my mom in August! That will be real cool especially cause ryan is comming, then i won't be so lonely. You know what, everybody else has plans to do something this weekend after school gets out. Everybody except for me. I have no clue what i am doing. I might end up going to Ryan's house but i don't know when and thats if he doesn't have to work. So if any of you have brilliant ideas then let me know. I would already have plans if i had my license, but i don't. But hey, next week saturday i get it, i take my road test in sparta so i will have it next weekend! Thats gonna be awesome! Anyways, i think i better finish homework for Algebra, i have that exam tomorrow. That is gonna be one sucky exam. Then again it wont cause right after it school is out! I'm gonna miss alot of people. I will do things with alot of people this summer but it just won't be the same cause now i can't see them every day. I will be able to see Erika alot but i don't know if it will be less or more than what i do now. Cause now i won't see her every day but we have more opportunities to get together also. So i dont know. Well, i had best be on my way. Cya tomorrow, last day of school!
Kevin
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2003 1 June :: 7.17 pm
:: Mood: stomach hurts and happy at the same time!
today
Hello there! Today was quite the day for me! Ok, first i went to church with Erika this morning. Then we went back to her house for a few hours, waiting to leave to go to her cousins open house. Lol in the mean time, Erika's mom took her over to the schools and let her drive around. Lol kinda freaky but she did good for the amount of experience she has! Lol and i almost got whiplash! No not really! So then we all went to this open house. I think we spent more time getting there than we did at the actual party! We were so lost lol ! But its ok cause we made it there and it was fun. I met some more people from her family besides the one's i already know. Oh......and the funniest t hing today, lol some guy that was the assistant coach for the Coopersville baseball team was there, we just played them last week, but he was there. So we talked about how i ran into their big fat 300 pound catcher and had some good laughs. But the funniest part was when he came inside, he hit his head on a hanging light coming from the ceiling lol! Oh boy, it was so funny. My stomach hurt so bad cause i was laughing so hard, it was just hilarious! So yeah, we stayed there a while and then i came home, and here i am! It was a good day, i had lots of fun! Thanks alot Erika, for always having me go places with you and your family! And i really mean it, lol not in a sarcastic way! Things will be alot better either this week or next week cause then i get my license! So we don't have to depend on others to drive us places and to each others houses. But anyways, i had best be on my way. Cya guys later, most of you at school tomorrow, the last week of school! Bye!
Kevin
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2003 31 May :: 10.51 am
:: Mood: kinda tired
I'm sorry......
Good morning.
Ok, i was up late lastnight doing nothing, cause i was bored and had nothing to do. And i hate it when i am bored cause then it makes me think about alot of things. And all through out last night, when i was thinking, i just felt sorry. I am sorry to a few friends, cause i know i have done something to some of you that i should feel sorry for.
Erika,
I'm sorry for alot of things. I know right now things aren't going the greatest. Things are going ok with me and you, but they could be better i think. And the part that is keeping it from being better is me. I know lately i have been acting kinda.....strange i guess you could say. I know, sometimes it feels like i am spying on you in class, or in the computer lab, or at stacy's house. Sometimes it feels like i can't trust you. I'm sorry to make you feel like that. I just need to stop being so uptight and stop being a pansy about everything. Erika, think of it this way, if i really didn't trust you, i would be like calling stacy's house and seeing what you are doing or passing by every one of your classes to make sure your not flirting around or something. I'm not trying to act like a bitch, but thats probably what it would be like if i really didn't trust you. But i do trust you, with everything. And i am going to try and show it more often now. I know i can trust you. I know you wouldn't hurt me in anyway possible. And i trust Ryan, not as much you, but still, i have trust for Ryan. Its just harder with him cause i know him real well, but like you said, he wouldn't do anything to hurt me either. And i'm sorry for always asking whats wrong, or why are you mad, or are you mad, or anything like that. I only ask cause i know something is wrong and i want to know what it is. Cause half the time it probably has to do with me. I just want you and I to be happy together. I want us to have some fun, well we do have fun, but more fun. This summer we will have alot of fun. And i want us to work past anything so we have no worries about anything and we can have fun with no problem. I'm not trying to be down on myself Erika, i know you don't like it when i am. I love you with everything i have to give. And again, i'm sorry sweetie.
Ok, and for stacy now. Stacy, i'm sorry that i have been acting strange and in a bitchy mood lately around you. I have had alot on my mind lately. I was so stressed out about baseball. Stressed out about taking drivers training and passing the road test and everything. I have been stressed out about this thing with me and Erika also. I know i keep asking you questions about things, like if anything was said about me and if i did something wrong or what. I don't need to do that. What you and Erika talk about is your business. If i really had to know then one of you could tell me. I deserve what ever i have coming toward me. So, i'm sorry stacy. I want to keep you as a friend. I knew you a w hile ago, then stopped talking for like what 6 years. And now i met you all over again through Erika. And i'm gald i did, your a great friend and a great person to talk to. I love ya girl, i don't wanna lose a good friend.
Ok, so i'm sorry to both of you. I know i can be a better person, and i am trying to be a better person. So hopefully later on you see some imporvements in me. Ok, well i gotta go now. I love you guys! Well....stacy as a friend and Erika as my princess! (lol sorry stacy!)
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2003 30 May :: 11.20 pm
:: Mood: Pissed off!
:: Music: none anymore
whatever
Wow, ok that took a long ass time to figure out everything and how it works with this journal. It took me forever to find out things. And now i tried getting into Kazaa to listen to some music, but no, my dumb ass brother had to delete the entire program cause "it was taking up too much room" Stupid jackass! On top of that, i am stuck home with him. My mom and dad left for a while, my sister went to her friends house, and i am always stuck with him. I hate him. And i am bored and tired. Nobody is online, nobody that i want to talk to anyways. Erika is with Brandi at the camp ground. So i won't talk to her until tomorrow, which it is almost tomorrow in 40 minutes! Wow i am extremely tired. I need Erika here with me. I miss her so much. I need her to keep me warm and cuddle with and talk to. To tell her how much i love her. One of my favorite things about her, those blue sparkling eyes! I love to just look in her eyes and tell her i love her. Well....this is a great way to start out a new journal! I get all pissed and then start talking about Erika and how much i love her! Oh well i guess. Atleast now everybody that reads this knows that i love her now. Alrighty, off to bed now. Cya later, to the very little friends that i added to my list!
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2003 30 May :: 10.39 pm
:: Mood: tired
Hello everyone! I kinda felt left out when everyone had a journal and i didn't. So i decided to get one! Lol it is funny cause my username is wierdo, so when i sign in it says "Welcome, Wierdo!" lol so thats funny! It knows that i am a wierdo without me even telling it. Wow, what a first entry for me!
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