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2004 3 July :: 12.29am
:: Mood: restless
:: Music: Blink182-Down
bah wtf
I am mad once again...my day was going fine til I got high n for some reason it ruined everything..
I smoked a half pack of cigarettes in the last 2 and a half hours cuz im having like a panic attack or something.
and now I'm eating like a dozen ice pops... I need to calm down and go to sleep or something and stop trying to THINK.
I'm out
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silentcriez
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2004 2 July :: 2.16pm
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: fairy tales x jojo
go me :-)
i just got photoshop :-)
thank you gabe
haha im having so much fun with it i made my background and my icon im obsessed with it :-) haha ask me if youw ant me to make you something cuz i will im having fun with it haha im such a geek
well im gonna go work out and then get ready to meet up with my lizzzy and kelsey
mwahhhhhhhhhhhh
<3 Manda
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krazykelc1
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2004 1 July :: 10.55pm
:: Mood: satisfied
:: Music: punk rock princess
everyone reading my latest entries is gonna think I have fricken bipolar or something...
well I went to go meet robbie on elmwood @ like.. 9:30 cause I needed to get everything out that I wrote in that last entry.. it's not doing any good rambling on in my journal about it if he doesn't know..
but anyways I feel so much better now, I really needed to let all of that out.
I just dunno though I can't trust him or anyone anymore, too much shit has happened thats made me lose faith in everything I once had
krazykelc 1: i am the kind of person who always tells theirself to take every chance at happyness though
krazykelc 1: like i would rather take a chance n get hurt
krazykelc 1: like i have before.. then go thru life wondering wat would have happened if i didnt do it
x we4k inside: yeah i no :-\ me too
krazykelc 1: no matter how much i hurt in the end..
krazykelc 1: cuz i know i will always recover
krazykelc 1: and i will still have memories
x we4k inside: aw :-(
x we4k inside: yeah exactly
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2004 1 July :: 8.39pm
:: Mood: angry
:: Music: Jagged Edge-Walked outta heaven
bahhhhhhh!
god damn..
why am I so mad, he didn't do anything..
but it's the fact that he doesn't fucking do anything that makes me fucking pissed. He knows I love him it's not like I have to prove somethin to him...
he's the one who needs to show me that he means what he says
and the fact that he wastes his time telling me stuff that is obviously bs.. n then cant even talk to me about it in person without me dragging him away to do so?
ahhhhhh I can't take it anymore, if you loved me you would know how to act around me.. so obv YOU DON'T
you wanna know why I act like a bitch? it's cause you're an asshole..
hah yet I still love you anyway
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krazykelc1
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2004 1 July :: 11.29am
:: Mood: frustrated
:: Music: Matchboox Romance-Tiger Lily
I don't want to speak these words. cause I, don't want to make things anyworse.
we drive tonight,
and you are by my side.
We're talking about our lives,
like we've known each other forever.
the time flies by,
with the sound of your voice.
its close to paradise,
with the end surely near.
and if I could only stop the car
and hold onto you,
and never let go...
I'll never let go.
as we round the corner
to your house
you turned to me and said,
"I'll be going through withdrawl of you for this one night we have spent."
and, I want to speak these words
but I guess I'll just bite my tongue,
and accept "someday, somehow"
as the words that we'll hang from.
and I... don't want to speak these words.
cause I, don't want to make things anyworse.
why does tonite, have to end?
why don't we hit restart,
and pause it at our favorite parts.
we'll skip the goodbyes.
if I had it my way,
I'd turn the car around and runaway,
just you and I.
and I... don't want to speak these words.
cause I, don't want to make things anyworse.
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silentcriez
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2004 30 June :: 1.17pm
i stare into your empty eyes
reflecting only me
i watch as they glide across my skin
and onto my glistening chest
peach skin melting into every one of your desires
every one of my emotions boil over
into this lust in the air
consuming all of me
breath it in and hold me
touch me, kiss me
kill me sweetly with your stare
those eyes that peirce my skin
looking beyond my clothing
sinking far beyond the boundries of cotton
of lace
of sheets
shoot me with your venom
consume me with a kiss
and carress my smooth creamy skin
with one touch
your kiss it drives me crazy
and we melt between the sheets
reliving every reoccuring night
mirroring every emotion spilt onto paper
caught in a moment in time
in a picture
in a memory
of only me
reflecting in your eyes
i really question if i should like a guy ever again.. its really a lost cause why dont we just skip past all the lies and get right to my heart breaking dammit. eveyrtime someonem is happy its just ripped away from them its not fair.. i mean i hate to be hurt but i hate seeing ppl i care about hurt more...
becuase i want so much to help them and i want so much just to make everything go away but theres nothing i can do or say that would ever make it right. i just wish that guys could see things from our point of view.. see what its like to get used, to get hurt, to get your heart broken.. it feels like shit and maybe if it happened tothem theyd understand... erg
i just pray that someday these little boys grow up.. and finally understand how to treat a girl, how to love, and how to handle a relationship.. i wonder if they ever will and if we will always be submissive to them and their wants.. and if we will ever stand up for ourselves.. i dont get it.. just quit hurting my friends... just grow up...
grrr
AbandonedApril35: i ahd the weirdesy dream
x we4k inside: about wat
AbandonedApril35: i had this dream that we were downtown except our downtown was much bigger and had a big waterfall and a bridge n stuff and we were walking around it and my dad bought us a handle of vodka so we were gonna drink it but didnt yet so we were walking around and then we decided we needed someplace to stay so we walked into hollys house and slept on her kitchen table lol and she woke up and saw us there and was like um what are you doing.. and then we left and ppl were looking for us becuz we had vodka and the cops were after us or something so we hid it somewhere and then i got separated from you guys and you were all ahead and in some big dome or like town hall thing and i somehow got the vodka back and climbed out hollys window and got to the townhall thing where u guys were and then i dont remember what happened
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2004 29 June :: 11.05pm
:: Mood: disappointed
there cant be any us if there cant be any trust
krazykelc 1: and i never thought they would endup like this i never thought he would ever love a person either.. til him and her were together and now that that has turned into this i dont know if i can put myself in that kind of position.. cuz one of the strongest relationships in my opinion is now going downhill.. there is just no hope for any1 else
krazykelc 1: she is hurting really bad now and i cant stand it because looking at her like this is just like looking into a mirror and seeing myself in a few months or WEEKS after he decides he doesnt "love" me anymore.
AbandonedApril35: idk
krazykelc 1: i am setting myself up for a heartbreak.
krazykelc 1: i cant do this to myself
My Piggy- I love you and I cant be happy if you arent. I swear to god only one of us can have what we want at a time... EVERY single time this shit happens its because one of our relationships ends... then the other starts up. But I really dont have faith in anything anymore after tonight. They are so much alike and they always will be.. I can't do this.
AbandonedApril35: guys r so gay
"It's so easy to believe someone when they're telling you EXACTLY what you want to hear.."
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2004 28 June :: 6.06pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: blah
blah blah
well i finnaly figured out howta get my icons onto here YAY! arent they pretty? well i'll add more lata.. they are bloced so leave a message if you want any of them!
well saturday was lizzys birthday and i had sooo much fun! when i got out of work i went right to amandas house.. where lizzy manda, kelsey jessie and katie were at! when i got there we had giant pixie sticks (my present to the girls until i can get any money) lol then we went into the HOT TUB!! hell ya! mandas dads girlfriend was there and she wasd nice... i like her... but i dont think manda does... but anyways... we had fun... we watched 50 first dates and me, lizzy, and manda were in TEARS! it was so funny tho! it was such a sad movie tho! ohhhhhhh .. then we tried to watch edward scizzor hands (or however you spell it) but then the "on demand was broken... but it was all good cuz lizzy called the cable guyt at lik 1 in the morning and he was hitting on her it was fucking awesome... everything was quet cuz we were trying to listen.. and then manda goes "want me to come over and check out your box"!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhahahahah it was sooooooo funny!
then we all fell asleep cuz we were pissed that the tv still didnt work!
then i went to my little cuzzins firts birthday party! it was soooo boring!
<3 NikkiE
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2004 27 June :: 10.22pm
:: Mood: :-\
:: Music: Jin-handz off
I'm sorry.....
I'm sorry for that... you just don't understand how much you make me worry, when I found out I was mad, then when you wouldn't admit it I was mad.. but the part that got to me was the fact that I'm going to be worrying myself sick wondering if you're ok or not every weekend you're not around here...
I'll talk to you soon about this, just not right now. I'm gonna think about this first like Amanda does.. before I freak out over something that can be talked over.....
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2004 27 June :: 6.40pm
:: Music: weak x jojo
Weak
VERSE 1:
I don't know what it is that you've done to me
But it's caused me to act in such a crazy way
Whatever it is that you do when you do what you're doing
It's a feeling that I want to stay
'Cuz my heart starts beating triple time
With thoughts of lovin' you on my mind
I can't figure out just what to do
When the cause and cure is you, you
CHORUS:
I get so weak in the knees
I can hardly speak, I lose all control
Then somethin' takes over me
In a daze, your love's so amazing
It's not a phase
I want you to stay with me, by my side
I swallow my pride
Your love is so sweet, it knocks me right off of my feet
Can't explain why your lovin' makes me weak
VERSE 2:
Time after time after time I've tried to fight it
But your love is strong, it keeps on holdin' on
Resistance is down when you're around, pride's fading
In my condition I don't want to be alone
'Cuz my heart starts beating triple time
With thoughts of lovin' you on my mind
I can't figure out just what to do
When the cause and cure is you, you
CHORUS
BRIDGE:
I've tried hard to fight it
No way can I deny it
Your love's so sweet
It knocks me off my feet
CHORUS
BRIDGE 2:
I get so weak
Blood starts racing through my veins
I get so weak
Boy it's somethin' I can't explain
I get so weak
Somethin' 'bout the way you do the things you're do-oo-oo-in'
Knocks me right off of my feet (off my feet)
Can't explain why your lovin' makes me weak (I get so)
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2004 26 June :: 1.42pm
:: Mood: siked
6/26/04 *
HaPpY BiRtHdAy Elizabeth Ann Ferraro !!
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2004 26 June :: 9.18am
:: Mood: good
:: Music: none
LIZZY!!!
YAYYYY today is lizzys birthday! i love her soooooo much! Happy birthday lizzy!
<3 NikkiE
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2004 26 June :: 1.46am
michaud815: HI
Vanished 1 2 2 0: your so cool
Vanished 1 2 2 0: :-)
michaud815: thats right
michaud815: and what!
Vanished 1 2 2 0: you know, i wish i could be as cool as you.. :-\
michaud815: THATS RIGHT
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2004 25 June :: 12.26am
Where is love?
Does it fall from skies above?
Is it underneat the willow tree
That I've been dream of?
Where is she?
Who I close my eyes to see?
Will I ever know the sweet "hello"
That's only meant for me?
Who can say where she may hide?
Must I travel far and wide?
'Til I am bedside the someone who
I can mean somethin to ...
Where...?
Where is love?
Who can say where...she may hide?
Must I travel...far and wide?
'Til I am beside...the someone who
I can mean...something to...
Where?
Where is love?
stop
quit telling me your loving me
wont be that girl your cheatin with
i wont be dealing with your games
tellin me your loving me
babe thats your claim to fame
u tell every girl that theyre eyes are shinier than most
but all youre thinking is whats underneath my clothes
(chorus)
baby quit telling me..
your just gonna break my heart
baby just leave her
if your so happy appart
and i will be so pleased with you
if youd get up and walk out
my heart is filled with hope underlined with doubt..
we shoulda been..
ohh hearts breakin and its hurting
you sliced deeper that time
wont be a sucker for candy
or your stupid rhymes
what she wont take you back?
what shes calling you wack?
take all that is coming cuz its your fault
and im not here no more
(chorus)
i think i found it
i think i hit the spot this time
your a face for sour eyes and your doing me in
i wanted to hold you all night
but boy that wouldnt be right
cuz youve been hitting on some other beauties booty
i wont be fallin for you
(chorus)
why couldnt you just see
that the girl you needed was me
a kiss to know its true
all it took was a kiss to know its you
and im finally free
from that spell you cast on me
im giving you away
and i pray my strength will stay
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2004 24 June :: 11.08pm
:: Mood: burnt out
The Bong Song
This thing right here, its letting all the people know
What burnouts talk about. You know, The Chronic...
Oo that buds look scandolous,
You hit it too hard you can't handle this,
So you smokin' that thing when you pass it to us,
With a look in your eyes so devious,
You inhale with all you got, suck it down hard til' your seeing dots,
And your body's on the ground but your mind is not,
Cause your livin' la vida smoke-ah
Now your high as a kite (kite, kite)
Been tokin' all night (night, night)
All night long (all night long)
Let me hit that bong, baby,
That bong bo-bong bong bong
I like to roll a blunt oo,
And smoke it in a pipe too,
but best of all,
is that bong bo-bong bong bong
You know you love that Canabis,
So pull up a chair and come smoke with us,
They call me Crisqo I can bake so much,
I like to hot box the two of us,
Pu-puff kids, til' its 4/20,
This stuff ain't cheap, I need more money,
Buy when I buy that green I got the best they got,
Cause I'm livin' la vida smoke-ah
Now I'm high as kite (kite, kite)
I been tokin' all night (night, night)
All night long (all night long)
Let me hit that bong, baby,
That bong bo-bong bong bong,
I like to roll a blunt oo,
And smoke it in a pipe too,
but best of all,
is that bong bo-bong bong bong.
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