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SnOwFlAkEa4

:: 2004 22 June :: 10.20pm
:: Mood: sore
:: Music: chrarmed

alright i hung out today, cleaned and i really forgot what i did this morning but olivia came over, we swam and then at like 7 we ran all the way to albertsons... we didnt stop we ran! according to my dad thats about 2 or 3 miles. i am so proud of myself! yay but um than olivia went home my legs hurt lol umm i have a feeling mark likes sara.. so i decided im not going to interfere in this anymore. if he wants anything to do with me ill let him come to me this time.. kk ttyl bye

2 ...iTs 5 O'cLoCk... | ...SoMeWhErE...


krazykelc1

:: 2004 22 June :: 9.29pm
:: Mood: in need of cigarette
:: Music: Do or Die ft. Twista-Do U

Grounding...



well here's the scoop:
-Meg is off tomorroww..
-Manda is off Thurs.
& Lizzy.. no one really knows, she has no computer. she got her cell back though I guess... so I txted her the other day n asked her whats up for this Sat. (her bday) and I guess her mom said she's not gonna b allowed out..
thats wicked gay this is the first birthday of Lizzy's that I would have spent with her and I cant even see her. ahh

if Lizzy's grounded for a whole month I swear I'll kill someone. Way to ruin a summer that's already fucked up huh ??

I haven't gotten high in so long ughhh

...SoMeWhErE...


krazykelc1

:: 2004 22 June :: 12.16pm
:: Mood: amused

bagels!



x3xtanyx3x: mmmm bagels
Auto response from krazykelc 1: dreaming about bagels:-)

P I M P e r 8 7: lol wtf
Auto response from krazykelc 1: dreaming about bagels:-)

fatforlife52: u like to stick ur penis in bagles
Auto response from krazykelc 1: dreaming about bagels:-)


x we4k inside: lol loser
Auto response from krazykelc 1: dreaming about bagels:-)


Vanished 1 2 2 0: nighty night
Auto response from krazykelc 1: dreaming about bagels:-)
Vanished 1 2 2 0: HJAHA
Vanished 1 2 2 0: i love you u fagget and a half

...SoMeWhErE...


silentcriez

:: 2004 22 June :: 11.54am


i think to be in love it is to feel the best feeling in the world to knwo that someone is always watchign over your shoulder making sure your alright its the balance of security and happiness..love is about taking risks.. its about being willing to lose everything you had for one night of bliss.. for one night where emotions took ccontrol and you could never back down... i think that love is like a roller coaster.. you have to be able to deal with the slight bumps you face along the way in your teenage years with little petty relationships because it is getting you ready for the giant drop off when your older.. its like spinning and spinning and spinning helplessly in a feild of flowers and falling back without having to question that someone is there to catch you. someone more inthralled with making you happy...and you them..someone you think about all day...and all night... i think that love is something that we take all too lightly these days... and men and women toss it around stupidly thinking that love is anywhere related to sex.... love and sex have nothing in common and we have begun to associate love with sex far too often... and people get their hearts broken.. there is a difference between horemones and emotions.. u just have to look beyond what you want into what you really need...i think that love is something you cant search for.. if your searching youll never find it.. love comes as a surprise from where you least expect it to...i think that love does come to those who wait because there are a series of events going on this second on this day in this month planning out how you will meet.. there are reason why we shose certain paths in life.. why we meet certain ppl.. how the web of our life is strung so jaggedly because our life is built up of choices we have made and ppl we have met and through those people we meet new ppl and someday...you meet the right one.. and u shouldnt say oh hes teh right one automatically.. i think u have trials..we learn from our mistakes and never truly understand a person worth until weve lost them...

love is not like a rose as they say love does not wilt and die with time.. fore if your "love" wilts and dies it was never truly love at all... merely infatuation...infatuation and wanting cause us so much greif and extra trials...you must be able to understand the difference between a want and a need and infatuation and love wnating somone by your side is for safety or just for the sake of not being a lone but if you need someone... you cant be away from them and constantly seek their presence... i dont know where im going with this im just rambling on and on... but this is what i feel just thought youd like to hear...

to your question of why people are afraid of love...well i think its because love is so perminent..or so we make it out to be.. and love finds you in the most unlikely of places at the most unlikely of times...

when your willing to risk everything you have for someone...take the chance and dont let them get away...

- manda

you cannot try to keep love...you cannot try to cage it like wild bird unable to be atmed.. if you catch the wild bird and cage it.. it will not sing for you.. it will not be happy.. your love cannot put restrictions on the other person.. you cannot take a lion out of teh savannah and the miles and miles of free range beauty and put them in a cage... you cannot suffocate your lover..smothering their independance.. if you love someone allow them their space.. if it love you need not try... you need not hold them closer because they should already want to stay near you...leave some bird seed in the the window...and it will come back time to time singing the glorious song of nature...and happiness.. it will come back willingly and thats when you know its true.. because you havent chosen them theyve chosen you despite their freedom despite however many people their are...if youve let them go.. and they still come back you its real.. at least thats what i believe

5 ...iTs 5 O'cLoCk... | ...SoMeWhErE...


silentcriez

:: 2004 22 June :: 11.25am
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: dip it low - christina milian

death is but a question postponing time...

ok so heres something weird

when meggy and i were a weeeee bit messed up on thursday we had this really deep conversation about how everyone was gonna die and it kinda freaked us out and i wanted to write it down just so id know what i said years from now to see if it really comes true.. soo here goes

me - i think im gonna die from either getting strangeled or getting my throat slit

meg - i think megs gonna have a bad trip on either like shrooms or acid or something and is gonna kill herself

kelsey - i think she is gonna get hit by a car

Lizzy - i think lizzy is gonna be walking in a DARK alley and someone is gonna jump out and shes gonna faint/pass out and theyre gonna rape her and then kill her and throw her in the river..

ryan fogarty - i think that hes gonna die of a drug overdose

joe cice - i think joes gonna get shot crossing the border with weed and other ilegal narcotics lol

i said more.. but now i forget soooo ill update accordingly

soo in other news... i got my eyes checked saturday and i got green contacts and regular ones they should be coming wed. i think i cant wait!!

haha i hadnt been to the eye doctors in 4 YEARS my perscriptin went from -350 to -425

my eyes got sooo baddddddddddd

humm.. im off to go make some ramen and be lazy... fuck being grounded

...SoMeWhErE...


SnOwFlAkEa4

:: 2004 21 June :: 9.42pm

aright i went to the library and i volunteered at the yacht club. than i just chilled at home and was happy that my company is gone. yay so than saras mom picked us up we went to dance and the dance wasnt at the normal place and AHH i saw mark walking around lol and we asked where "the lighthouse" or whitehouse something that rhymes with ite house was and he told us. than when we found it sara and me went back over there with mark and stuff and we played basketball and i sucked! grrr but omg i was so happy i saw mark! and when we were at dance he waved to me when he left AHHHHHH and i think he watched us omgomgomg lol great! but i saw him again so yay!! i may see him tomorrow but guess what else happened. WE MADE OUT AND HE ASKED ME OUT







just kidding :0P hehe naaa that isnt even what i wanted to happen lol what i want to happen is me tell him to his face that i like him which if i see him tomorrow i will do that definatly. but no making out (thank god) haha okk well ill write later love yas

6 ...iTs 5 O'cLoCk... | ...SoMeWhErE...


silentcriez

:: 2004 21 June :: 9.08pm



unveil me and take me into a land of mystery
hold me and show me a land where we can be
i fall into your grasps
and theres no turning back
this is teh way it has to be

i just want for us to be
something in the dreams i see
pray on all teh stars above
that you could be my only love
id give all just to be
in love so perfectly
ill get down on my bended knee
to show you i care...

from teh first kiss i felt from your smooth lips
to the glance when you looked in my heart
when i felt so safe with you
eveyrthing was finally true

i just want for us to be
something in the dreams i see
pray on all teh stars above
that you could be my only love
id give all just to be
in love so perfectly
ill get down on my bended knee
to show you i care...

in teh darkest depths of my heart
you can see into every part
know when i am feeling blue
know that im in love with you

no matter what i say or do
just know that i love you
and teh kisses that flow from my lips
carressing your fingertips

i just want for us to be
something in the dreams i see
pray on all teh stars above
that you could be my only love
id give all just to be
in love so perfectly
ill get down on my bended knee
to show you i care...

-me

...SoMeWhErE...


krazykelc1

:: 2004 21 June :: 4.18pm
:: Mood: shook
:: Music: Freddy Krueger Song!

Freddy vs. Jason



1 2 Freddy's comin for you
3 4 better lock your door
5 6 grab a crucifix
7 8 better stay up late
9 10 never sleep again

3 ...iTs 5 O'cLoCk... | ...SoMeWhErE...


silentcriez

:: 2004 21 June :: 11.03am




Vanished 1 2 2 0: dude i went to the hospital saturday night
Qteekate 88: r u serious
Qteekate 88: y
Vanished 1 2 2 0: my ear was all swollen like 3 times teh size it should have been and i had these splotchy red bumps all over me that itched insanely they were on my neck, chin, ear, cheek, legs, arm and my hands
Vanished 1 2 2 0: and i went to the hospital at like 1:30 am
Vanished 1 2 2 0: and they said that i had anb allergic reaction to something
Qteekate 88: omg thats scary
Qteekate 88: is it all better now
Vanished 1 2 2 0: no i have to take pills for 2 weeks
Vanished 1 2 2 0: the doctor was like "this looks liek its going to get worse before it gets better.. you have 2 options to take a steroid shot or take pills"
Vanished 1 2 2 0: and i was like umm pills! i HATE shots
Vanished 1 2 2 0: so i have to take 6 steroid pills a day... to keep the swelling and imflamation down
Qteekate 88: wow
Qteekate 88: thats scary
Qteekate 88: what do u think it was from?
Vanished 1 2 2 0: i think i got a spider bite
Vanished 1 2 2 0: on my ear
Vanished 1 2 2 0: cuz teh swelling is starting to come down and i see a bump where i could have been bitten and i was outside in teh woods on friday..
Vanished 1 2 2 0: i mean thursday*
Qteekate 88: eww
Qteekate 88: thats so grosss
Qteekate 88: wat if it was tick
Vanished 1 2 2 0: and when i was little i got a spider bite and my whole arm swelled up and i went to teh doctors and they thought it was lime disease cuz my arm swelled up soo bad

...SoMeWhErE...


silentcriez

:: 2004 20 June :: 11.17pm
:: Mood: excited
:: Music: perfect - the smashing pumpkins

i love this song

I know we’re just like old friends
We just can’t pretend
That lovers make amends
We are reasons so unreal
We can’t help but feel that something has been lost

But please you know you’re just like me
Next time I promise we’ll be
Perfect
Perfect
Perfect strangers down the line
Lovers out of time
Memories unwind

So far I still know who you are
But now I wonder who I was...

Angel, you know it’s not the end
We’ll always be good friends
The letters have been sent on

So please, you always were so free
You’ll see, I promise we’ll be
Perfect
Perfect strangers when we meet
Strangers on the street
Lovers while we meet

Perfect
You know this has to be
We always we’re so free
We promised that we’d be
Perfect

...SoMeWhErE...

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