Extremely Strange.......

2 Felt the pain... | How does it feel?

:: 2006 27 February :: 9.32pm

I must.

No, I WILL win!

Muhahahahahahhararrrrrr

Rarrrrrrrrrrr!

Lol I really hope anyway!

lynds4090

:: 2006 27 February :: 8.26pm

now that cedar pride week is over.. i can actual sleep.
sat. was great... can't wait!!
32 days until spring break.. yeah that is right.. i'm sooo ready to leave and go to nice warm flordia...and gooooo SAILING!!! ahhhh the last week i will not be able to sit still.. yeah. so yes.... ah spring break

~ (\ ~~~ (\~- they are boats. ah i'm a dork.. i know. no need to remind me

4 Felt the pain... | How does it feel?

:: 2006 27 February :: 3.34pm

ahhhhhh if this works out i'll feel like the best girlfriend EVER!! hooray!

PLEASEEEEEEEEEEe!

:: 2006 26 February :: 5.57pm
:: Mood: Annoyed

The longer I tried denying this, the worse I feel. I've come to realize that pretending I don't hate you isn't making anything better. The truth is, I've never hated anyone more. Sometimes I say that I hate someone when I'm talking to one of my friends and i'll be like "oh yeah I hate him/her" but I never mean it. Things are differen't with you. I truly hate you and nothing will ever change that. I don't feel bad for saying this. You have no idea how much you've ruined things. You're so fucking ungrateful and selfish that I can't even stand it anymore. I seriously hope you choke.

Glad that's all out in the open now.

2 Felt the pain... | How does it feel?

:: 2006 26 February :: 12.37pm

You got your own way of looking at it, I guess that proves that I got mine. It's just who we are.

We've come too far to start over now. I know what you're thinking. I'm not always easy to be around but I do love you. You keep me believing that you love me too and I know it's true. This love drives us crazy but nobody's walking away so I guess we'll have to do it the hard way.

brokenmentality

:: 2006 26 February :: 12.03pm

yesterday started out pretty rough.... but fortunately got better.

we went and saw brokeback mountain... it was really good. keegan didnt like it. whatever.

then we went to oasis. that was nice.

and then this morning he wouldnt make me french toast because he has to complain and whine about everything. so i had frozen waffles. i just want to be treated like a princess like other girls. their boyfriends make them breakfast. mine wont even cook.

:: 2006 24 February :: 11.41pm

Tonight was really good I guess you could say.

First I went to Aarons after school and then we went to the game.

I seen Ryan Case there and I was really happy. I haven't seen him in a while and then I was just walking and someone called my name and I turned and it was Martha and Ashleigh. I was so excited. I haven't seen either of them in over a year now. Martha had a baby named Alex and he's 6 months old and Ashleigh's baby is 5 months old and her name is Haleigh. They both were so cute. I was holding them the whole time.

Oh and so then of course I'm just minding my own business when Sara comes up to me and she either heard Josh saying this to someone or he told her but anyways I guess he was saying how he wanted his cousin to meet me because he has the biggest crush on me and blah blah blah and so Sara said I should go talk to him and I was hell no that's not going to happen. It's too akward for me now. It's fine not knowing if someone has a crush on you and yeah if you have a crush on them then that's perfect but when you don't it just makes things akward and it basically made things 10 time worse when he wrote a fucking SONG about me. I've never had anyone do that before and it's just a little weird esp. since in the song it said "I want to love you forever." Yeah..that's what I said. It's just too much for me and I don't know how he became so in "love" with me since I've never liked him back and i've also never lead him on. He loves me but he doesn't know who I am and of course after the game Aaron and I are walking to my car and Josh is also in the parking lot and he has to make it known that i'm outside so he starts talking really loud so Josh can hear him and look over and see us.... It's just too fucking weird for me. First I get flowers by one boy and now im getting songs by another. It's not really cute unless you actually are dating this person. Now I'm just getting annoyed by this whole thing and I feel bad for complaining about this it's just I need to vent right now and everyone else in the world is sleeping.

Go ahead as you waste your days with thinking. When you fall, everyone stands, and you've had your fill of sinking.

fallenfaces

:: 2006 24 February :: 6.38am
:: Music: Ani Difranco - Angry Anymore

On the outs.
I always expect too much and get my hopes up for nothing.

Don't try to fix this, it'd show you actually cared.

3 Felt the pain... | How does it feel?

:: 2006 23 February :: 10.40pm

So..... I guess I'm gonna take an anger management class. It was kind of a joke but...

Ha

Yeah who saw that one coming.

I dunooooo nevermind. *breathes*

:: 2006 23 February :: 8.35pm

You know..I can't remember the last time we kissed because you never think the last time is really the last time. You always think there will be more. You think you have forever but you don't. -Greys Anatomy

Yeah so...it's like...I really want to tell you...but then again I don't want you to know.

Brad	:: 2006 23 February :: 7.27pm :: Music: E.P. - If i can dream -.- Yay. 4 Felt the pain... \| How does it feel?

fallenfaces

:: 2006 23 February :: 7.13pm

Nothing ever works. I shouldn't convince myself otherwise.

2 Felt the pain... | How does it feel?

:: 2006 23 February :: 6.23pm

You say we're bitches but we laugh because we knew it way before you did.

4 Felt the pain... | How does it feel?

:: 2006 23 February :: 3.25pm
:: Mood: sad/pissed off/cranky/terrible.

I miss you.
You know That I love you
I have loved you all along And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go.
Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore.

I wanted you to stay cause I needed... I need to hear you say That I love you I have loved you all along. And I forgive you for being away for far too long.

So keep breathing cause I'm not leaving you anymore. Believe it, hold on to me and never let me go. Keep breathing cause I'm not leaving you anymore. Believe it, hold on to me and never let me go.

:: 2006 23 February :: 3.21pm

COMPLETE BULLSHIT.