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2018 3 May :: 4.06pm
honestly, I'm never completely honest.
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2018 27 April :: 7.09am
heading to Seattle this weekend to visit my best Frome I am so excited! last time I saw her we went to her best friends memorial at the state park it was very sad... this will be more fun!
we are going to explore whidby island! I've always wanted to go but never was able to. we are going with some mutual friends and their adorable twin daughters. I made some macarons which I need to ship off today, but the extras I'm bringing with (not that we need more sugar she went crazy getting me candyyyyyy)
my sweetie got a 2018 wrx, I have driven it once and I'm really jealous but..... I love my 35 mpg way more than his however many horses haha
maybe I'm too much if a grandma but being a passenger is scary. especially in the back seat.
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2018 23 April :: 11.46pm
all I really need right this moment is an encouraging word or a friendly face.
I just want someone to see me.
I feel so utterly and totally invisible.
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2018 14 April :: 9.00am
this birthday has been shit.
I want this to be my last birthday.
there isn't anything in the world worth this much pain.
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2018 6 April :: 11.58am
Easter dinner was delicious I will post photos soon...
So glad it's Friday, I wish the weekend would last forever... I need a permanent vacation
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2018 30 March :: 4.11pm
Everything is ok
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2018 23 March :: 7.10pm
I fucking LOVE Easter because my mom always makes my favorite dish: minty potatoes.
I know it sounds weird, but imagine small red potatoes with the center peel taken out of the skin, then cook until soft and mix with a metric fuck ton of fresh garlic and fresh mint and hella butter. It's all my favorite things in one dish plus mint! And then you put all the salt on. It's heaven.
This year is a special Easter because it also is my very special friend Jay's birthday! Turning the big 24! So proud of you man! Keep fighting the good fight and keep a stiff upper lip! Pip pip cheerio hip hip huzzah!
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2018 23 March :: 7.19am
To the fuck head using a pneumatic machine at 7am:
FUCK YOU SOME PEOPLE SLEEP IN THE FUCKING MORNING THERE IS NO SHOW WHATEVER IT IS YOU ARE DOING CAN WAIT 1 MOTHER LOVING HOUR >:(
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2018 21 March :: 9.51pm
love is this thing I've been chasing ever since my childhood. I keep putting my heart into people, imagining that one of them will put me as number one, put me on a pedestal and let me still be independent.
I have been asking for space, but also suffocating attention. My childhood was taken from me, and my emotions are all fucked up. But I finally had this moment of clarity...
Maybe my second relationship would have worked out if I had just stayed in college. If I had valued that stupid worthless piece of paper over my dillusional image of what love is.
Love isn't noble or pure, just or heavenly. I haven't really believed in it for a long time, but it's still something I crave. I my relationship I can feel the same feelings that love is in my heart, and I suppose it is still love... My mind just warps it into this cynical and painful experience where nothing is ever good enough.
I'm never good enough
They never read my mind well enough
I cant even read my mind well enough to know what I need or want
I just want to feel important to you. But first I need to feel important to myself.
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2018 21 March :: 9.03pm
Ate two medicated cookies before my drive home from work,they hit me maybe half an hour after I got home, I fell into a hole.
Edibles are always too much for me. I don't know why, maybe I just underestimate their power... Maybe they just hate me.
Maybe I just got some that were really strong, the distillate didn't blend into the icing well so it turned out really random, some are weak and some will make you get lost in a hole!
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