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i LoVeD dEePeR aNd I sPoKe SwEeTeR

:: 2004 19 October :: 12.45pm
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: none..

im in english
ok so im in english right now.. my birthday is tomorrow!! yay!!!

anyways.. i had a really bad day at practice yesterday.. like i was honestly seriously thinking about quiting.. obv. im not gunna quit but i dunno about basketball season.

ok so we were doing our lib and i thought it was going well.. then stacy told me to bring it above my head, so i tried but either virginia or cait was pulling it out.. then she kept yelling at me but i was trying really hard..

then she told cait she should main base becasue she was doing all the work even though that is bullshit!!! whatever i just cant stand the way varsity is always mean to jv and they say comments that arent needed.. like i like stacy becasue shes usually always nice to me and all that shit.. and i know she wasnt trying to be mean.. but it just really upset me..

im already so sick of how this team doesnt care and everybody goes to practice when they want to.. and that like 5 people have quit.. w arent even going to comp.. and we are only having like 3 games so theres really no point of even having a jv.. i guess im just not good enough for cheerleading and thats why im on the suckey team..

if i do try out for basketball season and i dont make varsity im done with cheerleading forever.. its a waste of time and money..

ok those are my feelings for now..

-Nik

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silentcriez

:: 2004 19 October :: 9.57am
:: Music: i'm stupid x abandoned pools

BLAH

home sick again..

im getting my wood floors put in today.. i guess theyre gonna take 3 days tho

friskey has a bite on her back and it looks bad i think were taking her to the animal hospital today.. she better be alright i love her so much

heres a song.. kinda sums up me

I'm stupid , you're smarter
I'm stupid, for thinking there's a way
this could turn out right

I'm dreaming, you woke up
I should have known from the start
that you were never mine

'Cause if I can make you love me
you're out of reasons to stay
Make it easy on yourself
Don't worry about me
Can't make you feel something you don't

I'm crying, but don't pity
I'm dying, but just walk away
It will be all right

'Cause I was dreaming but you woke up
And Im gonna miss you but I
am gonna be all right

'Cause if I can make you love me
You're out of reasons to stay
make it easy on yourself
dont worry about me
If I can't make you love me
You're not the one here to blame
I will make it on my own
don't worry about me

...SoMeWhErE...

silentcriez

:: 2004 18 October :: 6.08pm
:: Music: only you x ashanti

hummm
i stayed home from school today.. i didnt feel good and just needed to rest.. i hate mondays

i cant describe how i feel right now..idk what it is but i feel like somethings missing maybe its the fact that everything is changing? maybe its the fact that i dont talk to half of the people i used to.. idk i mean it feels good to make new friends.. but what happens when im sick of meeting new people and just want my old friends back.. i dont know.. i dont want the winter to come i dont wanna be sad.. i dont wanna be alone and i dont want things to be different anymore...

i just want to sing.. and i just want to do something with my life.. life is so short and i dont want to waste it..

idk what the hell im rambling about i just needed to get all this shit out.. not like anyone actually reads it or anything

once again ive been caught in the same infamous situation.. me wanting somebody i know i shouldnt have.. fucking shit up and realizing i cant have them.. and then leading someone on i should like.. could be happy with but cant force myself to be with.. idk how i get myself into these situations..

i miss my mom.. i miss having someone who actually cared.. i cant believe its been over a year now that shes been gone.. its still so unreal to me because i like to keep it out of my mind.. but the truth is that shes gone and never ever coming back into my life.. maybe someday ill become something that shell wish she never abandoned.. who knows..

- manda

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xonixieox

:: 2004 18 October :: 6.20am
:: Music: tobey keith x stays in mexico

yesterday!
hahah yesterday i chilled with julie and virginia and then we met up with jimmy (pickeles) ya so anyways im so proud of virginia shes fucking hilarious.. hahahahahahahahahaha i cant even write it in here its to fucking funny! hahahahahha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ya anyways thats all.. nothing else special happened..

ohhh but our fucking burner wont work and i pissed.. i fucking hate this computer!

-Nik

...SoMeWhErE...

krazykelc1

:: 2004 17 October :: 9.49am
:: Mood: in need of coffee
:: Music: The Streets ` Dry your eyes mate

Good Morning..

yeah so I haven't written all weekend.. theres really not much to write about anyway cause I do the same fuckin thing every day.. I either go to school for 6 hours or work for 6 hours then I go get high with my buddies.. usually katie n meg :-)

joey was supposed to come see me friday but I guess not.. oh well.

but last night mommy n daddy went to a party so ryan came home for the night and I had emmy katie n meg over. we tried to get ryan high but hes too cool to smoke with little 15 year old girls.

so we had a good time.. 5 MONTHS EMILY oh my god =-O

yeah well I'm gonna go get ready for work now, peace :o)

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xoxchubbyxox

:: 2004 16 October :: 11.51pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: how many lick*s :D

my day
today i had fun...first i spent the beginning of the day collecting and properly stacking like 300$ worth of wood for our new fire place perfectly on a rectangle stand thinger, that took liek 3 hours and im soo sore now! like fire places are so not worth it lol.

then i went to the movies with michelle and her friend corina! we saw shark tales lieka bunch of cool kids and made profane jokes throughout the whole thing lol. then we bought stickers form the sticker machine... i got a shark tales one and michelle spent like 4 bucks trying to get the one that looked liek th epepsi logo but said sexsi...yeah...? then i went home and made he rlivejournal pretty.

nd now im going to bed.

:) darien

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silentcriez

:: 2004 16 October :: 10.49pm

alright well..

shit is gay.. and people suck.. but what can you do.. i went to the mall (ugh) with derek alex and lizzy today.. good to be back with summer ppl :-\ i miss the summer..

fright fest is coming up im excited :)

i talked to aj on the fone last night.. havent talked to him in a while.. quite random..

i cannot wait until tomorrow :-) i wish i didnt have work

i must go because i am on elizabeths computer so.. i guess i will ramble later..

- manda

...SoMeWhErE...

xonixieox

:: 2004 16 October :: 11.17am

ok ya so my c team girls had comp this morning.. i had to wake up at 4 30 and i went to bed at fucking 2 ! ahhh.. anyways.. they did so good and i was so proud!! 3rd place babyyy! ya but instead of doing 4 places like always they only dis first and second so we didnt get a trophy :( thats sucks but ohh well..

-Nik

...SoMeWhErE...

xoxchubbyxox

:: 2004 15 October :: 9.18pm
:: Mood: relaxed
:: Music: running water?

lala
well today was interesting i suppose. we had a pep rally and it was exciting lol.

the ppl actaully seemed to put alot more efforty and work into it unlike the lazy ass bum teachers in natick... like very team had a presentation, and every class voted for homecoming king and queen. oh yeah and in the sophomore class this poor girl got voted homecoming princess because all the guys voted for her as a joke! i would hvae cried if that was me! i felt so bad for her lol!

oh yeah and the cheerleaders were really good...the jv could all do back handsprings and the varsity could do back flips and front flips and all these twisty flips! haha our varsity only does back hand springs. yes well that was my fun day...i think i may go to the movies tomorrow? :-?

ill update with more interesting thoughts.

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xonixieox

:: 2004 14 October :: 10.20pm

ya so i changed my journal again! lol i have no life..

yea so my birthday is in 6 days.. im excited! but i dont think i get to go get my permit becasue my dads gay.. he sed i have to wait a month becasue i got sdetention.. well fuck that shit!

ya so we had little child practice..

bill and dj want us to go to some hell's gates tomorrow.. but im madd scared of the dark.. its probobly gunna be me, manda, britt, keri, bill, nick, and dj.. but i dont really wanna go cuz im terified of the fucking dark! lmao! i guess im gunna have to get over it soon! ok thats all for now cuz im getting ready for bed!

-Nik

...SoMeWhErE...

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