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2004 15 February :: 1.15pm
:: Mood: good
:: Music: hoobastank
well, i have nothing to write here besides the fact that i changed the look of my journal around :) i got a new background,cursor, and perdy colors and all that shizzle. well, i hope that you like it so leave comments about the sexy changes to my sexy journal.
i.wuv.richie.and.od.<3`
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2004 15 February :: 12.45pm
:: Mood: calm
:: Music: hoobastank
which groupmember are you?
well, last night i went to sportime in bethpage to this wrestling thing with amy, my mom,my sisters,her friend,and the kid he mentors. it was pretty fun. one wrestler before he went on came into the audience stood on the bleacher right next to me and was spitting beer all over the place. UGH i got it on my jacket and all in my hair. ew i reeked of budweiser and my hair got fucked up. blah oh well. today i dont know exactly what im doing but all i know is that tonight sherri is coming over and hopefully we're going to go to the witches brew and yeah. february 20th i want to go to the glen cove bowling alley and hopefully i will be able to.
i.heart.richie.and.od.<3`
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2004 15 February :: 11.01am
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Little Moments- Brad Pasley
Lucid Dreaming...and my weekend in great detail.
I was going to work on lucid dreaming and dream recall and all that this weekend. Well, it didn't work out, and let me tell you why.
On Friday night I set my alarm for ninty minutes, I repeated the mantra over and over. I woke up at 5 AM to hear Stryder meowing, and realized that I'd turned my alarm to the off position. So, I let him out, reset my alarm, and went back to sleep. I awoke hours later to find that once again I'd put it in the off position. So, that was screwed. I spent the rest of Saturday lazing around, reading, opening a box of chocolates from mum, delievering valentines to the neighbours and babysitting. Then last night, I babysat until about 8, came home, got online, went back downstairs, gorged, watched For Richer or Poorer, and old reruns of The Cosby Show and then fell asleep about 12:15 am. Woke up at 12:30 am to mum sitting on the couch saying something about their night out. Got up, walked up the stairs, got a drink of water, flopped into bed. Turned my alarm on to go off at 2 am, made sure it was set to the on position. At 2 am it went off. But, as I was so tired at 12:30 I'd fell asleep before I could say the mantra. I was so confused that I spent 10 minutes trying to turn off the other alarm. It finally turned itself off. I was to tired to even try and reset it. I gave up and went back to sleep. At about 8:30 Stryder got up and so I let him out. Read until about 9:30, finished White Oleander and went downstairs. Ate a bismark and had some tea. Came up here and got online.
That's about it.
I'll probably make my spanish food a little later today...
Bleh.
The weekend is almost over. And Monday's an A DAY!!
I can't wait to see Justin.
Wait...I just kinda remembered my dream...
Justin got me a carnation....gee, wonder where that came from Maybe my deep desire to have someone get me a flower.
To feel loved...
Even though I am and I shouldn't need some stupid cheap flower to make me feel like I am.
It was a white carnation. Like the ones on my nightstand.
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2004 14 February :: 9.20pm
:: Music: Ocean Spray- Massive Attack
kiss on the lips - you're sweet and simple but
quite daring. you move for the kill confidently
knowing the other person wants the same thing.
What Sign of Affection Are You?
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You are "Welcome to the Caribbean, love."
You're more than a little world-weary, but also
intelligent and you keep your head when things
get dodgy. You're everybody's favorite
drinking buddy, but your stubbornness does get
in the way sometimes.
Which one of Captain Jack Sparrow's bizarre sayings from Pirates of the Caribbean are you?
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the internet junk
'online test addiction test'
deems me: 68% addicted to online tests!
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How sensitive are you??
in my eyes i see you as mysterious and strange alot
of people wish they could know you better and
you are probably an artist? i really wish there
were more people like you out there..i really
do. (rate?)
in my eyes you are...(pics and different outcomes)
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Prude. No sex, No thank you!!
What's your sex style?
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What Usage of the Word Fuck are You?
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what warning label are you?
Note that last one...BIohazardous.
One of my favorite words.
hehe.
That's all for now. Think I'll go watch the Truman Show and gorge on something...wake up sick tomorrow.
Yeah, sounds good.
later.
naya
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2004 14 February :: 9.05pm
:: Mood: pensive
:: Music: Moses- Coldplay
Wow...
Just got back from babysitting Taylor and Hunter. I babysat for like 4 1/2 hours and they gave me 25 bucks. Awesome.. I need to buy a CD. Can't decide weither I want Matchbox Twenty or Coldplay. I love them both. I know for sure that Target has the Coldplay one that I want, but I don't know if they have the right Matchbox Twenty one...they didn't last time. I think the one I want is called Yourself or Someone Like You idk..It has the fat guy on the front. Yeah...great description Naya.
lol.
I watched two movies tonight..might go downstairs and watch another one. Should watch The Others. lol...and mum and dad would come home early and kill me. lol.
Bleh.
I don't think we own it anymore. Might have given it to Tony and Missy. As they do with all the awesome movies.
Anyhoo...gotta go.
Blessings,
Naya
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2004 13 February :: 9.21am
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: nice to meet ya ma-bow wow
well, im in school and bored as fuck. my first period teacher isn't here and only me and one other person was in my 2nd period class so were not doing anything. well, hopefully today goes pretty quick. its the last day of school before vacation!
iheartrichieandod<3`
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2004 12 February :: 7.57pm
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: led zepplin
|Last|
movie you bought = save the last dance
song you listened to = maps...ignition- rkelly, haha
song that was stuck in your head = this love- maroon5
cd you listened to = les miserables..lol
person you've called = OD
tv show you've watched = friends
person you were thinking of = richie
|Do|
you have a crush on someone = yup<3
you wish you could live somewhere else= anywhere but erock
you think about suicide = i have
you believe in online dating = no but long distance relationships
others find you attractive = some
you want more piercings = eh kinda
you like cleaning = I HATE IT
you like roller coasters = nah
you write in cursive or print = a combination
|For|Or|Against|
long distance relaships= for
using someone= against
suicide = against
teenage smoking = as ciara would say - whatever bakes your cookies
driving drunk = against
soap operas = against
|Have|You|
ever cried over a someone of the opposite sex = yeah...
ever lied to someone = yes
ever been in a fist fight = yeah
ever been arrested = almost
|What|
shampoo do you use = herbal essances
shoes do you wear = silver and white etnies
|Number|
of times I have had my heart broken = three times
of hearts I have broken = a couple? maybe none..
of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends = about 10
of times my name has appeared in the newspaper = 3 or 4
of scars on my body = like 1
of things in my past that I regret= almost about everything i've done
|Do|You|Think|You're|
funny - sometimes
hot - eh
friendly - ocassionally
amusing - sure why not?
loveable - to some people
caring - very
sweet - yes
dorky - haha YEAH
|Favorite|
5 letter word: bitch
Cartoon: rocket power
Cereal: life-cinnamon
Chewing gum: winterfresh
Color(s):black red
Day of week: saturday
Least fav day: monday
Special skills/talents: idk
Summer/Winter: summer
Trampolines or swimming pools: both!
|Person|Who|Last|
Called you: frankie
IMed you: amy
Slept in your bed: me
Saw you cry: amy
Made you cry: my mom
Yelled at you: mommy
Said they love you: richie
Hugged you: eddie
Kissed you: idk
|Have|You|Ever|
Said "I love you" and meant it: yeahh
Gone out in public in your pajamas: haha yeah
Kept a secret from everyone: no, at least one person ALWAYS knew
Cried during a movie: yeah
Ever at anytime owned new kids on the block stuff: nope
Planned your week based on the TV Guide: not at all
Been on stage: yeahhh
Been to New York: yeah, i live here dumbasses
Been to California: yes
Hawaii: nope
Canada: yeahhhhh
Europe: nopessss
Wished you were the opposite sex: occasionally
|Random|
Apples or bananas: bananas
Blue or red: red
Walmart or target: Target
Spring or Fall: fall
What are you gonna do after you finish this: put it in my woohu
High school or college: im in high school...
Are you bored: yes, very
Last noise you heard: me typing
Last smell you sniffed: lemon sherbet
Last time you went out of state/province: veterans day weekend (salem mass)
|Friendship|Love|
Do you believe in love at first sight: not really
Do you want children one day & if so, how many: i want like 2 or 3
Most important thing to you in a friendship is: trust,honesty
What does love mean to you: uhhh
Do you love somebody?: yes, i do.
|Other|Info|
Criminal record: nahh
Do you speak any other languages: nopes
Last book you read: some book in school
Name some of your favorite things in your bedroom: my computer
Thing you dislike about yourself the most: a ton of things
Worst feeling in the world: having someone close to you pass away <3
Who are you in love with: FUCK YOU
Who do you miss: od and richie
|Me|
Nickname(s): riss,rissa,rissy,mariss,marizzle,rizzle,riss-ma
Initials: MF
How old do you look: umm depending on who your asking
How old do you act: my age
Glasses/Contacts: nope
Do you have any pets: a cat
You get embarrassed: yeahh
What makes you happy: my friends,diet peach snapple
What upsets you: i dont know...
|Finish|The Sentence|
I Love to - go to concerts
I Miss - richie and OD
I Wish - he was here<3
I Hope - one day i will find someone to love me
I'm Annoyed by - my sisters
I Am - ugly
I Want to Be - with him<3
I Would Never - make someone cry on purpose
I'd Rather - be having fun
I Am Tired of - being so cliche
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2004 12 February :: 5.41pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: maroon5
valentines day comes with...
depression, when you dont have a boyfriend or someone to spend the day with :-/
well, whats new? depression?, thats nothing new thats just something that i have to deal with but whatever. today is thursday and i have one more day to go before vacation..
school was ok today we had a party for joan (my principal) for her birthday. at lunch denise asked me to go outside and asked if i wanted a cigarette, i accepted. i went outside and smoked with denise,laura,ciara, kendall,danielle and cj. it was aright i guess?
kendall asked me if i smoked weed and i said no and then he asked me if i did e and i said i used to and then he told me he could get me a pill for 5 and im like 'haha its not worth it i could get it cheaper' and hes like 'you can?' and im like, 'yeah, my ex boyfriend sells and he can give me for free' haha school is fun as hell. i had 2 periods off because my teacher was out so all we did was watch part of a movie and listen to music. i love school, i can see myself getting out of highschool with REALLY good grades and im excited that maybe i can get into a better college than i thought i could.
iheartrichieandod<3
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2004 11 February :: 6.16am
:: Mood: crappy
:: Music: story of the year
well, school yesterday was nothing special. i went to school and went through the day like always then i took the bus back to east rockaway high school and then from there walked to the train with my mom. thennn we took the train to island park and went to pick up the lincoln (which was in an accident and had to be repaired) and we found out it was about 4400 in damage...wow. well, after that we went to pick up some papers that my mom had to fill out,drove to the diner,then my mom drove back to my aunts to pick my sisters up and then we took them back to my dads house. my mom and my dad left the house for like an hour and a half and i had to babysit for them. ugh.
well, after that my mom and i went to CVS to pick up my pictures that i had left there.
one question:
does it make sense that one hour photo is cheaper than overnight? and if so- why would people want overnight printing? ...
im really confused about that but yeah whatever it doesn't really matter, blahhhh
iheartrichie<3
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2004 10 February :: 3.49pm
:: Mood: sad
Why?
Why should I even try to be nice to people who aren't nice to me? Why should I waste my time and energy being nice to them. Why should I care about people that don't care about me? Why should I keep my "Nice to everyone" image. Okay, "Nice to everyone but the preps" image..
I mean, if they aren't nice to me than why care? So, I'm not. I'm not going to care anymore about them. They can all die, it won't matter to me. Atleast not on the surface.
I'm going to be two different people. The surface person, who's cold and mean to everyone but those she loves, and the inside person who is only shown to those she loves. The inside person will really care about the other people, but they won't know that. Nobody but 3 people will...and the people that are reading this. Not that anyone does...not that that's a bad thing.
Bleh. I'm so damn confused
But atleast I can talk to Emma at school.
Goddess I love her.
Anyhoo....
I have the hiccups. I've had them for like 10 min straight now.
Arg...it's getting really annoying and giving me a blooding headache. WHY?
why
why
why
why
why
why
why
why
why
why
why
why
why
why
such a simple three letter word......
-naya-
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2004 10 February :: 12.11am
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: hold on- good charlotte
school today was...
fine.
ok, here's the day in a pretty long nutshell, haha.
bus ride to boces saw leanne. the cosmetology students were having a competition so all of them came in for the morning and the afternoon. i <3 leanne, haha.
bus ride to pace sat by myself today
1st period-BBA figured out that i've DEFINITLY taken this class and its the one that east rockaway is trying to deny me credit in...BLAHHH
2nd period-social studies new kid in the class named matt. now our class has 4 people [me,ciara(sp?),cherie(sp?),and matt]
3rd period-studio art started my project on mondrian and mrs. lengel said it is coming out good (im almost done with it)
4th period-english started an essay on bullying and should the state take it into there own hands instead of letting schools take charge of bullying. eddie told me that evan likes me, ok?
5th period math started working on assignment 5 and yeah thats really it
6th period-lunch well, i sat in our 'cafeteria' which is also the studio art, intro to occ,and health room. i sat with ciara, cj,matt,paul,and karen
7th period-earth science watched a little lesson on the board and then watched some of october skys (good ass movie)
8th period-freesat in the only available classroom with everyone else who had a free period and i talked to joan about taking me out of BBA because i already took the class and i have to talk to her tomorrow
9th period-economics talked to denise and read on some guy adam smith who started laissez-faire economics...yeahh
bus ride to boces relaxed..yupp
bus ride to erock slept really, watched an almost fight,and just chilled
when i got home i just hung around really, i went to pick up my pictures and there not going to be ready until tomorrow so we shopped around alittle in CVS and yeah bought a couple of things, school tomorrow and i gotta wake up at 5 to take a shower. should be fun but after that we only have 4 days left of school until vaction. i have a far away valentine, richie<3 but yeah its better than nothing, right? well, friday i think we are having a surprise party for joan in school so friday should be a even faster day then all the regular days, ahh. the temptations to smoke a cigarette are hard to resist but to my pleasure im doing very well. well, there really is nothing else to write but i will update tomorrow probably - bye.
iheartrichie<3
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2004 9 February :: 3.48pm
:: Music: Talk Her Down -Starsailor
Yesterday
We went shopping yesterday..me and my mum. It started out to be for coats, but we were at Sears and she needed some underwear so I was like "what the hell I'll get some too"
Yeah, it's sad how that's the only thing we can really bond over.
We're like looking around laughing at the ginormous underwear wonder how your ass could get that huge. And looking at bras wondering why the hell you'd want to make your boobs smaller. lol.
Sad, but fun.
My world...atleast we had a good time...I guess.
Yeah...
Today was oddish...bleh.
ITBS in math sux...
Oh well...my problems.
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2004 6 February :: 4.53pm
Convo With Justin
ecstasypunk (4:37:40 PM): watching my favorite movie
Auto Response From NYJetsFan4Life28 (4:37:41 PM): watching my favorite movie
ecstasypunk (4:37:50 PM): but i miss you
NYJetsFan4Life28 (4:38:17 PM): i miss you too
ecstasypunk (4:38:31 PM): i miss you more
NYJetsFan4Life28 (4:38:37 PM): fine
ecstasypunk (4:38:44 PM): ok
ecstasypunk (4:39:21 PM): tehe i has that song stuck in my head now
NYJetsFan4Life28 (4:39:29 PM): ok
ecstasypunk (4:39:44 PM): bleh.....it fits today
ecstasypunk (4:40:36 PM): boo........
why do weekends make me depressed?
NYJetsFan4Life28 (4:40:48 PM): because they do
ecstasypunk (4:41:05 PM): but i dont wanna be depressed anymore
NYJetsFan4Life28 (4:41:16 PM): then dont
ecstasypunk (4:41:27 PM): it's not that easy though
ecstasypunk (4:42:07 PM): nothings that easy
NYJetsFan4Life28 (4:42:37 PM): what about shoveling?
ecstasypunk (4:42:49 PM): what about it?
NYJetsFan4Life28 (4:43:03 PM): i gotsta go do it
ecstasypunk (4:43:15 PM): so you're leaving me?
NYJetsFan4Life28 (4:43:30 PM): i must
ecstasypunk (4:43:52 PM): but.............i'll miss you......even though i already doe
ecstasypunk (4:43:53 PM): does*
NYJetsFan4Life28 (4:44:00 PM): me too
ecstasypunk (4:44:20 PM): you'll miss yourself?
NYJetsFan4Life28 (4:44:22 PM): yes
ecstasypunk (4:44:30 PM): lol
ecstasypunk (4:44:33 PM): oh my gosh
NYJetsFan4Life28 (4:44:35 PM): but i'll miss you more
ecstasypunk (4:44:46 PM): but i'll miss you morer
NYJetsFan4Life28 (4:44:49 PM): fine
ecstasypunk (4:44:56 PM): quiter
NYJetsFan4Life28 (4:45:08 PM): yep
ecstasypunk (4:45:18 PM): :P
ecstasypunk (4:45:28 PM): dsoytuyitu
ecstasypunk (4:45:32 PM): ?
NYJetsFan4Life28 (4:45:38 PM): exactly
ecstasypunk (4:45:47 PM): i forgot the last i.....oops
NYJetsFan4Life28 (4:46:26 PM): dsoytuyitui
ecstasypunk (4:46:44 PM): see, you is much smarter than me
NYJetsFan4Life28 (4:46:56 PM): fine
NYJetsFan4Life28 (4:46:58 PM): but
ecstasypunk (4:47:01 PM): ......
NYJetsFan4Life28 (4:47:05 PM): i has to go
ecstasypunk (4:47:14 PM): fine, leave me
NYJetsFan4Life28 (4:47:17 PM): ok
ecstasypunk (4:47:26 PM): you just dont love me anymore
NYJetsFan4Life28 (4:47:58 PM): no
NYJetsFan4Life28 (4:48:00 PM): i does
ecstasypunk (4:48:08 PM): but you're leaving me
NYJetsFan4Life28 (4:48:14 PM): i have to
ecstasypunk (4:48:21 PM): so?
NYJetsFan4Life28 (4:48:28 PM): I HAVE TO GO
ecstasypunk (4:48:48 PM): ::subsides into corner:: please dont yell at me
NYJetsFan4Life28 (4:48:55 PM): fine
NYJetsFan4Life28 (4:49:00 PM): but i have to go
ecstasypunk (4:49:02 PM): fine
NYJetsFan4Life28 (4:49:08 PM): i love you?
ecstasypunk (4:49:27 PM): so now you're asking if you love me.....definate sign that you dont
NYJetsFan4Life28 (4:49:33 PM): i do
NYJetsFan4Life28 (4:49:36 PM): i love you
ecstasypunk (4:49:43 PM): If love is blind, why is lingerie so popular?
NYJetsFan4Life28 (4:49:58 PM): huh?
ecstasypunk (4:50:07 PM): that was random.....sorry
ecstasypunk (4:50:14 PM): i is trying to stall you
NYJetsFan4Life28 (4:50:26 PM): bye
ecstasypunk (4:50:44 PM): why do croutons come in airtight packages? it's just stale bread to begin with
NYJetsFan4Life28 (4:50:50 PM): bye
ecstasypunk (4:50:56 PM): i love you
NYJetsFan4Life28 (4:51:01 PM): i love you too
ecstasypunk (4:51:05 PM): have a good weekend
NYJetsFan4Life28 (4:51:14 PM): you too
ecstasypunk (4:51:18 PM): okay
ecstasypunk (4:51:19 PM): bye
NYJetsFan4Life28 (4:51:23 PM): bye
NYJetsFan4Life28 (4:51:31 PM): *** This user has signed off and is no longer online ***
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2004 5 February :: 5.55pm
:: Mood: depressed
snow....damn
it's snowing. that's so....GRR
i hate the snow...bleh. eeeevil.
hehe.
i think chorus is cancelled tonight though...even if it's not mum thinks it is so yeah..
tehe.
i checked the website but it didn't say anything. it should be cancelled though....cos the conditions here are really getting bad. school today sucked.
::sigh::
i hurt so bad...
bleh, i'm hopping this will like, post okay cos my computer is going insane. seriously. the internet is like bwa.
yeah..
im so friggin cold
maybe i need to change my mood to cold instead.
too lazy.
lol.
:D
write more later
-naya-
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