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:: 2009 28 May :: 11.17pm

oh to the em gee
This work week has been hilarious.

More details tomorrow. I should be in bed.

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:: 2009 24 May :: 9.11pm
:: Music: whatevers on tv

Well its been a long time I posted. I don't even know what all's going on anymore. I realize now that high school was definitly different than I thought. There was alot going on that I didn't know or realize. But again that was then. I'm still friends with certain people, others I could honestly care less. I'm married and working towards a divorce because he wasn't what I thought he was. He's not a bad person... just too much like my dad for me. I found a good guy who I'm living with. Far, far away from everything I've known. Its kinda nice although I tend to miss my other friends. Life is pretty much changed for me, everything is just different now. The only constant in my life has been some friends and my puppy. But that can only get you so far... *sighs* well... yeah. I'm still me, but I'm so different. And that doesn't make sense in my own head.... lol. well maybe someday it will....

:: 2009 22 May :: 10.48pm

So I have only had My new dog since Wednesday night and he has already developed a bra fetish and has ran off twice. Not to mention he chewed up a whole tune of chap-stick, taken over tanks peanut butter roll and completely demolished a chew toy while playing a rough game of tug-a-war. He is definitely a running little bastard! I sprinted for probably 3 blocks to get him today like 5 seconds after I got home from work and spent an hour looking for the little shit last night. He is definitely not a lazy dog like My little baby doodles that is for damn sure!

I finally got some new tires and rims for My car. I had the seats taken out so that I could clean it out and I got My headlights adjusted so they work a little better. Now I just need to wash it.

My sister, Derrick and seth are up for the weekend and i'm super excited about that.

And I am feeling better about everything so that is another plus. I love having a washer and dryer! Best inventions ever.

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:: 2009 20 May :: 7.49pm

is getting another dog for her birthday!! :)

:: 2009 19 May :: 2.52am

Watching my elders get buried is one thing, but your peers, your friends that is just well disheartening.

Tomorrow is not a good day.

We will miss you Eric.

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:: 2009 18 May :: 9.53pm

Undisputed gets released tomorrow, too bad i dont have any dollars to go get and the sweet deals they are giving away. fuck!

:: 2009 16 May :: 7.35pm

Okay.

First week of NewJob went okay. It actually was a whole lot better by week's end. I am going to have to get over this not liking to speak French thing since that's my job now. Sigh etc.

I have a stupid NewJob story that happened on Wednesday and I wrote on Wednesday:

Today [Wednesday], we had a trainer come in and teach us Google Earth [which I TOTALLY already know and used when it first came out]. Before we started, he went around the room and asked our names and for us to say something in our language. He was French African.

Please tell me you are feeling the same thing I was: DREAD. PANIC. DREAD.

So we go around the room and everyone is saying five bajillion sentences and the other two French people have great accents and each have two paragraphs prepared already.

So he gets to me and all I can think to say is "ta mère est un pamplemousse." I can't call his mother a grapefruit! Who knows what connotation that has! I am probably calling her a whore or something.

What do I do? What do I do? OH! MAKE A JOKE! People love jokes! They will be so busy laughing that they won't notice that you say "Bone-jewurrr y'all"! Make a joke, Rachel.

Do I say my name in French or English? What did the Hope girl say? KAH-Rhen? Okay, so French.

"Je m'appelle Rachelle et je ne parle pas français."

Everyone is staring at me. Why are they staring? Did I miss an article? "Parlez-vous anglais?" No. No article needed. I said the "ne" but they can forgive that, I was nervous, I had to prepare a simple sentence. THIS IS A JOKE. I just said "I don't speak French" in French! Ha ha. Laugh already. No one is laughing. Okay.

"Ceci n'est pas une pipe...?"

Did they get it? Okay. He got it. And I got a little laugh. Ugh. Do these people have no sense of humor? Hope girl is staring at me. I'm not even looking at British guy. Heaven forbid he judge me. He's British. We left them for a reason. And Hope girl liked France. Screw them.

Reasoning doesn't stop the embarrassment. I can feel myself turning red. I am warm, it's warm in here. Ugh. I am a retard. Why did I think this job would be okay? I can no longer get away with the fact that I don't speak French.

I told them up front. I told them it was terrible! It's not my fault!

During break, I am furiously checking the internet as I have chosen sleep over Google Reader for the past week and have 97 unread items. I AM STARING AT THE SCREEN AND NOT WELCOMING CONTACT.

Hope girl turns around. TURN BACK AROUND, GIRL. DO NOT WANT YOUR HUMORLESS FACE LOOKING AT ME. AM ON THE INTERNETS.

"Bonjour, Rachelle."

Cut her off, cut her off! There's no way I'm speaking French to her and letting her judge me. I AM NOT YOUR FRIEND. I hate France! I hate French! I just told you I don't speak French.

"Oh, no. I cannot think to speak French today." Still staring at my 97 Google Reader items. Must label all interesting things.

"Oh. I was just... I was wondering why you said you didn't speak French."

I looked over at her. Oh, God. She is looking at me with pity and concern. Cut it off quick! No friends! No pity! No French!

"It was A JOKE."

"Oh." She turns back around quickly. The conversation is over.

Was I just a bitch to her? I think I was just a bitch. Whatever. She's not talking to me.

Ugh. Why don't these people get jokes?

At least they are all nice.

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:: 2009 16 May :: 3.11am

Also, I now demand to be referred to as M.C. Creeper

that is all

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:: 2009 16 May :: 3.03am

I am so about Commander Spock

Doc McCoy was also kick ass.

:: 2009 14 May :: 12.56pm

http://www.geocities.com/Athens/Troy/5187/gre.html

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:: 2009 14 May :: 1.26am

Laughing With... Lyrics

no one laughs at god in a hospital
no one laughs at god in a war
no one's laughing at god
when they're starving or freezing
or so very poor

no one laughs at god when the doctor calls after some
routine tests
no one's laughing at god,
when it's gotten real late,
their kid's not back from that party yet.

no one laughs at god when their airplane
starts to uncontrollably shake
no one's laughing at god
when they see the one they love
hand in hand with someone else and they hope that
they're mistaken

no one laughs at god when the cops knock on their door
and they say "We got some bad news, sir."
no one's laughing at god when there's a famine,
fire, or a flood...

but god could be funny
at a cocktail party while listening to a good god-themed
joke
or when the crazies say he hates us and they get so red in
the head you'd think they're about to choke.
god could be funny
when told he'll give you money if you just pray the right way
and when presented like a genie who does magic like Houdini
or grants wishes like Jiminy Cricket and Santa Claus
god could be so hilarious
HaHa
HaHa

no one laughs at god in a hospital
no one laughs at god in a war
no one's laughing at god when they've lost all they got
and they don't know what for

no one laughs at god on the day they realize
that the last sight they'll ever see is a pair of
hateful eyes
no one's laughing at god when they're saying their
goodbyes

but god could be funny
at a cocktail party while listening to a good god-themed
joke
or when the crazies say he hates us
and they get so red in the head you'd
think they're about to choke.
god could be funny
when told he'll give you money if you just
pray the right way
and when presented like a genie who does magic like Houdini
or grants wishes like Jiminy Cricket and Santa Claus
god could be so hilarious

no one laughs at god in a hospital
no one laughs at god in
a war
no one laughs at god in a hospital no one laughs at god in
a war
no one laughing at god in a hospital
no one's laughing at god in a war
no one's laughing at god
when they're starving or freezing
or so very poor

no one's laughing at god
no one's laughing at god
no one's laughing at god, we're all laughing with
god.

And a nice review of the song
http://www.dailymusicguide.com/Reviews/regina-spektor-laughing-with-single-review-09052009-1332.aspx

^_^

:: 2009 13 May :: 9.35pm

I don't like being a grownup. It is not fun. Ugh.

:: 2009 13 May :: 8.30pm

Found herself a washer and dryer for fifty bucks!
And is super excited..

:: 2009 13 May :: 7.48pm

6/23/09

The tracks on Far are:

1. The Calculation
2. Eet
3. Blue Lips
4. Folding Chair
5. Machine
6. Laughing With
7. Human of the Year
8. Two Birds
9. Dance Anthem
10. Genius next door
11. Wallet
12. One more time with feeling
13. Man of a Thousand Faces

I already have a decent number of these, in low quality live recordings. Nevertheless, I'm ridiculously excited!

^_^

:: 2009 13 May :: 6.41pm

Real Fark Headline

"Man hits pedestrian at Home Depot and runs down a state trooper before leaving the lot. Hits a van, backs up and hits it again. Drives off screaming "WOO HOO" as he strikes several vehicles before crashing head-on with a semi. TA-DA"

Full Story

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:: 2009 13 May :: 2.55am

Everything burns, especially the world.

:: 2009 12 May :: 10.43pm

So i'm feeling better than I did on Friday.
Much much better.
I just really wish I could find another Boston terrier for me or at least a Boston playmate for my dog.

I'vr narrowed things down to the fact that I hate my job more than anything. Seriously, to the point where I am miserable every single day and I don't want to get out of bed.

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:: 2009 12 May :: 6.14pm

Nostalgic of the GRCC days

:: 2009 11 May :: 7.45pm

I'm still depressed about this shit.

it seems that when i finally get my life back on track, i start getting my bills cought up i get kicked in the face.

what the fuck.. really?

i'm so sick of this shit.

to put the icing on the cake, today i got my insurence card... and it'll never get used because i don't have insurence.

why me?

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:: 2009 9 May :: 12.17am

Life was better on prozac..
I've been at this place before..
Where nothing makes sense, but at the same time, everything makes sense to me.
I have everything most girls dream of, yet I am lacking so many things that other people have and dream of.
Sometimes I think that I want to be single and live alone.
But the problem with that is, I haven't ever lived on my own. I hate being at home alone. I tried living on my own once, and Mike was over everyday, and then he moved completely in.
I need to balance independent and dependent.
I'm back to where I was when I was in high school..
Crying about every little thing.
Making everyone miserable because I'm sad all the time..
Even though I really have no reason to be unhappy..
And seriously, I have no idea how Mike deals with it.
He tries to cheer me up, but it only lasts for a little bit..
Until I start thinking about how much my life is lacking in different areas..

I have so many hopes and dreams that I don't put into action.
So many ties..

And sadly I think the only fix is prozac.
And the problem with that is, I don't have health insurance!

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:: 2009 8 May :: 11.24am

Can anyone reach the knife that's in my back?

I was just laid off, a week before insurance starts, i can't get unemployment either.

this is bullshit.

:: 2009 7 May :: 11.49pm

I am done with college, kids.

On Saturday, I will graduate as a BA with a BA!

Drinks, guys? Friday or Saturday night would be best. Let me know. Let's party like it's 2009!

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:: 2009 7 May :: 3.14am

I woke the same as every other day except a voice was in my head.
It said seize the day, pull the trigger, drop the blade, and watch the rolling heads.

:: 2009 6 May :: 6.16pm

OSI's Finest

:: 2009 4 May :: 9.40pm

I am doing my final French translation project (Due tomorrow although it has been in my possession for...over a month. I lost it for a while and was afraid I'd have to get another copy.) and my professor gave us the weirdest things to translate.

For some reason, he gave us all old articles about the dangers of these newfangled things called...wait for it...COMPUTERS. Mine is an article from May 1991 about keeping medical records (dramatic pause) ON COMPUTERS (gasp, faint in terror etc.).

My favorite part so far?

No, it's not the part about keeping our precious family history on terribly not safe things called computers.

No, it's not the part where they talk about this whole process being a conspiracy between pharmaceutical labs and an early Apple company called NeXT (who really is only in it because the technology is available and they want to be ahead of the game).

No, my favorite part is where the author rambles on about the things that are going to be transmitted from computer to computer. Things like...photos! And...X-Rays! And...EKGs! And...notes they took when we came into the doctor's office and we talked to the doctor! His biggest fear? The fear that closes the second paragraph? He fears that while computers are in black and white now, someday they may be in color. And they will be capable of transmitting all sorts of documents like calculations performed in spreadsheets that will be able to make 3D plans!

It's great fun but this article is really way too long. Yeah final project blah blah but I'd rather be done with this already. Stupid homework.

Never again after Saturday, kids! NEVER AGAIN!

I love you all.

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:: 2009 3 May :: 1.10pm

Things are starting to look up.. Other than I have 6 exams due by thursday.. and being that I have to work monday-thursday, I have no idea when i am going to be able to make it up to the college before the lab closes so that I can get all my exams in..

Kind of worried about it.. but who knows.. maybe something will work out for me..

I still have work for 2 classes to do yet.. And there are a couple of assignments for one class that I can't figure out how to do certain things.. so yeah, im screwed!

:: 2009 2 May :: 11.13am

err i mean the H1N1 flu... yeah.

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:: 2009 2 May :: 11.13am

wait, errr ummm.. uhhh.

not SARS, that was the popular thing to have 2 years ago.

last year was west nile and the bird flu
oh yeah this year its the swin flu.

so i now have the swine flu

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:: 2009 2 May :: 11.12am

I now have SARS....

that is all.

:: 2009 1 May :: 5.43pm

just pulled my purple adios out of retirement

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