i close my eyes and i think of all the things that you mean to me, all of the things you say to me all of the emotions you shoot into my body when you hold me.. when you kiss me when you send your toxic venom into my paper thin veins. into my open heart. we splash together in this murky pond. mist raising off of chilled water. translusant beads reflecting on your skin, i touch you and i am cast into stillness. a painting of beauty and emotions. projecting lillies of whites and pinks atop lilly pands. a warm sun peeking over the horizon slowly drinting below the surface castig a dark shadow over the earth. the vacant body of all that is natural all that is pure all that is being destructed like the lining of this paper heart you so brutally beat every night. i could stare into your eyes forever looking blankly at the glowing blue shade that looks so warm to me, so deep so unable to describe. and they melt into me, oozing into every inch of me and consuming me totally. i could tell you i dont need you while i kiss your lips while my life lines run to you, like telephone wires stretched along vast feilds barrem and unpioneered. i look into your soul like uncharted maps, like unread pages of a dusty book, like a hidden treasure which so eagarly catches my attention. your venom begins wearing off now, and i see what you are.. what you say is no longer poetry and prose, regular english pours into my deaf ears, and although no longer intoxicated i linger off into a realm of undiscovered beauty once again. and i see you... and i see your soul...i could tell you all i could ever write, but you still would never know.. this language cannot express all that i feel.. never will i fear for unlived life... fore' i have lived because i love infinitely

my mind flickers back and forth like a broken television projecting pictures of unrealiztic perfections i see the world through blacks and whites a version so unkept and untrue.. you see me everywhere your like a fly upon amy wall 50 seconds into my reality. spinning helplessly around me i can see you falling down but all i can do is hope for the best

...SoMeWhErE...