Kitten's Journal

:: 2004 5 February :: 6.26am
:: Mood: sick as hell
:: Music: anal cunt

holy shit i feel sick :-/
omgggg i feel fucking sick as hell and i cant go to school otherwise i will SERIOUSLY die. omg i will kill myself i feel so sick. shit, i hope they don't kick me out for 30 days while im on this education probation :-/ ahh fuck it they wont, all the teachers are like in love with me - haha. :)

sooo yesterday was not a bad day.

busride to bocessat by myself because nikki wasn't on the bus.
busride to pacesat next to matt and listened to the 'fuck me,make love to me' song by uhh ludacris? haha its soo funny!!!
1st period-BBAdid some excel shit, and just chilled around on the computers ...
2nd period-SSdid some worksheet with ciara and the other new girl and then did another 3 worksheets on my own
3rd period-healthwowww fun ass class, haha theres about 17 kids in this class and its like a regular class and mr. reiss is the teacher and so far its a fun class considering i've already finished taking high school health..HMMMMMMMM.
4th period-englishworked on questions after reading a 3 page version of julius caesar yesterday in class, i sat next to eric and he's really really nice.
5th period-mathwent to mrs. neumans and worked on assignment 3 of which i did wrong, SHIT.
6th period-lunchate a bagel with paul and then nikki,kerry,and eric came in and ate. i always just sit around with connie or sit in the 'health,intro to occ,art room' because thats our 'cafeteria' lol. i don't want to go outside because i know i will smoke a cigarette and i really dont want to but oh well if it happens it happens..right?
7th periodearth science, my teacher, scott, is really nice and we worked on a lab
8th period-intro to occmy teacher (jonny b) is nice but old and annoying. we worked on some sheet and i met denise who is from glen cove and is supposedly really good friends with colin- oh gd...
9th period-economicsi talked to denise alittle more and she's really nice the we did some worksheet and then mr. reiss came in and we talked about how denise was from amsterdam and she smoked a lot of pot there..haha funny ass shit.
busride to bocessat with matt again and jamie wanted to fight im not sure who?
busride to erockhe got on the bus and my heart like fuckin melted<3

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:: 2004 4 February :: 8.07pm
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: Figured You Out- Nickelback

Quiz..and shit

"One day you'll see a strange little girl feeling blue..."

Which Strange Little Girl would you be?

This quiz made while Angel was procrastinating her ass off.

Yeah..
I'm so bored. Tomorrow is Thursday. grr....chorus. I doesn't want to go. I went to the orthodontist twice today! once this morning to get my bands changed and once this afternoon to get the wire in the back sinched up so it wouldn't cut my cheek. and then i got to talk to missy! it was cool, cos we went to pick mum up at work and dad's like "how about you go say hi to missy?" so we ended up talking about styles of clothes coming back and shoe laces. cos she didn't have matching shoe laces when she was my age. she's so nice. i think they might be wiccan. it seems like tony was somehow involved with a magick/wicca show that was on public television. idk...
to lazy to remember.
bleh.
i wonder if justin got and skittles...probably.
yeah...probably once they got in the car.
lol. that was totally random.
oh yeah, visit this site for some pics...and if you have any that you want me to put up (i.e. pics of KEYA!) then e-mail them to me. or give them to me and i'll see if i can get our scanner to work.
teheh.
http://antishift.net/browse.php?disp=user&user_id=1829
lata playa....goddess josheph has brain washed me.
-naya-

:: 2004 3 February :: 11.14pm
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: dj sammy

HASH(0x87b00b0)
borderline

Which Personality Disorder Do You Have?
brought to you by Quizilla

the sad part is..this kinda describes me :-/

:: 2004 3 February :: 4.49pm
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: the krystal method

PACE!!!
well, yesterday i started pace. it's pretty cool. we get like no homework and we do no work in class either- haha. when i walked into the school the smell of pot just fucking enveloped me, haha it was soo fuckin funny. i met a bunch of nice people-nikki,cammy, eddie,alex,nikki,amy,matt,kendall,cjizzle(haha),scott and just a bunch of other people
oh yeah and then theres ciara and andrew. school is fun, its like one big happy family and the school is tiny as hell. blah i could see myself having a lot of fun in this school.

2.2.o4- sammsta's 16th birthday!!!

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:: 2004 1 February :: 7.56pm
:: Mood: annoyed
:: Music: talking to corey on the phone

ah so last night sucked because i didn't get drunk...HAHA. im such a loser. well, im on the phone with corey and then at like a quarter after eight were bringing my sisters back home. after we do that my mom is taking me to kohls and were gonna get a shirt for me to wear tomorrow at my first day at pace. rawr im soo nervous :X ahhh. yeahhhhhhh.

ok so last night amy came over and she had bought handcuffs from CVS and jokingly she handcuffed herself to the chair and got herself stuck so we called my moms boyfriend and he came over to help us get her out. sooo after that brian and nick came over and just hung around and shit and then they wanted weed so they called someone and they brought it. 5 minutes after the car left greg calls me and told me that he was in that car and he was in front of my house and i asked him why he didn't just tell me to come outside. oh well. yesterday was my last day of being grounded so im really excited that next week i get to go out, YAYYYYY!

...he know's he could have my heart if he wanted. but still, he refuses *

iheartodandrichie<3

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:: 2004 1 February :: 2.22pm
:: Mood: geeky
:: Music: All You Wanted- Michelle Branch

Uhh...I guess I kinda left out the rest of the weekend.
Yeah, my last entry was all about the dance..basically. So after the dance I went to Sam's house and spent the night. We watched To Kill A Mocking Bird which was really fun...
Yeah, then we fell asleep and Sam somehow woke up when the movie was over and we went into the guest bedroom. On Saturday we just kinda lazed around and finally went out at around 1:30 so they could get car insurance cos they'd been without since the day after grant's b-day. (24th)
then they took me home and uh..i dont remember what we did.
but last night we watched Orange County which was pretty good.
had john lithgow and some other people in it...chevy chase...good times.
then this morning menards, and kohls. i got some new shoes, and two new pairs of pants.
yeah..that's about it.
hehe.
so that is what i did this weekend.
hehe.
thank goddess tomorrow is monday.
:D
-naya-

:: 2004 31 January :: 6.00pm
:: Mood: sniffely
:: Music: 3 A.M.-Matchbox 20

Weekend so far=
Went to the dance last night. It was kinda stupid cos all the preps were making it a prom. and cos the evil DJ wouldn't play any greenday. NOT EVEN CLOSING TIME! but the good part was i got to slow dance with my dear keya. and emma...my darling little sister. it was like the hightlight of my night. her beautiful hands around my neck, her eyes looking into mine. it was like old times..we were together for 3 minutes, it was ecstasy. and then i made fun of some preps. hehe. cos we was dancing by them to a fast song and becca and her crew were just standing around and i was like "what, is the music to FAST?" and she started glaring at me and so i rolled my eyes and screamed "PREP!"
twas funny. and ms. russel came and danced with us. she said that she tried to get jared to come but he laughed at her and told her he had better things to do than waste a friday night at an 8th grade dance. t'would've (DOUBLE CONTRACTION!) been fun to meet him. sometime soon im sure.
i got to meet senor dowell. lol....well, said hi anyways. i dont think mrs dowell has worn her zapottos rojos yet...i'll have to remind her on monday.
A DAY!
yayz..i love a days so much. i get to eat lunch w/ justin and keya...yay.
you know what i realised on the phone? keya might not be here next year to help me torture the eigth graders!
i'll miss her if she goes...my lovely keya.
peace, love, and everything else the world will never have,
naya

:: 2004 31 January :: 11.33am
:: Mood: hungry
:: Music: from the game skateboard park tycoon

haha<3
haha last night is why i love samm,jenn,and scutch. last night casey dropped off some of that infamous drink for us and we drank and lala and got drunk and stuff. haha then while were sitting on the computer samm's cell phone rings and guess who it was? JEN DEGRASSI! lmfao, the fat bitch actually had the nerve to call jennCO ugly. omggg bitch. haha so we were piss drunk and barely had a clue what she was saying so YEAH! lol. well, today i have no clue what im doing. richie came and picked sammster,jco,and scutchy at around 3:15am well, its all good.

tonight i have to go to my sisters 50 dance or something, its gonna suck big fat monkey balls. IF YOU WANNA DO SOMETHING AFTER CALL MY CELL PLEASE!!!!

i.heart.od.and.richie.<3

...he know's he could have my heart if he wanted. but still, he refuses *

:: 2004 30 January :: 7.50pm
:: Mood: calm
:: Music: ozzy osbourne

woop
samm and jenn are here, great, and were really bored...FUCK!

to cure my boredness
name: Marissa Leigh
piercing: ears, but i want my eyebrow
height: 4'10" baby and proud
shoe size: 7.5/8?
hair color: brown with blonde highlights
last...

movie you watched: willard
movie you bought: save the last dance
song that was stuck in your head: me myself and i, beyonce (I DONT KNOW WHY!)
CD you bought: killswitch engage?
person you've called: sammi
person that's called you: jenn
tv show you've watched: friends
person you were thinking of: him<3

do...

you have a bf or gf: nah
you have a crush on someone: yes, a huge one...
you wish you could live somewhere else: anywhere but here...
you think about suicide: Sometimes...
others find you attractive: maybe, idk?
you want more piercing: yeahhhh my eyebrow
you want more tattoos: yucky
you like cleaning: i wish i was a neat freak but haha if you've ever seen my room i think you could answer that yourself- NO
you like roller coasters: ahh, too scary
you write in cursive or print: a mixture
you carry a donor card: uh no..
long distance relationships: no
using someone: i would never, i know how it feels to be used....FOR HEAD
suicide: i would never have the guts
killing people: never. but i feel like it sometimes
teenage smoking: bad.
premarital sex: if your in love with the person
driving drunk: never...i lost a friend to that :(
gay/lesbian relationships: just not in front of me
abortion: depends but basically no

favorite...

food: mmm caesar salad
thing to do: dance
thing to talk about: alcohol
sports: tennis, is dancing a sport? lol
color: black,red,hot pink
drinks: mikes hard lemonades,chocolate milk
clothes: sweatshirts and tight jeans
book: oohh old boyfriends,mothers blessing
holiday: channukah :)
car: ummm caddy escalade,honda civic or accord,lincoln navigator

have you...

ever cried over a girl or boy: yeah, once or twice
ever lied to someone: yeah i have, a lot
ever been in a fist fight: yeah
ever been arrested: almost

what...

shampoo do you use: herbal essences
perfume/cologne do you use: NONEEEEE
shoes do you wear: etnies,vans,nikes,adidas
are you scared of: heights,spiders,blahh any bug

number...

of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends?: about 10 maybe alil more
of people I consider my enemies?: a lot of people
of things in my past that I regret?: wow, so many things. 1=ecstacy 2=starting to drink

...he know's he could have my heart if he wanted. but still, he refuses *

:: 2004 30 January :: 4.58pm
:: Mood: crying

i'm such a stupid, self-centered bitch. i'm so god damn demanding. and then i totally change my mind and demand something totally different. i don't deserve anyone's love. nobody should have to waste their time on me. i'm a hopeless cause, and a wast of energy.
don't get involved with me.
if you are involved with....stop
if you don't want to.....it's your choice but i'm a waste.
WHY?

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:: 2004 30 January :: 9.01am
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: creed

yuck
im feeling better,but im so tired and drained.

OH WELL

anyway im going in for my earth science midterm and then going to lunch for an hour and then i have my math midterm. ugh im gonna fail so miserably probably. this SUCKS.

rawrrr i<3richieandod

...he know's he could have my heart if he wanted. but still, he refuses *

:: 2004 30 January :: 12.09am
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: soundtrack to mama mia

well, im going to make this short because im fucking depressed as hell. so sum shit up:

I FUCKING HATE MOST GUYS

im on the phone with richie and he makes me feel soo much better, ah i love him <3

xo

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:: 2004 29 January :: 10.20am
:: Mood: accomplished
:: Music: disturbed

wasn't too hard
ok, well im back from the italian midterm and to my surprise it was easier and i did better (i think) than i thought i would. i thought i would fail miserably and leave about 20 questions blank because in regular class i'd have a test handed to me, look over it and two seconds later hand it back with just my name on,completely empty because it was too hard. well, the midterm was nothing like that. of course it was nothing short of difficult BUT honestly it was nothing like I thought that it would be. im actually proud of myself for once! it was funny though, in the middle of the test my teacher comes up to me and goes, 'marissa you know you have extra time,right?' and i was like, 'no' lol, oh well i feel special and not stupid because i don't get extra time on anything else. OH WELL. hehehehe :)

well, when i got home i made myself a bagel and then got a phone call from amy. i talked on the phone with her and while she was in the halls before taking her midterm. she was nervous JUST LIKE ME about taking it. aw i hope you do well my love<3

anywayyyyys amy is coming over after she takes her midterm and i am dirty as hell and my hair looks like shit so i MUST go in the shower before she comes. ahhhh tomorrow is my freaking earth science midterm and my math midterm and im pretty scared for those too only because idk i just am. lol, i was student of the month in earth science in november and in math november and december. i feel so special, hehe.

well, tootles dahlings :)
odandrichie<3

he knows he could have my heart if he wanted to but still he refuses *

:: 2004 29 January :: 8.13am
:: Mood: erggggg
:: Music: NOTHINGFACE

i dont want to go in for my italian midterm. im going to fail it, i need some time to actually study! maybe if i tell my mom this she'll let me go in another day to take it even though im leaving east rockaway monday? no, i'll just go in and take it today even though im going to fail it. FUCK. i hate italian. my dad thinks im doing bad in school because im failing italian and shit which is wrong. i've been doing great in all my other classes. it's just for some reason this year i just cant get grasp italian. it sucks, i know but i dont know what else to do. in pace, they dont have italian so i dont have to worry about that but im still nervous to go to a different school.

samm called me yesterday and was mad idk why? she's soo fucking weird sometimes but i love her.

odandrichie<3

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