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godessalthena

:: 2020 11 July :: 9.44am

and just like that he's gone.

3rd in 12 months. life is really fucking unfair.

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godessalthena

:: 2020 7 July :: 10.30am

trying to remain calm
trying to have positive thoughts
but what if he dies?

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godessalthena

:: 2020 4 July :: 8.25am

I keep wondering what's the point of moving forward.

I'm a miserable person doomed to feel this way for the rest of life.

I won't make a good mother, I'll teach my child how to be spineless, how to be a doormat, how to pathetically let people walk all over them.

I can't even carry a conversation. I can't make friends. I'm just boring, fat and hideous.

I don't want to buy a house anymore. I don't want to be in a relationship. I don't want to take care of anyone but myself. I just want to be alone and hide in my little hole.

I just want to be let go, so I can start my homesick fade to white.

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godessalthena

:: 2020 27 June :: 11.01am

I'm not a rock

I'm crumbling sand stone

just garbage in the wind lacerating your lungs

shredding your heart

completely worthless

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godessalthena

:: 2020 11 June :: 2.31pm

everybody's changing

and I don't feel right

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godessalthena

:: 2020 10 June :: 7.45am
:: Mood: crushed

I'm a sad lonely girl

living in a cruel sick world

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godessalthena

:: 2020 9 June :: 2.48pm

I am so fucking sick of people being assholes.

grow the fuck up.

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godessalthena

:: 2020 31 May :: 9.44pm

I'm tired of everyone dying, why is life so sad?

drug addiction just decimated another bright young man.

just so some cartel can have another swimming pool or whatever else.

and now there's another hole in his heart and I hate that I can't fix it.

rip Ashton. you will be dearly missed, I know.

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godessalthena

:: 2020 18 May :: 10.28am

can I just die now? thx

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godessalthena

:: 2020 15 May :: 9.16am
:: Music: ember city by mastodon

I'm really missing you today corry. to think last year this time last year I was taking you to the hospital and you were in there so long... and I never visited you.

you must have felt so scared and alone. that probably pushed you away the most. like I only half cared about you.

I just miss you. why did you have to go. why aren't you here?

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