please love me or i'll be gone
im standing here
shaking in the doorway
im standing here
bareing all i have to hide
walking in behind me
theres a shadow hanging over me
and i feel it...feel it

watch me as i pack my bags
i wanna just get up and leave
watch me as i say goodbye
down on my knees
stay with me forever
beating in my heart
underneath this starlit sky
were never appart

im crying here
using sleeves as tissues
im crying here
no longer will your phoney lines ring true to me
im walking away from here
theres a shadow hanging over me
and i feel it... feel it..

watch me as i pack my bags
i wanna just get up and leave
watch me as i say goodbye
down on my knees
stay with me forever
beating in my heart
underneath this starlit sky
were never appart

lost in trasnlation to you
lost in every broken heart you never knew
dying in anothers arms tonight
crying for another soul tonight
and ill wonder how youll be when were appart
wonder if youll have a lonely broken heart

watch me as i pack my bags
i wanna just get up and leave
watch me as i say goodbye
down on my knees
stay with me forever
beating in my heart
underneath this starlit sky
were never appart

im lost in here
dont know where to go right now
im lost in here
my eyes are blindfolded
walking in behind me
theres a shadow hanging over me
and i feel it...
do you feel it like i do..

- me

we drive tonight,
and you are by my side.
We're talking about our lives,
like we've known each other forever.
the time flies by,
with the sound of your voice.
its close to paradise,
with the end surely near.
if i could only stop the car
and hold onto you,
and never let go...
i'll never let go.
as we round the corner
to your house
you turned to me and said,
"i'll be going through withdrawl of you for this one night we have spent."
and, i want to speak these words
but i guess i'll just bite my tongue,
and accept "someday, somehow"
as the words that we'll hang from.

and i (i..), i don't want to speak these words.
cause i (cause i..), i don't want to make things anyworse.
[x2]

why does tonight, have to end?
why don't we hit restart,
and pause it at our favorite parts.
we'll skip the goodbyes.
if i had it my way,
i'd turn the car around and runaway,
just you and i.

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I'm lying alone
With my head on the phone
Thinking of you till it hurts
I know you're hurt too
But what else can we do?
Tormented and torn apart
I wish I could carry
your smile in my heart
For times when my life seems so low
It would make me believe
What tomorrow could bring
When today doesn't really know

i did it

i successfully hurt another person who only wanted the best for me..only wanted to see me smile.. someone who called me beautiful in sweatpants and no makeup.. straight out of bed...someone who just called to say hi and talk about nothing for hours and hours.. someone who i could talk to about anything and hed be there to comfort me.. someone who could make me smile.. and also get me angry.. someone who waited for me.. someone who lived for me... and i ruined it

i lost it again.. and am a hypocrite of my own gospel...

i preach every day about how ppl who hurt me and i hate them.. and then i go about my day just trying to make everyone feel the happiness i long for.. and all i can do is make someone else feel liek shit.. the person who makes me feel like im perfect.. i make them want to die do you know what its like to have someone tell you that you make them want to die.. keep in mind youw ere trying to make this person happy.. and i failed cuz thats what im good at.. fucking failing...

Haiz n Daiz: i wont stop loveing you. you saved me form who i was, you were my reason. and for that i owe you everything i have.. im sorry i bothered you today.

Vanished 1 2 2 0: im always like that...i find something amazing that i know i need and i know is perfect for me.. but im afraid to take the risk.. im afraid to get hurt.. im afraid of you leaving me.. im afraid of getting too attactched that i cant be ok on my own.. im afraid of commitment.. even though i want it so badly.. becuz with a promise like that theres more ways for me to screw up.. and thats what im good at.. screwing up.. and making the people who i devoted my time to trying to make smile i just make then hurt

Haiz n Daiz: what did you want me to do amanda? you were hurting me, maybe you couldnt see it but everyone else did... i wasnt going to wait around for something if it wasnt going to happen just to get hurt even more
Haiz n Daiz: i still love you even if you like it or not
Haiz n Daiz: and i care
Haiz n Daiz: i think about you all the time
Haiz n Daiz: i just didnt see why youd do what you did
Haiz n Daiz: so i left
Haiz n Daiz: out of everyone i knew
Haiz n Daiz: i trusted you the most with my emotions
Haiz n Daiz: it hurt me to know you didnt know what you wanted
Haiz n Daiz: after all thw times you said you wanted to be with me
Haiz n Daiz: its like you changed your mind
Haiz n Daiz: and i felt like shit
Haiz n Daiz: the only thing i could think of was to leave and let you find out what you wantr
Haiz n Daiz: i never ment to hurt you

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i hate myself.. and everything ive done...
im sorry i failed you sean
im sorry i hurt you
im sorry i fucked up
im sorry i ever messed up your life
im sorry...

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