:: 2004 23 August :: 11.11 am

this is all about christina cerutti! shes awesome! i finally got my pictures onto the computer!!



[Random christina]

[Hot Stuff]

[Sexxay pics!]

hhahahahah funny pics! :)

going to last day of work :( im so sad

then cheerin!
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<3 NikkiE

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:: 2004 21 August :: 12.48 pm

got my schedule!!!

english~mr harmon
Study
spanish~ms tigges
AlgebraII~Miss Billett
Biology~Mr Taddeo
World hist~mr Brenneman
Intr foods~ Mrs Plachy

studys~ A2,B4,C4,D6,F2,F4,G4,H6

gym-mr anniballi~ C6, E2, G6

tell me if we're in the same classes!

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:: 2004 18 August :: 7.56 am
:: Mood: sore!
:: Music: slow motion

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:: 2004 10 August :: 5.21 pm

lalalala

its so funny watching people try to piss me off! i love fucking with peopes heads sometimes! lol

anyways cheer camp was AWESOME! ya kimmy cait and gia!

We're awesome girls! Hell ya FULL DOWNS! i gots pictures!


^Ya Kimmy!!!!


^me and Jan Jan!


^cait not paying attention!!


^janet being a Weirdo!!! lmao


^us and some other town doing stuff.. i look so FAT! (im such a bad base.. using my back instead of my legs .. bad bad)


^Anna Cait and Me!!! arent we so cute?? ya i konw!

ok so anyways im bored so thats all i wanted to say!

<3 NikkiE

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:: 2004 5 August :: 11.21 am

ok well i went to genes wake.. and it was so hard.. i couldnt sleep since it happened..

the second i went into the wake i decided that i couldnt go up to the casket.. it was too hard.. then when i saw amanda being so strong and not crying i just broke down.. i dont know why i just did! so i cryed for the 2 and a half hours i was there basically... when i saw big gene and chris crying it broke my heart.

3 things made me really break down...

#1 was when genes best friend Ryan nelt down and prayed and then kissed Genes forehead! that made me lose it the most...

#2 was when Big Gene stood over little Gene and was rubbing his head and kissing him and crying! that was so heartbreaking to watch.. but i know gene is in a better place..

#3 was when Ryan and Adam.. Genes two best friends in the world nelt down next to Gene and prayed for like a half hour..

those 3 things were the worst for me to watch...

Amanda carried around Gens Duck from when he was little and that was really sad... but when Big Gene gave me a hug and wouldnt let go... i started bawling..


I even gave Lisa a hug (Gene and amanda's stepmom) and she hugged me and was like "im so happy your here.. Gene was so lucky to have Friends like you" i fucking started Bawling there too! the whole 2 1/2 hours were just non stop crying for me becca and lizzy! it was so bad!

i finnaly had enough courage to go up to the casket ot show my repects but i couldnt do it alone so Nikki Z came up with me.. i was so glad she was there because i coulnd do it on my own.. im so thankful for her.. and her brother died so she knows how it feels and she will help amanda throught this..

well im starting to cry writing this so im gunna go .. but.. i just want to say that that was the hardest thing i have ever had to go through in my life!

I really wanted to go to the Funeral but i couldnt get a ride.. everyone sed it was hard so i guess im kinda glad i dint go... maybe


gene is always in my heart

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:: 2004 2 August :: 8.42 pm
:: Mood: depressed

i cant believe it happened! its not fair.. he was so young.. im sitting here bawling my eyes out and poor amanda.. did anyone stop to think about her or her family... Gene was so young.. way to youung... i cant ewven write but this is what i want gene to here!

Gene,
you were like a brother to me... i used to tell you i wished you were my brother... becasue you treated me better than my own brother did. we even acted like a big family at your house with amanda and your mom! we would fight.. we would laugh.. and sometimes we would cry .. but we always loved eachother.. and there are SO many poeple who love oyu and miss you! i nkow you loved coming to your moms and i loved when you were there... especially when you got your liscence... that was awesome.. i remember emmes spoccer game when you drove me and becca around when you werent supposed to! i remember so many time we had so much fun.. even when you and amanda would hit eachother and then you would hit me.. and even those times will always be in my memory of how much i love you and miss you! so if you can hear or read this or whatever just know that i love you... and i just hope you are in a better place now! i love you so much Gene.. i really do!

Love, NikkiE
you

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:: 2004 28 July :: 10.43 pm

i dont know what ot do!! today i found out that gene had a heart attack and 2 strokes! its soo bad! im so scared for him! i have been crying since i found out and im not even fucking kidding! this is not cool at all.. gene is like a fucking brither to me! whenever i went to amandasa house me and gene and her would joke around and ghe would drive us places and just treat us like we were BOTH his sisters.. .not just amanda! i love gene so much and this cant be happening.. i wish that someone would just wake me up as if this was all a bad dream! now amandas just sitting with him in the hospital and theres nothing she or anyone else can do except hope for the best so please if anybody is reading this just pray that gene will get better becasue he is such a good kid and 17 is too young! its just to young! GENE I LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH! please get better... PLEASE! jusr please!

~NikkiE

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:: 2004 24 July :: 9.31 pm
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: pieces of me

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:: 2004 22 July :: 11.03 pm

my other entry got deleted and it was better so bear ewith me!

ok well today has been a really bad day and if anyone is ever gunna say they care about me then they better fucking mean it becasue i cant fucking deal with you and all your bullshit!! FUCK OFF!!!


ok so here are the people who i know are here for me! i dont know what i would do if i didnt meet you this year! i couldnt live without you and how you are always here no matter whats going on in your own lives!

the reasons why i love these people!

AMANDA becasue she is the person everyone goes to for advice on anything
LIZZY becasue if you walk into the room with a fake smile on your face she knows someting is wrong
KELSEY becasue she is a serious person who will always make you laugh with her comments and faces!
MEG becasue shes a person you can talk to and know she will listen without interupting you.. and will make something serious funny when she giggles!
KATIE becasue she says thigs that can make you laugh when you need it and things that can make you cry when you need it and she always knows... but shes clueless to other things !LOL
TRACI becasue she is always a phone call away!
JESSIE becasue she wont take shit from anyone if they are messing with her friends!!
And CHRISTINA even tho shes not like part of the little "group" but i love her becasue she is always there for anyone who needs help or to talk.. and she cares!



these are the girls i think i can count on and trust ehnever something is wrong! im actually like crying writing this becasue im thinking back on all of the times when i have needed one of them and all of them are there! i love you girls forever and ever and EVER!

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:: 2004 22 July :: 8.40 pm
:: Mood: not really sure
:: Music: ummm some weird comercial

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