Extremely Strange.......

:: 2006 12 April :: 8.42pm

i am so tired. yesterday and last night was such a long day.. and then this morning ...and then driving 2 hours just to work 5 more.....

wow

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:: 2006 11 April :: 9.32pm

I got a full ride scholarship at Davenport.

I couldn't even breathe.

and I have no idea what i'm going to do.
oh, i forgot to mention.. i can only attend one of the grand rapids campuses. not kalamazoo or anything.
so my plans???

are like messed up

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:: 2006 11 April :: 8.06pm

"heyya i no him he 1 of my furends, we make brownE's together n the chocolattte spill on da shirt"

That's how some of you type. That's not my point but it's true.

Stacy knows. She's one meen bug. ahahahaha

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:: 2006 10 April :: 8.21pm

I spotted this in Detroit. Our plane just flew in, we left the aiport and were on our way to eat when we seen this. I have no idea what it is but it was dancing and I called it a douche bag and my dad got mad at me for saying that haha..it just makes me laugh because I have no idea what it is or what they are doing!?!?!

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:: 2006 10 April :: 6.19pm

And in other news... MAJOR apartment hunt today... unfortuatlnleyeyeyeyeye ly by myself because Ro MAN had to work. it was quite a day. driving from 9-4.... i had to stop on the way home and sleep at a gas station for a half hour because i kept falling asleep on the expressway. I think I have it narrowed down to two different ones.... Westchester Woods and our orginal Alpine Village. We will look at them (Hopefully) one final time on Prom day, the 28th because we will not be seeing each other, nor traveling to K-Zoo before that date. It will be another long day.

I need to do some major budgeting and calculating and calling and checking and mailing and faxing and working so that I can do some paying and mailing and giving away money-ing.....

Frustration ensues. But thats okay. Anything to get out of here.

I am pretty sure I am taking a year off. I know that's what Roman is doing. We will be trying to save every penny we can. Then I think I'm going to go to Olympia or Davenport for medical assisting which is not my dream job, but I dont think I have any dream job other than being a mom and the job placement is 99% so I think it is a good idea. If I dont do that, then I think I may actually go to college. I dont know, thats just what I'm thinking. But I'm pretty positive I dont want to do cosmetology anymore. Eh it just doesn't appeal to me very much anymore. Clients and making everyone happy and it's the same kind of shit you have to deal with as a waitress. Acting like you are the nicest person in the world with absolutely no problems just so you can get a big tip and their business in the future. I don't want to do that. I can handle being nice, but OVERWHELMINGLY PERFECT is another story.

I like the idea of having a year where I just have ONE thing going on... WORK. I LOVE the idea of having a year where I can finally enjoy being WITH Roman instead of with him but away from him.

I've never had any time where I could just be with him whenever I wanted. We've always been restricted or away from each other. How great will it be to finally be able to be together every day. Perfect.

*sigh of relief* School tomorrow is not something I"m looking forward to, at all.

lynds4090

:: 2006 10 April :: 3.54pm

back to reality..
i tried to forget about eveything and i did... the sadness all come back today.
i hate ______.

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:: 2006 9 April :: 9.17pm

PICTURES FROM FLORIDA:

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:: 2006 9 April :: 8.01pm

STACY I MISS YOU!

brokenmentality

:: 2006 9 April :: 6.27pm

my voice is gone.

rampage game last night, bobby went with me. lets not get into the game though....

i stayed at keegans last night and this morning i woke up and one of my eyes wouldnt open. *sad face* what a BEAUTIFUL thing to wake up to... "baby, i cant open my eye" (keep in mind my voice sounds like a cat stuck in a metal pan) "aww, let me help you". i wont get into the sight he must have seen either... (now that HAS to be a test of our relationship!) i've got a really good one. and then of course his mom tells me to drink orange juice.. i think she thinks orange juice will cure everything. any illness... "ohh drink some orange juice." *smiles.... i love this family.

i went home while keegan went to work and my mom and me and shelby took jessie for a walk.. what a wonderful day. we even let shelbys bunny run around outside. then i took my NEWWWWW car in to town to vaccume it. THEN me and keegan brought shelby over so she could see sushi and we let him run around outside. he's not very fast.. it was so cute to see his tiny little self running around the grass. NOW we're waiting for keegans mom to get home to make us pork chops. i've been craving some pork chops for a couple days.. and sense im in NO condition to be seen, we're staying home tonight. i dont care though.. i just want to cuddle with my asian. :)

oh and stacy.. perhaps this will bring back some memories?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MAf8tNijuds&search=dane%20cook

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:: 2006 9 April :: 12.22am

I love this song and it is currently my favorite ever. lol

Yeah, Um, I think ima try somthin tonight that i aint,
that i aint neva did before on this one, lets go

Get ya lighters, roll dat sticky, lets get high (lets get higher)
Got that Blueberry Yum Yum And its dat fire(its that fire)
Get ya lighters, roll dat sticky, lets get high (lets get higher)
Got that Blueberry Yum Yum And its dat fire(its that fire)

Got a lil bit of Blueberry Yum Yum
and I neva would of thought that it could taste this goooooood
Thank God for the man who put it in my hoooooood
Its got me singin melodies I neva thought i woooouuuuld
Im feelin sorry for the homies that be smokin wooood
Chop Chop, break it down for a playa like me me me me me
Im bout to find me a woman that skeet skeet skeet skeet
Ima keep smokin till i reach my peak peak peak peak
Or till im stuck and my body feels weak weak weak weak weak
headed down to the doungeon wonderin, if they got, some moore
and if they dont then ima have ta settle fa some drooooo
and it just aint cool cuz right on afta, ima have ta gooooo
and continue on my mission fishin for tha Yum Yum but im movin sloooow

Get ya lighters, roll dat sticky, lets get high(lets get higher)
Got that Blueberry Yum Yum And its dat fire (its that fire)
Get ya lighters, roll dat sticky, lets get high (lets get higher)
Got that Blueberry Yum Yum And its dat fire(its that fire)

Yes, fire fire got me so tired ima stop drop and rooooooolll
With a wet towel under the doooooooor
Dont pass it I cant take it no mooooore
Somebody take a trip down to the stoooooore
hurry please cus i need some snacks snacks snacks snacks
and how long will it take to get back back back back
Yes indeed ima lil off track track track track track
Off this weed and im full of that yak yak yak yak yak
Get on in that stankin Lincoln crank it up and riiiiide
and it aint enuff room to fit tha other chicks inside
Im so hungry wit tha munchies ima eat everything in siiiiiight
Me and my blueberrys together and everythings all right

Get ya lighters, roll dat sticky, lets get high (lets get higher)
Got that Blueberry Yum Yum And its dat fire (its that fire)
Get ya lighters, roll dat sticky, lets get high (lets get higher)
Got that Blueberry Yum Yum And its high (its that fire)

Get the propane, rollin thangs and lets blow this place uuuuuup
You already know whats uuup
I mighta have to pay some extra buuuuuucks
But I really dont give a fuuuuuck
Cuz a brotha feels great great great great great
But im barely awake wake wake wake wake
All bent outa shape shape shape shape shape
So stomp on yo brake brake brake brake brake
If u token good, then all my smokas, let me see ya flame
Dont know what ya got but my bag will, put yo stuff, ta shame
All tha different kinds of otha flavors, they dont mean a thang
You cant compare it dont stare cuz i got the ultimate Mary Jane

Get ya lighters, roll the sticky, lets get high (lets get higher)
Got that Blueberry Yum Yum And its dat fire (its that fire)
Get ya lighters, roll the sticky, lets get high (lets get higher)
Got that Blueberry Yum Yum And its dat fire (its that fire)

.........

doesn't it just make ya wanna?!

:: 2006 8 April :: 10.29pm

Cute huh?

:: 2006 8 April :: 11.58am

blH BLAH BLAH

yeah so yesterday when i was with roman we put a deposit on an apartment. (Alpine Village, Stef. what do you think?) and it's refundable incase in the end we decide not to go with it.

then we were walking down that street that is the KZ mall and there was this guy playing saxaphone and we gave him all our quarters and then we found out it was the "Art Hop" so we had more to do. And then there was this thing at the state theatre it was Sonny Landreth was there. And we had no idea who it was but we just walked around more and then on our way back to the car, this guy comes up and he's like "Hey do you guys need tickets to the show" and we look at him suspiciously and he says "they're free" and I said "are you sure?" and he said "yeah i get them free from work, Im just gonna stand here until someone wants them. It should be a good show" and so I said "sure" and at first Roman didn't want to, especially since we didn't even know who this guy was but I said come on, it's free, if its horrible we can just leave so we went and the first band J.R. Crew or something was really good lol and the guy came off the stage and we were in the front row and he like sweat on us it was so gross lol but hilarious and then we only stayed a little whie for the Sonny Landreth guy. He was a really great guitar player and all the music was really great but we just had to get going because it was so late and there were so many old people standing around us dancing like freaks. lol man they really like their jazz.

oh but guess who else was there- . yeah , MRS MILLARD. haha we didn't even know who this guy was and Mrs Millard and her husband drove an hour to KZOO just to see him lol. So i said hi and I can't wait to tell everyone me and mrs millard rock out at the same concerts. wow.

Then we got dinner and when we were going home, i was following roman to the expressway and we were at a stoplight and these crazy ass bitches in the car next to me start screaming all this shit and saying stuff.. I dont even know I couldn't understand them but they just kept calling me a bitch and screaming at me and one of them in the backseat like stood up and stuck her body out of the car and was like yeah thats right bitch! and all this stuff and I honked my horn to get roman's attention and then theystarted honking their horn and roman got out of the car cuz he was like what the fucks going on and my window is broken so it doesn't roll down and I didn't open my car door but i should have but I was pointing to the side trying to tell roman to pull into that gas station on the corner and he thought i was telling him to get back in his car so he did. and then the next thing i know i look over and this fat bitch is knocking on my fucking window and shouting stuff. I was like seriously what the fuck is your problem. and then she just got back in her car and as soon as i pulled up a little they started doing the same thing to the car behind me. I swear they looked like a pack of apes. they were like howling all this shit. Crazy fricken bitches.

Yeah so that was my day yesterday for the most part.

lol

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:: 2006 8 April :: 6.18am

Born2bOnStage x3 (6:14:13 AM): please tell me you are not up right now.
mish is electric (6:14:23 AM): I'm not up right now.
Born2bOnStage x3 (6:14:33 AM): me either. i'm sleeping.

ahaha I just had to.