Kitten's Journal

:: 2004 15 April :: 3.49pm

fuck this.
i got from way happy to deathly depressed in 20 minutes.
why dont i just die.

1 Bite | hug

loserxdork

:: 2004 14 April :: 11.52pm
:: Mood: horny
:: Music: led zepplin

fun day
well, today was good after i got out of school. i gave nicole a ride home and then my mom took my to ruby tuesdays to get something to eat since i hadnt eaten all day. after that we went to pet smart and got my cat some catnip and then we went to bed bath and beyond. i got :

1.a whole new bed set
2.a box of the jelly belly chocolate candys and
3.2 boxes of sour apple altoids.

after that we went over to marshalls and i got:

1.a pretty skirt
2.a short slutty skirt
3.this adorable tube top
4.a fubu zip up sweatshirt that was normally $108 dollars but reduced to $18.
and thats basically it.

THEN i went to see my mentor and we talked and blah blah and then i went to national wholesale liquidators. there i got:

1.3 thongs & 1 pair of boy shorts
2.cool sheets and teddy grahmn sheets :-P
3.a hamper

i got soo much stuff today and i had fun :)

derek got his phone and computer taken away :-/

7 Bites | hug

:: 2004 14 April :: 4.40pm
:: Mood: crushed
:: Music: Lightning Crashes - Live

this is so cute
okay, so i got a forward today, and i normaly just skim to the bottom to see what they promise you if you forward it, cos i think it's funny how stupid they are, but this one i couldn't pass up.
it's really sweet.

A girl asked a guy if he thought she was pretty, he said..no. She asked
>him
>if he would want to be with her forever..and he said no. She then asked him
>if she were to leave would he cry? and once again he replied with a no. She
>had
>heard enough. As she walked away, tears streaming down her face the boy
>grabbed her arm and said... Your not pretty, your beautiful, i dont want to
>be with
>you forever, i NEED to be with you forever, and i wouldnt cry if you walked
>away...i'd die...

loserxdork

:: 2004 14 April :: 11.47am
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: bleeding through

in school
im in school and im bored, its lunch and i feel like shit

2 Bites | hug

:: 2004 13 April :: 4.00pm
:: Mood: fat
:: Music: a burnt cd with lots of linkin park and the corrs and shit

library...again
tehe.
i missed the bus today.
it's not my fault.
i went with justin so he could turn in his science report thing.
yah.
twas funny.
we saw jordin on the way down there.
i was like "STEPBROTHER!"
hehe.
she knows.
it doesn't matter.
hehe.
joseph is like, "holly's your boss justin." then he's all like "wait, not until you guys are going out."
i dont think either of us really got that...but who gets joseph anyways?
tehe.
awr.
this is a good song.
avril lavigne...nobody's fool.
my mother's all like "it's rapish."
hehe.
SO?
only a lil bit of it.
the next song is....matchbox 20.
and then a bunch of linkin park.
and then....eve 6, and then unwell..
20 songs.
lala.
this is 13.
yesh, yesh.
i feel sick now.
hannah gave me a bunch of malted egg balls.
ive eat waaay too many of them.
not eating after school until like may.
grr.
hey, a lil kid from my bus is here.
coolio.
shelby is here.
awr.
she's hella pretty now.
wow.
i wish i was that hott.
she kinda reminds me of mindy.. except with really long hair.
eh.
katie's mum is anorexic.
yeah.
she was talking about it in p.e.
her mum weighs 105.
that's what im going to be like.
yes.
except im not anorexic.
i watch what i eat.
:-D
grr.
it annoys me that these computers dont have AIM.
the ones on the other side do, i think.
eh.
whatever.
im tired.
we got new seats in science.
i dont know who i sit by.
maybe mindy, but there was 1 other person who was gone and i dont know who, so im not sure.
hopefully mindy.
if she doesn't sit by me, she sits at the table right next to me.
yay.
school year is almost over.
we have an early out on like the 26th i think.
that's what danielle told me last night.
but she's a 7th grader, so what does she know.
lol.
im gunna go now..
byez.
-holly-

:: 2004 13 April :: 12.32pm
:: Mood: loserish
:: Music: eh, nothing.

i cant believe myself!
i can't believe that i actually forgot to tell everyone that i picked up daniellie too when i picked up leigh! aww i looove her

3 Bites | hug

:: 2004 13 April :: 12.16pm
:: Mood: creative
:: Music: the ramones

not a bad night
soo last night i went to fridays to dinner with my mom and then she took me to sherri's and sherris dad took me,sherri,and doug to the club. we stood out in the rain for like 5 minutes and my hair got SO MESSED UP! well, we got in the club and guess who i saw? emilio! lol, he ignored me and i got really really pissed. THEN i saw sam who i haven't seen in a longgg ass time because she went to kellenberg :-/ aww. i also saw some girl who i go to school with. then when i was standing on a speaker some kid tapped me on the shoulder and was like 'my friends wants to dance with you' and i was like 'nahh' and they were really annoying! ughhh. then they opened the VIP room and it was really cool. they had a hot tub filled with pillows and me doug and sherri sat in there. we started getting bored so we left and walked to the gas station where i proceded to call [brian & rich and leave derek a message]. the guy started staring at us so we walked over to some closed nail place and stood there. i called [matt] because i was bored. my mom came and picked us up and while we were going to drop sherri & doug off derek<3 called me back. we talked for a while. after i dropped sherri & doug off we picked up leigh and i hung out with her. now im with leigh and we are going to get ready and then wait for rob & tom.

i<3dereksofreakingmuch!

:: 2004 13 April :: 9.23am
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: fallout boy

im not a sexual person after all!
HASH(0x8aa5790)
My outercourse activity is snuggling!

Which Sexual Outercourse Act Are You? (with pictures)
brought to you by Quizilla

exactly, i'd rather cuddle than anything

:: 2004 12 April :: 2.46pm
:: Mood: loved
:: Music: bleeding through

just when i thought he couldn't get more amazing
he surprises me...YET AGAIN.

x silver skullz: well, thats just the way i feel...idk i feel so unsuperior
x silver skullz: like a piece of shit
dmbmustang8766: inferior?
dmbmustang8766: dont feel that way
dmbmustang8766: cuz ur not
x silver skullz: well, i do
dmbmustang8766: u shuldnt
x silver skullz: i dont know why i do
dmbmustang8766: :-\
x silver skullz: your just amazing, you really are
dmbmustang8766: aww
dmbmustang8766: im really not though
x silver skullz: more than any guy i've ever met...
x silver skullz: no you really are
dmbmustang8766: :-\
x silver skullz: i mean please, i've gone out with SO MANY guys and none of them have EVER asked to kiss me
x silver skullz: your just...amazing, really.
dmbmustang8766: egh, i just didnt wana get slapped or somethin
dmbmustang8766: i dont think so, but thanx
x silver skullz: whatever, thats what i think
dmbmustang8766: u still shuldnt feel that way though
x silver skullz: but i do, and i was just scared that you were never going to talk to me again
x silver skullz: or hang out with me for that matter
dmbmustang8766: no,
dmbmustang8766: actually
dmbmustang8766: i was worried bout u on the train
dmbmustang8766: cuz u didnt come online
dmbmustang8766: n u didnt cal bak
x silver skullz: and to be completely honest i like you ... a lot
dmbmustang8766: <3
x silver skullz: :-[
dmbmustang8766: aw
x silver skullz: :-'
x silver skullz: *:-\
dmbmustang8766: dont make that face lol, i <3 u
x silver skullz: and honestly, i know its not what you want right now but i could picture myself being with no one but you.
dmbmustang8766: awwww
x silver skullz: :-X
dmbmustang8766: awww. nonono i like u. . . hunn i rele gota get off though, il def ttu 2moro
dmbmustang8766: 2moro
dmbmustang8766: i mean later
dmbmustang8766: lol
dmbmustang8766: <333 mwaaa ilu
x silver skullz: ok ttyl xo mwa <3

...he is the most amazing thing in the world

6 Bites | hug

:: 2004 12 April :: 11.30am

bored, going out tonight
well alcohol
You're addicted to.....

Alcohol!
Mmmmmmm, Mmmmmm, Bitch! I like you, alcohol is one
of the better things to be addicted to. The
only bad part is it makes you feel like doing
nothing and the next morning you get a terrible
hangover.

What are you addicted to? (pics!)
brought to you by Quizilla
this is for my boredom.

->im going to sherris around 7 and her dad is driving us to the club (2686) kim is asking her boyfriend if he wants to go. i miss her and i wanna see her!!! well, my mom is picking me up around 11:30. next weekend maybe i'll hang out and drink with brian and a couple of people and i might hang out with derek (aw i <3 him) well, i dont know what else to write because there is nothing. hopefully i'll convince my mom to take me shopping to buy a shirt for tonight because i dont have one to wear. im gonna ask brian to come to the club tonight and my mom will give him a ride home. well, bye bye kiddies :)

[[iheartderekwithallofmyheart<3]]

4 Bites | hug

:: 2004 11 April :: 12.45pm
:: Mood: lonely
:: Music: a static lullaby - lipgloss and letdown

quiz cause im bored..what now?
[x] Part 1 -- The Basics [x]
What's your name? ::: Marissa Leigh
Birthplace ::: Oceanside, NY
Age ::: 15
Age you act ::: pretty old, not really sure
Current location ::: East 'Cock'away, NY
Eye color ::: hazely
Hair color ::: broawn with blonde highlights
Right, lefty or ambidextrous? ::: righty
Zodiac sign? ::: scorpio
Height? ::: 4'11"
[x] Part 2 -- Describe... [x]
Your heritage/nationality ::: Russian
Your hair ::: long and straight
Your fears ::: spiders and heights
Your perfect room ::: red walls,lots of leopard and band posters
What you practically do in a day ::: go to school,eat,online,phone
[x] Part 3 -- What is/are... [x]
Words you overuse ::: aww,lol
Phrases you overuse ::: fuck you
Your first thought when you wake up ::: grrr i have to get through this day
Your greatest accomplishment ::: who knows?
Something you want to do ::: be with him <3
[x] Part 4 -- This or that [x]
Pepsi or Coke ::: coke
McDonald's or Burger King ::: mcdonalds
Britney Spears or Christina Aguilera ::: christina aguilera
Chocolate or vanilla :: chocolate
Adidas or Nike ::: adidas
Black or white ::: black
Bills or Coins ((Think $$$)) ::: bills - DUH
Burgers or hot dogs ::: burgers
Egypt or France ::: hmm france
Rock or rap ::: rock
[x] Part 5 -- Do you...[x]
Smoke ::: used to - haven't had a cigg in like a month!
Cuss ::: yupps
Sing well ::: eh
Sing in the shower ::: yeah *blush*
Talk to yourself --a lot-- ::: hmm mayyybe
Believe in yourself ::: not usually
Like taking these longass surveys? ::: when im bored, yeah
Play an instrument ::: none, i used to play clarinet
Want to go to college? ::: yes i do
Want to get married? ::: yeah
Want to have children ::: i wanna adopt
Think you're a health freak? ::: not at all
Get along with your parents ::: my mom most of the time
Get along with your siblings? ::: nahh
Think you're popular ::: no, im not nor do i want to be
[x] Part 6 -- In the past month have you..[x]
Gone out of state ::: mmm no
Drank alchohol ::: yes
Smoke ::: no but i wish :(
Get high ::: nah
Done any drugs ::: nopeeeee
Eaten an entire box of oreos ::: never have
Been on stage ::: nope
Gone skinny dipping ::: nah
Been dumped ::: nope
Dyed your hair ::: not in the past month
Stolen anything ::: nope
[x] Part 7 -- Your friends! =D [x]
Craziest ::: scutch
Loudest ::: jenn
Most shy ::: lauryn
Blondest ::: .. sammi
Smartest ::: jaymes
Kindest ::: timmy
Best personality ::: thats gotta be krystyn
Most talented ::: jenn - DEFF
Best singer ::: jenn, haha
Most ghetto ::: christal/jaymes
Drama Queen ((or King XP)) ::: paris
Pain in the ass ::: grrrr andrew
The one you just want to strangle to death ((Homer Simpson style))::: lol deff leslie
Funniest ::: jessyca
Best person for advice ::: sherri,sammi
Dependable ::: jaymes,tim,sal
Trustworthy ::: jaymes
Druggie ::: josh
Most likely to end up in jail ::: josh
Person you've known the longest ::: sammi/jaymes
[x] Part 8 -- The Last... [x]
Last dream ::: i dont remember
Last nightmare ::: .. i dont know
Car ride ::: to the rockville center train station
Last time you cried ::: yesterday, when i banged my head on the wall
Last movie seen ::: the whole 10 yards
Last movie rented ::: bring it on....AGAIN
Last book read ::: Frank McCourt
Last word said ::: shut up
Last curse word said ::: fuck
Last time you laughed ::: friday with derek
Last phone call ::: my mom
Last CD played ::: switchfoot
Last song you listened to ::: idk number 5 on the switchfoot CD
Last annoyance ::: haha my sister
Last IM ::: Roberto
Last weird encounter ::: umm idk
Last person you hugged ::: derek <3
Last person you yelled at ::: my sister
Last time you wore a skirt ::: ummm i dont remember
Last time you've been evil ::: always
Sarcastic? ::: ummm i am sarcastic all the time
Last time you fought with your parents ::: today
Last time you wished upon a star ::: i dont ever anymore
Played Truth or Dare ::: in like 6th grade?
Spent quality time alone ::: right now
[x] Part 9 -- I swear this is the last one! -- Randomness [x]
Are you talking to someone on AIM ::: yes
Do you feel lonely ::: ehh sometimes
Ever TP'd someone's house ::: no, its pathetic and ridiculous
How about egging someone's house ::: nahh, stupid.
Do you not like dislike not like me? ::: ah, im scared- what?
Ain't Eminem and 50 Cent just fine? ::: nope...
Yo Momma ::: STOP IT BITCH!
Ever been so hungry you felt like you could eat the person next to you? ::: ummm not really
What do you think of George Bush? ::: asshole.
Any secret fetishes? ::: yupp ;)
Do you like to wear chains? O_o ::: hehe..maybe
How many languages do you speak? ::: uh 1!
Damn.. are your fingers tired? Cause mine sure are! ::: nahh
Glad this is over? ((Say yes and I'll stalk you XP)) ::: darn :-/ lol jp

i was bored. i might go visit my grandma today but im not sure. i wanna go shopping. i wanna go to the club tomorrow but im not sure if im going to be allowed to. shit, i fucking hate easter because i have nothing to do because im jewish ahh oh well.

derekisasexyfuckingmofo<3

4 Bites | hug

:: 2004 11 April :: 10.50am
:: Mood: sniffly

easter...arg
we're going to kevin and donna's at 2:00.
so that's us leaving at like... 1:15 i think.
rawr.
i have a little while to do stuff.
i think i want to straighten my hair.
can't deside.
i mailed my woohu money yesterday.
but no post on sundays so i dunno when it'll get there.
monday or tuesday?
probably tuesday.
anyhoo..
im bored.
and my nose is running.
eh..
mum and i got some cute pictures of stryder..
we had a bunch of plastic eggs around him.
twas cute.
i'll have to get them up on antishift.
arr.
i also have some pictures i need to photoshop.
i'll do that sometime this week.
i think we have a day off coming up.
::grins::
or an early out maybe?
i have an ortho appointment on wednesday.
grr.
it's at 8:00 until like 9:00.
so i miss a lot of civics.
yay.
happyish.
but i probably should tell him about it and he'll make me get my homework done.
blurg.
i haven't said that in a long time.
blurg
blurg.
blurg!

hehe.
im hyperish.
ehh.
but hungry.
omigosh, mum made some insanely awesome egg salad this morning.
twas good.
that's what we ate for breakfast.
egg salad sandwhichs.
nummers.
making me hungry.
second saturday was last night.
funness.
yeah.
i gtg.
byez.
-holly-

1 Bite | hug

:: 2004 11 April :: 9.45am
:: Mood: content
:: Music: lamb of gd

im so nice!
well, i decided that since im so nice if anyone needs me to pay the $2 so that they can keep their journal i will - if you've been nice to me and you continue to comment :) i figured i have 10 spare dollars so i have to pay for myself and thats 8 so that leaves me with money enough to pay for 4 people.

->comment if you would like me to pay for you :)

8 Bites | hug

:: 2004 11 April :: 6.47am
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Paint Me A Birmingham

hehe
Easter.
I always wake up early on holidays.
tis just something i do...
i think we're gunna look for eggs today.
just cos it's fun and we're cool like that.
yep, i see a few outside.
rawr.
stryder is all hyperish.
im sure mum and dad will be up soon.
cos with him running around and me in here typing....
yeah.
you know what i mean.
bleh.
my tummy hurts.
tis cold in here.
probably cos the fan is always on.
oh well...
im gunna go.
byez.
happy easter.
-holly-

:: 2004 10 April :: 3.45pm
:: Mood: flirty
:: Music: unearth

wow, im a loser this is my 3rd time updating today :-X ahh its ok, i hope that you all are enjoying these journal entries. (im bored):

i follow the crowd @ woohu.com
I do it because it's cool

What type of Woohu user are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

I scored a 78% on the "Are you SEXY?" Quizie! What about you?

I scored a 76% on the "how sexual are you" Quizie! What about you?

i took all the sex quizzes, lol :) iheartderek<3