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skife

:: 2011 7 June :: 10.48am

When a man lives dangerous, he is not afraid to DIE. When he is not afraid to DIE, he is strangely, free to LIVE...

face the fox


allyson

:: 2011 7 June :: 1.11am

8 months old. Still no teeth, still having pooping issues (constipation) poor thing. You still ready every four hours 24 hours a day. Which means you wake up 3 times in the middle of the night still so you sleep in bed with me. It doesn't bother me though because I know that someday you won't want to be near me and then ill be sad. This way I won't regret the time I didn't spend with you....which I pretty much spend all day everyday with you. I don't mind.in fact I love it and I wouldn't have it any other way. I'm not sure on your measurements right now.I'll measure you tomorrow...

face the fox


phil-himself

:: 2011 5 June :: 3.38pm

"Taking what you want just might set you free"

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phil-himself

:: 2011 4 June :: 1.39pm

Taking shits with the door open, classic

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phil-himself

:: 2011 27 May :: 8.45pm

winnin like a motherfucker

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phil-himself

:: 2011 26 May :: 8.36am

snoochie boochies

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skife

:: 2011 24 May :: 4.50pm
:: Mood: blank

Can't afford life anymore, fuck me.

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phil-himself

:: 2011 17 May :: 6.46pm

everyone can fuck off today

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phil-himself

:: 2011 13 May :: 3.25pm

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phil-himself

:: 2011 11 May :: 1.03pm

The years they don't treat you like they used to.

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allyson

:: 2011 11 May :: 12.10am

A day late..
Callie,
I'm sorry I'm late. Time goes by so quickly now that you're here. I hate it. I want you to stay my baby forever. You're already 7 months old. 7 months ago I delivered you in our bathroom. Wow. Over half way to your first birthday. Insane! Any ways... At your last dr.appointment (may 2nd) you were STILL only 67 cm long (roughly 26 inches) and get this, 19.5 lbs! You are off the charts for weight and normal for height. You sit soooo well now. You learn forward so far that you end up on one knee...but still you manage to sit back down with out falling (most times!). Recently,i moved you to your crib. Is maybe been a week. The pay two nights though you've ended up back in bed with me. You s sleep so much better that way...but daddy has gotten so used to you not being in bed that every morning his pillow magically ends up in the middle of the bed where you "used" to lay. You have hard a hard time pooping this past week...in fact you haven't pooped really at all since monday when you had your first BLOW OUT in cloth at the appointment. Other than that one time..you have not pooped out of your cloth diapers. So the cloth diapers are working well for us. I believe your sudden issue with pooping is caused by your eating habits changing. All of a sudden it seems you started eating purees. And then in a short time we moved you to eating twice a day. A fruit and oatmeal mix in the am amd then a fruit and veggie mix in the evening. You were eating really well for like a week straight.now not so much..i think you feel like your belly is full (full of poo!) So its uncomfortable for you to eat. Lets see....you love to stand now. If you're ever upset.. Standing you up..will stop your tears with out fail. We go out side every day. You LOVE grass. Your sister hated it. Oh, and speaking of your sister..you absolutely adore her. You talk and talk and talk to each other all the time. And laugh together. She is the best big sister and you are the best little sister. You have a great relationship with each other..i hope it status this good throughout your childhood and into your adult lives. Oh..your newest"trick"is talking on my phone. I use speaker phone so whenever I'm on it, you hold my phone and start jabbering away. Its the cutest thing. You are the cutest thing. I love you baby. And I'm so grateful you are a part of my life.

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phil-himself

:: 2011 10 May :: 6.00pm

Throw your needless shame out the window.

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phil-himself

:: 2011 6 May :: 12.50pm

phil-himself aka USA #1

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phil-himself

:: 2011 6 May :: 8.58am

pull the trigger, drop the blade, and watch the rolling heads

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phil-himself

:: 2011 4 May :: 1.45pm

Speed: GO

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phil-himself

:: 2011 29 April :: 10.13am



Got a hole in my head
Everything falls right out
Through my ears, through my eyes
Makes no difference where you are

You wanna know how I do it?
I do it all right
You wanna know how I do it
I do it all right

I got a hole and I’ll never go home
There ain’t nothing can fill it up
I got a hole and I’ll never go home
There ain’t no one thing

A new road, a new road
A new road, a new road
You never get right back
A new road
You never get it right back
A new road

You wanna know how I do it?
You wanna know how I do it
You wanna know how I do it
I do it all right

I gotta hole and I’ll never go home
There ain’t nothing that can fill it up
I gotta hole and I’ll never go home
There ain’t no one thing out there

Not me with a gun to my head
I can let it go
Not me with a gun to my head
I can let it go
So I sing

face the fox


phil-himself

:: 2011 27 April :: 12.19pm

sometimes you just deal

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m&ms487

:: 2011 26 April :: 7.42pm
:: Mood: calm

My life is set for approximately the next two years. Hopefully, with little to no deviation. I'm almost done with my first semester of graduate school. I just have about 14 pages to complete before the end of the semester next week.

I'm slated to graduate with my Master of Arts in English Language and Literature in May 2013. I've been offered (and I accepted) a position to teach two sections of English 101: Freshman Composition as a Graduate Assistant. I even got hired by the University and all. I get a small (small) stipend, and a tuition waver for up to 20 credits per year.

I really want to teach when I graduate. I know that I will probably teach composition (hopefully at a community college) for a few years, and then I'll think about a PhD program. I'll see when I get there. I'll also be able to get a job as a grant writer for an organization, as I will be trained in that by the time I graduate.

Things are going. Things are happening. Good things.

face the fox


phil-himself

:: 2011 25 April :: 10.55pm

I read journals from friends and myself back to 2006 today and I'm wondering where the hell the time went and what the hell happened to us all.

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phil-himself

:: 2011 22 April :: 1.34pm

2011 has been quite the adventure so far, where it will take me next I wonder

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moomoo

:: 2011 21 April :: 11.54am

Come on June, so ready for a vacation to myrtle beach!

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allyson

:: 2011 20 April :: 9.20pm

6 months
Callie,
Happy late 6 months baby!
We had two appointments last week, started cloth diapering AND I took your six month pictures. At your check up you weighed 18 lbs 12 oz and were 26 and 3/4 inches. Short and FAT! You can now sit by yourself for a very long time..hours even. Can stand for a few minutes (holding our hands of course) and...here's the big one, YOU CAN CLAP! Right now you are sick...got a pretty bad cold. So does your big sister and me too. You love to eat your feet, and you need a
blanky to fall asleep. You are wearing 12-18 month clothes....autumn jumping up and down can make you laugh no mater how upset you are. You are eating every three hours during the day. Your last feeding is at midnight. Then you wake up twice in the nightstill.. Once at around four or five and then again at 8 or 9. Then you eat at noon,3,6,9 and then midnight. Oh and you still won't eat baby food. Once in a while you will eat a few bies of rice cereal...but that's it.

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rayray

:: 2011 18 April :: 11.18pm

Really wishes that a certain person would grow the fuck up already.

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phil-himself

:: 2011 14 April :: 8.27am

You're So Vague - Queens of the Stone Age
"Girl I think I love you and the mess you made."

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phil-himself

:: 2011 31 March :: 10.06am

Queens of The Stone Age - The Bronze

I've been waiting
Waiting under things
That rise in the morning
I've been holding
Holding back so long
You can own it
Take it off my hands
Do me a favor
Nothin wasted
Just fingerfucked and
Busted up all at once

I'm so lost out on the highway
With no direction left to go
Everyday sit up and wonder
Where it was I started from

The more you've found
The less you've been around

face the fox


phil-himself

:: 2011 30 March :: 9.47am

How long do you stick your neck out till it gets severed off?

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m&ms487

:: 2011 28 March :: 8.21pm

So...update.

Graduate school is easy. I started in January. So much less crap than undergrad ever was. With that being said, it's getting to the crunch time of the semester that I haven't quite prepared for because I've been busy doing stuff such as:

1. Working at the Writing Center 15 hours/week
2. Organizing a huge fundraiser for the Theodore Roethke House in Saginaw
3. Presenting at the Eastern Central Writing Centers Association Conference
4. Presenting at the Michigan Women's Studies Association Conference
5. Founding and hosting meetings of Anarchists without Adjectives
6. Applying for Teach for America
7. Applying for a graduate assistantship position to teach English 101 next year
8. Sleeping
9. Planning
10. Blogging

Between now and April 9th, I have a presentation and a 15-20 page paper to write for one class. Between now and May 1, I have a 12 page paper, a presentation, and several smaller assignments to complete. Oh, and probably about 2,000 pages of reading. Eh.

The library is my home skillet.

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phil-himself

:: 2011 28 March :: 11.54am

gettin' pushed around by the county, glad I'm done with Jury Duty.

it's fuckin' stupid

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phil-himself

:: 2011 27 March :: 11.05am

Always WINNING!

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phil-himself

:: 2011 24 March :: 2.57pm

I'm too fucking grizzled and stubborn to stay down for too long.

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