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ok so this my mom announces that we arent going to natick this weekend...and tells her friend that i can babysit for 7 hours on sunday...? wtf! and now i cant even go for my birthday amnd the only reason i couldnt go then was because we were going thus weeknd...

and now i have to do leaf work for tomorrow when i alreayd had plans which i told her about a week ago.

ugh im so mad!

well that was my complaint. my birthdays next in 12 days...so maybe shell actually let me celelbrate it.

:-/

none...
yeah so i figured i should update...but theres nothing really to say lol. well i babysat saturday and made 40$. then i slept in all sunday and today i went over cailieghs and watched shrek 2 i love that movie lol. well thrusday me and michelle have to work on our sceicne project and then hopefully go out..idk tho. well i just mite go to natick this weekend...and then next weekend im planning on julie and nikkie coming up for my bday. that should be fun..hope it all works out.

well thats really it for now.

x0x darien

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well this week was long and boring. tonite i had fun tho i hung out with caileigh and her friends katrina and kaylie and we ate pizza and watched tv and stuff. lol yeah. so tomorrow im probably goin to see a movie and then i have to babysit ...well nothing interesting to write.

x0x darien

lala
ugh im tired i just did 2 hours of yard work lol... i dont feel as sick ne more so thats good. halloween was ok, i passed out candy to the little children..and ate some too ha. well im boring i know so i have nothing else to say...

why dont u leave a comment. :)

<3 darien

blahh
well i still feel like crap. oh jeez lol. ive been sick from like tuesday til today and i stayed home yesterday...lol i hate bein sick. well yay for the red sox lol too bad i was asleep when they won :( any way...school is bad..i think im going to the mvoies tomorrow so that should be fun perhaps..

write more when i feel ok...

:( Darien

ugh...
today i had three tests and like two lab activity thingers so i couldnt miss those cuz i hate making up work. so instead of sleeping i worked all day at school and gave myself a fever. so now im rying to sleep but i cant stop coughing,

i hate being sick :(

comment please.

my weekend!
well i had an awesome weekend. it started when i arrived in natcik at 1130 at my love jhulies house, then we went to see the grudge which is the fucking scariest movie ive ever seen in my life! i was like clinging to julie the whole time lol!

lol then we went to the mall so julie (who waited to the last minute) could buy nikkies present. and me, being a dumbass forgot my present so nikkies getting it at school tomorrow! well that was fun then we headed to the party.

i saw so many people that i havent seen in liek so long! i missed everyone! the party was great i had so much fun lol. nd i missed hanging out with all of my natick friends who i dont see nemore :-(. i hope u had an awesome nite too nikkie! i love u!!

well today i hung out iwth julie nikkie and virginia and we went to georges and then went ice skating with dj and his cousins. yeah that was interesting considering we all sucked at skating.

ahh im so sad its over. i love you all! i need to come down again really soon!

yay!
haha tomorrow im coming to see you guys! ahh i cant wait for nikkies party! i havent seen some of you in sooo long and i miss u! i love you nikkie! and julie!!

lol well i just wanted to say how happy i was.

:) darien

my day
today i had fun...first i spent the beginning of the day collecting and properly stacking like 300$ worth of wood for our new fire place perfectly on a rectangle stand thinger, that took liek 3 hours and im soo sore now! like fire places are so not worth it lol.

then i went to the movies with michelle and her friend corina! we saw shark tales lieka bunch of cool kids and made profane jokes throughout the whole thing lol. then we bought stickers form the sticker machine... i got a shark tales one and michelle spent like 4 bucks trying to get the one that looked liek th epepsi logo but said sexsi...yeah...? then i went home and made he rlivejournal pretty.

nd now im going to bed.

:) darien

lala
well today was interesting i suppose. we had a pep rally and it was exciting lol.

the ppl actaully seemed to put alot more efforty and work into it unlike the lazy ass bum teachers in natick... like very team had a presentation, and every class voted for homecoming king and queen. oh yeah and in the sophomore class this poor girl got voted homecoming princess because all the guys voted for her as a joke! i would hvae cried if that was me! i felt so bad for her lol!

oh yeah and the cheerleaders were really good...the jv could all do back handsprings and the varsity could do back flips and front flips and all these twisty flips! haha our varsity only does back hand springs. yes well that was my fun day...i think i may go to the movies tomorrow? :-?

ill update with more interesting thoughts.

hmm
havent updated in a bit of a while...its weird, the feelings i am experiencing now seem somewhat familiar...but i cant remember where ive felt them before.

whatever, the days go by...and i can get through them now pretty easily...and im happy about that. i always think though, about how much happier i could be if i were still at nhs. those thoughts are pointless though, i know.

maybe everything will work itself out. maybe everything happens for a reason. maybe, just once, everything is going to be ok.

better mood
well things seem to get progessively better as my time in this place continues :-/ i hate adjustments!

ive made new friends...sort of...lol. rite now im just hopin it will all get better from here...

on the brite side i actually sit somewhere at lunch...whoa! rite ahaha. i miss u guys so much...i cant wait till the 23rd! except i have no idea wat to get u nikkie! >:O esp after hearing about some of the other gifts.....maybe dougs?? lol!!

well id appreciate a comment from u assholes ...byebye :0)

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well i guess i should update. i never know what to say, i mean, im feeling so much, but its nothing new.

i think ive figured out that if i had stayed in natick, i may have been just as unhappy eventually, i guess its just happened quicker. i miss all of you, everyone, everything...but why? you dont give a fuck about me, dont bother telling me otherwise, as if you would.

memories, they aere all i have left, and the only thing i have is what i have to question.

i always wondered how people REALLY felt, i told myself, they told me, that they were real and genuine when i ever questioned it. and i just cant figure out why. why if they were only going to do this in the end.

i tell myself that i am better than that, but am i? maybe i would have done the same. ill try and remember how badly it hurt. use it to be better to people in the future.

what did i do? what is wrong with me to make this happen. it has to be me because i thought you were such good people.

i have to change, or else this wil happen again, and therew ill be no way out.

what did i do to make you hurt me.

needed to update
hello i dont have much to say. school is still no fun lol. i went to the movies yesterday and saw cellular with my neighbor caileigh and then we just basically hung around till like 1130 :-D. haha most fun ive had in awhile. anyway i dont hvae anything else to say so ill update later :) .