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2004 23 February :: 2.40pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: hold on- good charlotte
well, its 2:31 on monday february 23rd and i would've been out of school - if i had went to school. i didn't go to school today because i felt like shit. my mom went to the doctor. ummm i hate a boca 'meatless' burger with barbeque sauce and it was good. lol very interesting right? i have like $100 i think im going to take my mom out to dinner..today maybe? idk. friday i went to the horse tracks with my mom,amy,and her boyfriend lonnie who is so nice. i bet on a horse (6) and i would've gotten 68 dollars if he won and he came in 2nd place. holy shit was i mad. i would've been up 78 dollars but he didn't win so i was only up 10 lol but i got to keep the 20 that lonnie used for the starting bets. saturday i hung out with sherri,amy,and brian and we drank and shit and then later at night lonnie took me and sherri to get bagels at 24 hour and ice cream at TCBY. it was fun times. well, thats all because sunday was a nothing day and today im sick so im not doing anything today and tomorrow is school. we have to wait until what, april for another vacation? lalala school is almost over. i might graduate half a year early because i am taking economics now instead of in 12th grade. well, i hope everyone is having a good day :)
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2004 22 February :: 4.53pm
:: Mood: shitty
:: Music: some shitty rap music
First best friend: samm and jaymes
First real memory of something: sleeping in laundry baskets with my cousin
First real kiss: my boyfriend in 7th grade
First Job: carvel
First screen name: actingbug1
First self purchased album: spice girls i think
First funeral: my great aunt frans
First pets: dog- casper
First piercing/tattoo: my ears
First true love: tomm
First enemy: jessica ragusta
First big trip: florida
First play/musical/performance: i was in project rescue in 3rd grade
First musician you remember hearing in your house: billy joel prob.
Last cigarette: last night
Last big car ride: when i drove to florida
Last kiss: a while ago
Last good cry: ummm when when jack died
Last library book checked out: i dont remember
Last movie seen: ummm save the last dance?
Last beverage drank: snapple?
Last food consumed: mint chocolate chip ice cream
Last crush: him<3
Last phone call: my mom
Last tv show watched: i dont know?
Last time showered: last night
Last shoes worn: my silver and white etnies
Last item bought: i dont remember
Last disappointment: OD not calling me last night :(
Last soda drank: last night?
Last ice cream eaten: today :)
Last shirt worn: my koRn 'still a fuckin freak' one
Here's a New 1 ...
[name ]: Marissa Leigh Fein
[ nicknames ]: riss,riss-ma,rissa,mariss,rissy,lil pissa,shrimp,marizzle
[ born in ]: oceanside
[ resides in ]: east rockaway
[ good student ]: pretty good
[ eyes ]: hazely
[ hair ]: brown with blonde highlights
[ shoe size ]: 7-8 somewhere in that range
Last time you...
[ had a nightmare ]: i dont remember
[ said "i love you" and meant it ]: today
[ ate at mcdonald's ]: in wantagh a couple of weeks ago
[ dyed your hair ]: umm like 7 months ago
[ brushed your hair ]: last night
[ Washed your hair ]: when i took a shower
[ checked your e-mail ]: today
[ cried ]: a couple of days ago
[called someone ]: last night at like 10
[ smiled ]: right now
[ laughed ]: 1 second ago
Do you...
[ do drugs? ]: not anymore
[ sleep with stuffed animals? ]: i sleep with my pug and my yorkie that OD gave me
[ have a dream that keeps coming back? ]: yeah...when i was like 5
[ play an instrument? ]: i used to be able to play violin and clarinet but not anymore
[ believe there is life on other planets? ]: yes
[ read the newspaper? ]: sometimes i do
[ consider love a mistake? ]: depending
[ like the taste of alcohol? ]: yeahh pretty much :)
[ believe in god? ]: nahh
[ pray? ]: nuh uh
[ go to church? ]: im jewish...
[ have any secrets? ]: tons
[ have any pets? ]: my cat dusty
[ talk to strangers who instant message you? ]: yupp
[ wear hats? ]: yeah
[ have any piercings? ]: in my ears
[ have any tattoos? ]: nahh
[ hate yourself? ]: yes
[ have an obsession? ]: haha yeahh
[ have a secret crush? ]: yuppsss
[ collect anything? ]: shot glasses
[ have a best friend? ]: yeah, i love you all so much<3
[ like your handwriting? ]: ehhh sorta its like a combination of print and script
[ have any bad habits? ]: yupp
[ care about looks? ]: alittle
[ boy/girlfriend's looks? ]: nah
[ friends and other people? ]: nah not at all
[ believe in witches? ]: yup
[ believe in satan? ]: nope
[ believe in ghosts? ]: yes i do
Current...
[ dress ]: pajama pants from my bat mitzvah and a koRn shirt
[ mood ]: pissed
[ make-up ]: none
[ music ]: some shitty rap music
[ taste ]: nothing
[ hair ]: straight and down
[ annoyance ]: fake people and shit
[ smell ]: nothing
[ thought ]: emohogotuoytnawi
[ fingernail color ]: nothing right now
[ refreshment ]: none at the moment
[ worry ]: nothing
[ crush ]: why do you care?
Last person...
[ you touched ]: my mom
[ you talked to ]: sherri
[ you hugged ]: uh i dont remember
[ you Instant messaged ]: chris
[ you yelled at ]: my mom
[ who broke your heart ]: ...
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2004 22 February :: 12.10pm
:: Mood: tired/shitty
:: Music: nothingface
im updating now but i have nothing to write about. basically everything was written yesterday when i was drunk..HAHA. umm i'll update tomorrow about sunday and monday at school.
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2004 21 February :: 9.41pm
:: Mood: drunk
:: Music: maroon5- this love
im drunk, i got bagels and ice cream. i asked the guy if i was slurring my word...LOL it was fucking funny as hell, i dont know what else to write so thats it. aright? i'll talk to you later
i<3danrichieandod
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2004 21 February :: 1.30pm
:: Mood: shocked
:: Music: I Miss You- Incubus
Weight
Mum and dad just left. And I weighed myself. Stripped down to my bra and underwear and weighed myself. 105.5
My clothes add 1.5 pounds.
Bad, bad, bad.
I need help.
The main thing I've eaten in the last two days is chocolate. And it makes me feel sick.
You know what else makes me feel sick? Making scars on myself.
But I do it anyways.
I've now made scars on my breasts. One says Holly and one says Naya.
You can just see them above my bra.
And I have a pentagram about 3 inches above my belly button. I'm still working on them. Gotta make sure they stay there. Hehe. Must remember who I was and who I am.
Always.
-naya-
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2004 21 February :: 8.43am
:: Music: Mysterons- Portishead
I am a witch.
I do not worship Satan;
I am not interested in Satan.
Satan was invented by the Christians.
Satanism is a form of Christianity.
I am not a Christian.
I don't go to church on Sunday.
Jesus is NOT my savior.
He was simply a holy man who lived 2,000 years ago.
I am not afraid of going to Hell because
I don't believe in Hell any more than I believe in Satan.
I believe in reincarnation;
that I will come back to this world
or another and live out another life.
I am not evil.
Telling people I am a "good witch" or asking me if
I am a good witch implies that there are evil witches.
There are evil people in the world,
and there are people who chose to work with
the forces of nature in a way that harms others; those people are NOT
witches.
The central law of being a witch is:
"if it harms none, do as you will."
Please don't ask me about sacrificing cats or
desecrating churches. I love my cats.
And I don't go into churches or synagogues
unless a friend from that religion invites me
to some special occasion.
And if I DO enter a church,
I am not struck by lightning.
And if a Christian or a Jew or a Buddhist came to a pagan ritual, our gods
would not strike them dead either.
Isn't that something to think about?
Wearing a pentacle is no different than wearing a cross, crucifix, or Star
of David.
If you want me to take off the symbol of
MY religion (and Wicca is a religion,
protected by the same First Amendment
rights as other religions) because it's offensive, you need to make everyone
of every religion do that.
The five points of the star signify the four elements of Earth, Air, Fire &
Water, and the fifth point is Spirit; encircled by the World.
How that can offend anyone boggles my little pagan mind.
An image of a tortured, dying man is more offensive, yet thousands of people
openly wear crucifixes every day.
Also, don't ask me if I'm in a "coven" in that half-horrified,
half-fascinated tone of voice.
If I want to talk about my coven,
I will bring it up.
If I am a solitary practitioner,
I have no coven to discuss.
In any case, our rituals have candles, food, drink, poetry, dancing...yes,
there is a knife but it only cuts the air, not anyone's flesh.
I don't drink blood.
I am not some kind of vampire.
I wear black because it keeps
negativity away and because it looks better on me than orange and purple
polka dots.
If you want to ask me something related to MY
religion, ask me when the next full moon is.
Or the next blue moon.
Or what a blue moon IS.
Ask me about herbs.
Crystals.
Healing.
Even ask me to make you a love potion.
But I don't cast spells on other people and I won't cast a spell on you to
make you prettier, thinner, more desirable.
And I won't cast a spell on your quarry to make him/her love you.
Trust me, you don't want that, you don't want the karma that involves, and
neither do I!
That's a form of manipulation, taking away someone's power, infringing on
their free will.
Not nice at all.
And I also won't cast a binding spell to make someone STOP doing something
to you.
Spell work is about co-creation.
A witch works with universal energy,
With the gods, to tilt the engine of probability somewhat.
Need money?
Don't try to ensorcel your boss to give you a raise.
Simply ask the universe to increase the flow of abundance in your direction.
That infringes on NO ONE's free will.
One last thing: giving me a book about the
Burning Times is like giving a book on the
Holocaust to a Jewish person.
It's not funny and is rude.
Yes, I would go to Salem, but not because any of those Poor executed people
were witches
(I think the jury is still out on some of them), but because there's cool
pagan shops there.
If there were cool pagan shops in a town called East Cowflop, I'd go there.
Please don't try to make me ashamed of who
I worship and what I am.
Please don't try to convert me or "save" me.
Don't throw holy water on me.
Don't leave little pamphlets on my desk or windshield.
I don't need to be saved.
Witches are proud of the fact that we don't recruit people to become witches
We simply ARE, and those around us see how we
think, how we act, and our inner peace,
and only when someone says "how do I become a witch?" do we take them into
the fold with us.
I will NEVER leave a religious tract with anyone.
I don't have one, unless you count this letter.
And I am not asking you to convert.
I am only asking you to understand.
If you don't want to understand, just leave me alone.
Author Unknown
I love that....
MP,
naya
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2004 20 February :: 11.54am
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: splash waterfalls- ludacris
quiz..im alil bored
Name: Marissa
Nicknames: rissa,riss,mariss,riss-ma,marizzle,shrimpy,lil pissa
Screen name: m3ntalshorty,maj0rd0rkage
Sex: Female
Birthday: 11/16/88
Height: 4'10"
Hair color: dark brown with blonde highlights
Is your hair long or short: long
Eye Color: hazel
City born in: oceanside, NY
Location now: east rockaway, NY
Siblings: 2 sisters...nikki(8) alexis(6)
Parents married/divorced: divorced
Who are your closest friends: samm,jaymes,amy
Who makes you laugh the most?: joshy lyons
Who knows the most about you?: samm and jaymes
+++WHO WAS YOUR CRUSH IN...+++
Kindergarten: shane
1st Grade: kenny
2nd Grade:
3rd Grade: billy/bryan
4th Grade: billy/bryan
5th Grade: david
6th Grade: david
7th Grade: matt/bacci
8th Grade: john/tomm/joey
9th Grade: emilio *ew*
10th grade: richie
11th grade: ---
12th grade: ---
Boy/girlfriend status: single and wanting him <3
+++OTHER STUFF ABOUT ME+++
Do you have a job: i used to
What are you scared of: being alone forever
Who's your role model: my mom
Most interesting thing you've done this summer: drank too much alcohol
What store do you shop at the most: pac sun,h & m
Are you a ditz: haha sometimes
+++FAVORITES+++
Day of the week: saturday
Thing in your room: my bed
Cousin: jamie and lauren
CD: korn(issues),pantera,killswitch engage
Song(s): maroon5 (this love)
Animal: dogs,horses,cats
Ice Cream: box of chocolates,chocolate and peanut butter
Alcholic Drink:mikes,long island ice tea,sky vodka and cranberry juice
Thing to do: play soccer,tennis,dance,acting,singing
Movies: jack,schindlers list,october sky,gothika
Hangout: my house
Favorite pizza topping: i like buffalo pizza so - buffalo chicken
Where do you see yourself in 10 years: college
If you could live anywhere: san fransisco<3
Dream house: anywhere but ehre
What age do you want to get married: around 25 if possible
How many kids do you want: 1 or 2 so i can spoil them
Girl's names: shoshanna (nice and jewish..lol),savannah,cheyenne
Boy's names: jacob
+++HAVE YOU EVER...+++
Been in love?: yes
Lied?: Yes
Cheated on a test?: Yes
Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend?: once and i felt really guilty
Tied your shoes together?: no
Eaten something with a lot of fat?: yeah, plenty of things
+++FEELINGS SIDE+++
Worst Feeling in the world: being alone,being hurt
Best feeling in the world: being with someone you love
Can you define love? no, you can define real love
Do you get along with your parents?: most of the time
Are you ticklish?: hahaha,yes.
+++OPPOSITE SEX+++
1st thing you notice about the opposite sex: eyes,and smile
Perfect "dream" date: dinner and then cuddling on the couch
What do you look for in the opposite sex: personality
What does the opposite sex not know about you: cuddling is better than any sexual thing
+++NIGHTIE NIGHT+++
What do you wear to bed: pants and a shirt
What's your bed time: anytime i want
Do you wish on stars: i try
Is there a TV in your room: nope
What's the last thing you do before you fall asleep: nothing really
How many schools have you been to: 8 different schools
Are you passive or aggressive: more passive
Vanilla or chocolate: chocolate
Would you rather be hot or cold: cold
What is your curfew: about 3?
+++FRIENDS+++
Person you can trust the most: samm/jaymes
What is the best quality of a friend: honesty,trust,caring
What friend do you have the most fun with: everyone :)
Name your friends: samm,amy,scutch,jenn,vix,lauryn,maris,jess,krys,chris,selma,sarah,leigh,cassidy,sherri,jen,jaymie,jaymes,tim josh,larry,liam,sal,nick,and so many other people that i really don't feel like writing down ...BLEHHH
+++SILLY STUFF+++
Do you glow in the dark: uhh nope
Do you posses magical abilities: sure why not
Do you keep your underwear and socks in the same drawer: yes
Can you name all 4 Teletubbies:lala,dipsy,what asre the others?
If you could change one thing about yourself what would it be?: mostly everything
Have you ever tried to kill yourself: never tried but i've thought about it
Do you know anyone who SERIOUSLY wanted to kill themselves?: eddie commited suicide.......
What are you addicted to?: my cell phone?
Do you like jewelry?: ehh alil
Do you wear a watch?: nah, never
Do you believe in God?: no
Do you believe in love at first sight?: nahhh
What are your favorite tv show(s)?: everwood,7th heaven,friends
What color tooth brush do you use?: i dont rememeber
Is the glass half empty or half full: emptyyyy
Are you listening to any of your CDs at the moment:no, but im listening to splash waterfalls
my mom's bringing pizza home, but sherri probably can't come over this weekend and now im fucking mad as hell.
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2004 20 February :: 11.19am
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: splash waterfalls- ludacris
im listening to splash waterfalls by ludacris and SHIT this song gets me fucking horny...heh.
well, the days have been alright. i have a pack of cigarettes and only smoked one when i was stressed and aggravated and yeahhh so thats good. cigarettes are not a daily thing for me anymore, there more like a stress reliever, just like alcohol was to me.
today:friday, i dont know whats going on today hopefully something but its ok if nothing happens, lol. sherri is coming over today and we might go to the witches brew with her and her friend crystal and her friend. well see what happens tonight and if anything else is going on. OH WELL.
saturday sherri,amy,and brian are going to be here and were going to drink and shit and amy and brian are going to smoke. thats really it. this vacation is over and i honestly cannot believe it. it didn't really go fast but still i can't believe that its already over, shit.
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2004 19 February :: 4.43pm
:: Mood: cold but happy
:: Music: Strawberry Wine...In my head
Early Out!!!
Yayz.
Today was überly fun.
Just hang out at the park with Justin and Joseph and Keya and Kelsey.
hehe.
We had a snowball fight. Twas wickedly awesome.
But that's not starting at the beginnng.
Cos we were walking with emma and liz from Northview. Yeah. Splashing in puddles. Me yelling at preps, calling them BITCHES! Then they turned cos they were going to Terrace. And we just kept going. Yeah. After I gave Emma a hug that is. Two hugs really.
Then we got to the park. And and and.....me and Justin we sitting at the top of the slide and Kelsey and Joseph started throwing snowballs at us. Keya was sitting on the monkey bars.
So we got into a full fledged war with them. Which included me and Keya hiding in the big evergreens, putting snow down Justin's shirt, getting snow in my ear, and finally freezing my hands by making lots and lots of snowballs for Justin. Twas fun. Then Kelsey and Joseph left to go bowling. And they wanted Justin to come. But after much sad, annoying sitting on the merry-go-round he decided to stay. So we had lots of fun. Keya cleared all the snow off the merry-go-round and Justin and I just sat at the top of the slide trying to thaw.
We left at 2:43. Keya's mum picked us up at 2:51. I got home ate 3:09.
Simple times stuck in my head forever.
::sigh::
It was über fun. The best early out I've had so far. Although last time with Erin and Golly is probably at number two. Yeah...
Tied with the one on September 24th.
good times.
We are the broken people.
-naya-
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2004 18 February :: 7.14pm
What comes to mind when you hear.. | ..snow?: | cody | ..rain?: | justin | ..tornado?: | ymca | ..summer love?: | justin | ..Jon?: | jamie's bro | ..Mike?: | like mike | ..Shea?: | mary-kate and ashley | ..banana?: | eww | ..dizzy?: | cutting myself | ..Laura?: | preps | ..Juan?: | rhett and almut | ..car?: | justin | ..white?: | cody | ..peppermint?: | candy | ..New Found Glory?: | camp | ..placebo?: | taylor | ..orange juice?: | pulp | ..candid camera?: | fun | ..sister?: | advice | ..brother?: | car | ..hate?: | preps | ..school?: | my life | ..President?: | sucks | ..football?: | fun | ..rap?: | retards attempting poetry | ..pop?: | prep music | ..rock?: | justin | ..punk?: | tay | ..sex?: | fun | ..death?: | fun | ..baby?: | hell no | ..duuude?: | camillish | ..the end?: | is near |
The Survey Where You Say The First Word That Comes To Mind. Yay. brought to you by BZOINK!
The Generic Teenager Stereotype | Do you drink [alcohol]?: | Nope | Do you party a lot? How often?: | Not really | Do you use drugs for recreational purposes?: | I wish | How often do you use the word like in an average hour?: | A lot | Do you skip classes? How often?: | Nah | Do you have casual sex? Protected?: | Nope | Do you steal?: | Sometimes | Do you wear inappropriate clothing?: | Only on weekends | Do you drool over celebrities?: | Hell yeah | Do you watch a lot of TV?: | Nope | Do you ever watch the News?: | Yeah | Do you even care about world issues?: | Not really | Do you read books often?: | Yep | Are you failing a lot of your classes?: | By my parent's standards | Do you spend most of your time with your friends?: | Sure | Do you smoke cigarettes?: | Nope | Do you hang out a lot in malls, or at Seven Elevens?: | Yeah | Do you often find yourself with a crush on someone?: | Sure | Do you cuss a lot?: | Yepper | Are you desperate to fit in?: | Not that anyone knows | Are you intelligent?: | It's been said | The Goth Stereotype | Black lipstick?: | Sure | Black eyeliner?: | Okay | Black eyeshadow?: | Sounds fun | Black trenchcoat?: | No | Black boots?: | Hell yeah | Black fishnets?: | YEAH | Black nail polish?: | uh-huh | Cigarettes?: | No | Heavy metal music?: | nope | Marilyn Manson?: | No | Kittie?: | lol..yes | Cradle of Filth?: | No | Constant frown and perpetual angst?: | Yeah | Do you like to be seen as: | Sure | Are you an intellectual?: | No | An atheist?: | Nope | Horrible home life?: | Sometimes | Hopelessly depressed?: | Yep | Suffering with suicidal idealations?: | Yeah | Self-mutilation?: | Yep | The Punk Stereotype | Plaid?: | No | Big black boots?: | Nope | Mohawk?: | No | Excessive piercings? [Especially facial]: | lol...nah | Loud, confident and opinionated?: | Only sometimes | Wild hair colors?: | I wish | NOFX?: | Nope | Rancid?: | Nah | Well versed on political scandals and outrages?: | Yeah | A: | First letter of the alphabet | The Jock Sterotype | What's your IQ?: | To high | Do you watch a lot of sports?: | Yeah | Play a lot of sports?: | No | Talk a lot about sports?: | No | Do you do anything, really, but think about sports?: | Yeah | Are you arrogant?: | Sometimes | Are you a male or female whore?: | Hell yeah...in Jamie's world | Are you homophobic?: | lol...Maybe | Do you tease other people a lot because you want to seem confident?: | Yeah | But really you're a quivering mass of insecurity?: | Yep | Boobs = yes?: | GIRLS GOTZ BOOBIES!! yeah | Parties = yes?: | no | Dropping out of high school and flipping burgers = yes?: | sure | The Girl Stereotype | Do you spend a lot of time on your appearence?: | Nope | Have you ever been on a diet?: | No | How much did you lose?: | Well I was anerexic at one point. Lost over 10 pounds | Was it not so much a diet as it was an eating disorder?: | Yep | Make yourself throw up?: | Once | Make-up?: | HELL NO | Low-cut tops?: | ewwy | How big are your boobies? [Cup size]: | I prefer not to say | Do you flip your hair when you talk, even if you don't realize it?: | Nope | Giggle a lot?: | :-D | What's the deal with boys?: | Ay de mi.. | Thongs?: | No | Pretty bras?: | Just black | YM, Teen, Cosmo, et al?: | Nope | Who's the weaker sex?: | Females | Are you a feminist?: | No | Do you think Brad Pitt is hot?: | No | How often do you shave your legs?: | Not often | How about your armpits?: | Same | Are you emotional?: | When I'm alone | Especially when on your period?: | Not really | This Or That [Oh, that old coconut.] | Originality or Acceptance?: | Originality | Independence or Companionship?: | Independence | Stability or Freedom?: | Freedom | Personal or Interpersonal?: | Personal | Introvert or Extrovert?: | Introvert....I think | Popularity or Isolation?: | Isolation....LIFE IN AN INCUBATOR...lol | Unique or Loved?: | Loved | Understood or Individual?: | Individual | You or Them?: | Them |
How Stereotypical You Are... brought to you by BZOINK!
hair color: | Brownish | eye color: | Green or Hazel or Brown | height: | 5 something | six pack: | Nah | long or short hair: | Short | glasses: | Nah | piercings: | Doesn't matter | scars: | scars are awesome | eyebrows: | Sure | big butt or little: | little | chest hair: | Nah | buff or skinny: | skinny | funny or serious: | funny | party or stay at home: | stay at home | should he cook or bake: | both | should he have a best friend: | yah | should he have a lot of girl friends: | no..i get jealous to easy | outgoing or shy: | shy | sarcastic or sincere: | sarcastic | should he watch chick flicks: | sometimes | would he be a smoker: | hell no | would he drink: | not often | would he swear: | yeah | would he play with your hair: | sometimes | one or more girls at a time: | No | bad boy or good boy: | mix of both | would he kiss on the first date: | nope | where would you go to dinner: | A spagetti place | would he bring you flowers: | sometimes | would he lay under the stars with you: | yeah | would he write poetry about you: | No... | would he call you hunny or baby: | nope | would he hang out with your friends: | Yeah | would you hang out with his friends: | Yeah | will he walk you to the door at the end: | Yep | holding hands: | Hell yeah | soccer: | no | baseball: | yes | basketball: | no | football: | yeah | water polo: | no | surf: | sure | skateboard: | no | snow board: | no | sing: | not professionally | play guitar: | if he wants | play piano: | no | play drumbs: | okay | clean his room: | nah | paint, draw, sculpt: | Yes | write his own music: | nope | use the word dude: | sometimes | use the word tight: | not like that | watch the sun rise with you: | yes | what kind of car does he drive: | Chevy S10 Extreme | how old is he: | 14 at the moment. |
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2004 18 February :: 7.01pm
:: Mood: headache
:: Music: Strawberry Wine
I dunno what to write.
I told Justin about my problem today. About me still burning and cutting myself.
I don't cut myself that often...almost never. I usually just run the knife along my wrist...wonder if I should. Steak knives are the sharpest thing we have. Except for this ginormous chef's knife. And the war knife down is the basement. Wouldn't that be fun..Naya kills herself with her grandfather's knife. A knife that was made to kill the enemy.
"They're not the enemy mother, we're the enemy." -White Oleander
mum and dad are finally gone. Left to go do taxes today. Taxes taxes taxes.
Today and tomorrow.
I'm excited for tomorrow. Dunno why. It's not like I haven't gone out to luch with them a billion times before. I dunno something seems different. Maybe it's that now Justin and I aren't going out...idk.
::sigh::
i wish we were.
I wonder how Joseph did on his today...guess I'll find out tomorrow.
I should go.
Need to eat something so I don't go back to being anerexic.
I hate having problems that no one can know about. I hate making promises even though I don't keep them. I hate pretending I do keep them.
And I hate the preps.
Evil whores.
Think I'll go do some kinda spell instead of eating.
Whatever.
-naya-
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2004 17 February :: 5.15pm
:: Mood: hungry
Tears of Blood
Blood dripped down her face
Simply because she was another race
It dropped silently to the floor
A stain there forever more
So similar to all the tears she'd shed
Except now she bled
A white girl in a black girls' school
She could never even be cool
So ther se sat weeping tears of blood
Surrounded by angry faces of mud
An original poem by me.
We are the broken people
-naya-
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2004 16 February :: 4.47pm
Stryder is going like insane.
yeah...
I had a dream last night.
About Woohu. Crazy huh?
Maybe it's cos I spend so much time here and yeah...........bleh.
I don't feel like writing.
Chorus tonight.
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2004 16 February :: 9.59am
:: Mood: dorky
:: Music: nothingface
last night was fun. we went to drop my sisters off at my dads girlfriends house and then we went to wantagh to pick sherri up. after that amy,sherri,and i went to the witches brew and had some espresso and DAMN that shit was good and it made me pee so fuckin badly, haha. we hung around there and called some people to see who we could hang out with. we wanted to hang out with roberto but he was tired and he had to go to work at 3 so he said no.
i saw yoni and he was staring at me and kept talking to his friend about me and it was getting me really mad and everything. i wanted to fuckin punch him in the face.
so we get in the car with my mom and we drive to the wantagh bowling alley and we were waiting till 9:30 for allison,dave,and sam to come and it was like only 8:30 so we walked to wendys and then hung around in there and then went back to the bowling alley then met up with the people and they played a game and then we went back to allisons house. OK? yea.
i<3richieandod
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2004 15 February :: 5.07pm
Stuff..quizzes, shit I mean
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Naya, from this day forward,
your Punk Rock Band name shall be.... |
Tribute Mutant |
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Naya, from this day forward,
your Porn Star name shall be.... |
Stryder Portland |
Naya Felton from this day forward your redneck name will be:
Bunnie
Stanton
Pysche and Eros - Naive and In Love, Sacrifice and Indulge. Psyches story is touching in some ways and foul in others. Born to a royal mortal family, Psyche was an innocent woman of great beauty who detested her own good looks, for many men lusted for her, and yet she never married. Her fair face was so stunning that people started to praise her instead of Aphrodite the Goddess of Love and Leauty. Aphrodite was furious and sent her son, Eros, the God of love, to send Psyche a monstrous serpent to wed. But Eros fell for her as well, and instead took Psyche to a home filled with luxury away from the rest of the humanity, even the envious eyes of his mother. Psyche was spoiled and yet she longed to see her mysterious husbands face as well as her relatives. Finally, Eros permitted Psyche to see her sisters once again but warned her not to heed their advice. Psyches sisters grew jealous of all the riches that surrounded her and manipulated Psyche into breaking her husbands only rule never to speak about him or see him. Psyches sisters had found her weakness, and thus, the mortal princess became intrigued and decided to light a candle so she could see her husband at night. Before dawn (in which he would disappear before the sun rose), Psyche shed light upon her husbands features and was delighted to find that she had married the God of Love. But a drop of oil from her flame fell upon his skin, and the god grew angry and flew away. Psyche mourned and tried to kill herself several times. She pursued Eros, killed her sisters in revenge, and underwent several tests assigned by Aphrodite that she had to pass in order to see her husband again. Such tasks would have been impossible, but several other creatures of the earth took pity on her and helped her with her challenges. Finally, in the end, Psyche was granted immortality of the gods and was reunited with her beloved husband. She was given the title Goddess of the Soul.
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You are Yuuki Miaka You love food, boys, and hate studying. However, you are tying to make your family happy by tyring your hardest to do things that are too hard. Often, when things get really tough, you depend on your friends to bail you out. You trust in others to do what is best, even when they often dissappoint you. Your greatest need is loyalty, and it is also your greatest asset. Take the "What Magic Girl are you?" Quiz
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Awwww... get over that broken heart of yours, dude! You are definitely NOT in a very positive frame of mind. Braking up with a person you're really into does hurt, but you should let time heal you and look for another thing to mindlessly fill your life with. Other than getting stoned and drowning in self-indulgence, that is. |
Take the fuckin' wonderful "Which Placebo song are you?" test created by amm, and browse through Random Blasphemies. Because I said so.
FIRE is your chinese symbol!
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We are the broken people.
-naya-
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