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2004 6 November :: 11.59am
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Classical on NPR (National Public Radio)
wow
yeah, so i haven't updated in a long time.
hmm.
not much has happened.
school is boring as hell, and my life is okay.
im getting happier.
ive stopped cutting, and starving myself.
:-)
nothing else to say.
<33
-holly-
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2004 5 September :: 5.29pm
:: Mood: depressed
Cutting. Your depression can be found lingering on
the edge of a razor. An easilly hidden little
habbit that's often used as a subsitution for
crying. The blood is surprisingly hypnotic...
How do you deal with your depression?
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2004 4 September :: 2.21pm
i doubt anyone has looked at this in a long time but if anyone was wonder i got a new blog.
http://www.greatestjournal.com/users/lonersyz/
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2004 2 August :: 3.22pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: nowhere kids - smile empty soul
nobody really knows who i am.
what's the point exactly?
i think i'll just stop using my blogs.
no one needs me.
farwell
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2004 29 July :: 7.21pm
Epiphany Lyrics..i love this song
Your words to me just a whisper
You faces so unclear
I try to pay attention
Your words just disappear
'cause it's always raining in my head
forget all the things I should have said
So I speak to you in riddles because my words get in my way
I smoke the whole thing to my head and feel it wash away
'cause I can't take anymore of this I wanna come apart
or dig my self a little hole
inside you precious heart
'cause it's always raining in my head
forget all the things I should of said
I am nothing more than a little boy inside who cries out for attention yet I
always try to hide and I talk to you like children
but I don't know how I feel but I know I'll do the right thing
if the right thing is revealed
But it's always raining in my head
forget all the things I should have said.
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2004 28 July :: 1.36pm
:: Mood: lonely
:: Music: Im Just A Kid - Simple Plan
I made a Quiz for you! Take my Quiz! and then Check out the Scoreboard!
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2004 24 July :: 12.57pm
:: Mood: quiet
:: Music: Amazing- Blue October (it's playing in my head)
wow..
haven't updated in 14 days.
which is oddly enough, how old i will be in 6 days.
and in 6 days justin gets back.
and when justin gets back i turn 14.
:-)
sorry, randomness.
i've been talking to david a lot recently.
we've become really good friends.
yeah.
i was at the university of iowa..two weeks ago.
that was fun.
i made like, one, really good friend, and two others....
yes.
nick and laila and maria.
such times.
:-D
anyhoo, im going to go now.
later.
-holly-
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2004 10 July :: 11.14am
:: Mood: hungry
:: Music: Vindicated - Dashboard Confessional
a random survey
| [x] The Basics [x] | | Name ::: | Holly | | Middle name ::: | Rose | | Last name ::: | Wheeler | | Age ::: | 13 | | Birthday::: | July 30 | | Location ::: | Ankeny, IA....for now | | Height ::: | 5'4" if i stand up straight | | Eye color ::: | mood changing...grey right now | | Hair color ::: | auburnish | | Siblings? ::: | no | | [x] Favorites [x] | | food ::: | eh...ice | | movie ::: | the aristocats | | group/ band ::: | awr..dashboard confessional, or smile empty soul | | Tv show ::: | whose line is it anyway? | | animal ::: | kitty cats | | color ::: | grey | | place to be ::: | with justin | | store ::: | kohls..rue 21 | | shoe brand :) ::: | chuck taylors | | word ::: | grey | | phrase ::: | hope dangles on a string like slow-spinning redemption | | Famous guy ::: | johnny depp | | Famous girl ::: | ah..idk | | boy name ::: | corbin | | girl name ::: | ana | | pet name ::: | STRYDER! | | car/ truck ::: | honda's CRV | | music ::: | rocK | | candy ::: | dammit..chocolate? idk.i love candy | | gum ::: | orbit cinnamint or w/e | | number::: | 13 or 27 | | lyric ::: | nowhere kids by smile empty soul | | website ::: | blah...woohu, or hotmail | | drink ::: | welch's strawberry soda | | alcoholic drink ::: | i dont like alcohol..but virgin margaritas are good | | scent ::: | my conditioner...or justin | | season ::: | fall | | [x] Music [x] Pick a song title for the artist | | Something Corporate ::: | umm..idk any something corporate songs | | Yellowcard ::: | ocean avenue | | Green Day ::: | minority..or warning | | J-lo ::: | ew..i hate jlo | | Bowling for Soup ::: | is it girl all the bad guys want? | | Missy Elliott ::: | dont listen to missy elliott | | Chingy ::: | eww rap | | Outkast ::: | roses? | | John Mayer ::: | my body is a wonderland....lol | | Britney Spears ::: | everytime | | Christina A. ::: | genie in a bottle | | Thursday ::: | dunno | | Aerosmith ::: | dont wanna miss a thing | | Bob Marley ::: | dunno | | Taking Back Sunday ::: | idk them | | Sean Paul ::: | ewwwwwwwww | | Ludacris ::: | dunno any songs | | The Beach Boys ::: | surfin usa | | Led Zepplin ::: | stairway to heavan | | Santana ::: | that santana song w/ michelle branch | | Kelly Osbourne ::: | eck. dont like her | | Ozzy ::: | ::sceams:: | | [x] Have your ever [x] | | Met anyone famous ::: | i guess | | If so who? ::: | uhh...the guy from harrison lamb? he's not famous around here | | Kissed someone of the same sex? ::: | uh..no | | Dated someone of the same sex? ::: | i wish | | Sang in the shower ::: | hell yeah | | Talked to a complete stranger ::: | yeah | | Prank called someone ::: | yep | | Snuck out ::: | yeah | | Lied to your Parents ::: | yes | | Done drugs [ if so what one(s)] ::: | no | | Drank Alcohol ::: | not really | | Snuck into the movies ::: | no | | Gotten kicked out of the movies ::: | almost | | Stole something *tisk*tisk* ::: | just something from a friend | | Beat someone up ::: | no | | Watched Porn ::: | i was like 10 and i didn't know what it was i went to like www.excited.com | | Ran Away ::: | yeah | | Gotten Arrested ::: | no | | Been on TV ::: | yesh | | Been in the Newspaper ::: | for honor roll | | Shot a gun ::: | no | | Graffiti'd something ::: | not w/ spray paint, but i've written w/ pen on stuff | | Made out in the rain ::: | eh..sadly no | | Had sex or done sexual things in a public place ::: | nope | | Snuck people over your house ::: | no | | Stage dived ::: | nope | | Been in a mosh pit ::: | heh...at the highschool...is that really a mosh pit though? | | Eaten something non edible ::: | yeah | | Been in the hospital ::: | to visit ppl | | Been in the mental hospital ::: | no...need to go to one though | | Hit your parents ::: | probably | | Written a song ::: | yeah | | Stalked someone ::: | :-D | | Gone cow tipping ::: | no | | Made your own porno ( you freak ) ::: | hmm...good idea | | Skinny Dipped ::: | no | | [x] Random [x] | | Do you have any fetishes ::: | eyes | | Fears ::: | spiders | | Who rocks your socks? ::: | DASHBOARD CONFESSIONAL | | What makes your all warm and fuzzy inside ::: | love? | | What turns you on ::: | hehe.... | | What are you (bi, straight, lesbian, gay ..etc..) ::: | bi | | Craziest thing you've done sober ::: | uhh..do i have to say? | | Craziest thing you've done drunk ::: | nothin | | Craziest thing you've done high ::: | nothin | | Do you sniff your fingers after you wipe your ass? ::: | no | | [x] The alphabet [x] Put the first word that comes to mind for each letter: | okay | | A::: | alright | | B::: | begin | | C::: | current | | D::: | dashboard confessional | | E::: | ever | | F::: | fun | | G::: | gone | | H::: | high | | I::: | i | | J::: | jeff | | K::: | okay | | L::: | let go | | M::: | me | | N::: | no | | O::: | okay | | P::: | people (suck) | | Q::: | queer | | R::: | run | | S::: | scream | | T::: | talk | | U::: | understand | | V::: | veer | | W::: | whatever | | X::: | X rated | | Y::: | yellowcard | | Z::: | zebra |
So Random brought to you by BZOINK!
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2004 9 July :: 7.22pm
:: Mood: really weird..calm, but it's..depressing
:: Music: Vindicated - Dashboard Confessional
i have no idea what to say.
i am..lost.
i dont know what to do anymore.
i want to be better.
i want a happy ending.
a life that is worthy of ending in rolling credits.
i dont know.
i want to cry.
i want to scream.
I WANT A HUG.
i should have hugged justin last night.
i should've said i loved him.
there's nothing going on in my head.
am i dying?
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loner-skyz
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2004 6 July :: 8.20pm
:: Mood: okay
:: Music: All She Wants To Do Is Dance - Don Henley
wow
work today was good.
there was this councelor, rob, he's 17..but he's really nice.
he like asked me out, but i told him i had a bf and we just desided we'd be friends.
:-)
it's cool.
he's really nice.
he says i seem way older than 13.
which is odd.
but it's cool.
yes.
rob was with austin today though, but we still managed to talk and just hang out whenever he wasn't busy chasing austin.
hehe.
yeah.
work today was awesome.
im thinking of going on thursday just to have another day like today.
bloody hell it was fun.
but if camille and sam want to do an over night tomorrow and then go to summerfest that's totally cool.
i told rob i'd try to go to work on thursday.
:-)
he's so much fun.
but yeah.
JUSTIN IS BACK!
yay.
it makes me happy.
im so bored.
mum and i watched a movie tonight.
it was weird.
i wrote some poetry.
i'll post it in my Xanga tomorrow.
a day home alone will be really nice.
well, im going now..ive got other blogs to udate and stuff to think about.
later.
-holly-
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2004 5 July :: 3.29pm
:: Mood: contemplative
:: Music: stuff that's randomly finding its way into my head
went to see blue october saturday night with mindy.
they were awesome.
there were two other bands there.. palmeroy and hello dave.
palmeroy was pretty good, but hello dave..bleh.
anyhoo..i dyed my hair today.
it's reddish now.
it looks pretty good.
hard to get used to.
arg.
whatever, i needed a change.
wonder what the kids will think...
tehe.
wonder what justin and david shall think.
justin is supposed to be getting back tomorrow or wednesday.
so..yeah.
dammit.
i look way different.
-holly-
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2004 3 July :: 2.01pm
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: 45 - Shinedown
Today...w00t!
going to the blue october concert tonight with mindy!!
yay.
it's going to be soo much fun.
there's two other bands playing there, that im not really familiar with, but it'll be good anyways.
:-)
concerts are fun.
my father and i went to peeples music to get the tickets and i got the shinedown cd there.
which is what im listening to at the moment.
i'll probably get the blue october cd tonight, and a shirt..like i did at the dashboard concert.
i am soo excited for tonight.
"STARING DOWN THE BARREL OF A 45"
whoo, that song kinda gives me chills, but it's awesome.
i was going to look for a linkin park cd there, but then i saw this one.
Shinedown's, Leave A Whisper cd.
it has Fly from the Inside, and 45 on it.
those are the only two songs i really know, but the other ones sound good so far.
did i mention i am sooo excited for tonight?
lol.
im going now.
gotta see if nik is on, and ask what was w/ him stalking me last night at hy-vee.
hehe.
i had no idea he works there.
-holly-
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2004 1 July :: 8.57pm
:: Mood: annoyed
:: Music: Hanging Around - Counting Crows
blah.
work today.
maddy is soo cute.
:-)
im going to write poetry tonight and i'll put it in my xanga.
yippie.
my free trial of premium xanga ends tomorrow.
:'(
it makes holly sad.
but that's okay, cos i messed it up yesterday.
and i can make it pretty colours.
i'd buy a premium account there, they're not expensive, it's just that you can only use paypal.
err...evil.
im going to donate some money to antishift.
as soon as ryan gets the new server up.
but yeah.
it's actually supposed to be working late tonight, or tomorrow.
so i guess i can upload stuff tomorrow.
yippie.
i <3 antishift.
but anyhoo....
i got a bunch of stuff for the sims, so im going to play tomorrow.
i'd play tonight, but my mother will kick me off in a little while cos ive been on a lot since we got home.
which makes no sense to me, cos she's on the computer for 8 hours a day, and sometimes she comes home and gets on for 3 or 4 more hours.
evil.
oh well, i have all of tomorrow.
but They're taking monday off cos of 4th of july.
tisnt fair.
but i suppose i can survive.
we'll probably be out doing some "family" thing, and im sure i'll get some poetry out of that.
:-/
well, i think i'll go now..i've got some other journals to update (3).
yeah, i have a lot now.
hehe.
woohu is my favorite i think.
1. woohu.
2. xanga
my other two are tied.
and i cant remember the names of the sites..i have them bookmarked, so i dunno.
hehe.
later.
-holly-
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2004 30 June :: 8.54pm
:: Mood: chipper
:: Music: 45..uh..who sings that song?
mirror image
i just looked in the mirror.
i like who i see.
i mean, she's no where near the perfection i want, but she's getting pretty good looking.
her way to small bandana tank top, and those adorable count von count pj pants.
she looks lovely with her hair down.
her stomach is getting flatter by the week, and i think by the end of summer she may be totally beautiful.
but im not setting my sights too high.
-holly-
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2004 30 June :: 11.12am
:: Mood: musical
:: Music: Sihouettes - Smile Empty Soul
i dont wanna live like my mother
i dont wanna let fear rule my life
that so fits me.
:-D
it's insanely perfect.
i love this song.
stayed up late working on david's picture book.
hehe.
we're going to try to get to summerfest together.
me, david, justin, and who ever else.
just have to ask justin when he gets back.
yay.
-holly-
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