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xonixieox

:: 2004 27 September :: 9.05pm
:: Music: shadow x ashlee simpson

so.. so much to write about..

yesterday was my first day of work.. it wasnt all that horrible..i bagged for meg and fenelly so it was all good...

sleep over at kims last night before the game! me and traci stayed up soooooooooo late becasue she kept laughing and i couldnt stop hickuping!! hahhahahahahaahha it was so funny! we went out onto the roof with anna and hung out and just talked for a little while! it was wicked fun! kimmi has a new kitten named "regan" but its true name is hallion staleiooonn.. lmao rigghhht kimmi? lol it is the cutest fucking cat ever!!


Hallion



ya so i "talked" to emme but it wasnt really talking cuz we just commented to eachother in her journal but i really hope everything is all set and better cuz i love that child!


...

ok so fucking today at lunch joe ripped my 5 and the lunch lady was like "ahhh these girls shouldnt let the boys take their money and rip it they should hold it" and she fuckin thought i wouldnt hear her.. i was like escuse me i had it in my hand and he ripped it out! what a dtupid cunt it was so funny! shes a fucking lunch money.. that 5 was proboly what she makes a fucking day!! lmao!!!

ok thats all for now


leave comments if you love me!

-Nik

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cocopuff

:: 2004 27 September :: 6.46am
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: none...

hello

lol its been a while since i wrote in here again... seems like i writein it like once a mounth... but i decided to say hello bright and early.. now im off to school

.to me.


silentcriez

:: 2004 26 September :: 2.38pm

2 new songs..

http://www.soundclick.com/util/streamM3U.m3u?ID=1310785&q=Hi

*dedicated tears*

i have, i have thought about you.. (x4)

its been a few weeks since youve been gone
i miss you, i need you, your scents still here so strong
i know that you are happier this way
what wouldve happened if things were different that day

(chorus)
i have, i have thought about you..
ive tried to give all my love to you
in my dreams i think all about you
my hearts filled with tears all for you

i heard your laugh the other day
listened close as it slowly faded away
i shed a tear each and every reoccurring day
they all begin and end the same dissorienting way

(chorus x2)

your all i need.. all i need
lemme hear you say
your all i need.. all i need
please just stay
your better off this way

http://www.soundclick.com/util/streamM3U.m3u?ID=1413788&q=Hi

*last night*

you had me for 11 weeks
you stole my heart in just one beat
i tried to keep you from yourself
your nothing without my help

i took your words to be complete
they werent shit not near concrete
melting under heavy pressure
why are we appart when we could be together?

(chorus)
wont you please help me
i need you
like you needed me
and i want you to know
that i love you
through everything
i still love you

you took me deep that night
all that was wrong felt so right
no need to question what i felt
once we touched my heart began to melt

my sense of fear intoxicated
in search for love.. but always hated
it felt right then, with eyes so true
that it must be this it must be you

(chorus)

(bridge)
i'm going crazy.. cuz i need you here
thoughts of others disapear
bite me soft and carress my tounge
feel so old as the night is young
intimate sensations..chills down my spine
sips of hypnotique allow us to unwind..

(chorus x 3)

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krazykelc1

:: 2004 26 September :: 9.59am
:: Mood: good
:: Music: Hilary Duff `Fly

Update...

Yesterday before I left for work Joey came to see me for like 5 minutes but then he had to go cause I was late.. n then I guess he came to visit me at work but I was upstairs doing orientation, and no one bothered to tell me he stopped by when I came down, lol. So then he showed up and I was like wow how random. So he called me when I got out of work, and then I went to the mall to get new noserings and Friendly's - and the fuckers didnt even give me my grilled cheese... just a big container of fries, WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT. So last night was pretty bad. Ohh but it gets worse.. when I went to clean the new nosering in the sink I accidently dropped it down the drain, HAH can you say DUMB. yeah, so then I had to put some weird rainbow tinted colored one in but that's okay, that's what I get for being a complete idiot. So then after hours of stress, I got a ride to Joey's nanas because my brother was driving up to Hollywood video with his friends. It was fun, I love his family their so Italian and so nice :-)

Last night was Goncha's birthday party - but I couldn't go cuz I got home so late and my mom wouldn't drive me. Then I had that whole issue with my nose ring that took me about an hour to fix. The little diamond in the nosestud fell out and the inside started turning all green n shit it was gross... n the hole was all swollen and it started to bleed when I took it out :[ meh

But anyways today after work I'm going to Party City to get her some balloons and then tonight I'm dying Meg's hair for her-it's gonna be fun :-)





LEAVE COMMENTS! I'm not even kidding people, this thing is so boring and if you all like reading it so much you better start leaving comments or else I'm gonna get rid of it again!

6 .from you. | .to me.


xonixieox

:: 2004 26 September :: 8.36am
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: what would you do x City high

fuck life
fuck friends.. fuck bean.. fuck everyone.. FUCK life!

im so sick of this shit.. all i tried to do was stick up for a friend.. (everyone knows what im talking about) and so now its fucking MY FAULT??? thats fucking bull shit and if you were really a good friend that you would not be blaming me for this shit... ahhhhhh whatever FUCK YOU!!! im done with you and your shit! i cant even fucking take this anymore..

this is fucking rediculus... next itme anyone needs help or is in trouble or anything dont even bother looking to me becasue im done with helping people out and sticking up for them becasue this shit is fucked up and i fucking hate everyone..

never again...

i dont even know why i keep a fucking journal... its fucked up anyways.. just like my life!!

fuck this im done with you







... well yesterday i had a little fun... sort of..



- Nik :( :( :(

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krazykelc1

:: 2004 25 September :: 9.41am
:: Mood: tired

last night


[pic `1]



[pic `2]

.to me.


krazykelc1

:: 2004 24 September :: 3.14pm
:: Mood: THRILLED
:: Music: none

yeaaaah
I'm trippin face tonight ha haaa :-D

.to me.


silentcriez

:: 2004 24 September :: 12.13am

i needed that :-)

.to me.


krazykelc1

:: 2004 23 September :: 10.17pm

Pictures from nikkie's camera <3

[andrea nikkie n` me]





[nikkie n` me - cause we're cool hah]





[me andrea n` jimmy]





[nikkie n`me]





[liz kate n` me - w. my eyes closed hah]





[manda me n` nikkie]





[manda sarah n` nikkie]





[sarah n` emme]





[tracii n` me]





[tracii n` nikkie]


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krazykelc1

:: 2004 23 September :: 10.09pm
:: Mood: stoned
:: Music: Hilary Duff `Fly

Welcome back. :-)
Any moment everything can change
Feel the wind on your shoulder
For a minute all the world can wait
Let go of your yesterday

Can you hear it calling?
Can you feel it in your soul?
Can you trust this longing and take control?

[CHORUS]
Fly
Open up the part of you that wants to hide away
You can shine
Forget about the reasons why you can
deny and start to try 'cus it's your time, time to fly

All your worries, leave them somewhere else
Find a dream you can follow
Reach for something when there's
nothing left and the world's feeling hollow

Can you hear it calling?
Can you feel it in your soul?
Can you trust this longing and take control?

[CHORUS]
Fly
Open up the part of you that wants to hide away
You can shine
Forget about the reasons why you can
deny and start to try 'cus it's your time, time to fly

And when your down and feeling low,
just want to run away
Trust yourself and don't give up
You know you better than anyone else

Any moment everything can change
Feel the wind on your shoulder
For a minute all the world can wait
Let go of yesterday

[CHORUS]
Fly
Open up the part of you that wants to hide away
You can shine
Forget about the reasons why you can
deny and start to try 'cus it's your time, time to fly

Fly
Forget about the reasons why you
can deny and start to try 'cus it's your time, time to fly

Any moment everything can change





yeah I love that song. anyways I found this layout and fell in love :-) so I decided to start updating again cause people have asked. If you all don't leave me oodles of comments though I'll get bored of this again, so make sure you do!

much love

.to me.


xonixieox

:: 2004 22 September :: 6.41pm

wow i havnt written in a while! ok so i got a job at stop and shop for weekends until i go back to the beach! which by the way i cant wait for! ya so im also wicked excited for my sweet 16! and my liscence! i start drivers ed and work boththis saturday!! yipieeeee!!

ok well i have bee ntaking a CRAZY amount of pictures lately so heres the link so you can just look at them rather then me putting them all on here!


PICTURES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


ok thats all for now!

-Nik

.to me.


silentcriez

:: 2004 21 September :: 9.18pm
:: Music: weak x jojo

im so sick of everybody starting shit.. i think its funny that people have to make shit up to make themselves feel better.. i mean honestly if you have such an issue why not leave it alone.. i mean ive tried to be as mature as possible and just stay away from ppl i have issues with cuz im sick and tired of all teh drama and all the rumors and shit.. its all so gay that everyhitng is soooo far from the truth

but w/e im not gonna sweat it.. i know the truth..

ugh this winter is gonna be just like last winter.. i just hope i wont be depressed.. i dont think i will but.. idk as soon as the holidays come up.. itll hit me how alone i am..

but im glad that im becoming better friends with goncha and steph and jessy cuz theyre soooo nice i dont know why i was ever not friends with them! <33

sarah i love you so much you have no idea :( you amaze me and im always here for you

<3 Manda

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silentcriez

:: 2004 19 September :: 5.45pm

another song...to this beat
http://www.soundclick.com/util/streamM3U.m3u?ID=1413820&q=Hi

its called shit talkers bahahha

i heard you talking shit the other day
is that the only thing that you can say
you walk around like your something else
when your the one with wrists full of welts

talking shit to hide the lies
making up your alibies
someday someone will have enough
of you thinking your so tough

im speaking out now
taking one for this quiet crowd
they have seen enough
it is just way too much

acting like its just a phase
wasting all your yesterdays
get a life, forget your crew
grow up and just be you

------------------------
(chorus)
i am sick and tired
of dealing with you
this is just a small town
we dont need no crews

all i have to say is grow up

we arent that tough
you arent that cool
this isnt prison
its just high school

all you gotta do is grow up
--------------------------

im through with all your dirty lies
all you do is dramatize
talking shit to make a scene
as if i care whose tits youve seen

taking pills of ecstacy
spending all your money on weed
shooting up on heroin
how far can you stick your needle in?

im speaking out now
im taking one for this whole town
sick of all the stupid lies
breaking down your family ties

acting like its just a phase
wasting all your yesterdays
get a life, forget your crew
grow up and just be you

(chorus)

-bridge-
looking at your empty face
dirty looks all over the place
people dont care that youve got no class
take one for the team and shove it up your fucking ass

(chorus)

maybe now you understand
are you ready to be man?
get a life, and forget your crew?
grow up and just be you?

.to me.


silentcriez

:: 2004 19 September :: 12.59am

BlckTangldHrt35x: he can destroy me tho
BlckTangldHrt35x: everybody can
BlckTangldHrt35x: because i care so much about what people think
BlckTangldHrt35x: and i put so much trust into people because i think theyre one way
BlckTangldHrt35x: and then they prove me otherwise.. and i get broken
BlckTangldHrt35x: cuz im just searching for somebody wholl be there to catch me like they promise to..

----

baby i dont wanna care
that she was on your mind
or that you think
about her all the time

i dont wanna know
that she still sweats you bad
or baby that you were
only the best she ever had

i dont wanna think about
what you two did last night
or whether you were
wrong and i was right

(chorus)
all i wanna know is
if your a waste of my time
all i need to know is
what is yours and what is mine

i dont wanna sit here wishing
for things i cant possess
wont you tell me straight up
your lies are all a mess..

i dont wanna stay up
crying every night
living for tomorrows
cuz today was never right..

i dont want to look at you
and think what could have been
ive thought about you long enough
your touch to me's a sin

(chorus)

i dont wanna hear about
how great your lives will be
or how it was her eyes you saw
when you were kissing me..

i dont wanna be the
only one whose left alone
the one who is forgotten
life spiraling out of control

i dont want to be the one
whose lonely in the end
the one whose wish was never heard
before she went to bed

(chorus)

i dont wanna be the one
swayed by all your pretty words
or the one who needs your lips to breath
when our hearts are only heard

i dont wanna be with you
when you look straight through me
spitting out your pretty words
its her you see not me..

i will always be the one
who gave all that i am
and youll always be the guy
who never gave a damn..

.to me.


xonixieox

:: 2004 18 September :: 9.39am
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: janet and traci talking?

MORE PICTURES!
pictures of everything...

bus to the varsity game!


amanda looking quite lovely



kimmi,Traci,amanda



me and amanda



Janet and Fifi



Coach!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



Traci raping amanda



me,kimmi, and traci



kimmi and trace



sexy janet!


pics from after the game!


trace and jan jan in the car



anthony



kevin


ok thats all for now!

<3 NikkiE

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