The sun shines so brightly, yet I feel so alone in the dark...

 

home | profile | guestbook


Sadness will overcome this world...

recent entries | past entries


anachronism

:: 2005 2 November :: 6.56am

I hope you're ok.
Last night was hard.
But, I made it. I'm waiting for it all to be over so I can be normal again.


I can't wait for Friday.

~*Add something thats amazing*~


cowsgomoo!!!

:: 2005 1 November :: 10.47pm

halloween was alright. didnt get much candy, but i spend almost all night with rachael. i left her house around eleven. so that was fun. she's awesome!!!

yeah, thats about it. see ya'll later

-me

~*Add something thats amazing*~


anachronism

:: 2005 1 November :: 4.52pm
:: Music: Ani Difranco

Today was a good day.
I'm reading some of my old entries and oh my God.. I was an idiot. It's so funny how only a month or so after you read something you can't believe you were so fucking stupid.

I'm changing and I think all this shit that has happened was for the best. I'm not doing as bad as I thought I would, at all. It's insane how well I am taking everything. I'm either gonna glide through this or it's gonna hit me later. I just know right now things are fine.

I know how I feel and all I hope is plans run smoothly from here on out.

Oh, and don't worry, sweety.. no one can ruin my life when I'm only 17 years old. Try at a later time. ;)

I love you Erika!

8 ~*pplz who read my journal*~ | ~*Add something thats amazing*~


anachronism

:: 2005 1 November :: 6.58am

Reminder.
I cannot pretend that I felt any regret
Cause each broken heart will eventually mend
As the blood runs red down the needle and thread
Someday you will be loved

You'll be loved you'll be loved
Like you never have known
The memories of me
Will seem more like bad dreams
Just a series of blurs
Like I never occurred

Someday you will be loved

You may feel alone when you're falling asleep
And everytime tears roll down your cheeks
But I know your heart belongs to someone you've yet to meet
Someday you will be loved

Death Cab for Cutie - Someday You Will Be Loved

~*Add something thats amazing*~


sugarjackj

:: 2005 31 October :: 7.16pm

Anyone know what emotional cheating is?

Just a thought.



I need a life,
friends,
something to keep me busy,
and my mind off him.

1 ~*pplz who read my journal*~ | ~*Add something thats amazing*~


sugarjackj

:: 2005 31 October :: 4.58pm

something in my heart is making me sad....

maybe i have mono.
lol

~*Add something thats amazing*~


anachronism

:: 2005 30 October :: 8.16pm

Today didn't turn out as bad as I thought it would.
I just have to stay busy.. hah.
Tomorrow I'll be a wreck.
Hopefully I can just be ok again. I'm staying strong and remembering not to miss him, but miss what we used to have. Which was months ago. And I can have it again, it'll just take time.
So much for everything.

I'll be fine.

2 ~*pplz who read my journal*~ | ~*Add something thats amazing*~


sugarjackj

:: 2005 30 October :: 7.16pm



I am tired of having to face the dumb reality that i will never be what i am supposed to be, in the eyes of another.

4 ~*pplz who read my journal*~ | ~*Add something thats amazing*~


anachronism

:: 2005 30 October :: 12.19pm

Well, I'm single.
He broke up with me, so for once I don't have to feel like the bitch.
It hurts. I'm crying, but I can't let it get to me like last time.
I haven't seen him for a week and I have been fine, it's just hard now that it's official. But, me being fine and having a good week without him shows I don't need him. I just feel like I do now that it's a for sure thing that we're done.
But, whatever. I'm young. I have to meet new people and just live right now. I don't need a guy to be a happy person. I need freedom and no one to answer to. I need to just be independent and not get depressed over this.
We had our good times. He was my first for a lot of things, but our relationship has died. We've both been miserable and it's better to end it now than later. And as hard as I tried I couldn't get over being with someone who cheated on me.
Yes, I'll miss him, but I'll live.
I need to hang out with someone tonight, because as much as I don't want to feel alone right now I do.

3 ~*pplz who read my journal*~ | ~*Add something thats amazing*~


anachronism

:: 2005 29 October :: 1.34pm
:: Music: Bright Eyes

Ani Difranco - Fuel
They were digging a new foudation in Manhattan
and they discovered a slave cemetary there.
May their souls rest easy
now that lynching is frowned upon,
and we've moved on to the electric chair.
And I wonder who's gonna be president? Tweedle dumb or tweedle dumber?
And who's gonna have the big blockbuster box office this summer?
How about we put up a wall between houses and the highway
and you can go your way, and I can go my way.

Except all the radios agree with all the tv's,
and the magazines agree with all the radios!
And I keep hearing that same damn song everywhere I go! [hahaha]
Maybe I should put a bucket over my head!
And a marshmallow in each ear!
And stumble around for
another dumb-numb week..
waiting for another hum-drum hit song to appear.

People used to make records,
as in a record of an event.
The event of people.
Playing music. In a room.

Now everything is cross-marketing.
It's about sunglasses and shoes,
or guns and drugs,
you choose.
We got it rehashed.
We got it half-assed.
We're digging up all the graves
and we're spitting on the past.

And you can choose between the colors
of the lipstick on the whores
'cause we know the difference between
the font of 20% more!
And the font of teriakiyi, you tell me..
How does it make you feel?
You tell me what's real.

And they say that alcoholics are always alcoholics
even when they're as dry as my lips, for years.
Even when they're stranded on a small, desert island
with no place within 2,000 miles to buy beer!
And I wonder..
Is he different?-
Is he different?-
Has he changed? What's he about?
Or is he just a liar with nothing to lie about?

Am I headed for the same brick wall?
Is there anything I can do about anything at all?
Except go back to that corner in Manhattan
and dig deeper, dig deeper this time.
Down beneath the impossible pain of our history,
beneath unknown bones,
beneath the bedrock of the mystery.
Beneath the sewage systems and the path drain,
beneath the cobblestones and the water mains!
Beneath the traffic of friendships and street deals,
beneath the screeching of kamikaze cab wheels!
Beneath everything I can think of to think about,
beneath it all, beneath all get out!!
Beneath the good and the kind and the stupid and the cruel..

There's a fire just waiting for fuel.
There's a fire just waiting for fuel.
There's a fire just waiting for fuel.
There's a fire just waiting for fuel.

1 ~*pplz who read my journal*~ | ~*Add something thats amazing*~


anachronism

:: 2005 29 October :: 11.29am

We could not be doing any worse right now.

I feel like this is the end.


joeydomina

:: 2005 27 October :: 8.21pm

Work Tonight
Well work was actually quite fun and I was told that I should probably go over and work at the geek squad area....quite funny actually....well here's my schedule for this upcoming week...hehe

Sat - 10-4
Sun - 3-7
Wed - 4-10
Thur - 9:15-5:30
Fri - 1-7

yay go me...thats alot of hours hehe

~*Add something thats amazing*~


anachronism

:: 2005 25 October :: 6.39pm
:: Music: Ani Difranco - Untouchable

Part of the song Untouchable by Ani
so fuck you
and your untouchable face
and fuck you
for existing in the first place
and who am i
that i should be vying for your touch
and who am i
i bet you can't even tell me that much

two-thirty in the morning
and my gas tank will be empty soon
neon sign on the horizon
rubbing elbows with the moon
a safe haven of sleepless
where the deep fryer's always on
radio is counting down
the top 20 country songs
and out on the porch the fly strip is
waving like a flag in the wind
y'know, i don't look forward
to seeing you again soon
you'll look like a photograph of yourself
taken from far far away
and i won't know what to do
and i won't know what to say

except fuck you


joeydomina

:: 2005 25 October :: 2.21pm

Grounded
Well all my hun is grounded because she was a couple of minutes late to get her sister...and its all my fault. now i cant finish her costume and i cant go trick or treating with her. it totally sucks. i cant see her after school or after work...well when the heck am i supposed to see her. it totally sucks. i dont know what i'm gonna do without her to talk to. she is my confidant, my one, my only. what can i do to make this a better situation......nothing thats what. god i'm just gonna go and have the crappiest day at work...oh yeah i start work at best buy today...go me....not....

ttyl,
JOey

15 ~*pplz who read my journal*~ | ~*Add something thats amazing*~


sugarjackj

:: 2005 23 October :: 7.46pm

I will be so upset if I get really sick.


gah gah poo poo.


I'm tired.

:)

2 ~*pplz who read my journal*~ | ~*Add something thats amazing*~

Woohu.com | Random Journal