im such an idiot..disregard everything stupid ive said in this journal.. i dont know its way too early buti feel this horrible feeling in the pitt of my stomache like im crazy.. and i fuck shit up all the time..

I'm so tired of trying

It seems to me that maybe
It pretty much always means no
So don't tell me you might just let it go
And often times we're lazy
It seems to stand in my way
Cause no one no not no one
Likes to be let down

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you see shes just a girl
looking for nothing but a boy
to get along nicely for a while
until she has to move along

i know hes got a thing for her..
hes too blind to see hes only temporary
he kisses her like hes here to stay
while shes getting ready to walk away

(chorus)
she lives her days laying in the sun
she spends her time looking to have fun
with anyone
she will use him up and leave him dry
and hell be wishing he was with her
til she says goodbye..

she twirls her hair around her fingers
giving off those awkward signals
as hes thinking to himself
when to touch, and when to control himself

she looks at him with her dark brown eyes
hes sees a pool of paradise
theyre playing with fire in their hands
shell never meet his demands

(chorus)

as night falls shes growing weery
and she can see the want in his eyes
he reaches out to hold her..
only to find that shes not there

(chorus)

and he wonders why shes run away
she knows she played her game okay
hell think about her three or four more nights
she'll know that hes alright

but he'll never let her go like she can,
and never miss him so
cuz his lips will always long for hers again
but she wont be affected,
she knows just how to play with men

(chorus to fade)

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the fire blows smoke in my eyes
unveiling my evil disguise
im living in a little peice of you
as the smoke leaves a trail in the black of the sky
theres still a spot for you and i

where the sky meets the water,
where the trees meet the clouds
the news is out, theyve heard it all
they know more than i do
cuz they were there and all..

sometimes its like i never felt
the touch of your skin
without feeling lonely
or empty within
its like when you take me
you steal me away
and its nothing but a dream
and im just a feind..

(chorus)
its all in the game
read the instructions
im lost, i need to find a way back
down the trail of lonliness
help me home..
i dont wanna be alone...

we all know what you mean
but nobody wants to believe
that they could be at stake
that theyre lives could feel this earth quake

as the fire nips at the tips of their toes
theyre evil and theyre spitting out fire
stand behind the wire dont you get hurt
im shockingly empty, your heavy by far for sure

sometimes its like i never felt
the touch of your skin
without feeling lonely
or empty within
its like when you take me
you steal me away
and its nothing but a dream
and im just a feind..

(chorus)

your used up and jaded
im getting a little bit bored if you care at all
i hear your footsteps pounding down the hall
your as void as i with your vodka in hand..
ready to make your demands

eveyone knows your a coward
you drink away all your pain..
but it all comes tumbling down
as the earth starts to quake beneath my feet
im losing ground, and the smoke gets in my eyes

nobody understands.. nobody knows what to say
nobody knows what i mean.. nobody knows how to be
anything other than pain, anything other than hate
its all understood.. because..
the smoke gets in my eyes
but theres still room for you and i..

3 .from you. | .to me.