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:: 2004 19 May :: 9.16 am

::Too Early To Think::
It's the morning. Feel like sleeping in, but I figured missing school would never help.

Had a Choir concert last night. We sucked the first song, but made it up at the end. It was fun, got to see the last showing of the other choirs. They did well. Very well in fact.

Ah, I don't want to get ready. Eh. O well.

I miss you.

::Find Yourself::


:: 2004 17 May :: 5.44 pm
:: Mood: In Love Again
:: Music: Colorblind-Counting Crows

::It's Alright::
It's going to be okay now, Love. I promise that much. At least we still have something. Maybe not an engagement, maybe nothing more than just a promise, but it's a promise I know I can keep for a long while.

Remember that dollar you gave me? Yea, still haven't spent it. I want to spend it with you, the way I want to with my life. You know, a dollar for something, a life forever?

Yea. Just like that. And it will be okay. As long as we both keep it that way....

We'll be okay.

1 ::Always Lonely:: | ::Find Yourself::


:: 2004 16 May :: 12.14 am
:: Mood: Wishing
:: Music: Colorblind-Counting Crows

::I So Galantly Wish::
I wish I could count the stars.
Put them in their place.
I wish I could take them down.
Caress them on my face.

I wish I could count the grass.
Run my hand down the green.
I wish I could color them blue.
Let all the sky be seen.

I wish I could count the clouds.
Throw my arms up in them.
I wish I could lay up there.
Sleep with all of them.

I wish I could count my tears.
Wipe them all away.
I wish I could turn them red.
Make the blood stain.

I wish I could count the words.
That you've said to me.
I wish I could burn them all to hell.
Take them as lies, and not believe.
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Strange to think...how I'm breaking apart. Breaking down. And no one realizes it. I've reached this strange depression once again. You know, the one that you always wished never came back again? Yea.

I had this feeling long ago. When I lost what I thought was everything. I had this feeling when I moved apart from what meant the most to me. Now, it's back again. When I finally thought everything was great....I realize I'm right back where I began.

I wish this disease die away. I wish I could cure it all. why had is come for me? And why do I deserve it?......

3 ::Always Lonely:: | ::Find Yourself::

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