silentcriez
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2004 18 July :: 12.22am
I gotta new life
You would hardly recognize me I'm so glad
How could a person like me care for you
Why do I bother
When you're not the one for me
Oooo, is enough, enough
I saw the sign and it opened up my eyes I saw the sign
Life is demanding without understanding
I saw the sign and it opened up my eyes I saw the sign
No one's gonna drag you up to get into the light where you belong
But where do you belong
Under the clear moon
For so many years I've wondered who you are
How can a person like you bring me joy
Under the pale moon
Where I see a lot of stars
Oooooo Is enough, enough
I saw the sign...
oooh Oh oooh
(Instrumental)
I saw the sign and it opened up my mind
And I am happy now living without you
I've left you, ooohhh
I saw the sign and it opened up my eyes I saw the sign
No one's gonna drag you up to get into the light where you belong
I saw the sign - I saw the sign
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krazykelc1
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2004 17 July :: 6.03pm
This is to a boy
who got inside
my head..
with all the
Amazing
things he did..
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krazykelc1
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2004 15 July :: 11.49pm
:: Mood: happier
:: Music: Vertical Horizon-Best I ever had
I wished upon a star tonight....
..and it came true..
sorta
I wish it would always be this easy.. just wish on the first star you see and everything will suddenly get better.. but it's not always like that. I can't depend on such things to make my mistakes vanish.. I need to learn to think before I say certain things that could hurt another person... and even hurt me more....
::thankful::
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silentcriez
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2004 15 July :: 11.16pm
I want to love somebody
I hear you need somebody to love
Oh I want to love somebody
I hear you're looking
for somebody to love
'Cause you need to be back
in the arms of a good friend
and I need to be back
in the arms of a girlfriend
I didn't know nobody
and then I saw you coming my way
Oh I didn't know nobody
and then I saw you coming my way
Don't you need to be back
in the arms of a good friend?
Oh 'cause honey believe me
I'd sure love to call you
my girlfriend
[solo]
Don't you need to be back
in the arms of a good friend?
Oh 'cause honey believe me
I'd sure love to call you
my girlfriend
'Cause you
got a good thing going baby
You only need somebody to love
Oh you got a good thing going
You're only looking
for someone to love
'Cause you need to get back
in the arms of a good friend
And I'm never gonna set you free
No I'm never gonna set you free
---
its 3 in teh morning
cant get you off my mind
theres a strange satisfaction
when you cross it
blinded by you
and its something you do
that makes me fall..
i get weak in teh knees
i cant hardly speak
the look in your eyes
sends chills down my spine
and the warmth in the air
it shows that you care
and i thank my lucky stars
that you, are my eveything
youll always be my everything
deep inside my heart
youll always be with me
when we are appart
and my heart ois yours
forever and more
i will give you all you want
i love you, i love you
tell me you love me too
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krazykelc1
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2004 14 July :: 11.59pm
:: Mood: ughhh I miss him
:: Music: Never Really Was.... -Mario Winans
I woke up this morning thinking you were still there... then I realized it wasn't all a dream :[
I don't know what to think I don't know what to believe...
I need answers I need to find out how and why it's coming down like this
It's really bugging me that I haven;t talked to him... so obv he doesn't care enough or else I wouldn't be sitting here wondering why this is happening
All I know is it's no suprise...
he never did stay <|3
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silentcriez
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2004 14 July :: 2.57pm
if you wanna leave
i won't beg you to stay
and if you gotta go darling
maybe it's better that way
i'm gonna be strong
i'm gonna do fine
don't worry about this heart of mine
just walk out that door
yea see if i care
go on and go now but
don't turn around
cause you're gonna see my heart breaking
don't turn around
i don't want you seeing me cry
just walk away
it's tearing me apart
that you're leaving
i'm letting you go
but i won't let you know
i won't miss your arms around me
holding me tight
if you ever think about me
just know that i'll be alright
i'm gonna be strong
i'm gonna do fine
don't worry about this heart of mine
i know i'll survive
sure i'll make it through
and i'll even learn to live without you
don't turn around
cause you're gonna see my heart breaking
don't turn around
i don't want you seeing me cry
just walk away
it's tearing me apart
that you're leaving
i'm letting you go
but i won't let you know
i wish i could scream out loud
that i love you
i wish i could say to you
don't go
as he walks away he feels the pain getting strong
people in your life they don't know what's going on
too proud to turn around he's gone
don't turn around
cause you're gonna see my heart breaking
don't turn around
i don't want you seeing me cry
just walk away
it's tearing me apart
that you're leaving
i'm letting you go
but i won't let you know
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im starring in your eyes
and you look into mine
and i fall deeper for you
i am blind
by the light shining in your eyes
its shining down for me
(chorus)
when you hold me
everything just fades away
i am held by you
and everything just goes my way
i wanna say so many things to you
i wanna tell you that i dont love you
i wanna tell you i wont stand for this no more
but when you look at me
the words just wont speak
i stare at you
and you are looking at me too
we catch a glimpse of eachothers stare
were playing mind games in the sun
and i just wonder whats begun
intoxication melts me into you
ive fallen under i dont know what to do
you make me think things i dont want to
(chorus)
when you hold me
everything just fades away
i am held by you
and everything just goes my way
i wanna say so many things to you
i wanna tell you that i dont love you
i wanna tell you i wont stand for this no more
but when you look at me
the words just wont speak
if you love me
why dont you stay here
if you love me
then why is she here
i dont know what it is you think im gonna do
wont wait here forever for you?
i just wanna know
what the hell you expect from me
someone whose gonna be
right there for you
on every call
just something to be there for you
i wont be the one you fall back to
(bridge)
you say u love me
and youll never let me go
you tell me taht you need me
im everything you know
if you love me why dont you just show me
and be with me
(chorus)
cause i care for you
you can cry to me
ill be there listening to every beat
and i will catch your broken heart
when shes torn it appart
(chorus)
how can you love her when you share all your dreams with me
how can you tell her that you love her
when i know everything about you
i love you.. i love you..i love you
but your gonna have to choose
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im hanging on your words
every warm summer night
im lookign in your eyes
and this feelings more than right
i used to have
such immature emotions for you
but now their acting up again
and i know its true
im hanging on your kiss everynight
im hanging on your words
just to feel alright
they say "go ahead"
and "i could have you if i want"
but i dont think you really like me
you just like to taunt
do you really like those ugly girls your hanging with
is just just for the sex?
or the hell of it
and whose that girl your giving all your love to
bet it isnt true...
im hanging on your kiss every night
losing sight falling into your eyes
this heat it overwhelms me
and im falling int you
against everything that i wnat
and every moral ive been taught
but for you i feel i can bend the rules
summer lovin'
ends all too quickly
will we have to end when summer comes to close
will i always hold you in my heart?
will you feel the way that i feel?
or is it just a game to take my heart
i just want you to know you had it already..
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krazykelc1
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2004 14 July :: 12.50am
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: 97.7
tonight sucked.....
well tonight went from boring and relaxing to dissapointing and just fucked up...
it appears that two of my "friends" told kim I called her a slut n shit which is messed up cause if you ask anybody they'll say I would never say nething like that about her. ya we had problems n shit in the past but that's wen I didn't know her.. I love her I'm not about to call one of my girls a slut whether ppl wanna say so or not.
ya well thats the fucked up part... n it was also disapointing to hear that my so-called guy friends would try & start shit between me n her
then I got kinda upset when I heard Robbie said he hated me n blah blah wat the fuck
hah that isn't too hard to believe though it's Robbie were talking about...
ohhh well I'm gonna take some advice from a former friend n just say fuck it cause I'm not about to ruin a Summer over this shit so I'm gonna try real hard to just stay up.. n hopefully things will fall back into place within time... it'll kill me if we all stop talkin... I was way too close to losing Jimmy over this whole thing n I'm not gonna let that happen again this year....... no way
They saY gOod thingS dOn't lasT....
I wouldn't argue :[
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2004 13 July :: 4.34pm
Definitely! Someones gotta crush on you! It's
Obvious that this guy likes you, so stop
doubting it! If hes a little shy and hasnt said
anything, maybe you should be the one to make
the first move (If you feel the same way of
course). If you dont feel the same way, and he
has already told you that he likes you, tell
him how you feel in the nicest way possible,
after all he was brave enough to tell you.
Does He Like You?
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wild fashions. Youre most at ease when you've
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ball because you make sure you're always number
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Your virtues: Confidence, fun nature,
sociability.
Your flaws: Loudness, jealous tendency, need for
attention..
You almost certainly wouldn't like this game,
because it's not your thing:
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What kind of girl are you?
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2004 13 July :: 3.11pm
me and katie are making a sex mix of all sexual songs.. comment if you have one we forgot lol
and if you want a copy its $1 lol
1. turn me on - kevin little
2. splash waterfalls - ludacris
3. Fantasy - ludacris
4. i can tell - 504 boys
5. ohh na na na na - lil jon n the east side boys
6. dirty little girl - twiztid
7. old school pervert - icp
8. tease - b2k
9. Slow motion - guvenile
10. freak me - silk
11. spin the bottle--twiztid ft icp
12. nothing in this world - avant
13. ill make love u to - boyz 2men
14. red light special - boyz2men
15. on top of me - tyrese
16. carress me down - sublime
17. sex - ginuwine
18. in those jeans - ginuwine
19. majik stick--lil kim ft 50 cent
20. peaches and cream - 112
21. sit on acid - lords of acid
22. we can do it anywhere - 112
23. how many licks - lil kim ft. 112
24. i wanna be bad - willa ford
25. push it - salt n peppa
26. freak a leek - petey pablo
27. doin it - ll cool j
28. Closer- Nine Inch Nails
29. Anytime, Anyplace - Janet Jackson
30. Sway - Bic Runga - good emotional sex song
31. rough sex - lords of acid
32. Pony - ginuwine
33. slow - kylie minogue
34. I Wanna Sex You Up - Color Me Badd
35. sex and candy - marcy's playground
:-)
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2004 13 July :: 3.00pm
:: Mood: contemplative
:: Music: none
Summer Lovin'
Once school starts again... everything will be the same as it was last year and I can't stop myself from thinking about it. :-\
97%
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silentcriez
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2004 13 July :: 2.35am
:: Music: thats me x dark lotus
what a dilema...
i decided im gonna make a new sn but i made up so many and i cant choose one im gonna list all of em in here and you ppl really need to comment and choose which one you guys like better
and if you think of one put it up here too haha
ToxicRain35x
TwiztidPleasure35x
EmptyEyez35x
LyingEyez35x
BlckTangldHrt35x
HollowImitationz35
HeyJealousy35x
NbdysHero35x
TrueIllusions35x
MelancholyTearz35x
GoodMourning35x
MidnightMelancholy
BlackMajik35x
AutumToAshes35x
OpaqueDreamz35x
SpellBound35x
Wallflower35x
ImminentGlow35x
Aphrodisiac35x
Cancerous35x
LostInfatuation35x
CrypticSins35x
BrokenEchos35x
ShatteredTearz35x
Dissonance35x
ForgedEuphoria35x
HalfBaked35x
Emotionless35x
LastDeciet35x
CrypticReality35x
RealisticFacism35x
well that was a hell of a lot haha i hope to pick one soon :-)
shit i thought of 31 sns
bold = favored sns
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2004 12 July :: 2.10am
:: Mood: restless
:: Music: Matchbook Romance-Tiger Lily
It's not about keeping your promises, it's about following your heart.
that movie has really been making me think..
"I think the greatest loves are those that have overcome obstacles because they have withstood those things that life can throw at them."
with every great love comes a great story
-- The Notebook
I am nothing special; of this I am sure. I am a common man with common thoughts, and I've led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten, but I've loved another with all my heart and soul, and to me, this has always been enough.
--Noah
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2004 11 July :: 1.15pm
please love me or i'll be gone
im standing here
shaking in the doorway
im standing here
bareing all i have to hide
walking in behind me
theres a shadow hanging over me
and i feel it...feel it
watch me as i pack my bags
i wanna just get up and leave
watch me as i say goodbye
down on my knees
stay with me forever
beating in my heart
underneath this starlit sky
were never appart
im crying here
using sleeves as tissues
im crying here
no longer will your phoney lines ring true to me
im walking away from here
theres a shadow hanging over me
and i feel it... feel it..
watch me as i pack my bags
i wanna just get up and leave
watch me as i say goodbye
down on my knees
stay with me forever
beating in my heart
underneath this starlit sky
were never appart
lost in trasnlation to you
lost in every broken heart you never knew
dying in anothers arms tonight
crying for another soul tonight
and ill wonder how youll be when were appart
wonder if youll have a lonely broken heart
watch me as i pack my bags
i wanna just get up and leave
watch me as i say goodbye
down on my knees
stay with me forever
beating in my heart
underneath this starlit sky
were never appart
im lost in here
dont know where to go right now
im lost in here
my eyes are blindfolded
walking in behind me
theres a shadow hanging over me
and i feel it...
do you feel it like i do..
- me
we drive tonight,
and you are by my side.
We're talking about our lives,
like we've known each other forever.
the time flies by,
with the sound of your voice.
its close to paradise,
with the end surely near.
if i could only stop the car
and hold onto you,
and never let go...
i'll never let go.
as we round the corner
to your house
you turned to me and said,
"i'll be going through withdrawl of you for this one night we have spent."
and, i want to speak these words
but i guess i'll just bite my tongue,
and accept "someday, somehow"
as the words that we'll hang from.
and i (i..), i don't want to speak these words.
cause i (cause i..), i don't want to make things anyworse.
[x2]
why does tonight, have to end?
why don't we hit restart,
and pause it at our favorite parts.
we'll skip the goodbyes.
if i had it my way,
i'd turn the car around and runaway,
just you and i.
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I'm lying alone
With my head on the phone
Thinking of you till it hurts
I know you're hurt too
But what else can we do?
Tormented and torn apart
I wish I could carry
your smile in my heart
For times when my life seems so low
It would make me believe
What tomorrow could bring
When today doesn't really know
i did it
i successfully hurt another person who only wanted the best for me..only wanted to see me smile.. someone who called me beautiful in sweatpants and no makeup.. straight out of bed...someone who just called to say hi and talk about nothing for hours and hours.. someone who i could talk to about anything and hed be there to comfort me.. someone who could make me smile.. and also get me angry.. someone who waited for me.. someone who lived for me... and i ruined it
i lost it again.. and am a hypocrite of my own gospel...
i preach every day about how ppl who hurt me and i hate them.. and then i go about my day just trying to make everyone feel the happiness i long for.. and all i can do is make someone else feel liek shit.. the person who makes me feel like im perfect.. i make them want to die do you know what its like to have someone tell you that you make them want to die.. keep in mind youw ere trying to make this person happy.. and i failed cuz thats what im good at.. fucking failing...
Haiz n Daiz: i wont stop loveing you. you saved me form who i was, you were my reason. and for that i owe you everything i have.. im sorry i bothered you today.
Vanished 1 2 2 0: im always like that...i find something amazing that i know i need and i know is perfect for me.. but im afraid to take the risk.. im afraid to get hurt.. im afraid of you leaving me.. im afraid of getting too attactched that i cant be ok on my own.. im afraid of commitment.. even though i want it so badly.. becuz with a promise like that theres more ways for me to screw up.. and thats what im good at.. screwing up.. and making the people who i devoted my time to trying to make smile i just make then hurt
Haiz n Daiz: what did you want me to do amanda? you were hurting me, maybe you couldnt see it but everyone else did... i wasnt going to wait around for something if it wasnt going to happen just to get hurt even more
Haiz n Daiz: i still love you even if you like it or not
Haiz n Daiz: and i care
Haiz n Daiz: i think about you all the time
Haiz n Daiz: i just didnt see why youd do what you did
Haiz n Daiz: so i left
Haiz n Daiz: out of everyone i knew
Haiz n Daiz: i trusted you the most with my emotions
Haiz n Daiz: it hurt me to know you didnt know what you wanted
Haiz n Daiz: after all thw times you said you wanted to be with me
Haiz n Daiz: its like you changed your mind
Haiz n Daiz: and i felt like shit
Haiz n Daiz: the only thing i could think of was to leave and let you find out what you wantr
Haiz n Daiz: i never ment to hurt you
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i hate myself.. and everything ive done...
im sorry i failed you sean
im sorry i hurt you
im sorry i fucked up
im sorry i ever messed up your life
im sorry...
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silentcriez
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2004 11 July :: 12.14am
:: Music: at seventeen x janis ian
i learned the truth at 15...
my favorite song ever!
i went to see the notebook again today cuz kelsey and katie never saw it ./. lizzy left yesterday for maine for 2 WHOLE WEEKS how will i ever survive without her :(
im home now so im tired ill write more later
I learned the truth at seventeen
That love was meant for beauty queens
And high school girls with clear skinned smiles
Who married young and then retired.
The valentines I never knew
The Friday night charades of youth
Were spent on one more beautiful
At seventeen I learned the truth.
And those of us with ravaged faces
Lacking in the social graces
Desperately remained at home
Inventing lovers on the phone
Who called to say come dance with me
and murmured vague obscenities
It isn't all it seems
At seventeen.
A brown eyed girl in hand me downs
Whose name I never could pronounce
said, Pity please the ones who serve
They only get what they deserve.
The rich relationed hometown queen
Married into what she needs
A guarantee of company
And haven for the elderly.
Remember those who win the game
Lose the love they sought to gain
Indebentures of quality
And dubious integrity.
Their small town eyes will gape at you
in dull surprise when payment due
Exceeds accounts received
At seventeen.
To those of us who know the pain
Of valentines that never came,
And those whose names were never called
When choosing sides for basketball.
It was long ago and far away
The world was younger than today
And dreams were all they gave for free
To ugly duckling girls like me.
We all play the game and when we dare
To cheat ourselves at solitaire
Inventing lovers on the phone
Repenting other lives unknown
That call and say, come dance with me
and murmur vague obscenities
At ugly girls like me
At seventeen.
note to self: write andre a letter
andre kolarevic
21 ricecorner road
brookfeild ma 01506
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2004 10 July :: 11.16pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: JKwon-Hood Hop
The Notebook
is suuch a good movie.. I saw it for the first time today. I cried my eyes out though they were right when they said it would make you think alot about your own life
I came out of the theater with my eyes all red and puffy from crying so much... I've never cried like that over a movie. But I guess for once I can somewhat relate to what they're talking about.. and it made me really sad.
But anyways its an awesome movie-I recommend you all go see it.. even the guys. It's worth every penny.
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