Extremely Strange.......

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:: 2005 30 December :: 9.38pm

fuck me in the ass , tie me to a truck and drag me until my flesh falls off my face, and then shove me in an old abandoned well

and then fucking tell me if i was the last person on earth not completely fake and one hundered percent unreal.

god you either do or you dont

i swear i'm gonna fucking shoot myself.
god you people are stupid.

:: 2005 30 December :: 7.38pm

why are you such a jerk to me:?

i am tina and you are adrian and it will never change. and you are a jerk to me.

and you guys just dont understand

is what i'll say
fuck you adrian . fuck you.

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:: 2005 30 December :: 5.46pm

Puddin Flop (as Stacy/Dani says)
Last night once again was fun as always. Like Stacy said this is mostly just going to be more for my benefit than anyone else's. I went and hung out at Danielles house with Big Nasty, Ryan Case, Dan, Tyler, Shane, Dustin, and of course Stacy. Stacy and I decided we wanted to make bacon randomly and we had the worst time making it and then like an hour later we were finally finished. "The dacon is bangerous" lol one of Stacy's wonderful lines. Then at like midnight we went to IHOP and I said I wouldn't ever go there again after what happened to Erika and I but I went anyways since I wasn't just going to not go with my friends and it wasn't all that bad. Our waitress was extremely weird and we were all trying to be nice and all of the sudden she asked someone at our table "how they wanted their meats?" and I looked at everyone and they were all trying not to laugh and all of the sudden I just busted out laughing and I made Ryan and Dan bust out laughing too. She was definitely odd. And then when Ryan, Tyler, Shane, and Dan went by the Rockford Church some kids threw snowballs at Shanes car and they stopped and got out and beat them up. It was pretty funny to hear about but I didn't see it since I wasn't riding with them and at first when they called us we didn't believe them but it really happend because when we got back Dan's face had a huge hole in it and was bleeding and Ryan's face was swelling up. I couldn't believe it and then on the way to IHOP a cop pulled them over because Shanes lights went off because Ryan said "they were jammin' too hard"...I don't know but I just couldn't stop laughing last night. We always have some great times.

I should get going though because I'm hanging out with Logan, Emily, and Justin later.

So everyone have a good weekend.

<3 Ashley

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:: 2005 30 December :: 12.34pm

do you ever get that feeling where you KNOW you have to take a shower and do your hair and put fricken makeup all over your stupid face and change you clothes but you can't get over the thought:

'What the hell for?'

soooooooooooooooooooooooo stupid

lilschaub

:: 2005 29 December :: 4.37pm
:: Mood: lazy

http://www.hartgems.com/proddetail.asp?prod=71%2D0119

If anyone cares thats the promise ring Nathan gave me for christmas!! Its so pretty. I love it and I love him. I am having a great christmas break but I just dont want to go back. But if you think about it its just about 4 months and then I am out of here. Which is the best thing ever. I am so excited for college. I am just glad that I found Baker its just so perfect for me and its going to be great because nate will be there with me. Well everyone have a good and safe new year!!

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:: 2005 29 December :: 4.39pm

so how bout that jessica hazen

what a doll huh?!!?!?!?!? i love her!

:: 2005 29 December :: 4.19pm

I feel so incredible. I feel so relieved!

HALLELUJIA !!! or however you spell that. Thank God, maybe I was wrong. You're right. Aren't you always though?

i feel so good. i couldn't sleep at ALL last night because i was worrying about my future. I hadn't let it bug me that much in a long time and now this solution is at my fingertips. I think i'm really going to go for it. I know some of it might sound like a long shot.... but i reallky think it will work. On top of that, i think it will be a good experience for me. It will. God, i am so happy.

i finally have decided where i'm going to go and what i'm going to do.

now just cross your fingers for me that it all works out.

God Bless You

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:: 2005 29 December :: 3.28pm

Stop, stare, and watch me burn. Someday it'll be your turn. You can't fool me. I can see all the things that you didn't want me to see. You threw my heart away and thats the price I paid. I know it's never fair, you promised me you'd always be there but you never really cared.

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:: 2005 28 December :: 11.53pm

What the hell am I supposed to say to that? Seriously. I don't think I have ever been so shocked in my entire life. That is the nicest most weird thing ever.

Stacy: I have to tell you something and I know what you told me wasn't supposed to be anything exciting but my news is. It's actually pretty much top secret. No joke.

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:: 2005 28 December :: 11.23am

Last night was so much fun. I love you Stacy, Mishy, Dani, and Brittani. Devin and Ben were also pretty awesome guys. Nate on the other hand, let's not go there. Stacy and I are sluts, we rocked their worlds, end of story. Kidding we aren't. We stayed out all night and we went to Morningstar, Vertigo, and Skelletones. It was so fun. We met Trisha, Natalie, and Brittani there too. Dani is the worst driver ever. I'm not kidding. We almost died a few times. She just drives downtown in GR and she doesn't even stop at red lights or stop signs. The worst part about it is that she doesn't even realize that she runs red lights and stop signs. So I figured that most of us didn't really want to die so I made sure to tell her where she needed to stop and go at. We went to Bens at around 1 and I was playing video games with Mishy and at first she was losing so she just quit and I didn't really realize this until afterwards but I got so into the stupid game. They have this video of me and I'm like freaking out while I'm playing it. It was hilarious. Anyways we didn't get home until like 4:30 and I slept probably about three hours so I'm sort of tired but I'll be okay. I had so much fun and we are going to do it again.

"Use my strong hand"

"105.4" lol

I didn't realize that if you wear a skirt in the middle of winter, it made you a slut but then again what do I know?

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:: 2005 27 December :: 10.49pm

i was loooking at these pictures from last year and i was just even more fully convinced about how i gained weight. i mean, i know i did. a scale doesn't lie right... but oh my gawd. i'm hidious how the hell do you spell that

i swear if i'm away from roman all i feel is fat and ugly

and well other than that..
i wanna go barf.

tootaloo

wait no, i must add more. I know some of you self centered biatches just read that post and were like "score. one more hoe out of the way" or something liek that... i think there are some PEOPLE who get kicks out of when their friends get big ol zits on the ends of their nose or gain 10 pounds for example. .... or wear an ugly shirt.... or have a bad hair day. there are some PEOPLE who just enjoy the fact that they know they look better than their "friend" on that particular day.
it's a constant obscene and fucked up battle for some PEOPLE.

wow.

some people huh?

I hope at least one person understands that. maybe even the person it is semi-directed to out of pure angst and a little bit of self-pity.

:: 2005 26 December :: 11.31pm

okay. so here it is plain and simple. I'm not feeling very well. And would you like to know something? You're not making me feel any better. would you like to know something more?

I obviously am a big complaining bitch. Obligations and responsibilities I know, but wah wah wah I want to be first and I'm a big fat bitch.

I am sad and yeah I pretty much totally would like to cry now. I feel just forgotten. And I'll never understand why it's so easy for you.

and why it's so extremely difficult for me..........

:: 2005 26 December :: 11.29pm

maybe i'm just not good enough. until later

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:: 2005 26 December :: 8.05pm

I'm seriously the worst minesweeper player in history. Ever.